:(

i love u like serious shit why do i love u.why u why u why!

something

ive confess

and she drew a line

it's better to gap my self from her

because im afraid of loosing her

its better for me to be a friend to her

than being nothing in her life

-ariff-

forgiveness is aint that easy

a friend that i mention yesterday text me early in the morning and ask me for a forgiveness.haih bukan sng nak forgive but in islam ckp kalau kita tak maafkan org tu dlm certain period kita yg berdosa..even though u have blurt everything out.it is still hard for me.so i need some gap i need some time.

things that shouldnt happen

never thought things will get this complicated.im not saying ive mess up my own life but ya i dont know how to express it here. as u can see in my previous post. there's a girl whom caught my heart but ive actually know that she just think of me as a friend. and this very day she knew that i like her and she did say she only want to be friends with me.im ok with it seriously. but the question now is.why must she distance her self from me.she said that she felt guilty making me fall for her. it's not her fault that i fell for her it's totally mine. do i have to say to her like "hey i promise i wont fall for u anymore let's be friend?" but the big question is DO U HAVE TO DISTANCE YOURSELF FROM ME? do u know how obvious it is?do u think ignoring me would make me feel better? one problem is enough.here comes another one.someone whom i really thought as my close friend is bringing me down as in BRINGING ME DOWN.as he have a crush on the same girl ive been hitting.so he's bringing me down in a not a good way..things is being hard on me today.nasib baik aku ada blog ni haih.skrg semuanya berserah kepada allah.allah maha esa.dia maha adil so yeah.i'll just end my post like this.assalamualaikum

i usually write this on twitter but since she have a twitter i cant write it there.today was the day where i realise how much i actually love her and its frustrating.i dont even now does she even cares about me.it's so hard breaking when she talks about "the other guy" although she always says that she wont fall for him but i think she already fall for him. she might not know how much i actually do really care about her.but as i always say to my self "jodoh di tangan allah". it has always been so frustrating to not knowing how she felt about me.oh allah if she is my, my destiny pls bring us together closer, if she's not pls put my heart far far away from her.amin

-ariff-

composing

im very new in this composing thing.so ive tried a few times untill this one where all my band mates agree that this lyrics are quite ok and can be turn to a song.this song is call love tragedy.well it pretty much actually about how a love that this guy thought to be eternity turns into tragedy.we perform this song in the mmu botb.the quality of the lyrics might be not so good as its be written by a amature(me!) nevertheless here it goes :)

love is a tragedy - LYF

i wont miss you

even it's the hardest thing to face

i cant see through

your heart is as difficult to trace

mean or fake it

it has always hur a bit

u have never been true

about everything about you

times flies by

as we goes by

i wont cry

before the night dies

our love is a tragedy

those words are never meant to say

your smiles are here to stay

those days will never be the same.

things that you say

are only words as i can see

fought every night and day

but everything doesnt seems to be

just like we dream

just like what we always wanted to be

it's history

it's history

times flies by

as we goes by

i wont cry

before the night dies

our love is a tragedy

those words are never meant to say

your smiles are here to stay

those days will never be the same.

i wont miss you

even it's the hardest thing to face

i cant see through

your heart is as difficult to trace

mean or fake it

it has always hur a bit

u have never been true

about everything about you

times flies by

as we goes by

i wont cry

before the night dies

our love is a tragedy

those words are never meant to say

your smiles are here to stay

those days will never be the same.

things that you say

are only words as i can see

fought every night and day

but everything doesnt seems to be

just like we dream

just like what we always wanted to be

it's history

it's history

times flies by

as we goes by

i wont cry

before the night dies

our love is a tragedy

those words are never meant to say

your smiles are here to stay

those days will never be the same.

wazza

it has been a super hectic week!imagine 3 mid term papers in 2 days -_- .i only slept for less than 3 hours a day and hopefully my result will came out good.nothing good happen actually accept for finally i ask my ex to stop or should i reduce from being in contact with me.basically it's a very hard thing to say to her as we have be friends for more than 7 years but just like a good friend of mine said, ex's can never be friends.maybe old ex gf can be my friend lol. and finally it's nine days away till new year.by bye cruel 2011 hopefully 2012 can be a better year :).

p/s lama tak blog my writing have become worst -_-