Cuz

I am the light
I am the love
I am the wind
Below and above

If you see me dancing in the shadows
Playing with sound and light
Be sure to join in the dance
As we make our way through the long dark night

Moving through the sorrows
Looking far ahead
Planting better tomorrows
Remembering the dead

And sooner than you know it
The bird starts to take flight
Because we remembered
To dance through the long dark night

I started a live journal account on Thanksgiving of 2005 and have had fun with it, connecting with folk and talking about neat things going on with me. More recently, however, I have gotten more in touch with the benefit for myself and potentially others to talk about some of the not as shiny stuff, things that go more into dark territory. Not that I want to be dark or cultivate darkness; to the contrary, I would like a lot more good, happy, shiny fun in my life. Unfortunately, I find that keeping the dark stuff inside, as I was raised to, is hurting me now and making it fester rather than starving it until it disappears, so I sometimes discuss it here. My attitude is that this is *MY* forum, and using it to say things that people can read or not as they choose is my privilege. Witnesses are, in fact, very healing, particularly with supportive sweetness. I have been a little disturbed recently to see some folks disabling comments on their entries because they are "not looking for sympathy". Sympathy is just fine by me. Many things have happened in my life for which there was not sympathy, and a bit to balance it all out couldn't hurt. If this is something that might make you look at me askance, perhaps this is not reading material suitable for you. Otherwise, welcome.

Below is my policy on friendlisting. Posting it here is a sincere attempt to explain where I am coming from on this account in hopes of mitigating hurt feelings both for others and for me.

Sometimes I will friend folk on a whim but if they do not friend me back at some point (once I am certain they know who I am), I will probably drop them in most cases. This is mainly because I keep my flist small so as not to get too overwhelmed and therefore mutuality is prefered. I friend back once I've been friended if I am comfortable sharing personal things about myself which would normally be locked and if I do not think reading about the life of the person or from others likely to post comments in their journals would be somehow discomfiting. I also keep the number of folk I have friended approximately equal to the number who have friended me, so if someone friends me, I will bump off folk who have not friended me back yet should I decide to add the person.

EDIT:NOT QUITE A CAP:I enjoy Live Journal, but I need to get a grip on how much of my focus it eats up so at this time, and I am skimming a good bit. If you want to friend me to read my journal, please feel free and welcome, though I am rarely friending folk these days cuz I can barely keep up with what I got. I apologize in advance for this; I do not understand how folk with 100 + friends keep up...I know some manage to, but alas *I* can not.