garden of eden

Made a community for all my TCG stuff - chocopeppermint

All the links should soon be rederected to the trade post there rather than the one I have here. It's also in the first sticky so you can still get to it through this journal if you need to.

There's not much to add here really. I've been struggling to do much in the past few days and it kinda sucks. I have exchange fic to work on, some other stuff that has a deadline too, yet right now i feel like nothing is working. I can play games kinda, but that's about it. Just doing things feels like a chore, even if i like it.

I don't like coming on here to just complain and nothing else, but idk what to do at this point. Maybe rambling about other things could help lift up the mood at least a little bit.

Working on a possibly slightly longer fic than my last few (i hope at least) and I've come to realization that at this point in Limbus Company, I have no idea where the freaking end will lead. My current expectation is that the main cast will turn against LC (as that one canto 9 Gesellschaft scene leads me to think not everything is as it seems to be there) but that's kinda about it. Trying to write a post canon fic here is pretty much just saying 'random bullshit go' and hoping it lands. Considering it's gregclair, it's also kinda hard to figure out how to treat Gregor's bug arm, especially after last canto. How will that thing affect him later in the game, I have no idea, and honestly I don't think anyone can answer it. I will go with it still being there since there's nothing else I can work off of, but still.

Also, the state of the City? We're clearly about to have a mass death situation, after which the main cast has to do SOMETHING to get it to a normal state of things. My general idea is that by the end of it, everything will be calm, Head will probably be gone, the whole City will need to be rebuild in terms of how it functions at least. I'm hesitant to say if there will still be the divide between the nest and backstreets, so I guess ignoring the thing comepleatly is the way to go?

This is a lot of thought for a fic that's essentially one where Gregor is trying to not be afraid of being the possibility of being a bad parent because his mother messed him up lol.

As the title says. I feel like I'm beating the dead horse by saying this, but man, last few weeks have not been that great when it comes to writing things. Got the prompts, got the ideas, but the moment I open the document I cannot make myself do anything. Maybe it's the irl stuff that's being busy that's keeping me from wanting to write normally, but still. A little frustrated.

Maybe writing down what I want to write and what I plan to do will help a bit. I haven't talked much about it here, since I do tend to keep things kinda short most of the time, so maybe trying that again will help. I've mostly shared stuff here that has been just reposted stuff from twitter or5 tumblr, so doing it more could be a way to get into the groove of things again.

I realized that now that I have a completed deck in colors, I should probably display it somewhere on a page of it's own. This also made me realize I have to make that page, since the neotcg does not come with it.

Needless to say, I just spent an hour truing to figure out how to do that, giving up on the js file approach as I had no idea how to make it work. Manually adding everything it is. If anything I need to add it only once per deck, and as tedious as the process is going to be in the future, I don't have a better solution for the time being. I spent way too much time inspecting code and trying to make something work to care enough about making it work some other way. Not even done fully, but progress is progress. At least it's functional

Had a lot of irl stuff to work on, so i didn't get much of my own time until today after finishing the last thing I had. Had no writing time, since I did decide to let my free time be on the colors tcg as I am starting that off now. Having a lot of fun there at least.

Now I will have some time until next week, hopefully I'll get to write something for events and to finish off what I already started.

I saw this post yesterday as it was posted, and it kinda made me realize there are a lot of people who don't do this at all. I've spent most of my online life either not being shown much or using names that were not my real one (facebook being one of the few exceptions to that) and not talking about things that were too personal. I've always stuck to my hobbies online, and not even everything since what I do here the most is fandom.

It also got me thinking on how I do present myself online: most of the time, I am very bad at talking to people, so even when I make introductions in communities or discord servers, i tend to blank out when I need to tell people about myself. My usual go-to things to say are my fandoms, ships i like and what are my hobbies, which i always name reading, writing and gaming. I will occasionally point out I'm shy and have a hard time talking to people, and that's about it. In a way, it's a specific presentation that has been consistent for most of my online life, even tracking back to deviantart where it all started.

Now, the original post was probably more aimed at online safety, as a lot of teens nowadays don't seem to understand that listing off your mental health problems, your age, country and city you live in is a bad thing to do (i remember a few years ago I got flamed for telling people you shouldn't be obligated to disclose your race and age to online randoms. this was post 2020, so you can imagine now stupid some people were, considering most were children saying that). This is very apparent when you go to social media but also things like here and even personal sites.

In my general experience the only place that really wants your real name is facebook, and places like twitter and bluesky don't actively try to force you to do that, so you can still have a proper persona that's not the same as the person you are behind the screen. Not saying that you should be a compleatly different person, but there should be a line to who you are and what you share online.

Signed up for the pmanniversaryexchange at last. I was putting it off until the last day as usual lol.

Did some writing for fandom_empire and this week I actually have something for the team challenge, but due to ao3 being down I don't think I'll be posting it today. It's not helping that I'll be out the whole day tomorrow, so I might not even post it then. Oh well. If I do finish it, I can try posting on the phone, but it's annoying when it comes to tagging non-canon tags. Hopefully it will work with the specific ID tags when I do have to post there.

I've also been eyeing some causal events over on tumblr. The heart x horror event where I just saw the prompts and thought 'this is a sous-chef Gregor x Sinclair event to me' but I should consider other ships too. I'm thinking of Antonio/Andrew could work at least.

A bit ago I made a request box, mainly for the purpose of people sending ships and prompts to request for writing, mostly as an optional thing to do if I feel like it. Felt like a nice thing to do, especially as it could be a fun way to write for some ship and characters I normally don't, haven't really though of before or simply didn't know what to write about without a prompt or something of the sort.

I've gotten maybe 2 requests, but neither of them are actually specific enough for me, since they don't have an actual prompt. I think people might not be aware what a prompt is, somehow. I think it would be fun to sometimes get those, but I haven't really shared it much besides the initial time when I made it. I'll probably put the link to it in my pinned entry here too. I do need to update the ship lists too, mainly the Limbus one.

With canto 9 now properly done, I am not okay still, lmao. Way too many stuff going on, without saying too much, imma need an intervallo follow up on everything that happened with Gregor because what the fuck? I often joke how I love torturing him in my writing, but after that, the most he's gonna get is mild inconvenience for the next few months. Let the man rest. Okay, I'm exaggerating, but still. Lets just say that the next few fics will be a lot less intense than I initially planned to.

I was initially thinking of writing 'Psyche Luger' once Febuary was done alongside the 'Sinclair lies about his age' fic, but I do think that after all of that I'll move it for later just a little bit. I do have a specific gregclair fic that has been on my mind for a while that I want to write for Gregor's birthday (my boy has the worst case scenario for everything with the birthday being 29th Febuary) which I initially wanted to write for gregclair day. It feels like it fits more for the birthday as it's from his pov and how he feels about Sinclair compared to what I wrote for their ship day. I think it's better this way, not to mention I wasn't particularly in the mood to write that one at the time.

I also went back to the project moon kink meme after a while, I'm already seeing canto 9 stuff. That last one as of the day I'm posting with Gregor is quite interesting, I'm not gonna lie, but I don't think I have the skills for that. I would love to write some of the fills from there (i have some marked for writing but I haven't gotten around them yet) but I always feel like my personal ideas kinda go first. There are some neat ones I'd like to do sooner or later though.