after 7 years that is!
phew... where do I even begin?
My edd is suppose to be on the 14th feb (sweet!) but as usual, i thought / i would / i want to give birth early. this time around it was slightly different because i get tired much more than usual (ageing factor plus not being fit at all) and i was confident that the baby gonna be big. this is due to the fact that on every check up, baby's size will be bigger than the intended week which directly affect the weight.
after going for round of check ups at Salam with Dr Azwa (love her! but not the hospital), i went in to Avicenna twice or was it thrice to check up with Dr Norleen. Since the hospital is new, i had every intention of having birth there since the facilities and location is an advantage to our end. However I felt very unsettled with the doc. Dont get me wrong. She's a nice gynae, very soft spoken and all.. I on the other hand, failed to connect with her. Especially when she's not familiar with some gentle birth practices and keep on pushing the SOPs to me (in this case it was the tetanus jab that I had been nudging off for several check ups). So after relentless discussion between Mnn and I, we finally decided to go Pantai Bangsar to meet with Dr. Idora. I've always loved pantai bangsar but looking at the location and the average waiting time for Dr. Idora.. phew.. (minimun is 4 hours ya).
But i went in anyway at 33 wks. Luckily she is still accepting new patient. anyway to cut the story short, she is a super chill gynae.. and everytime she scan when I'm already at 3.9kg we will just be laughing (although on my end, I'll be laughing nervously) and she will calmly quipped in "the scan might be 200 gram plus minus ya). so kalau 3.9kg + 200 g = 4.1kg?? gulp.
Anyhow.. form 1st feb onwards i was already on mc.. been feeling breathless and braxton hicks.. the false alarm came on 5th.. mild contractions that come and go... and suddenly disappeared after several hours. ceh.
fast forward to 16th feb (qalif's birthday), i had my blood show on the 15th i think. went to toilet to pee and suddenly noticed some blood so yay! (same signs as per the prev two kids). my mom had been anxiously waiting - texting me everysingle day with the same script "apa khabar hari ni? dah ada tanda-tanda ke?" lol. I know she's the panicky type so i would sometimes update her the truth. Bukan apa, satgi takut sakit perut tapi false alarm... penat je hjh ramlah tak tido kat rumah tu.
anyways, Alyssa was down with fever the whole day so she was just resting and I was just nesting in my blanket. contraction starts on the 16th night around 10 pm. quite mild, but i know i was going to give birth already. So we did last minute prep, I informed mnn and all.. and he too did his last minute prep (whatever that is. lol) and i tried to conserve my energy as much as i can. so between 12pm to 3pm, i tried to sleep in and contraction was 10 minutes apart... We called Siti to come over and jaga the kids before we left for the hospital.
i cant remember exactly but i think it was almost 5 when we pushed off to the hospital. I texted my mil and ibu, asking for forgiveness and casually drop the message that we are going to hospital already hehe. wait till last minute.
So off we went... as usual in the wee hours (same track record as per Alyssa's birth). got there, went straight to delivery room, checked in and then nurse came to do VE. only 3cm (alyssa was 5cm when I checked in). and as usual i had to battle between sakit perut contraction and sakit perut emptying my stomach.
to compress everything, this birth i was very alert, kept on looking at the clock and whenever I am at a painful position (lying down - for heartbeat checking) sakit gila nak mampos oi contraction dia. yes the contraction really get intense. and that's when my waterbag broke. bunyi dia macam puup (as if the baby's kicking and air hangat pun mengalir... ha gitu). masa ni contraction dah regular every 5 mins or so but when it comes, it comes really hard. mengah la nafas menahan.
at 7 doc came. but i'm still around 8 to 9cm. I had more discharge coming out and I was actively moving around. The gym ball was very useful tho and comforting too.
I had the urge to push (rasa nak berak) but it wasnt very intense. and whener I'm at my comfortable position, all fours or on the gymball, the contraction would get very short. but if i'm lying down, fuh intense gila.
lama2 aku pun tak larat dah la. also at the back of my mind, kenapa baby ni susah nak keluar? besar sangat ke? (takot plis!!) still ada ya. the part of my brain is still actively and alertly thinking, which according to dr twink, i should have just layan and dont think too much.
and then by 11 or so i was begging for help already. I told doc pls help me. I tak larat dah. so she asked whether I want to be vacuumed? I said yes. masa ni tak leh pikir apa dah la.. tak larat dan nak cepat2 habis je.. sungguh takde energy dah. ya beranak umur 37 tahun ni bukan perkara main2 ya especially kalau kau mmg tak fit haha.
so i was made to lie down on my back and went on the conventional position (yes stirrup and all!) merasala beranak macam tu. and then i could feel that she inserted the vacuum inside, and the midwives (two of them) were all hyped up and keep on giving encouragement. Ok we need you to push ok. you still have to push dont rely on the vacuum. i'm like, ok whatever. But i was comforted too when dr idora said we dont need to do episiotomy. just let it natural ya...
so when i felt the urge, i push all my might.. alhamdulillah keluar juga. mula2 push sikit kepala keluar. lepas tu push lagi utk badan alhamdulillahh... and masa dr idora sambut, dia selawat and baca doa. sejuk hati dengar. actually when i was pushing, i was hoping for mnn to look at the vajayjay to see how the baby come out, but of course knowing him... kalau boleh tutup mata all the way, mmg dia tutup mata dan berdiri je la sebelah aku kan sambil pegang tangan. takde maknanya dia nak tengok benda geli2 berdarah2 ni... haha.
and then when baby came out, they quickly sucked the mucus from her nose/mouth? and quickly put it on my breast for some skin to skin time. i was.... shocked? ntahla masa tu mix feelings kot. sbb first time beranak dapat baby keluar yang menangis hahaha. we dont know how to react? and then suddenly rasa macam panas je kat tangan... and felt some liquid. i thought she was peeing, rupanya she pooed on me. sangat banyak dan meriah la dengan meconium hahahha. maka hilanglah bau vernix syurga tu dan digantikan dengan bau taik. lol
and dr idora had to sew me up for 1 hour! lenguh kaki aku mengangkang ya. i asked her whether is it bad? she said its only first degree tear, no muscle involved. alhamdulillah! but i could feel the tear is everywhere! hahahah. sana sini atas bawah semua dia jahit. but alhamdulillah la she really did a good job with sewing. I could feel/sense that she is very teliti when it comes to those.. and yes she did. for that i would gladly recommend her.
when baby first got out, my reaction was more like eh hmmm haa hmm kenapa muka dia macam boy? hahaha alhamdulillah rambut penuh sampai depan. and then they went to measure her, 3.67kg jerrrr.. ceh. Alyssa was 3.89kg. lol. and all natural no help needed. but with her was second degree tear tho.
anyhow doc told me that i'm losing a lot of blood so they quickly gave me the jab on my thigh. oh the placenta came out quite fast too.. while the baby was resting on my chest... ploop it came.
so at 11.40 am Aleia Hana Ayman was born to the world with the help of vacuum and weight 3.67 kg and 53cm. Mommy and daddy loves you so much baby girl. although we had a rocky start (pantang stories to be updated on another day) but as of now, at 1 month plus you bring so much joy into our lives. so sayanggg!!!!
till then.. alhamdulillah a safe and natural birth this time around. and hopefully will be the last one la. mak dah tua. tak larat hahaha.
love you bebegirl!!! tres mucho.
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