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Sunday, 23rd of February 2003
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23:42 pm
dad..
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well, lately he is kinda worrying me, the next exam he will have tomorrow he says its easy but he is struggling with the active dir and permissions. cant say that i fully get it 100% cuz i dont..he looks at me asif i could tell 'm how to do it but when i infact have no clue what so ever :/ that worry's me majorly.. i just hope he gets through that exam tomorrow. i stayed up with him to correct some of his errors but still, he'l have to do it tomorrow not me ... the other exams went like a breeze, i think he can make it IF he can concentrate.. he aint one of the youngest anymore 'n i hope that wont work into his dis-advantage... time will tell i suppose and we shall see what happends *prays*
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Current mood:  worried
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Friday, 21st of February 2003
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16:46 pm
friday....
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ugh... tis 4:45.. argh! why the bugger is the time going this slow?!?! i wanna get outa here...
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Current mood:  working
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Wednesday, 19th of February 2003
Tuesday, 18th of February 2003
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23:35 pm
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today no topic.. cuz well, i dont know what i feel like atm, moods change, one moment i'm thinking about heaven or if i'l go to hell 'n then the other i'm reading a comic on the web and the next i'm thinking : god at this rate i'l never get a house of my own in venlo this year :/ boss kinda accidently messed up my paycheck which i was gonna put down aside so i wouldn't have to bleed too hard the 1st month when i got a house.. *sigh* there's allready a waiting list on all building societies there for about a year to 2 years now 'n a family gets precedence over a single guy. can i say am i happy? no, i aint, my own fault. i could have been but i chose not to, so i should be miserable realy. nothing is totally not going the right way.. i feel everything is fucked up again nothing is going right.. at this stage i'm cynical 'n down really. i'd like to have somebody around me right now but fear of losing that person again restrains me from goin out. only a few few friends of irc have sought contact with me last couple of weeks, all have IRL 'n when i look what i got.. i'm glad i got a roof on top of my head but thats just about it.. i'l stop rambling now...
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Current mood:  indescribable
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11:55 am
stupid numlock!
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hmm, i could bash my head against the wall right now really and maybe do it hard..
i got here 2 dell laptops here and i'm trying to insert special chars into any document. so i load up wordpad, press the alt key, and push the numbers on top.. but wait it ' s at very friggin number :/ no show thus. my workstation works a treat... changed language support, keyboard layout
etc etc around on the lappies and i'm slowly starting to get paranoid, i reinstalled all the servicepacks etc .. the font is there but why the f""" cant i use it????
heh in fact the solution is plain 'n simple really.. i wish i called dell support sooner.. for laptops running nt4 you need to put the numlock on and then use the alt "numeric dual function keys" on the keyboard itself.. so the nicely colored numbers, not the ones on the top row..
i fell totally stupid now :( *sigh* can ya notice i dont do much laptop support? maybe i should change my career to data entry clerk or maybe go
work in a factory or something :( man, stupid simple things like this! ARGH!!!
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Current mood:  frustrated
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Sunday, 16th of February 2003
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22:55 pm
name that tune...
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you know i heard a song yesterday on bbc's 'ground force' programm. they where dealing with a garden full of grass. They played a certain tune which is not totally stuck in my head... this song has totally been covered like a zillion times. i can only remember one striking sentence from it and that keeps buzzing thru me head all day yesterday and all day today :/ god i wish i could reach my ex now. she's is brilliant in these kind of things, knows shitloads more about music then i do and mostly can find it within the hour heh. but seeing as we have so many modern communication methodes like phone, mobile icq or email and seeing none of them arent giving any result, i might aswell give up on it. this is gonna tick me off majorly..
i hate it when something is on the tip of my tongue but i just cant remember it dont you?..
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Current mood:  annoyed
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Friday, 14th of February 2003
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19:01 pm
happy b'day dad :)
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hey dad, happy birthday and keep up the good results on your MCSE exams!
good luck next monday! sorry i didn't ask about them earlyer on tuesday nite how it went but i made up for it i hope...!
enjoy the evening ! :)
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Current mood:  embarrassed
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Monday, 10th of February 2003
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22:57 pm
shooooting stars...
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man that georgie character is nutz! LOL
i love 'm eheheheehhe and this show is not sarcastic at all :PPP (and he plays some mean drums too :)
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Current mood:  amused
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19:03 pm
speeders....
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usually when you see a speeder race by like just now, you never see a cop around... but this time the guy that flashed by in a dark red ford escort had bad luck. first he flew by and then a unmarked police car pulled him over. i'd say he was doing about 100 on a town center road where your only are allowed 50kmh... 'n they caught him about 4km away from town!! justice :) bad luck idiot! but he'l just pay the fine and speed on... *sigh*
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Current mood: amused
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Friday, 7th of February 2003
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11:13 am
catching a lift..
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hmm, i dont get many lifts from cab drivers, but boy was i glad i got one yesterday! :) its one of them i knew from going from the station to work on a industrial estate. there's no descent way you can get to that place so you have to resort to a traincab :(( (bloody expensive but ok, boss payed half) and yesterday as i was walking to the station one of the guys that often picked me up 'n dropped me off at the station pulled over ' n stopped beside me ' n asked; "you want a lift?" erm, at 1st i didn't recognise 'm but then i knew who he was. so i got in 'n he sayd he went to the station anyways so i might aswell hop in ! :) yeah! i love free taxi rides! :) ok, its only a 2km walk from here to the station but yesterday i didn't feel like walking so sort of perfect timing :)
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Current mood: amused
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Tuesday, 4th of February 2003
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9:51 am
like sardines in a can...
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well, today it happened, the 2nd congestion up north in eindhoven in about 3 weeks time.
well this morning the train really was jam packed full, hell, the female conductor didnt even want to come out and check tickets. she couldn't have done so anyway cuz there was no room for to walk thru the train what so ever, in the hall and in the walkways..
'n then you take the normal train before the main train up north (wich runs 10mins after this one) and still all the people from the previous train are stuck, waiting for a never showing bus prolly.. and then they kindly re-route thru venlo :( so the train is allready loaded with tons of studens going to nijmegen university and guess what? the amount just doubled. its one of them really small single set buffle trains... then a woman walks in and says: "come on move on! there's still plenty of space!" yeah right... now i know how japanese folks must feel when they take the metro.. as far as i heard, they dont like it when somebody bumps into them by accident. in fact, i am not sure, but they dislike fysical contact and find it extremely inappropriate.. (?) hell, they wouldn't have survived that train trip then :P
sometimes i wonder what actually happends to the money which i have to spend each month to get to work. i mean, you get to buy a ticket for nearly 200euro per month, and you get what? the japanese metro system complete with train / track / redirection problems nearly every day... i suppose they get me from a to b but .. thats just about it...
i wonder why sardines like it that much in those lil cans...
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Current mood:  rushed
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Monday, 3rd of February 2003
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15:56 pm
budgets...
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weeeeeeeee my budget for this year for a new server and workstations has been approved! w000t! :)))))
now to hope i planned everything right...
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Current mood:  content
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Sunday, 2nd of February 2003
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19:59 pm
space.. the final frontier..
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well as you all are aware, one of the space shuttles broke up and burst into flames yesterday morning at 8am EST. nasa has shut down all flights going into space for the next couple of months maybe the next year... makes you wonder how those astronauts now that are in the international space station must feel..
a sad sad day in the books of humans exploration of the vast quantity's of space...
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5:47 am
beed... where's me bed....
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hmm, its nearly 6am on sunday morning, i finally got some work done at the office file server.. YAY! been meanin to do this last friday, but i just 2 much other crap in the way :/ oh well, i'm tired, but not reallly tired, my brain is a tad slow (what else is new) but furthermore i'm doin fine, gonna write down some stuff before i forget and then try to get some sleep...
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Current mood:  hyper
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Tuesday, 28th of January 2003
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23:38 pm
wee.. new puty's at work.. (whelp!)
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r.. well time has come for my boss to invest, the 3 years for his current pc's are up and he needs some new stuff in there now so he asked me to do a review and a look into the future.. but will he when he sees the bloody pricetag :(((
and for what you ask? well lets see..
1x new server 6509,-
1x laptop 2784.-
1x worksation 929,-
1x worksation 929,-
1x dockingstation 330,-
1x dockingstation 330,-
wich makes a grand total of...
*drum roll please..!*
a whopping 12211,- euro</t>, including shipping, handling and licenses... *EEEEK!* there goes my budget for this year down the drain :(( no new puter for me at work.. *sigh*...
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Current mood:  geeky
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Monday, 27th of January 2003
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20:01 pm
and the votes are in (for those of you who are interested)
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and its official, all votes have been counted including those from abroad and overseas.
the christendemocratic party is the biggest now and has to form a cabinet with the labour party.. but guess what? the leader of the christendemocratic party has allready sayd they wouldn't want to for a cabinet with labour.. instead, they go for the money hound VVD (dont even know what that abreviation is in english.. sorry) *sigh* why did i even bother to vote? :( i think i'l not go next year, no point anyway, money allways wins...
oh wait just found it, folkparty for freedom and democracy...
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Sunday, 26th of January 2003
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19:16 pm
is it me ?...
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hell as you all probably have read down here in this journal the last couple of weeks have been shit... god i need a holiday, but ok... anyways.. sometimes i wonder why people do not listen, they just stay in their own lil world and get advised from complete idiots who think they know something about computers.. well here goes, better hold on tight cuz i gotta get this off my chest before i go nuts about it....
december 12th, harddisk of the server at the company for which i work goes completely dead.. i had warned 2 weeks in advance that the system was unstable and that the backup software locked up due to a error in the backup software. (which i l8er in januari found out that this was a known problem in ARKEIA backup and i got scripts to fix it too..) anyway, i informed the boss that i needed to reboot the machine so i could release the tapeunit from sleep state.. and what did he do? stay till 6:30pm each day.. i can only reboot a server when nobody is connected to it.. so no reboot... backups werent made for nearly 2 weeks.. (smarrt eh?)
december 16th, the system has rebooted during the weekend.. how do i know? well, in the logfiles i found a shutdown and a re-start of the logdaemon.. and tty1 was logged out.. cause? hacker? no, i double checked all my binairy's using tripwire, nothing was modified.. even the filesystems / temp folders contained nothing, no new users etc so a hack can be excluded. i start to wonder why the system rebooted tho... anyways, i think the reboot came due to a malfunction in the powersystem. i told my boss about it and he starts to laugh and says: well, if there was a powerglitch i would have noticed... (not if the power fluctuated)
19th, the system is starting to become highly unstable and reboots during the day without notice, i assume the previous unattended reboot wrecked a few very important libraries on the system... and i start to do some recovery checks, but while i am doing that, the system freezes and reboots several times. as you can expect, the damage is getting bigger and bigger and getting out of control. i cant make a backup of the system anymore and i advise my boss for a reinstall of the machine.
20th nope, not needed, get back as reply, so i notice that the harddisk is starting to make weird noises... uhoh.. the linux kernel keeps panicing on some memory addresses, so i call up the original supplyer, and say well, this 'n that has happend, could you come up on saturday and have a look ? cuz i think the motherboard is farked..
21th, the supplyer comes around 2pm and we start to run about 29 tests... all fail.. that would mean the motherboard is farked for sure.. and it takes us about a good 8 hrs to come to the conclusion that something has happened to it somehow... and he also suspects a powerfail..
22, i decide to go into work and have another go at installing.. cant hurt... but as i suspected, that repair / install fails ... kernel panics are whipping around my ears...
23 hmm, so i report my findings to my boss and try to repair it, and tell the users what to do.. and if this all isn't enough, i find a virus on the network, surprise, on my bosses and his secretaries pc. the long awaited opaserv-g worm strikes hard and infects 3 workstations.. and seeing that we dont have a virusscanner i cant do didly squat about it.. *sigh* another nice worry on my mind... gr8, all i need is a fucking virus :(
24th - xmas eve, the attempts to install another scsi controller (to narrow down the problem) fail and during one boot the harddisk completely freezes up and crashes immediately. there's no more helping it, the disk is completely dead. (nice way to go into xmas eh?) .. so my new supplyer tries to cpr the disk but to no joy.. its dead :( they borrowed us a harddisk for the time beeing so that i can reinstall the box and start restoring tapes again. i go to pickup the disk and let them look at the old one... merry xmas :( so we order 2 new drives to mirror the system in future..
27th, i return to work and start to rig up a old compaq pressario 2000 as temp file server and start to restore tapes to that system.. but one problem, the routing in the network how am i gonna solve that?? heh, i had to install a bloody old isdn card in my windows pc and setup the default route to a shit programm to that machine to route email and internet traffic...
29th, this to no avail either so i read up on the emergency restore features.. to top it all off the system of the financial adminsitration dies completely and a virus his the disk VERY bad.. so i take it home to analyse it further.. my boss starts to nag about the motherboard, so i ring up the supplyer to see what the status is, but what i expected, its very close to the newyears and getting the motherboard in 1 or 2 days is gonna be a major problem..
30th, a long empty discussion takes place about what to do next.. i think to myself, fuck this, i want a day off, i had enough, we arent making any progress but only going back and fast. so i take a day off and report to my new employer that i need some more time...
2nd of januari, my boss keeps nagging about the motherboard, i'm doing 3 reinstalls, restoring tapes and trying to get my supplyer to hurry up all at once.. and yet still every 5 goddamm minute i get asked if file such and such has been restored yet, because they need it asap. with pain in the back teeth i get my boss to buy a virusscanner for 5 workstations and he decides to send every user a letter saying they will be held financially and juristdictionally responsible if a virus is found on their puter..
3rd ithank god its friday, i'm totally knacked, i arrange to
3rd of januari, the old supplyer comes around to bring and install the new motherboard. but he was misled on what memory's where supposed to be in the system. so he needs to order a new bloody kingston rimm aswell :( another 2 day's down the drain... meanwhile, the suspicions of more virusses within the company start to grow bigger...
6th of jan, hmm, the new rimms arrive and i can start to install the system.. but then.. there's a glitch, the kernel keeps panicing on the APCI support.. nice NOT! ..
7th after a try of suse 8.1 and redhat 8 i slowly give up, there's no point anymore in trying to continue and to get it up and running.. we need a different solution. boss doesn't trust linux anymore and to be honest i'm majorly dissapointed aswell... i know for a fact it must be a bios mis-configuration or something similiar regarding the APCI supposrt.. i jsut cannot figure out what ... i get told i'm completely useless and that somebody else is coming in to install the system with NT small business server 4.5 on the system. again, this is completely useless because i know for a fact that the used hardware is NOT microsoft SBS HCL (hardware compatability list) certified. but i think to myself, they wont listen, then they gotta pay for it. he comes into my office and asks what is the matter with me? i get told in the face that i am not a developer but what he doesn't see that it isn't a software issue but a hardware issue and dammed if he believes me.. but oh well, i dont care anymore.
9th of jan. the installer guy comes to the same conclusion wich i allready had on the 7th, the windows NT system is highly unstable too because you cannot say to SBS, hey this scsi controller is inside and that nic etc etc etc. so he tries to go round it with soem very sneeky ways (like copying over the original scsi driver with the one from the driver disk etc seeing that SBS is all prreprogrammed and expecting this hardware setup etc you cant change it during the install.
10th, we sort of have a stable system and start to plan out the user account rights etc. i still have a weird feeling about the system and tell the guy that... but he says it will be fine.. at this time the system seems "stable" so we roll out... i meanwhile have a call to the creator of the motherboard and the guy speaks poorly english, more taiwanese then english to be exact and he mumbles something about a bios setting, i note it down and forget about it.... because it only was meant for a solution on linux systems..
13th, i hook up the 2nd workstation and boom! the the system is indeed unstable as i suspected it. and it locks up as soon as i copy some files onto it.. meanwhile my boss can only think of his email wich he doesn't have. so i still have to hookup all 15 workstations to a highly unstable system....
14th my then exboss wants to use use software from which i distanciate from. (aka kazaa stuff)... and i warn him about doing so... and he asks me what he the price is for windows 2000 and exchange 2000.. so i tell 'm... again, the NT box freezes randomly and generates lots of blue screens... and continue to hookup workstations allthough i know i'm wasting my time doing it but the boss wants it so so shall it be done. no point in saying different heh.
14th. to be sure i go in early, to find out what the damage is... (i wish i haddn't done that) and start to make backups of whats on the system.. and it freezes up again, i fix it, repair the information stores etc etc. and all seems fine. i take the new sophos virusscanner and go down to hookup our lil "call center" to the network. as i look at the machien, i notice some weird files on it.. and BINGO! what do i find? a nice brand new copy of opaserv-g smiling me straight into the face *sigh* ... so i install sophos on the machine to try and block acces to it. and i go on, and finish the setups of the other 4 machines. as i walk up to another machine, i find that somebody has installed a new harddisk into the system without even telling me. the user has installed a fucked up version of symantec on it and i check.. and what do i find??? 19 friggin more virusses! ARGH! (remember that letter my boss sent out?) and i make a print screen the sophos screen and i take it to my exboss, he looks at me and asks "who's pc was that?" so i tell him, but wait, the guy is friends with the boss, wanna bet he doesn't get held responsible for his actions? your right, he doesn't... anways, i try to figure out what bloody damage the thing does and try to remove it with the help of sophos.com staff...
15th. on the mornin i arrange a meeting wiht my boos and we decide to have 1 more go at linux, so i switch on the earlyer noted bios switch and pray. i remove 1 of the 2 drives since one has the windows setup on it mirrrored, i just wipe it. DAMM! the bloody thing installs 1st time around! argh! i quickly make backups of the DNS. MAIL,APCHE, DHCP and SMB files and move them to the new box and start to create accounts.. by 5pm the system is up and running nicely, only the dialup works but i need to tighten up security since its on a way low level...
oh well, i give up and ask if i can go to my newboss and so he agrees..
its nice to talk to some collegues who do understand me after such a ordeal .. i'm glad i went to that company and not stayed at the other, cuz i couldn't take it anymore.
thanks folks! if your still with me ? are you? hmm ok, guess you've fallen asleep by now. tell me i'm stupid am i ? did i make the wrong calls here? i think not, my boss did for being to arrogant and not listen and see the obvious.. thats what you get when somebody pretends he knows something about hardware and messes you about... guarenteed formular for disaster...
there, now its out. for the journal's sake i left out some details to make it more "friendly" then i actually feel... god knows what my current boss thinks of me now and what consequences its gonna have for my career :( cuz i know for a fact those two cumminicate with eachother, cuz the accountants firm for which i work now for is the accountant of my ex boss.. this is gonna be sooooo nice..NOT!
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Current mood:  cranky
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Thursday, 23rd of January 2003
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1:17 am
mental note to self...
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do not eat cappucino chocolate at 10pm.. still awake but yet gotta get up in 4 hrs...
if this journal would look right i could go to bed, i'm modifying some stuff 'n make it actually look nice.. sort of x_X
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