Reminder for me...

The important rule is always to be happy with what you have. And never pretend to be someone you’re not. What’s more, one valuable lesson from the crisis is that we should plan for the things we need, not what we want. -London Log, by Choi Tuck Wo-

Clean the house -CHECKED
Clean the toilet -CHECKED
Clean the fridge-CHECKED
Last crave- homemade teh tarik-CHECKED

ok,i am ready to go !

Leaving tomorrow @ 10 am. Delivering insya-Allah on Dec 14th 2008.
Please pray for me...

2 joys I am waiting for:
1) To see baby.
2) Mom n dad's arrival.

Kinda sad baby will be leaving my tummy soon, have always enjoyed her kicks and punches....hehehe...suka tengok gelembung2 kat perut...tang sakit tu je yang tak tahan...

Akar Fatimah

kuncup.. rendam dalam air panas... airnya diminum....

Owner : Lady AZ

Hand-me-down : HE----->Abg Nash----->Me
Who's next?

p/s: thanks bet n abg nash 4 the pembetulan...hehehe

The date..

has been set.The nurse called just now..It's going to be very very soon..Wish me luck..Doakan keselamatan saya dan baby..

Que sera sera..Tawakkal pada Allah swt.

Sekejapnya...masanya dah tiba...Kalaulah boleh turn back time and make everything RIGHT !

Alhamdulillah seronok sangat semalam..the crowd..the counselling sessions..heheh..banyak ilmu dapat..the gelak2..the food...baby n mommy were soo happy..Thanks to tuan rumah (ku terharu dipujuk,huhuh) and masak sedap2..God bless u tuan rumah ( i know another fren juga terharu bangat semalam,heheheh)....and hub yang benarkan saya pergi bersuka ria dan bergembira semalam...Dapat jugak merasa rendang original (i tau masak from Brahim's je) and kuih hijau kat atas pulut kat bawah tu from K.P.Swiss roll juga...banyak lagilah...sangat2 oishikatta ! Dah tak de mengidam dah..semua dah puas rasa..tunggu masa sahaja...

Erkss...DOAKAN SAYA..

Abg Nash, cilok gambar ye..Me at 37 weeks,5 days.Selamat Hari Raya Haji 2008.

Sat,6th Dec 2008-Doc said it's impossible to bersalin normal becoz tulang pelvic me kecik n baby nye kepala besar n tak turun lagi...Guna portable machine nak tgk XRay, cool gile..


In a way, I am grateful to Allah coz :-


1) I dont have to go through the painful labour which I think I am not ready yet to experience.(singing..i am 28 acting/feeling like 18,heheh)....especially being overseas with no support system and being occupied with studies.Research ni tak tau nak buat apa....risau betullah..My pain threshold is very very low..Saya kenal diri saya sendiri..Saya tidak sekuat orang lain...If I do bersalin normal, and if it turns out to be unbearable, i might blame others for the pain, might not want to have kids anymore, etc....I thank Allah for all the reasons that is unbeknown to me..ada hikmah di sebaliknya..maybe 2nd pregnancy, i'll be ready..


2) Takut hasui (air ketuban) pecah kat sekolah...insya-Allah tak lah kot now that I know i will be dibedah in a week's time (10 days earlier than due date)...tapi macam tak best pulak kan sebab tak natural. Tak de air ketuban pecah, panik2 feeling, contraction (yang i dulu doa biarlah 30 mins-2 or 3 jam je,ahaks, tak mo 12 hours)...tak pelah,next time..


3) Syukur coz I dont have to go through what my fren, NP n my SIL had to go through in Msia. Tak sure boleh keluar normally, doc diorang suruh jugak cuba push...i can imagine the painfulness, dahlah sakit, penat push, pastu dah tak boleh baru nak caesar...kan ke 2 keje namanya..sini, like the one i experienced, doc buat X-Ray, kira guna ruler berapa jarak tulang ke tulang, boleh terus confirm natural ke caesar....Oklah, alhamdulillah...

I wish :

1) I could turn back time...be really prepared and happy when I got to know I was pregnant...ni tak...dok takut2 sensei marah sampai stress..padahal sensei mana ada marah pun.If I could turn back time, i'll make sure i wont nangis2 n stress2. Banyak kali mintak maaf kat baby, hoping she wont turn out emotional as I was when I was pregnant with her....and hopefully turn out to be a good, jolly, happy baby, tak active sangat and tak emo sangat...doa sangat macam baby zarif and chara and ayra etc..tenang n cool je !

2) I cud jaga makan...ni makan tah pahape...tapi rasanya kalau kat Msia, lagi teruk i bantai makan...naik berkilo2 lah agaknya..

2nd pregnancy (laamaaaaaa lagi,ok), I wish i cud :

have a maid (malas nak buat kerja rumah, *hub* hint hint)...heheh, dok Msia (makan senang), happy and tak stress2..insya-Allah..

I guess being pregnant and delivering my baby in Nihon ada hikmahnya to me...Insya-Allah, here's hoping to a wonderful year (2009) with the new addition in the family.Hope I can juggle my time between being a student, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a DIL and a good fren to u ! (ala2 Resolution 2009 lah pulak)...

37 weeks 3 days..

Baby's weight : 3.152kg
Mom's wt: 52.3 kg (yabaii !)
Dah 2 minggu baby tak tunjuk muka...

Baby Shower 2008

Sometimes..

Sometimes..
I miss my old life..
I want my old life back..

Sometimes..
I love my new life..

HARI B.J.O.K (BERLAGAK JADI ORANG KAYA) !

Hihiihi...

We had joy, we had fun, lalalalalaaaaaa....in the sun... lalalla
True, the weather was perfect yesterday! Sunny and windy, terlupa pulak bawak sunglasses, all 3 of us ,sigh..

My first time entering designer boutiques in Nihon.Kat Msia sekali je masuk Coach,when i was 23-24 years old, itupun orang pandang atas bawah....menyampah..

Sini, trylah macam2 bagai nak rak, tak beli pun tak pe, there will always be smiles from the rep's faces...

We had fun strolling the streets of Ginza, masuk sini, masuk sana...tried this, tried that...ramai manusia, maybe sebab some of them bonus fuyu (winter) dah dapat..or maybe nak beli christmas presents..

Me likey !!!

Setakat window shopping je lah..

I told 'moilatitude' : Hish...if money is not a factor, tunjuk je mana nak...best kan...ni sebab money is a factor, can choose one only..

Then, we went to GUCCI CAFE. I had tiramisu with rasberry, and lemongrass tea (why on earth did i choose this tea when i can make myself at home, aparaaa....), then had a taste of GUCCI caramel choc before all 3 of us bought GUCCI 4 choc-in-a-box (bitter, caramel,raspberry and latte) with GUCCI paperbag for our 'terbiar' lakis...heheh..bak kata Linchan's hub.Hish..nak makan pun sayang, siap ada G kat atas choc..Moilatitude had pistachio strawberry apatah yang sedap sangat and Linchan aka Mrs President (according to moilatitude, i agree !! ) had choc cake with something gelato....all 3 were yummylicious, serious !!!

I came back so exhausted, kaki letih jalan (mind u, I was 36 weeks 4 days preg yesterday,hihi)and had my beauty sleep with dreams of 'THE BAG' and more bags.....hihihihi....

To the 2 ladies, hontou ni arigatou !!! You made the pregnant lady happy again ! Luckily i didnt pop kat LV semalam....wish i cud make a scene,hahahaha...it wud certainly be a memorable one, for me and baby,hahahahaa....kot2 lah lepas tu orang panggil my baby,baby LV pulak....ahaks...perasan !!! Berangan lebih2 betul !!!

Balik rumah hub cakap 'Amboi, 2 hari beronggeng, i dok rumah, buat keje rumah, but as long as you are happy, im happy'...Awww.....

Pics at FB.
(Kak Aini kata mukaku dah tembam......hukhuk...mmg betul pun..banyak makan).

I must have a very good heart.
I must not be selfish.
It's not about ME anymore.
Im gonna have a small family soon.
I must learn to share (erkkss.....my money???!!)
I must learn to give and take.
I must learn to be patient.
I must learn not to talk bad about others.
I must learn to be positive.
For things to change, I must change first.
I love everyone.
I love myself.
I must accept qada and qadar.
I love him.
I love my family.
I love my baby.
I will finish my studies.
I will finish my research (quickly, please..)

36 weeks..

Baby's weight is 2.75kg.Now going to the doc for check-up every week...I can deliver anytime now, but hoping and keep on telling baby to come out after I finish my classes (18/12) or masa due date (24/12).Hub nak baby keluar 12/12...nice date. We'll see....Baby tak nak tunjuk muka this week,menghadap ke bawah, so nampak telinga saje..

Have to go for X-Ray this Friday @ Tama Hosp, Noborito after doc did nai-shin tadi. To make sure whether I can deliver normally or not..

Hub said something yang membuatkan saya sangat terkejut and soooooo KANDOU (terharu) !! Menangis on the spot, sampai nurses nampak dan bergossip..'Gaduhkah?, waraisugi (gelak sampai menangiskah?)' ....erks...kantoi...Dia pun terkejut kenapa tiba2 nak nangis, bukan happy ke? Tapi saya sangat KANDOU !! Then one of the nurses approached us and asked directly....pakcik ni punya lah baik pegi cerita semua...hai laaa.......habis pecah himitsu (rahsia)...Nurse ni pulak baik bangat g jumpa geng2 nurse dia and cerita....hello nurse, saya dok kat luar, saya boleh dengar,ok...malu malu....

After maghrib, I had a jolly good time at Lady D's...Arigatou !!

RASA

Told u no mood to eat my own cooking. No class today and dont want to waste electricity (heater), so i went to RASA for lunch. Ini semua gara2 char kuey teow pic from 'The Wife' 's FB lah ni......Dah tiba2 craving for kuey teow pulak..Miss my mom's kteow, the best in the world ! Nak buat kteow from scratch macam K.Hani, ampun.....

Hari tu J tulis pasal dia masak lambchop kat rumah @ FB, ha...i terus order lamb kat BATICROM. Sekali makan 3 keping...Hambik ko !

Had CKT for lunch, 'tapau'ed Chicken Rice for hub and Curry Laksa for dinner. Heheheh...sukanya tempat ni boleh tapau tapau....suke suke... The lady tauke pun terkejut tgk, sekali datang order macam2.....my ckt comes with salad, mushroom n egg soup and bubur cha2...hehe....me rupa bubur cha2 pun tak tau camana rupa..ape daaa.....

Nampak lady tauke served her husband lunch with a big mug of teh tarik, so me gatal NAK jugak !!

On my way there, nampak bicycle taxi, ...
On my way back, i saw a triangle ice cream and rainbow roses..

I came home a happy pregnant lady ! Alhamdulillah..

When things didnt go your way...

You thought you were the lucky ones, coz God granted your wish..
Turns out that is not what u really wanted , you want something else..
Tapi bende dah jadi, is there any way to turn back?
Some things makes u happy, some do not..
So what do u do??

Sheilla kata: Do things that makes you happy..
Bet ada tulis : Be grateful with what u have,not what u do not have..
Hamza Yusuf wrote : Be patient, just like Ibrahim a.s was patient when his son Yusuf was thought to be dead (angkara the beradiks) until he lost his eyesight crying for him.

It may be that you dislike something,though it is good for u.And it maybe that u love something, though it is bad for u.And God knows and u do not know. (Quran, 2:216)

Just saw AZ's video compiled by the daddy,Az from PP...Sangat comel budak itu !! He is sooo huggable at 2 ! (heheh...macamlah dia kenal i pun kan)..

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Time2 frust camni, coz I have to start anew, Prof F sent me an email meminta untuk bekerjasama...alhamdulillah...

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Left the house at 6am yesterday for my 10am class, sampai tertidur kat eki (tak larat ok!)...only to find out that one lect. couldnt make it and the other one was busy....hmmm...apa ni??

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Lady D invited us to her hse this Saturday, coz nak menjamu me before i enter my pantang period....Awww...so sweet ! Siap tanya nak makan apa lagi??? Terharu !!!

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No mood to eat my own cooking...only cook for hub and luckily he's not fussy...I makan luar...then balik masak..

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Cant wait for Ladies Day Out this SUNDAY ! Jalan2 @ Ginza to try out THE BAG !!! kkekeke....

35 weeks.

Baby is now 2615g. Naik 400 g lagi...and I reduced weight....YAttA!! Alah....0.5 kg je....but enuff to make me, the nurse and sensei happy, ahaks !!! Balik rumah tadi tibai makan segala macam...wakakakk...macam orang kebulur aje..

Baby is still covering her face with either one of her hands...so selalu nampak either right or left eye saje....

My tummy is now expanding from right to left...rasa berat kat bahagian bawah...sensei kata baby mok mok...kepala dah cyodo ii...tapi badan besar....

Susah nak bangun.

Ingatkan pendek waktu siang, boleh puasa ganti....
Tapi..
Susahnya nak bangun sahur !!!
Sejuk.....
Malas....
and akhirnya tak puasa lagi...

Happy Again !

Thankful for today ! T*my is a nice, sweet Peruvian MD who is sooo smart and kind. In 研究室 just now, I baring atas 3 kerusi and she checked my tummy....Told me not to force myself to go to school everyday and I should take enough rest before the bundle of joy arrives....coz it's gonna be hectic..

Gr*ce gave me some opinion on research proposal..to do my research in Japan (coz nak balik Msia, pakai duit babe)..so ive got some new ideas on what to do now, but hmmm..gotta start from scratch again...read journals, print out, yada yada yada......

I can do it !!! Yes I can !

Penenang hati..

I used to have one when i was in UPM, same age, but very motherly, and soothes you like a baby when u feel down...Ina namanya..

Yesterday, spoke to my new penenang hati Japan, Nor P namanya.....alamak, gelak tak hengat....very funny and she made me feel 'bersyukur' with what I have and seems to know the right answer to everything..

Very lawak your lawak yesterday.Me and hub had a great laugh !!

'' Think happy thoughts and you'll fly ! '' -Peter Pan

Have been a bit stressed out after my proposal presentation last Wed. Many said 'it is an usaha murni, you are doing something meaningful for these ppl', tapi susah ok...Ada yang kata'you are very ambitious, this is difficult to do, yada yada...' Penat sih penat.....

So am not sure whether I'll continue doing this research or I might change topic again for the *th time...penatlah...Orang buat study kat Kenya ada support from NGO, yang g Cambodia ada cable, yang g India pun ada nak tolong, me orang Msia pun tak de support, wuhooo...camana tu?

So i tried emailing this other Prof in Msia whom Ive just met last Sept in Yokohama, she seems to give me a neutral response...hmmmm...

Dah dapat feedback from her yesterday baru ada mood nak start balik..

Pokong pokong

Hehehe....welcome welcome..

The blog is long overdue due to the owner's inability to remember her 3-4 usernames and passwords,haha...

ok..first entry.

This word is my oisha's fav (i dont know whether he created this word or there is definitely a word like this to describe a girl's toot). He's been mentioning this whenever we go to c him since I was 5 1/2 months preg.