I Love You Mama

https://www.facebook.com/markianbenhamou1998/videos/647377372054227/

Just watched the video above and I cried 😭

I somehow survived one full lap around the sun without my guiding light. I miss her voice. I talked to her at least four times a day. How is it possible I have survived 365 days without her?

Ya! I still miss her terribly. Perhaps now that I am feeling so much better than I have in the last year I’m wishing that my mom had been around to be next to me, to hold me, to comfort me on the way down and to share the triumph with me on the way up.  To be proud of my achievements.  

Regardless, I loved her immensely and we were best friends.  I miss taking her to the clinic for checking up. We enjoyed the time we spent together. We hung out just because we got along so well and we liked spending time with each other. We went out to hair salon, we went for shopping and we went out for eating. We laughed, we cried, we held hands and sometimes we didn’t have to say a word. I’m sorry Mom.  I can't spend all the memories with you again. So many regrets.  So much time I thought we would have together. 

I miss her validation. She helped me believe in myself. She dared me to dream. She told me the truth. I hope she knew how much her opinion meant to me. I wanted the best for you, and it hurts me so much that we were never able to achieve it. 

I miss her love. No one loved me like my mom, and no one ever will again. I love and miss you with all my broken heart.

1 year and 4 months. Al-Fatihah~ ❤

 بِسْمِ ٱللَّهِ ٱلرَّحْمَـنِ ٱلرَّحِيم ٱلْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ ٱلْعَـلَمِين۞ ٱلرَّحْمَـنِ ٱلرَّحِيم۞ مَـلِكِ يَوْمِ ٱلدِّين۞إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ۞ ٱهْدِنَا ٱلصِّرَطَ ٱلْمُسْتَقِيمَ۞صِرَطَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ۞ غَيْرِ ٱلْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلاَ ٱلضَّاۤلِّينَ۞امين

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Ramadhan

Surviving Ramadhan for the 1st time without HER which is my KEKASIH is so hard. How difficult it is to live without you ma. 

To all,

May Allah bless;

Your days with happiness;

Your weeks with prosperity;

Your months with contentment;

And your years with love and peace!

Happy Ramadhan~ ❤

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WW : M O M

  

           

I still miss you everyday~ ❤️

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Rindu

Ya Aku Rindu Mama

Al-Fatihah~ ❤️

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The 40th Day Without You

First year of birthday without you,


only one wish could there be,


to blow out my candles,


and have you standing there beside me..

First birthday of missing you,


First birthday with a heart of pain,


What I wouldn’t give


to have you in my life again...

Today is my 1st birthday without you and one thing is for sure, I'm not getting the phone call in the morning again. 

I love you to the moon and back ma!

Al-Fatihah~ ❤️

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Hear the heart speaks: Al-Fatihah for Mama

If only I could pour my heart out..

If only I could make you realize..

If only we could turn back time..

If only there would be another life..

I don’t know what had possessed me lately, but I just can’t concentrate on what to write for this blog. A lot of things are going in my life, but still I didn’t feel like to blog about it, it’s not I have lost my interest towards writing, it is just plain laziness.

For those who are close to me, all know that recently I’ve lost my mom. She passed away on 6^th December 2015. That was my biggest loss in my entire life. Losing her was not easy as I’m the only daughter in my families. To be honest, I fell. I know it will take months or years for me to stand up back. To be frank, I am still not over it. But I know, I need to let her go. She is in a better place right now.

How did that happen? Well please grab a chair and keep reading this entry. Let see whether I able to write this entry without tears am rolling down on my face or not :P

Below are my post via FB.

Ya, my mom has been suffering due to diabetes. On November, when I went to visit her, she looks in good conditions. As usual when I returned to Bangi, after I kissed her, I went back and continue doing what I was doing just now and I remember before she left, her last words to me was “Doakan Mama, Ina”. I didn’t know that was the last time I’m gonna see her.

Sunday morning (6^th December 2015) around 11.30 am, my brother called me and he said…

Angah: Ina, mama dah tiada

I was still in a blurry and I cried. I know that was a real and deep inside, I’ve lost her. I cried and cried behind my husband. Allah knows what is best for her. Indeed. She left peacefully. MasyaAllah, “Mama dah tiada”. There’s ups and down, but more to down I guess.

But Alhamdulillah, everything went smooth for her during that day. Thank you to all.

I have people around to give me support. I think Allah loves me that He sent me bunch of people who really care, thoughtful and kind. Besides supportive family. I really appreciate it. 

I hope while reading this entry, you could spend a minute or two to “sedekah Al-Fatihah” to my late mom and not to forget, to my heart for having such heavy pain to bear with.

Don’t worry. I’m stay strong. As long as I have Allah in my life, I’m pretty sure that I can survive on this road.

Dear Mama,

I’m proud of how strong you are during facing your pain. You’re the most priceless thing I’ve ever had. I know you are happy now. Only Allah knows how much I need you right now. You know ma, how hard my everyday without you and I was never ready for you to leave. The beautiful memories of the times we’ve spent together make me smile, only until the moment when they eventually remind me that you’re no longer here. I know you are listening from there. There’s nothing that I value more, than your love. No matter where I am or what I am doing, your memories will always keep me smiling. I really miss you ma and you will always be my best friend. 

Ya, it’s already passed two weeks. Today, I miss Mama more than ever. May Allah forgive all her sins, accept all her good deeds and place her among the best of His Believers. May Allah have a place for her in Jannah. Aamiin Ya Rabb.

Appreciate your loved ones before it’s too late. Grab all the moments that you can share with them. Your never know when is the last time you will see them as a person. Cherish every moment and just appreciate everyone. It does not cost a thing~ ❤

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I ❤ S E P H O R A

Hi Bloggers!

Happy New Year 2015! Check out these 3 simple ways to help you feel pretty and let's feel like a new brand!

 

3 SEPHORA MAKE UP TO HAVE IN YOUR PURSE

Everyone must have heard the Sephora make up brand which offers an extensive collection of makeup items catered to suit every woman’s taste. From lipstick, powders, blushers, eye shadows and more, women can find all the various items they need for their makeup kit at home. Women not only need make up before they step out of the house but also on the go for a quick touch up throughout the day.  There are 3 must-haves Sephora make up that every woman should have in their purse. The first item will definitely be a Sephora lipstick as without lipstick, a woman’s lips may look pale. Choose from the wide range of lipstick shades available from the brand such as nude, pink or bright red and stuff one in your purse. Lipsticks are always a must to carry around especially when after you had a meal. Eating and drinking can cause the lipstick on your lips to fade off; hence, carrying a lipstick around you all the time has its benefits.

 

 

The second item every woman must store in their purse is a Sephora compact powder. Compact powders are used by many women to have a smooth looking flawless face. The compact powder also helps women to prevent their face from shimmer oil and dullness especially living in a hot climate country like Malaysia. Women can find numerous compact powders tones that can complement their true skin colour. Besides that, women can also opt for a natural white compact powder for a lightweight feeling.

 

 

The third must-have Sephora make up for women to own is eyeliner. Eyeliner helps make a woman eyes look bolder and dramatic in its own way. Whether a black eyeliner or brown, women should always have one in their purse or handbag every time they step out of the house. Apply a sleek line on your eyelids and walk out feeling incredibly sexy. If you are who always smudges your eyes, opt for liquid waterproof eyeliner instead of the pencil ones. Interested ladies who are looking forward to add these 3 make up items should check out ZALORA Sephora make up for women collection online.

 

 

“I love the confidence that makeup gives me.”

Ladies! Let's be beautiful on 2015 and don't let it get away~❤

 

 

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WW - A Confession

Hi Bloggers!

 

I’ve been so busy with everything that’s been going on for me lately.  I am sorry for my month-long absence. For those following this blog, it’s not enjoyable to have to wait a month for an update and for that I do really apologize. *Macam ramai sangat nak baca blog I kan~ Lol :P

- A Confession -

Yes. A confession is a statement made by a person or a group of person acknowledging some personal fact that the person (or the group) would ostensibly prefer to keep hidden. So, today I'm want to confess something that related to my working environment.

Almost a year, I have been working practically non-stop. I come in on time, work straight until lunch with no break, sometime, eat a five minute lunch at my desk, work straight through the afternoon with no break, and end up leaving an hour or so after I am supposed to. I have been completing a ton of things. At the same time, I am utterly past capacity at this point. The long work hours are exhausting, especially,  when I don't really have time to collect my thought. The overwork has been taking a toll on my home life, my self-esteem, and my ability to concentrate. But to be honest, I love my jobs. "Boleh dikatakan gaji yang dapat setiap bulan sangat berkat" Alhamdulillah. Until now, I feel like I have to keep doing through all the tasks just to get everything done!

Since you decided to say “weekend is not an excuse” think it's OK to swear at your employees like you do all the time and think next time you treat people the way you do. OK FINE~ I just accepted.

You should know that my patience has its limit and we will never know something would be inside it. Please bear in mind, I am not that kind of person that can tolerate about everything and remain silent or do not dare to fight back.  Ngaummmm!! Grrrr~ :P

I remain silent to show a sign of RESPECT and I don’t feel like scold it out LOUD because I think it gonna make things worst instead of solving problem. Hurmmm~ Sometimes, you just reached the point where I couldn't take it anymore. If you a boss or a leader, say ‘YES’ if you understand me :D

I will calm down by myself. Just give me some space to breathe and time. Not that long. Please, just a little space and time, as I said.

 

P dot S: Wordless Wednesday la sangat! Hahaha~ ❤

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Farlina Heart Work

Hi Dearies and B2B!!! Happy 2014!!!

 

Feel free to visit my page Farlina Heart Work
 

 

 

What I am doing now, it's just a hobby on the side~ ❤

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WW - Mission DONE at Golden Palm Tree - Part 3

 

 

End of story

 

2013~ ❤

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Mission DONE at Golden Palm Tree - Part 2

Continued from PART 1

On my way to GPT, my husband was curious where I'm going to kidnap him. Hahaha. My face just keep smiling. We reached at GPT around 4 pm and my husband said "Ohh kat sini dia nak bawa kita ye".

When I opened the door and said "Tadaaaaa! Here's your surprise!". My husband said, WOW!!! Haha. I knew he's so happy :)

My room was on the first stem, it was the Premier Travelers Palm Villa which is so cosy. It's well designed and cleverly thought off with quality furniture and finishings. It has a balcony where you can lounge around which over looks the sea. It's really nice!! 

I've celebrated his birthday and our celebrations in our room. Okay, let's see our best photos. 

Then, we quickly took the buggy ride to Perahu Restaurant across the villas to fill an empty stomach couple while enjoying the sound of the waves on the beach. It was just so peaceful and romantic. Hahaha. The meal was just nice. After dinner, it was time to doze as it has been a long day. 

So, please stay again for my next post on what we are going to do next on Part 3~ ❤

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Mission DONE at Golden Palm Tree - Part 1

Hi dearies,

It's been 3 MONTHS since my last post. There is no one reason for it. It just sort of happened. I have a lot of posts in the draft stage but I haven't been able to work on them long enough to be ready for publishing. I've always been torn between the ideas of just getting thoughts down or spending the time to make sure a piece is thought out and well written. I seem to have a hard time finding the middle ground. And no matter what I do, I'm never quite happy with the result.

In the past, I've said about " Double Triple Celebrations ". The place that we were celebrated together --- Golden Palm Tree Iconic Resort and Spa, Sepang.  We stayed at this resort for 3D2N. My mission to make a surprise for beloved husband is achieved successfully. :)) It was indeed a lovely stay, the surroundings and ambiance was wonderful.

Chronology of double triple celebrations: Lol :P

28th February 2013: A wife mentioned to her husband that she took half day off on 1st March 2013. *Sebenarnya ini adalah bohong sunat. Hahaha.

1st March 2013: Around 9 AM, I drove to Gracious Flowers Suppliers, Pandan Jaya to purchase the roses. It's so cheaper there. *RM 10 untuk 15 kuntum. Untung sangat sebab ada promosi masa ni :)

Around 10 am,  I took a good look at one of  Baskin-Robbins' cake at Ampang Point.

Around 10.30 am, I drove alone to Golden Palm Tree Iconic Resort and Spa. *Nak buat kejutan sangat kan, sampai sanggup pergi dulu untuk buat segala persiapan. Haha. I know by this time, my husband still wondering at home. Hahaha.

Yes, finally I arrived there around 12.30 pm. The trip to Golden Palm Tree is about 2 hours’ drive from KL, depending on how fast you drive but keep in mind drive safe. I was super excited by the time I reached the entrance. And thanks to Allah, I got early check in without pay. Haha. After the check in I was whisked away by buggy to my room. So cool!

The journey of decoration by myself began at 1 pm. Hahaha. 

Notes: Just temporarily left the cake in cafe, there. *Takut cair nanti, tak sempat nak tiup lilin. Lol ;)

- Blow up the heart shaped balloon

- Arrange the 15 of red roses

- Put 2 gifts & cards. One of the gifts is for his birthday and another one for our 1st anniversary.

While my husband keep calling me and said:-

*Yang, u tak balik keje lagi ke? Dah pukul 2 ni. Kata nak buat surprise"

Hahahahah! Pity of him but I'm so satisfied with the decoration and need to back to home as soon as possible to pick up my husband.

Romantik tak I? Kahkahkah!

zuzuku -- cc< -- to be continued

Part 2 next~ ❤

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WW - Vacation is coming !!!

1 day to go~ ❤

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Mission: 80%

Hi bloggers! Happy Wednesday :)

Planning a surprise celebrations for my loved ones is not as easy as it seems, because I need to keep it a secret. Hahaha! Hope, he doesn't read my blog :P *Lagipun dia tak suka baca blog lah~ :)

The only thing that I need to do is start planning well in advance so he doesn't suspect my "strange behavior", just before his birthday. Lol. I think, everything goes well now. All arrangements are running smoothly and follow the schedule. Here's the schedule. Please don't laughing when you're seeing this schedule. Hahahaha! 

I need to take care by myself, the rest of the arrangements such as booking the venue, decorating it, arranging for the meals, booking the birthday cake, and buying him his birthday gift.

The place, the cake and the red roses done booked on last week. Just pick up on 1st March 2013. The cards, candles and heart shaped balloons also done purchased. But the gift is still pending. So, this mission will be continued on this coming Saturday. Hahaha.

I hope, with these great ideas, I am sure my man is going to have the biggest smile on his face during that day ;)

Wish me luck~ ❤

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Just Keep Smiling :)

Done booked this place for our double-triple-celebrations.

It's a place that can thrill your senses as well as give you blissful relaxation :)

When it comes to activities, there's just too many things to do! Endless outdoor activities like water sports, beach sports, mangrove tour, the spa, things I can enjoy with my beloved husband.

I'm super in love with these adorable heart shaped balloons and rose petals! Just get these ideas for decoration in our room :P

"hello, we're in love"

Will update after 1st March 2013 :) 14 days to go~ ❤

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