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woo woo..

hello... did i promise to write but i didnt.. realised i just lost all my readers but nevermind.*self comfort* life still goes on.. bah.

I've changed my header again... it's true... i am hitting a mid life crisis officially this year. sad sad.. cos yes, i still live with my parents... nyeh. i still have the same old job..... i am not sure whether i am underpaid but i think i am.. and my work is not productive... ughhhhh... , i still get misunderstandings from others thinking i am a butch. its not true.. just that i dont have a bf.bleh. and no i am not picky at all. swear.AND i dress casual.

i am a minimalist. why? because even my bank account is always minimum. hah beat that. so when i reflect on this. ugh. just 3 letters. SAD.

So how was 2009? roller coaster ride. massive one.

personal life. hah not so much la. getting old. there are times when my friends ask me how am i.. i really dont know what to respond to that. i've always have the thought that minor problems are what people are not interested in. But of course, Rex went missing in November and it was really devastating. no closure but i am quite sure that he is in a happy place. otherwise i'd already have a nightmare. then came coco... Dont get me wrong, she is not a replacement but i got a smaller dog so that if rex (i still have hope) comes back, we can still keep both. :) Still no bf. damn sad right. but i was never looking forward if not this blog will be filled with all the mushy stuff. hehe.


that apart. i have been wanting to resume my studies but.. no money and no time to do part time. so... its still in the pipeline till maybe i am 50. that also if i can survive that long.

work life. even if you have the best job in the world. something will suck. i dont dread going to work but i am beginning to be have no directions :(. enough said.

its been tough but lets just talk about the random better ones.

manage to meet Beatrix, my niece all the way in London. cute lil thing.. we still talk on skype but nothing like a real experience. she's a charm. but as i write, her mom is already expecting her little brother.. so .. its just a matter of minutes...

i manage to celebrate my birthday abroad this time. in Thailand. It was a norm for us to celebrate together and jack (whom shares the birthday month) was in thailand at that time... so we promised to go celebrate with him and so they arranged that i had the privilege to enjoy the view of scirocco. if it wasnt for my colleague and also friends who were willing to accomodate to take me there, i wouldnt have had the chance. the experience is just ... spectacular... thanks to my friends.. i was able to enjoy myself.

i sold off my slr....simply cause i dont really use it and also i thought i wanted to buy a better branded one..but... no money so .. that's just me being ambitious. but yea. anyways.. it was all good..

As well, my buddy Dush came back to KL for a visit. it was brief but we had alot of catching up.. bitching and stuff.. was pleasant. funny that i changed my number and he didnt know.. so he was already back for 2 days and i didnt respond to his sms.. BUT I PLACED IT ON FB!!! duh..

all in all.. it wasnt that miserable but more time spent with mostly family and my bunch of understanding friends. That apart, i have been trying to exercise (yea yea laugh all you can) twice a week and it has been consistent unless i have to travel. not so much of losing weight yet cos i still lurve food but more to at least getting my heart to pump. nyeh.

i do hope for a better 2010 (all the time).. blogging can sometimes be side line because of this various plurk and twitter and lots more.. not easy but will not give up bloggin just yet. but i am more active in plurk and twitter...

see you soon and a happy 2010.

Reports, work & travel

shit.. its been like what? 2 months plus... this is the worst of my habit and it is starting to kick in. When i started this blog, i wanted to test myself of journalism (with or without any readers for that matter) and try not to give up.... for the past couple of weeks, i was really thinking deep to whether i should just quit this blog...... hrm......i am still thinking but here i am just trying to write?

Fact is at work, it seems somewhat.. stagnant... maybe because it's Puasa month and the product that i worked on wasnt as smooth as i thought.. duh. On the other hand, being pressured by my bosses to perform can sometimes be a killer *rant.

So that has basically been my routine. Report, work and these few weeks massive travelling.

This blog used to be anonymous towards my colleagues until..... my current boss found my blog. Wtf. sigh sigh. i will then have to be slightly more careful with words or work related rants. tee-hee. i hope he doesnt rss me. if not.. tua kee la......

as for personal issues...none of so much it is. but i have been trying to improve the quality of my life. I am starting to exercise oppose to me not exercising at all..so i hope thats a good thing... going for weekly body combat.. thats quite sad la.. only once a week. if i travel.. i dont do shit.. i try to swim sometimes when i am at random hotel.. but i can tell you its not easy... still trying.

Thing is, i have been considering whether to end blogging. so many points from here and facebook and twitter has practically taken over all these.. whats there left, really? bigger names like Kennysia or 5xmom can sustain i guess. *stress*

That apart, yes, from my last written entry, i did mention about being in BKK and YES i went ahead. i had so much fun... it was relaxing and SLOW, just the way i liked it.. i had good company and good time shopping. tho i came back with a broken arm and leg (lots of moolah involve)... but i was happy. That apart, my birthday was ....... alright ... i guess... didnt really have a birthday cake (was a cup cake) with a darling friend....just a delayed dinner with my family..makan with colleague and that was it.. that was how i turned 28.

huhuhuhu..

So many random things in a long list. A close uncle passed away when i was in BKK... sigh sigh. was very upset because his wake period is when i was in BKK and mom told me that it wasnt necessary to come back. He die the 1st morning i was in BKK. Collapsed at his place and never survived. So sad. He will be missed..

Anyway .... i went to the KL bird park....nice bird... was abit stuffy but it was alright.. oh so many shots i took, i kinda like the one below....

looking up... to the sky... waiting...just waiting..

holy shit

i am so back...

ok.. sorry for the MIA.. i am indeed getting busy... fact is i am going to BKK late July.. sadly my projects has been pushed towards that dateline which might infact the trip but i will beg and cry if my boss wont let me go...

facebook and plurk can be a killer to blogs... i think i lost the will to write.. i have actually never been a writer.. unlike a few of my blogger friends who are really gungho bout writting... really have this skillful flair to it..

Anyway .. apart from my bitter life at work... my mom has not been feeling too good. She has been recently admitted to IJN again for a check up and stay for a few nights. Her condition is not as critical and she will have to go for a procedure on Monday.

As for my life.. i have been taking up swimming to lose weight.. i have to la.. thread milling sometimes but swimming is indeed better... so looking for kaki now.. more for a private pool so that no one kacau me. kakakaka...not bad la right? for starters..

the rest goes back to my mundane schedule as i struggle to save money and pay off my card.. dont owe that much but i do know how it feels like to have zero in your bank account. shucks.

sigh.

ok back to work.. poof*

random thoughts version 1.280434737740932809820318293 wtf

longest time not being here ... ok ok i am back. Sorry.. since i took over a new portfolio.. i am struggling to keep afloat (excessive fats didnt help).. So i will do this quick and least painful... 

writing on a sunday night.. my heart beats slightly faster because i will have a first presentation of my learning for the past 1/2 months to my bosses.... somewhat a big project but picking it up from scratch, its real difficult. 

Of recent, i have been plurking like nobody's business at the office and attending events which is compulsory to witness. ugh. real boring. I met my boss at this school play which was quite interesting... i had so much fun laughing...until my boss told me half of the additional works i have to get done... i am not even halfway there yet with the current.. gulp gulp.. lots to learn... lots to learn.. 

So thats just my mundane life by far... on a different note, i am heading to Bangkok for the weekend late July for an early celebration with my gang of friends... and yes.. i will try to update more often but i have to be in a low radar.. my boss reading leh!...

oh someone send me flowers....

LOL. :) OK LA... not real, not plastic but rubber...wahaha

emo starting

i revert to my old faithful.. this blog to start my ramblings again as i can see that i have begun to have a little life back again. 

Hello everyone. So sorry to have been away for so long and just randomly putting up pictures of my niece which i miss so much.. she must be talking already. 

Anyway... so much history in the past few months which left me somewhat so tired but yet melancholic... Of course, the big chunk of my life is more to work, work, work.. Ultimately, i pause at a question which never cease to haunt my thoughts.... 'when will it ever be enough?' or.. 'what have you done to be outstanding?'.. these was the few questions which was being thrown to me when my new boss came on board... 

My previous boss left for a greener pasture. A colleague of mine asked whether i miss my boss.. and we both agreed that we miss him ... oh well at least for me.. when i have that melancholic feeling. haha.. This was quite recent and for me, it has been a rough journey and somewhat pleasant but I failed to achieve what i thought would have made me position myself to deserve. That was really a depressing bit but well.. life goes on.. 

So i have moved on to secure a better future to myself. Making internal enquiries for a transfer to a potentially satisfying job (i hope), rather than just taking up an administrative role. My soon to be new boss asked me 'so what if i cant take you in?' I answered that i would have to look outside. So i am all charged up to give it another go before i bitch slap my face and admit it's not really working. wee-hee :D

That apart, i have been quite worked up these few weeks after Wendy and Beatrix left back to UK. For some reasons was to clean up the place, we got new door installed (which left me half broke) and the freaking door is not really nicely installed.... aih.. teaches you that cheap stuff is no good.. sigh... regret regret! next week we will have new awnings.. have to rearrange my pathetic garden.. and loads more ambitious things to do but that if i have HELP! the only abled person in the house is my brother and he have to ikut mood de... sien.. 

Last week was quite alright.. i watched Talentime by local Yasmin Ahmad with Clem..prolly the only kaki that needs a kaki..... not a bad movie actually.. I jumped at the opportunity because i thought that Harith Iskandar (pffftt celcom sucks) is really a funny guy though i like Afdlin Shauki better...BUT I CRIED LIKE A COW INSTEAD.. nia sing.. emo shit i tell you.. 

Cant give you a rating because i suck at it but it's really quite a good screen play and storyline. Not bad for a malaysian movie. really. :)

I also had an early celebration for Shah... my buddy who has been really good friends.. We celebrated in Chilis..a low key one with a few friends.. we had a good time.. talking..laughing.. making fun of everyone including ourselves.. so so fun... 

see.. fat tummy... double chin... and fatty food... ugh... but we had lots of fun!

There's this other dilemma here...i am in the midst of deciding between an Iphone 3g - 8gb and a Nokia 5800.. who can give me some inputs? would be real greatful!!!!! HELP!...