Thanksgiving is on Thursday! I love spending time with my family and eating delicious food. And I usually love stuffing myself and feeling it is more acceptable than any other day. :D This week, right after my breakthrough, I don't want to get off track. And the thing is, I can still enjoy all the things I want to and even eat more than I usually do and still stay on track.
I am saving all 49 weekly points for Thanksgiving day. Which means I will have the 29 normal daily points plus my weekly points. 78 points total! That seems like a lot, but Thanksgiving has so many yummy, high points foods that only come a few times a year.
So here's my plan:
**Thanksgiving morning: Go for a run! YAY!
**Eat breakfast- banana smoothie, 1/2 cup milk, 1 1/2 frozen bananas = 1 pt.
1 hard boiled egg = 2 pts.
**Make food for the the two family dinners I have to go to
**Eat a healthy snack of cucumbers, grapes, or a green salad before going to 2:00 lunch if I am hungry = 0 pts.
**2:00 lunch with my family: Follow plan for eating *Focus on People not Food* *Eat SLOWLY* *Drink lots of water*
**5:00 dinner with Brandon's family: Follow plan for eating *Focus on People not Food* *Eat SLOWLY* *Drink lots of water*
**Drink WATER all day like I normally do!
Here are my plans and the points for the two Thanksgiving meals. I will most likely be using all my daily and weekly points. At least that's what I've planned. I may be too full to eat all this food, but I'm trying to be realistic and give myself everything I want to eat.
Dinner 1:
2 ounces turkey= 2 pts.
1/2 cup mashed potatoes= 3 pts
1/4 cup canned turkey gravy=1 pt
1/2 cup stuffing= 5 pts
1/4 cup sweet potatoes= 3 pts
green bean casserole=5 pts
roll= 5 pts
1 tsp margarine= 1 pt
piece of pecan pie= 14 pts
Total: 39
Dinner 2:
2 ounces turkey with skin=3 pts
1/2 cup mashed potatoes= 3 pts
1/4 cup canned turkey gravy= 0pts (because a whole cup is one point and I've already counted it above)
1/2 cup stuffing= 5 pts
green bean casserole= 5 pts
roll=5 pts
margarine= 0 pt (I've already counted it above. I TBSP is 1 pt and I'm only having 2 tsps.)
piece of apple pie= 11 pts
1/2 cup ice cream= 4 pts
Total: 36 points
Total for Day= 78 points
I don't really want to eat that many points. So I'm going to try not to. I don't want to feel horribly stuffed, but I want to get everything I want. Maybe I won't want mashed potatoes at both dinners for instance, but it's there if I need it.
This is the first year ever that I counted all the points out for Thanksgiving, even when I was on WW before!
I'm so excited to lose weight this week! If I can lose weight this week, I can do it any week!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
My Breakthrough
I'm back :) And unfortunately heavier than when I stopped writing. Actually, I gained back all the weight I lost my first time on Weight Watchers. Disappointing, I know. Most of that weight (about 20 pounds) was gained this summer, in about 2 months. Crazy. CRAZY. I can't believe it and it used to make me a little sick to think about it. But I've owned up to it and I'm doing better, so it's easier to swallow.
If you had asked me a week ago why I gained so much weight I would of told you I was stressed and depressed. I didn't have a job, I went from crazy busy to nothing to do, I had just graduated and had a huge financial load I couldn't do anything about... and so on. But now, I believe there is only one real reason. I gained weight because of my choices. And I realize that now. I hadn't owned up to it, and had blamed my weight gain on things that were not in my control. But here's the thing, people. I AM in control of my own weight. It finally hit me. If my boyfriend is reading this now he may be saying, Hallelujah! because he has been telling me this forever.
Do you know how empowering it is to realize it's up to you? I have an eating disorder. I overeat compulsively. It's actually called compulsive eating disorder. I used to be bulimic. Which is bingeing and then purging. Stopped the purging, but not the bingeing, and the weight crept up. Okay, it didn't really creep, it was running full force.
Yes, it sucks. Yes it is SUPER hard to not give in to cravings. And I thought it was stronger than I am. But it's not. And that's something I had to learn. I had to believe in myself. Last weekend Brandon and I were talking about another aspect in my life that I wasn't taking control of: my emotions and responding to frustration. There are a lot of things that can influence my emotions. Two main things are when I am tired and when I am on my period. I have a harder time being kind, patient, understanding, and I usually make a bigger deals out of things than they are. But that is not to say that I can't still control my emotions. It is harder to make a good choice on how I will respond to those increased emotions, but that's not to say I can't still make a good choice. No matter how strong those emotions are, I am stronger.
Yesterday was an emotional day. I had to work 2-6. About an hour before I was going to leave I kept thinking that all I wanted to do was go to the store, grab a family size Totinos frozen pizza, eat it all myself and veg out on my bed. So I texted my awesome friend and weight loss partner, Mandee, and told her what I wanted to do. Putting it out there made me more aware and her encouragement helped me to make a good choice. And I did. Sometimes the urge is so strong to eat something is SO incredibly strong that I feel like a crazy person. Believing I can do it helps me to not let the feeling get so out of control.
Tonight I knew we were going to a family member's house for dinner. I didn't know what they were having for dinner, but I did know that they always have dessert. I was really hungry before I left my house so I grabbed some cucumbers to munch on the way there, and some sweet grapes to eat while everyone else eats dessert. Speaking of which, they are all eating ice cream with syrup right at this moment. I am not. :D
I could eat some ice cream on a normal week. I am doing Weight Watchers and have weekly points to use. But, Thanksgiving is on Thursday and I'd rather save my points for my grandma's pecan pie I only get twice a year. And that piece of pie is 14 points, so I need all the points I can get. (To put it into perspective, I get 29 points for a whole day. So that piece of pie is half my daily points. I get 49 weekly points I can use all week or all in one day). Points are calculated on protein, carbs, fiber, and fat.
This has been long. But the main point is, I can do this. And I believe that. And it's getting easier to use my power to make good choices each time that I rise above a food temptation.
If you had asked me a week ago why I gained so much weight I would of told you I was stressed and depressed. I didn't have a job, I went from crazy busy to nothing to do, I had just graduated and had a huge financial load I couldn't do anything about... and so on. But now, I believe there is only one real reason. I gained weight because of my choices. And I realize that now. I hadn't owned up to it, and had blamed my weight gain on things that were not in my control. But here's the thing, people. I AM in control of my own weight. It finally hit me. If my boyfriend is reading this now he may be saying, Hallelujah! because he has been telling me this forever.
Do you know how empowering it is to realize it's up to you? I have an eating disorder. I overeat compulsively. It's actually called compulsive eating disorder. I used to be bulimic. Which is bingeing and then purging. Stopped the purging, but not the bingeing, and the weight crept up. Okay, it didn't really creep, it was running full force.
Yes, it sucks. Yes it is SUPER hard to not give in to cravings. And I thought it was stronger than I am. But it's not. And that's something I had to learn. I had to believe in myself. Last weekend Brandon and I were talking about another aspect in my life that I wasn't taking control of: my emotions and responding to frustration. There are a lot of things that can influence my emotions. Two main things are when I am tired and when I am on my period. I have a harder time being kind, patient, understanding, and I usually make a bigger deals out of things than they are. But that is not to say that I can't still control my emotions. It is harder to make a good choice on how I will respond to those increased emotions, but that's not to say I can't still make a good choice. No matter how strong those emotions are, I am stronger.
Yesterday was an emotional day. I had to work 2-6. About an hour before I was going to leave I kept thinking that all I wanted to do was go to the store, grab a family size Totinos frozen pizza, eat it all myself and veg out on my bed. So I texted my awesome friend and weight loss partner, Mandee, and told her what I wanted to do. Putting it out there made me more aware and her encouragement helped me to make a good choice. And I did. Sometimes the urge is so strong to eat something is SO incredibly strong that I feel like a crazy person. Believing I can do it helps me to not let the feeling get so out of control.
Tonight I knew we were going to a family member's house for dinner. I didn't know what they were having for dinner, but I did know that they always have dessert. I was really hungry before I left my house so I grabbed some cucumbers to munch on the way there, and some sweet grapes to eat while everyone else eats dessert. Speaking of which, they are all eating ice cream with syrup right at this moment. I am not. :D
I could eat some ice cream on a normal week. I am doing Weight Watchers and have weekly points to use. But, Thanksgiving is on Thursday and I'd rather save my points for my grandma's pecan pie I only get twice a year. And that piece of pie is 14 points, so I need all the points I can get. (To put it into perspective, I get 29 points for a whole day. So that piece of pie is half my daily points. I get 49 weekly points I can use all week or all in one day). Points are calculated on protein, carbs, fiber, and fat.
This has been long. But the main point is, I can do this. And I believe that. And it's getting easier to use my power to make good choices each time that I rise above a food temptation.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
For ME
I hope you all know that this blog is mostly for myself. I used to write in a journal with an actual pen. So sometimes on here I'll get emotional and vent about something. Like the last post. It is therapeutic for me. It's like I can convince myself more of things when I put it down in writing.
Last week I decided to try the Slim*Fast shakes. I have been really busy and find the task of planning 3 Healthy meals and snacks tiring and overwhelming. I just didn't want to think about it anymore! I'm usually running out the door in the mornings, eating in my car, going from school to work to school again... Mondays and Wednesdays have been the hardest. This has been my schedule lately. 9-11:30 I am tutoring two students in Reading. 12-4 I am working. 4:35-7:05 I am in class. So there's no time to get anything to eat, I have to have it all ready, or I'll result to fast food or not eating at all. Which both make me feel like crap.
I actually enjoy the taste of the shakes. And the meal bars. The shakes I like better. It's so fast and convenient when I am running out the door. They have about 200 calories, protein and fiber so it keeps me full for a couple of hours until I can eat some fruit or nuts as a snack. I put one in the freezer for a bit and it was delightful! Just a little bit icey. The only kind I have tried is the Chocolate Royal.
I usually don't like "fake" stuff, at least I try to avoid it. But it's not every meal, and I don't eat the snack bars, just have some fruit, nuts, FF popcorn,etc. so I don't feel so bad. It's actually making me more regular. (I know you all care about that) haha. But it makes me feel good.
Okay folks I am at 154 lbs. today.
Here's the deal. I can't afford WW meetings anymore. So I didn't go last week and gained a little back. I am really stressed with money. I only got 15 hours in 2 weeks when they cut back hours and that just doesn't pay the rent. So I gained. But I am down to 154. I feel like I have been here so many times. If I can just beat that 154 this week I will feel great.
I am moving in with my sister Jen end of August when my lease is up so I hope that will help with my stress. I am excited to live with her! I lived with Marissa, now it's Jen's turn. :) My family takes such good care of me.
My celebration today is that I REALLY wanted pancakes and sausage last night at midnight and DIDN'T make them! Thanks Brandon for the encouragement.
Here's to a great busy week!
Last week I decided to try the Slim*Fast shakes. I have been really busy and find the task of planning 3 Healthy meals and snacks tiring and overwhelming. I just didn't want to think about it anymore! I'm usually running out the door in the mornings, eating in my car, going from school to work to school again... Mondays and Wednesdays have been the hardest. This has been my schedule lately. 9-11:30 I am tutoring two students in Reading. 12-4 I am working. 4:35-7:05 I am in class. So there's no time to get anything to eat, I have to have it all ready, or I'll result to fast food or not eating at all. Which both make me feel like crap.
I actually enjoy the taste of the shakes. And the meal bars. The shakes I like better. It's so fast and convenient when I am running out the door. They have about 200 calories, protein and fiber so it keeps me full for a couple of hours until I can eat some fruit or nuts as a snack. I put one in the freezer for a bit and it was delightful! Just a little bit icey. The only kind I have tried is the Chocolate Royal.
I usually don't like "fake" stuff, at least I try to avoid it. But it's not every meal, and I don't eat the snack bars, just have some fruit, nuts, FF popcorn,etc. so I don't feel so bad. It's actually making me more regular. (I know you all care about that) haha. But it makes me feel good.
Okay folks I am at 154 lbs. today.
Here's the deal. I can't afford WW meetings anymore. So I didn't go last week and gained a little back. I am really stressed with money. I only got 15 hours in 2 weeks when they cut back hours and that just doesn't pay the rent. So I gained. But I am down to 154. I feel like I have been here so many times. If I can just beat that 154 this week I will feel great.
I am moving in with my sister Jen end of August when my lease is up so I hope that will help with my stress. I am excited to live with her! I lived with Marissa, now it's Jen's turn. :) My family takes such good care of me.
My celebration today is that I REALLY wanted pancakes and sausage last night at midnight and DIDN'T make them! Thanks Brandon for the encouragement.
Here's to a great busy week!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday... well Thursday morning now...*groan*
So I'm still awake even though I was exhausted when I got home at 9:30 tonight. I helped Brandon with a flat tire this morning, rushed to tutoring at 9:30 til 11:30, rushed to work to be there at 12, worked til 4 and then rushed to the U to be there for my 4:35-7:35 class.
And I haven't been eating good. So I'm tired and grumpy and really mad at myself for staying up late and eating bad this week. Plus I haven't felt good this week. I didn't plan at all. Ugh. I NEED TO PLAN. Seriously just do it Amber. Stop being lazy.
So I'm nervous I gained this week. I don't weigh for a few days when I think I've been bad because I don't want to know. So I am not sure of the damage yet.
Tomorrow I am going to plan. And I am going to run. It doesn't matter what happened today. I still have control over tomorrow.
I still have control over tomorrow. And I have control over going to bed now so I can get good sleep. Good night.
And I haven't been eating good. So I'm tired and grumpy and really mad at myself for staying up late and eating bad this week. Plus I haven't felt good this week. I didn't plan at all. Ugh. I NEED TO PLAN. Seriously just do it Amber. Stop being lazy.
So I'm nervous I gained this week. I don't weigh for a few days when I think I've been bad because I don't want to know. So I am not sure of the damage yet.
Tomorrow I am going to plan. And I am going to run. It doesn't matter what happened today. I still have control over tomorrow.
I still have control over tomorrow. And I have control over going to bed now so I can get good sleep. Good night.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I made it through a Wedding...
...and still lost .8 lbs!!
Down to 155. 2. Of course I wish I was at goal right now but at the same time I'm okay with it. I haven't been stressed about it because I set a reasonable goal, a pound a week. I'm feeling really good!
My goal this week is to get on track with my running training plan and write down what I eat.
Down to 155. 2. Of course I wish I was at goal right now but at the same time I'm okay with it. I haven't been stressed about it because I set a reasonable goal, a pound a week. I'm feeling really good!
My goal this week is to get on track with my running training plan and write down what I eat.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Friday Review - Yogurt Creamies
Hey y'all! If you haven't tried Yogurt Creamies you should!
There are 3 flavors Chocolate, Raspberry and Peach.
Only 105 calories each and 1.2 grams of fat. That's 2 Weight Watchers points.
They are really yummy! I have only tried the raspberry and chocolate.
A Perfect summer treat to satisfy your sweet tooth.
Convenient.
Fast.
Delicious.
On sale at a Fresh Market and Smith's.
Sold by each flavor separately but can get a big multipack at Costco with all 3 flavors.
What more can I say? I love 'em.
There are 3 flavors Chocolate, Raspberry and Peach.
Only 105 calories each and 1.2 grams of fat. That's 2 Weight Watchers points.
They are really yummy! I have only tried the raspberry and chocolate.
A Perfect summer treat to satisfy your sweet tooth.
Convenient.
Fast.
Delicious.
On sale at a Fresh Market and Smith's.
Sold by each flavor separately but can get a big multipack at Costco with all 3 flavors.
What more can I say? I love 'em.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Self Control
Okay folks, I know some of you were interested in running the 5k with me so get on it!! :) See the previous post for instructions. Signing up is good motivation to start training.
Last night I saw my boyfriend Brandon's show he's doing. Afterwards we hung out with some friends and there were donuts and brownies and ice cream. I had already had a spoonful or two of funfetti canned icing earlier, since I was feeling down (stupid I know, it wasn't even that good) so I didn't even have one bite of treats. I couldn't believe it! This morning I weighed in at 155 something so I have lost a bit since Friday's weigh in. That's after a rehearsal dinner and wedding! I am really proud of myself.
I threw away the stupid frosting when I got home. I wasn't going to use it for anything and it was just tempting anyways.
Hope everyone's week is going well.
Last night I saw my boyfriend Brandon's show he's doing. Afterwards we hung out with some friends and there were donuts and brownies and ice cream. I had already had a spoonful or two of funfetti canned icing earlier, since I was feeling down (stupid I know, it wasn't even that good) so I didn't even have one bite of treats. I couldn't believe it! This morning I weighed in at 155 something so I have lost a bit since Friday's weigh in. That's after a rehearsal dinner and wedding! I am really proud of myself.
I threw away the stupid frosting when I got home. I wasn't going to use it for anything and it was just tempting anyways.
Hope everyone's week is going well.
Monday, June 21, 2010
5 k Run in September- Wanna Join My Team?
To join my team for the American Heart Association 5k Walk/Run on September 18th click HERE. There are still 13 weeks before the race, plenty of time to train!
Check out these sites for running plans!
http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
http://www.c25k.com/ There's a lot of different running tools at the bottom of the page.
http://www.fromcouchto5k.com/articles/training/the-couch-to-5k-training-plan/ This one seems a little easier to me than the first. Maybe I'll start with this one. Nice mix of walking and jogging and then leading up to just jogging.
Also you can map your runs and find out how far you are going - if you want to run outside, which I love doing now that it's nice weather! Go to http://www.gmap-pedometer.com/
And if you're like me and couldn't figure out how to do it see this: http://www.gmap-pedometer.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=404
Let me know if you've found any other great sites!
Check out these sites for running plans!
http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
http://www.c25k.com/ There's a lot of different running tools at the bottom of the page.
http://www.fromcouchto5k.com/articles/training/the-couch-to-5k-training-plan/ This one seems a little easier to me than the first. Maybe I'll start with this one. Nice mix of walking and jogging and then leading up to just jogging.
Also you can map your runs and find out how far you are going - if you want to run outside, which I love doing now that it's nice weather! Go to http://www.gmap-pedometer.com/
And if you're like me and couldn't figure out how to do it see this: http://www.gmap-pedometer.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=404
Let me know if you've found any other great sites!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Loving it
I couldn't go to Weight Watchers on Sat. like normal since I was in a wedding so I went on Friday. I was really proud I went on Friday. I lost 3.2 pounds!!
The wedding was exhausting. So I don't have much else to say. :)
The wedding was exhausting. So I don't have much else to say. :)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Moving Forward
I told my friend Mandee that I like running because I'm moving forward. I put one foot in front of the other ever so slowly ;) and I MOVE FORWARD. It's hard, but I do it. That's why I love running!
I know I've been talking about losing weight for a long time. And "trying" to lose weight. How hard I've been trying is debatable. I know that what really keeps me on track is going to Weight Watchers meetings and tracking what I eat. I haven't been to a meeting since the end of Jan. Hmmm.... right around the time I lost my job and life kinda fell apart.
So on Sat. I went. I went and weighed in. I talked to my meeting leader and cried a little. I'm 13 pounds over goal weight and feeling it. I had to pay for the meeting since I'm over lifetime goal. And I don't really have the money to do it. Really. Lowe's gave me 10 hours this week and 15 next week. NOT good. BUT I have to do this. And once I get to 148 I won't have to pay anymore! Goal weight is 146 but I can be 2 lbs over.
I weighed in at 159.2. I had eaten Panda Express the night before so most of that must have been bloating since I weighed in this morning at 155-something. I will be happy if I can stay at 155 throughout the weekend. I have a bachelorette party, rehearsal dinner, and wedding this weekend!
I wanted to share my new favorite snack. String Cheese and Turkey Pepperoni! Turkey pepperoni tastes better to me and you can eat 17 for 70 calories.
What's your favorite snacks? This week hasn't been so hard because I haven't been working but when I do work and take breaks in the break room, the vending machine glares at me. Ding Dongs, chocolate donuts, more ding dongs, Twix, M&Ms, chips, soda.... you get the point. I've never been tempted by vending machines but when it's there all the time it's hard. I never drink soda but when everyone else is drinking soda and I'm tired, it's tempting. Maybe I should try some Crystal Light so I have something sweet to drink.
For those of you wanting to join my team I am gettting the info for you! I have to finish this author project for my literature class, before work at 5 so I better go!
I know I've been talking about losing weight for a long time. And "trying" to lose weight. How hard I've been trying is debatable. I know that what really keeps me on track is going to Weight Watchers meetings and tracking what I eat. I haven't been to a meeting since the end of Jan. Hmmm.... right around the time I lost my job and life kinda fell apart.
So on Sat. I went. I went and weighed in. I talked to my meeting leader and cried a little. I'm 13 pounds over goal weight and feeling it. I had to pay for the meeting since I'm over lifetime goal. And I don't really have the money to do it. Really. Lowe's gave me 10 hours this week and 15 next week. NOT good. BUT I have to do this. And once I get to 148 I won't have to pay anymore! Goal weight is 146 but I can be 2 lbs over.
I weighed in at 159.2. I had eaten Panda Express the night before so most of that must have been bloating since I weighed in this morning at 155-something. I will be happy if I can stay at 155 throughout the weekend. I have a bachelorette party, rehearsal dinner, and wedding this weekend!
I wanted to share my new favorite snack. String Cheese and Turkey Pepperoni! Turkey pepperoni tastes better to me and you can eat 17 for 70 calories.
What's your favorite snacks? This week hasn't been so hard because I haven't been working but when I do work and take breaks in the break room, the vending machine glares at me. Ding Dongs, chocolate donuts, more ding dongs, Twix, M&Ms, chips, soda.... you get the point. I've never been tempted by vending machines but when it's there all the time it's hard. I never drink soda but when everyone else is drinking soda and I'm tired, it's tempting. Maybe I should try some Crystal Light so I have something sweet to drink.
For those of you wanting to join my team I am gettting the info for you! I have to finish this author project for my literature class, before work at 5 so I better go!
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