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[30 Oct 2006|02:23pm] |
Looking for something I've never seen
Alone and I'm in between
The place that I'm from and
The place that I'm in
A city I've never been
I found a friend or should I say foe
Said there's a few things you should know
We don't want you to see
We come and we go
Here today, gone tomorrow
Were only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older, you will understand
If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
Were only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand
And again maybe you don't
And again maybe you won't
When you're older
You might understand
When you're older
You might understand
--The Fray
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| It's A Good One* |
[21 Oct 2006|01:15pm] |
I ain't afraid to let it out
I'm not afraid to take that fall
but I've found beyond all doubt
we say more by saying nothing at allIt's autumn baby... that means there aren't just green leaves anymore. I mean there's a variety of vibrant shades of red, orange, and yellow... So I am going to leap into this whole new world... but let's face it winter's on it's way, the death of you... Once that happens baby, once it happens... springs will roll around and you'll want what you can't have. The sun has set on summer, but darlin you'll always have the memories. So try your best to be strong... and don't give in too easilly.
Dollface, you have lost a prize you never deserved in the first place.
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[27 Apr 2004|09:06pm] |
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Post a memory of me in the comments -
it can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal,
and see what people remember about you.
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[25 Apr 2004|11:55pm] |
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I made this entry a public one because I wanted to put this so the McDonalds could see it--
( TO THE MCDONALDS--Collapse )
Never make assumptions.... (you know how this one ends)
ALMOST DONE WITH MY MATH PROJECT!! :)
( Pics!Collapse )
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[15 Apr 2004|02:44pm] |
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I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want.
Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.
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[14 Apr 2004|10:56am] |
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If you love somebody, let them go,
For if they return, they were always yours.
And if they don’t, they never were.
Kahlil Gibran
You don’t love a woman because she’s beautiful,
But she’s beautiful because you love her.
Love is like pi(3.14)—natural, irrational and very important.
Lisa Hoffman
Love; irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
Mark Twain
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.
Some love lasts a lifetime. True love lasts forever.
If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous.
There is a place you can touch a woman that will drive her crazy. Her heart.
Real love stories never have endings.
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| ::Teenage Aphorisms:: |
[22 Mar 2004|12:18pm] |
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NEVER vandalize a pretty smile with your frown.
Listen closely to your enemies, they'll tell you your faults without the sugar coating.
Sometimes something you would naturally blow off or ignore, is precisely what you need in your life.
You don't have to go out looking for more, just enjoy what you've already got. Things will come if they are meant to with time.
Life isn't as predictable as you think it is.
Be whatever you want to be; and have no regrets.
Be yourself, there isn't anyone out there that could be better at being you than you.
Don't worry about what anyone else thinks. If someone is so ignorant that they harass you for you being yourself, it just goes to show that whoever they are; they aren't very smart or cool at all.
My advice to you is don't listen to anyone's advice but your own.
Stop overlooking all the great shit that is presented to you.
Ask others what they think, but always follow your heart.
Don't be jealous; be inspired.
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[02 Mar 2004|02:07pm] |
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thought for the day: if you try to stop something from happening, you know it's going to happen. if you try to keep someone from something, it'll just make them want it even more.
interprete that however you want
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[23 Feb 2004|02:05pm] |
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[22 Feb 2004|01:05am] |
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(Everything I Do) I Do It For You
Bryan Adams
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
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| Reverse the gender: Marty |
[20 Feb 2004|10:46am] |
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"I Can Love You Like That"
John Michael Montgomery
They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your Prince Charming
Would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
You never will forget
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet
All this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
I never make a promise I don't intend to keep
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean
I'm no Casanova but I swear this much is true
I'll be holdin' nothin' back when it comes to you
You dream of love that's everlasting
Well baby open up your eyes
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
If you give me a chance
I can love you like that
You want tenderness-I got tenderness
And I see through to the heart of you
If you want a man who understands
You don't have to look very far
I can love you
I can
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
I will give you my heart
Be all that you need
Show you you're everything that's precious to me
I can love you like that
I would make you my world
Move Heaven and Earth if you were my girl
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[14 Feb 2004|11:52am] |
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happy valentines day
yeah i'll make public entries when i really don't care if even my worst enemy reads it.
something else i should say, about the friends-only thing, i'm changing that to be selective friends-only thing... so leave me a note if you want to be on it otherwise i can still read your journals, but i guess you really won't be able to read mine.
only leave one if you think you can handle it!
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| **FRIENDS ONLY** |
[11 Feb 2004|01:54am] |
From now on, this journal is friends-only comment to be added
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[10 Feb 2004|08:24pm] |
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Erica I'm going to write you a reply tonight or tomorrow, I've been busy w/ classes today to respond to you. So hopefully you'll care enough to read it.
I'm goin to help Lauren set up for Lusi's bday party....
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[10 Feb 2004|12:58am] |
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I write in my livejournal for me to vent not for anyone else or any other purpose. It's for me to vent. I don't think you all get the right messages out of what I say here b/c I don't mean everything I say when I vent. I think it's irrational for decisions about me, my life, the situations in my life, and the people in my life without really truly being a part of my everyday life. Now I don't know who "anonymous" is either but I know the other two aren't a part of my everyday life and it bothers me that you'd make assumptions based entirely upon online interaction. Do you know how easy it is to lie online? You can type one thing and think another. It's really quite simple.
I don't have time to deal with this but I don't appreciate the drama the last entry provoked I guess.... I'm wicked tired it's been a long day so goodnight.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY LUSI!!!
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[09 Feb 2004|02:56am] |
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I just finished my first Portfolio for my Problem Solving class... I ended up doing one problem from each level of difficulty, so I'm pretty proud of myself because within the last two weeks I went from thinking I would never get "6 points" worth of it done, and in the end I did one really difficult/challenging (3 point) problem, a few difficult (2 point) problems, and a lot of tricky but still much easier (1 point) problems. I still have to read two plays for Tuesday night.
I had a lot of fun tonight... me and Nicole went down to meet Fabio to play pool and Steph came down later on as did Fabio's friend Jimmy. Everybody wanted to go to the NB Diner, and I was excited for that because I've only been there once. But at the same time I didn't want to because I didn't think Marty would like it very much and I had math homework. Well somehow plans changed to going to the restraunt On The Border which is on route 99 in Rocky Hill... and everyone talked me into goin although I really was afraid to go... afraid that Marty might get mad at me for it. But then I remembered how last week he told me he wanted me to have fun up here, and so I decided to go. I had a lot of fun. They give you unlimitted freshly cooked tortilla chips and I got a salad and a piece of caramel-cheesecake and WOW it was SO good!!! On the way there me and Nicole went in Steph's car following Fabio who was driving like over a hundred miles an hour... we were going about 95 trying to catch up and I was scared shitless. But then we were on the way back and Marty TMed me and it made me very upset and I think I even started to cry cuz I thought I wasn't going to get to talk to him tonight and he made it out like it was my fault and that I was missing out and I felt like shit so when me and Nicole were getting out of the car Fabio and Jimmy got out and stood out in the cold for a half hour trying to explain to me that I didn't do anything wrong and that if he didn't want to talk to me tonight then that it was him who was missing out and basically telling me that it shouldn't be a big deal if I don't get to talk to him everyday... but well... it's hard to hear because I need him in my life... but at the same time what they said made sense-- because we are in different parts of CT during the week it's hard to communicate efficiently esp with the current rules going on... and I guess Fabio said it best-- "You've got to be able to smile without Marty being around when you're just out with your friends"... or something like that. I guess since I'm always thinking about him and worrying about him it's hard for me to have fun... cuz not a moment goes by where he isn't somewhere in my mind, he has his life with his friends when I'm not around and he enjoys himself, so I should really try to enjoy myself more when I'm hanging out with my friends here. It's going to be really hard, but I'm going to try cuz it can't be healthy to not allow myself to have fun.
Anyway, after that Nicole and me went up to my room then we went over to chill in Lusi and Lauren's room for a while. Then I came back and had a long convo with Amaris about stuff on our minds and finally got that math done.
Tomorrow I gotta read two plays sooo I'm freaking out I won't get it done.
I bought these stop and shop drinks called Clear Splash Sparkling Water Beverage and they are wicked good and they are healthy too. I got the Kiwi-Strawberry flavored ones.
I also bought some vday stuff to work on Martys presents with. I'm having trouble thinking up more ideas for what to do for him.. I mean vday for a girl is easy it's hard for a guy!! Guys don't have any need for flowers and stuffed animals however chocolate is edible and one way to a guys heart is through his stomache lol
Amaris and me decided tonight we wanna buy posters and decorate our room-- I CAN'T WAIT!! Decorating and keeping the place neat will be one hell of a project lol...
Well I'm goin to bed now it's 3 and it's too late and I wish I went to bed earlier but oh well it's the past and ya can't change it and I'm wakin up in 4 hours for class in 6 hours lol gnite.
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[08 Feb 2004|12:41pm] |
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I just deleted everything I was about to post on an entry. It was, I don't know, a solid 6 paragraphs. I just felt uncomfortable posting what it said, so now I digress...
There are a million things I'm thinking about right now. In fact, one of the things from the previous post, I'm trying to fix as we speak.
I re-read emails I sent and recieved a year ago... and it scared me that I have changed so much since then. One e-mail that caught my eye and that I actually read the entire thing which was a conversation I had with an exboyfriend who remains an aquantence telling me that he didn't want to see me get hurt and forewarning me about a very stupid and immature $6 bet going on behind my back. The feeling of rage pumped through my veins just remembering hearing it. I remember how I felt all guys wanted was pussy. And to them, pussy was pussy.
It made me feel a lot better about my life today. For one thing, I think I'm a lot smarter than I was then. On top of that, I'm with Marty still, and still going strong for the past 10 months, and hopefully many more. He isn't like other guys. And I love that about him. He wanted a relationship. He didn't care what anyone else thought about me. He entrusted me with things he wouldn't tell anyone else, or so he told me. He told me he felt lucky to have me in his life. God it sounds too good to be true... He made me feel lucky, and he continues to each day. I guess reading that e-mail reminded me about how lucky I am to have him in my life.
Sometimes I think people take for granted the good things they have in their lives. Sometimes people think about what they want and need more than what the people around them want or need. Like how some people stay up until 430 in the morning knowing full well that they could see their "intimate party" the next day before he or she departs... or how some other people assume that their "intimate party" will want to spend time with them more than writing a 5 page paper and hanging with the "intimate party" 's friends who will be there all week long. I know I'm guilt of it. But I think I'm not the only one.
I guess it's selfish, but I want to be the number one priority, because if I'm not I feel inferior and jealous and worried that if I'm not important, I'm not worth having around... or something like that.
The e-mail wasn't the only thing that made it clear to me that I was lucky to have him though. It's hard to explain but it doesn't really matter.
You make me feel lucky still. I hope I still make you feel lucky.
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Interesting how I barely ate today... i had like 5 tiny bite-size cookies and a plate of salad and a bottle of fruit20 and I'm not hungry at all...
thank god it's time to finally see marty i miss him... a lot.....
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