Just throwing this out into the universe. Something I've had on my mind.
What do you pray for when you are at a loss for words and confused about what God's plan is for you?
Praying for a way to make it.
Do you ever kneel down to say your prayers, and find your self speechless?
For me, it happens often.
What I want to pray for is usually the opposite of what I know I should pray for.
I want to pray and ask God that my situation will somehow be changed and that life can feel comfortable again.
I want to pray to God and report that I did my best that day, instead of giving up, once again.
I want to pray that all of the sadness and hurt will go away.
What I want to pray for and what I should pray for don't always align.
And then all I can pray for is a way to make it.
A way to make it through the next day and way to make it through the struggles that I know lie ahead.
I think alligning your heart with God's will is one of the hardest things we will have to do in this life.
Friday, August 17, 2018
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
enough.
YOU are IMPORTANT.
You are ENOUGH.
YOU are SPECIAL.
You are UNIQUE.
People can imitate but never DUPLICATE you as an individual.
For a huge portion of my life, I have believed that I am never good enough. There is someone always doing more, being smarter, more pretty, more funny, more musical, more athletic, more dedicated. I would take other people's successes and turn them into my failures. I would let it get to my head that I was a failure because I wasn't achieving any of those same successes, nor was I ever going to, no matter how hard I tried. After a while, I let these thoughts become who I was. It became my personality. And I can say from my own experience that the qualities from this personality are not positive ones. It comes with guilt, depression, judgement, anger, pity...all negative things.
Now you are probably expecting to hear this amazing turn around story about how strong I am now and that I no longer feel those feelings. No, instead, this is a WAKE-UP story. Meaning I have been recognizing and realizing what I have been feeling and why I have been feeling that way. I am discovering who I truly am and who I want to strive to become. I am realizing that that person is somewhere inside of me, I just need to remember and recreate that person. I still have a long way to go, but accepting my situation and who I am is the first step in this long journey called life. When those inner saboteurs come in and try to get me to believe that I am not good enough, or smart enough, I am telling them to get the heck out and go back to where they belong. Because I am important, I am enough, I am special, I am unique. And no matter how hard you try, you can never be me :)
You are ENOUGH.
YOU are SPECIAL.
You are UNIQUE.
People can imitate but never DUPLICATE you as an individual.
For a huge portion of my life, I have believed that I am never good enough. There is someone always doing more, being smarter, more pretty, more funny, more musical, more athletic, more dedicated. I would take other people's successes and turn them into my failures. I would let it get to my head that I was a failure because I wasn't achieving any of those same successes, nor was I ever going to, no matter how hard I tried. After a while, I let these thoughts become who I was. It became my personality. And I can say from my own experience that the qualities from this personality are not positive ones. It comes with guilt, depression, judgement, anger, pity...all negative things.
Now you are probably expecting to hear this amazing turn around story about how strong I am now and that I no longer feel those feelings. No, instead, this is a WAKE-UP story. Meaning I have been recognizing and realizing what I have been feeling and why I have been feeling that way. I am discovering who I truly am and who I want to strive to become. I am realizing that that person is somewhere inside of me, I just need to remember and recreate that person. I still have a long way to go, but accepting my situation and who I am is the first step in this long journey called life. When those inner saboteurs come in and try to get me to believe that I am not good enough, or smart enough, I am telling them to get the heck out and go back to where they belong. Because I am important, I am enough, I am special, I am unique. And no matter how hard you try, you can never be me :)
Saturday, October 17, 2015
Foundation
"ROCK BOTTOM BECAME THE SOLID FOUNDATION ON WHICH I REBUILT MY LIFE." -J.K. Rowling
I used to believe I knew what rock bottom felt like, that is, until September.
We all plan out our life. Even if we don't say it out loud all the time. How many kids we would like to have, where we will be in 5/10 years, what our occupation will be, and so on. I'm not sure any of us expect to be blindsided by the trials life throws at us, nor can we prepare ourselves for how it's going to affect the plans that we have all made. Sometimes we may even wish we could pick and choose our trials so that our lives went according to the "plan". Wouldn't that make life so much easier?
Easy is not the point. Easy is not for you or for me. We were all made strong. Stronger than any of us can even comprehend. And I believe it is not possible to recognize that strength until we do hit our "rock bottom." It is through these really really hard times that we all experience, that we are able to tap into that strength and truly learn and grow into the person we were meant to be. But we have the choice. "Victories do not happen by accident." We either choose to give up on ourselves, our family, and God....or we choose to take the trials we've been given and CHANGE. Can we do this alone? Absolutely not. Christ will carry you through, if you allow him to. Friends and family will step in and give you words of support and listen to you when you need a listening ear. People you don't even know will send you sweet words of encouragement and prayers.
I know this because this past month I have experienced it. I cannot put into words the feelings that I have experienced this month, but I know that I NEVER would have made it this far without Christ, friends, family, and even strangers I have come across.
So will this strength keep us from falling apart or feeling like all is lost? Not always. Those feelings will naturally creep in and it is then that we need to remember our strength. The strength that God has put in each of us. It is then that we need to take those rock bottom feelings and start building our foundation that will carry us through eternity.
Doctrine and Covenants 121:7-9
"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; though shalt triumph over all thy foes. Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands."
I used to believe I knew what rock bottom felt like, that is, until September.
We all plan out our life. Even if we don't say it out loud all the time. How many kids we would like to have, where we will be in 5/10 years, what our occupation will be, and so on. I'm not sure any of us expect to be blindsided by the trials life throws at us, nor can we prepare ourselves for how it's going to affect the plans that we have all made. Sometimes we may even wish we could pick and choose our trials so that our lives went according to the "plan". Wouldn't that make life so much easier?
Easy is not the point. Easy is not for you or for me. We were all made strong. Stronger than any of us can even comprehend. And I believe it is not possible to recognize that strength until we do hit our "rock bottom." It is through these really really hard times that we all experience, that we are able to tap into that strength and truly learn and grow into the person we were meant to be. But we have the choice. "Victories do not happen by accident." We either choose to give up on ourselves, our family, and God....or we choose to take the trials we've been given and CHANGE. Can we do this alone? Absolutely not. Christ will carry you through, if you allow him to. Friends and family will step in and give you words of support and listen to you when you need a listening ear. People you don't even know will send you sweet words of encouragement and prayers.
I know this because this past month I have experienced it. I cannot put into words the feelings that I have experienced this month, but I know that I NEVER would have made it this far without Christ, friends, family, and even strangers I have come across.
So will this strength keep us from falling apart or feeling like all is lost? Not always. Those feelings will naturally creep in and it is then that we need to remember our strength. The strength that God has put in each of us. It is then that we need to take those rock bottom feelings and start building our foundation that will carry us through eternity.
Doctrine and Covenants 121:7-9
"My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; though shalt triumph over all thy foes. Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands."
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Preggers.
Did I mention I'm pregnant by the way!? A baby BOY will be joining us May 18th....ish.
I always told my self I wouldn't be the mom that recorded and took pictures of her first child and then forget about the rest of them! Well, here I am 29 weeks pregnant, without one word or thought about this pregnancy recorded! Even though I am so excited for a precious baby boy to join our family, I guess I just get caught up in taking care of Malea and don't think about being pregnant as much. This pregnancy has been very similar to my pregnancy with Malea. Nausea, throwing up until week 16, heartburn everyday, same weight gain....so much for all of the wives tales that say boys and girls effect your body differently! The only thing that is different is we have no idea what we are naming the poor soul. hah I can honestly picture Tanner flipping a coin at the hospital to choose a name for the boy. I am so excited this time around to see Malea interact with a new baby and to teach her not to gouge his eyes out. Here's to two more months!
I always told my self I wouldn't be the mom that recorded and took pictures of her first child and then forget about the rest of them! Well, here I am 29 weeks pregnant, without one word or thought about this pregnancy recorded! Even though I am so excited for a precious baby boy to join our family, I guess I just get caught up in taking care of Malea and don't think about being pregnant as much. This pregnancy has been very similar to my pregnancy with Malea. Nausea, throwing up until week 16, heartburn everyday, same weight gain....so much for all of the wives tales that say boys and girls effect your body differently! The only thing that is different is we have no idea what we are naming the poor soul. hah I can honestly picture Tanner flipping a coin at the hospital to choose a name for the boy. I am so excited this time around to see Malea interact with a new baby and to teach her not to gouge his eyes out. Here's to two more months!
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| Pregnant with Malea at 29 weeks |
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| Pregnant with baby boy Rencher, 29 weeks |
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Look Alikes?
Here is a picture of me as a little girl around 18 months:
Here is Malea at 18 months:
Do you think we look alike?
Here is Malea at 18 months:
Do you think we look alike?
Monday, November 26, 2012
cheeeeese!
This is the face malea gives you if you tell her to smile. It cracks me up every time! She is such a goof ball and we love her!
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Malea at 15 months
Malea is growing up to be the funnest little girl. She loves laughing and everything is a game to her. It is so easy to make her laugh and to play with her. She is what brings us happiness each day!
She is also learning how to throw a tantrum when she doesn't get what she wants and can be quite dramatic at times.... which also makes me laugh. :)
Some of Malea's favorite things......
Favorite food: anything and everything. Could eat a pound of berries though! and MILK. this girl goes through so much milk.
Favorite book: Elmo's counting book, Where's Spot, and all of her "Baby's Firsts"
Favorite Song: Head, Shoulders,Knees, and Toes.
Favorite activities: sorting her clothes in her dresser, and putting on her shoes/jackets, playing with her toy animals, dancing, coloring.
Malea LOVES animals. She has always loved them. She has never been scared of them. Once I was on a walk with Malea and a large dog came right up to her stroller and barked LOUD. It scared me! For sure I thought Malea would burst out in tears. But nope, she starts laughing! She makes almost all of the animal sounds, even weird ones like zebra, rabbit, fish. ha ha it keeps us entertained for sure. A few weeks ago, Grandma Annette sent us a bunch of small plastic animals that malea loves. They keep her entertained for hours!
Malea is slowly starting to say words. Some of the words she says are, hi! hot! blanket (nana) momma, daaaad, more, hat, night night, i love you (eye ya ya) and a bunch of other things we have no idea what she's saying. We half way tried teaching her a couple of signs but the only ones that she does are "eat" (she points to her mouth) and "milk" she opens and closes her fists. She does however understand almost everything we tell her.....no,(she knows this one pretty well :)) close the door, time for a bath, lets brush your teeth, put on your shoes, lets go outside, spin, go downstairs, go get your pajamas/clothes/diaper, go to your highchair, and a bunch of other words I can't thing of right now. I have been surprised at how obedient she is, for right now at least. She grabs diapers for me when she poops, she will get her jacket and shoes when we are trying to get out of the door, and she will go to the bathroom and try to take off her clothes when I tell her time for a bath. It is honestly amazing to see everything she has slowly caught on to these past couple of months.
And Wow, I am realizing that since Malea turned one, I have been a total slacker at taking pictures of her..... so here are the few that we do have.
She is also learning how to throw a tantrum when she doesn't get what she wants and can be quite dramatic at times.... which also makes me laugh. :)
Some of Malea's favorite things......
Favorite food: anything and everything. Could eat a pound of berries though! and MILK. this girl goes through so much milk.
Favorite book: Elmo's counting book, Where's Spot, and all of her "Baby's Firsts"
Favorite Song: Head, Shoulders,Knees, and Toes.
Favorite activities: sorting her clothes in her dresser, and putting on her shoes/jackets, playing with her toy animals, dancing, coloring.
Malea LOVES animals. She has always loved them. She has never been scared of them. Once I was on a walk with Malea and a large dog came right up to her stroller and barked LOUD. It scared me! For sure I thought Malea would burst out in tears. But nope, she starts laughing! She makes almost all of the animal sounds, even weird ones like zebra, rabbit, fish. ha ha it keeps us entertained for sure. A few weeks ago, Grandma Annette sent us a bunch of small plastic animals that malea loves. They keep her entertained for hours!
Malea is slowly starting to say words. Some of the words she says are, hi! hot! blanket (nana) momma, daaaad, more, hat, night night, i love you (eye ya ya) and a bunch of other things we have no idea what she's saying. We half way tried teaching her a couple of signs but the only ones that she does are "eat" (she points to her mouth) and "milk" she opens and closes her fists. She does however understand almost everything we tell her.....no,(she knows this one pretty well :)) close the door, time for a bath, lets brush your teeth, put on your shoes, lets go outside, spin, go downstairs, go get your pajamas/clothes/diaper, go to your highchair, and a bunch of other words I can't thing of right now. I have been surprised at how obedient she is, for right now at least. She grabs diapers for me when she poops, she will get her jacket and shoes when we are trying to get out of the door, and she will go to the bathroom and try to take off her clothes when I tell her time for a bath. It is honestly amazing to see everything she has slowly caught on to these past couple of months.
And Wow, I am realizing that since Malea turned one, I have been a total slacker at taking pictures of her..... so here are the few that we do have.
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| Cindy Lou Who for Halloween |
Friday, March 23, 2012
Park fun
The weather in Wisconsin has been ridiculously warm lately....and I love it! I take malea outside all the time now. She loves being outside and is soo calm whenver we are outside. So there is this park in Cedarburg that is a couple blocks away from us that we go to. Tanner didn't have school and came with us and took a few pics. Malea wasn't exactly sure what to think of the swing the first time, she just kind of had a blank look on her face. But the more we go the more she likes it. Can't get enough of that girls laughs!
The weather in Wisconsin has been ridiculously warm lately....and I love it! I take malea outside all the time now. She loves being outside and is soo calm whenver we are outside. So there is this park in Cedarburg that is a couple blocks away from us that we go to. Tanner didn't have school and came with us and took a few pics. Malea wasn't exactly sure what to think of the swing the first time, she just kind of had a blank look on her face. But the more we go the more she likes it. Can't get enough of that girls laughs!
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| Jada pushing malea! |
So a couple weeks ago, Tan had spring break and we were able to go to the "famous Wisconsin Dells". A cute town in Wisconsin that is made up of indoor water parks. It was pretty fun! We went with a few other families that are in dental school as well. It was soo fun to take malea too. She absolutely loves the water. She squeals, screams, and splashes in excitement. We took her down most of the water slides with us too which was so awesome! haha I'm not sure she knew what was going on exactly but she had a smile on her face as her hair was blowing all over the place. It really was a lot of fun. In my opinion it wasn't as big as we thought it would be, or as everyone talked it up to be, but maybe because we have been to bigger and more thrilling water parks before.
It was great to break up the time and get away for a few days though. I love my little family! Here are a few pics from our trip:
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| The water completely wore her out! she zonked out for a couple of hours so me and tan could go on the thrill seeker rides. |
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| my cute husband waiting for the bucket of water to pour out on him haha |
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Boorred.
Yes, I know...I shouldn't be bored. There are "plenty" of things to do and keep busy with. I just can't think of them. And when I do...they seem meaningless. Never thought I'd say this, but I'm afraid I am turning into one of those moms who never leaves her house, stays home, and puts on the pounds. Malea naps around 4-5 hours a day in total and I find myself wasting countless hours face booking, blogging, and doing things that give no meaning to life. Especially having Malea here, it is usually easier to just stick around at home seeing that she could care less to go out into the freezing cold.
How do other moms stay "busy"? Better yet, how do you stay busy with things of importance, and find the motivation to do them?
Hmm..well I might as well update with a picture of malea while I'm at. Loving this sweet girl, waiting for her to wake up so I can have somebody to play with!
Hope you are all enjoying your busy lives!
Yes, I know...I shouldn't be bored. There are "plenty" of things to do and keep busy with. I just can't think of them. And when I do...they seem meaningless. Never thought I'd say this, but I'm afraid I am turning into one of those moms who never leaves her house, stays home, and puts on the pounds. Malea naps around 4-5 hours a day in total and I find myself wasting countless hours face booking, blogging, and doing things that give no meaning to life. Especially having Malea here, it is usually easier to just stick around at home seeing that she could care less to go out into the freezing cold.
How do other moms stay "busy"? Better yet, how do you stay busy with things of importance, and find the motivation to do them?
Hmm..well I might as well update with a picture of malea while I'm at. Loving this sweet girl, waiting for her to wake up so I can have somebody to play with!
Hope you are all enjoying your busy lives!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
For some reason, whenever I sit down to update this blog, I get completely distracted. SO let's see if I can get through this, here we go..............................
We had a wonderful Christmas spent between Idaho, Washington, and Utah. It was so refreshing to be home, but as usual the time came and flew by way to fast. Can't wait until next time!
Here are some of the highlights:
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| all ready for church in spokane |
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| Malea and Cousin Kyla meeting for the first time. |
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| Such a little cute muffin! |
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| We had a gingerbread decorating contest while we were in Idaho; Mark and Stephanie coming in first, Brian and Ashlee and Tanner and I coming in second, and Alysha and Jared coming in last. Sorry Lysha and Jared, I thought yours was VERY creative! |
Malea and Grandma and Grandpa Hansen
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| grandma and grandpa Hansen and all the Hansen cousins! My whole life, we have gotten together with all the Hansens on Christmas day to celebrate. I was so glad we were able to make it this year. I love my cousins! |
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| Malea and darling cousin Hallie. |
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| My favorite family in the whole world! Cute christmas pjs that my mom puts together every year. |
I have the best in laws ever. It is always a party with them! Here are some pics of the never ending party:
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| Annual fondue party on new years eve. |
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| malea and grandma |
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| the cute newly engaged love birds |
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| amber and bf dustin |
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| Malea wanted to ice skate too |
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| Malea in her dora pajamas from great gma remcher! |
Malea is getting close to SIX MONTHS old! She is becoming more and more fun each day. She is getting quite the little personality and brings so much joy into our home! I am so lucky I get to spend all day with her.
Monday, November 28, 2011
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