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okay, so i'm very excited about the direction my thoughts have been going in lately and i've decided that i need to do something about it. therefore, i am making some changes in my life, and hopefully they will be for the good.
i am leaving Toledo in 4 days to return to Syracuse. i was going to stay a bit longer, but symptoms of my psychiatric disabilities have reared their heads (i was going to say ugly but that would be judgmental and i refuse to do that anymore) and i want to take care of it now rather than allow things to get out of control.
i have talked a lot lately about people seeing me as nonsexual/asexual due to my disability and how much it frustrates me. well, i intend to change that. i'm going to make an attempt to be more aggressive to get what i want. i'm going to put myself out there, as it were, because sitting in my apartment isn't going to get me cock to suck. i also realize that i need to follow through on the things that i say i will do. i intend to be much more vigilant with myself about that.
i've also been complaining a lot about the way my body looks to me, but i've not done anything about it. in fact, i've been sitting on my ass eating crap most of the time and that won't do anymore. as of today, i intend to really be conscious of what i am putting in my body, and i also intend to exercise to some extent every day. i'm not sure what that will look like at this point, but i intend to keep a diary of what i am doing and whatever changes occur as a result.
and, thanks to
sasquatch i intend to keep track of all my physical and mental health issues in either this journal or one created specifically for that purpose.
this is a major step for me, because i tend to sit and complain about people doing the very things that i have been doing for a really long time. and i bitch because i hear people complaining about their lives but not doing anything to change them. then i looked at my life and realized that i have been doing the exact same thing. if i am not willing to take the steps necessary to change, how can i bitch about anyone else who is unwilling/unable to take those same steps.
I WOULD LIKE TO PUBLICLY APOLOGIZE TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES FOR BEING SUCH A HYPOCRITE FOR SO LONG. YOU MAY NOT KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN COMPLAINING ABOUT YOU BUT I HAVE AND I AM VERY, VERY SORRY. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO JUDGE YOU OR THE WAYS IN WHICH YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE YOUR LIVES. I HOPE YOU CAN FIND IT IN YOUR HEARTS TO FORGIVE ME!!!
i know that this is going to be a struggle for me because i've been behaving this way for more than 40 years, but i hope that those of you who know and care about me will support me in this. if you can't/don't, i will understand. i will be sad but i will push forward because change, even when it is difficult, is a good thing. i want to be the best man that i know how to be. for me, this is the beginning of becoming that man.
thank you for taking the time to read this, and much love to you all.
ethan thomas young aka dawg
i am leaving Toledo in 4 days to return to Syracuse. i was going to stay a bit longer, but symptoms of my psychiatric disabilities have reared their heads (i was going to say ugly but that would be judgmental and i refuse to do that anymore) and i want to take care of it now rather than allow things to get out of control.
i have talked a lot lately about people seeing me as nonsexual/asexual due to my disability and how much it frustrates me. well, i intend to change that. i'm going to make an attempt to be more aggressive to get what i want. i'm going to put myself out there, as it were, because sitting in my apartment isn't going to get me cock to suck. i also realize that i need to follow through on the things that i say i will do. i intend to be much more vigilant with myself about that.
i've also been complaining a lot about the way my body looks to me, but i've not done anything about it. in fact, i've been sitting on my ass eating crap most of the time and that won't do anymore. as of today, i intend to really be conscious of what i am putting in my body, and i also intend to exercise to some extent every day. i'm not sure what that will look like at this point, but i intend to keep a diary of what i am doing and whatever changes occur as a result.
and, thanks to
sasquatch i intend to keep track of all my physical and mental health issues in either this journal or one created specifically for that purpose.this is a major step for me, because i tend to sit and complain about people doing the very things that i have been doing for a really long time. and i bitch because i hear people complaining about their lives but not doing anything to change them. then i looked at my life and realized that i have been doing the exact same thing. if i am not willing to take the steps necessary to change, how can i bitch about anyone else who is unwilling/unable to take those same steps.
I WOULD LIKE TO PUBLICLY APOLOGIZE TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND ACQUAINTANCES FOR BEING SUCH A HYPOCRITE FOR SO LONG. YOU MAY NOT KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN COMPLAINING ABOUT YOU BUT I HAVE AND I AM VERY, VERY SORRY. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO JUDGE YOU OR THE WAYS IN WHICH YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE YOUR LIVES. I HOPE YOU CAN FIND IT IN YOUR HEARTS TO FORGIVE ME!!!
i know that this is going to be a struggle for me because i've been behaving this way for more than 40 years, but i hope that those of you who know and care about me will support me in this. if you can't/don't, i will understand. i will be sad but i will push forward because change, even when it is difficult, is a good thing. i want to be the best man that i know how to be. for me, this is the beginning of becoming that man.
thank you for taking the time to read this, and much love to you all.
ethan thomas young aka dawg
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