“waking up before dawn and not being able to get back to sleep

Bitter
I don't ask what you're doing
Or where you've been
I only listen shortly
And then, I think of you
All the messes you made
All the terrible things you do
I wonder if you're still bitter
If you're still a quitter
If you ever got past your selfishness
Your cruelties
Your creepy little ideologies
Your image is gone from my brain
Even though I saw your photos again
But it doesn't matter
Because all I see is a horrible caricature
The creature you once seemed

Too Tired
I'm too tired to care about today
Just let me fall back in bed
I'll probably regret this tomorrow
But right now I'm too tired to care
The world is big and bright
But that ol sunlight is bugging me
Don't want to get up, no thanks
Just let me sleep in all day

Distance
Wouldn't it be nice if we could be together
No cities and states to weather
I'd open the door
Hey you'd be right next door and we could
Laugh and play together
Be proper lovers
We'd never have another late night phone call
Cut off short because I have work in the morning
Yeah you'd be there in the morning
And I'd see your smile instead of hearing it
Through the phone line

Different Food Sites I can use for recipes whenever I am ready to jump into exploring different realms of baking and cooking.

How to Make Sushi
Authentic Shoyu Ramen
Baked Alaska
Fried Rice
Courtesan au Chocolat

THE VIRTUES


TALES & FOLKS INSPIRED


SEABOUND TALES THANKS TO THE SEA


I TOOK A FAIRYTALE AND MADE IT MINE


THE GIRLS OF POWER


RIDICULOUS & CRAZY PLOTS

Ignore this, just story idea that won't leave me alone.

Kartra Zon - Krynite


Qene Crond - Somnite


Verxes Crond - Somnite Dictator / Qene's great-grandfather


Krynite - flying, heat manipulation, solar powered / conquer and supply methodology in alliances of other planets -- all for the good of Krynon

Somnite - brilliant, of the earth, industrial / created by the Krynites to be factory workers until they rebelled under leadership of Verxes Crond and created a home upon the planet Somnan.


plot: After centuries of tensions and backfire between them, Somnan and Krynon come to an agreement. Rather than attempting to annihilate one another, they will unite their races. Through union of two persons of their own planets. Somnite's Dictator offers his great-granddaughter, Qene Crond, while Krynet offers the son of the famous scientist family, Kartra Zon. Kartra will marry Qene upon Somnan, then take Qene with him to live upon Krynon, where Qene will act as ambassador of Somnan and ascertain the cultural transitions of meshing Somnite with Krynite, all while initiating the process by starting a Somnite/Krynite family with Kartra.

issue: Kartra is unfaithful. Qene refuses to share a bed with Kartra because of aforementioned discretions, as well as utter detestation towards her marriage. They've not even consummated their marriage. Kartra often ignores Qene, and Qene sticks her nose into the working class of Krynon and becomes an activist. Later they discover that someone on Krynon wants to fuel the war between Somnan and Krynon and they must band together to combat him and unite their planets.

slowwwwwww build romance.

Just some poetry I came up with. It's just bits and pieces that have been floating in my brain, more from how cool they sound than how I feel.

1. I thought about you today
hope you're doing well
yeah I hope you're okay
I thought about you today
and all the awful things
you said to me
I thought about your face
and I got a little green
I thought about your voice
and suddenly I couldn't bear to hear
all those awful things
and I wonder if you care
but do I know if you're even
just a little bit human
you cruel creature

2. hey guess what ms.mr. hey
I forgot your name today
yeah I'm feeling good, hey hey
I can't even remember your face
or the words you'd say
I just know that you don't
have a cent of decency
if what I remember is actually
are you even listening
doesn't matter
cause I forgot your name

3. well aren't you proud
you stick bug
you quote socrates
as if you were best buds
and you try so hard
to make us feel insignificant
with your big words
and your condescension
but I laugh because I know
that you're a fraud
and you just want to be important
you want everyone to listen
you want to be the star
sorry but Mother Theresa already
you're not exalted
and you're not worshipped
if you ask me, but you won't
hey that's all right, I'll say it so
you know that you are not unique

4. hey Stacey, my friend, my enemy
we were once so close and now
you can't even bear to stand next to me
I told you all my secrets, all my tears
and you went and told everyone, my worst fear
I can think of a couple words that fit you
but I won't say them
no, I won't say them

5. I got my heart stolen by love
yeah he came and swept me up
off my feet, he grinned and said
"I'm here, honey, so let's go play"
and I wanted to tell him "no"
but I couldn't
I don't know his name
or where and who he's been with
but love stole my heart
that's all I know

art by thelilyblack, commissioned by me
So I wanted to have something I can use to brag about Lils with, and this came to mind. So here we have my lovely girls, easily distinguishable from their quirks and features, and then at the center with the drawing pad is Lils.

art by thelilyblack, a present made just for me!

My bb grls.

And now Manga I am reading and listing here so that I can clear up this freaking reading list!

SOREDEMO SEKAI WA UTSUKUSHII : Nike, the fourth princess of the Rain Dukedom and one who holds the power to call forth the rain, travels to the Sun Kingdom to marry Sun King Livius for her country, despite her own reluctance. She soon discovers that the King, who conquered the world in only three years after his ascendance to the throne, is still a child!! Furthermore, for trivial reasons, he has demanded that Nike call forth the rain…!?

DUNGEON NI DEAI O MOTOMERU NO WA MACHIGATTE IRU DAROU KA : The huge labyrinth city, Orario, is the gateway to the huge underground maze commonly known as the “Dungeon”. Its strange name causes excitement, a place to gain honor, and maybe even a romance with a pretty girl. A place where people hold their breath, hoping to gain all they wish for, a place where a solitary young man meets a little "god". "Alright, Bell-kun, follow me! It's time for the "Familiar" initiation rite to happen!" "Yes! I'm going to get stronger!" The fated meeting of a boy who wants to become an adventurer, and the failed god who doesn't even have a single follower. This boy's journey as written by the goddess, "Family's Legend" (Familiar's Myth).

SHINIGAMIHIME NO SAIKON - BARAEN NO TOKEI KOUSHAKU : From AQUA Scans: The strange course of newly-wed life between the death princess and her tyrant husband…

WOLFULL MOON : Tootsuki Yaya can see things nobody else can. One day, she is attacked by a monster-spider, and a puppy comes to her rescue. But when she unties the strange ribbon around its neck, it turns into the Wolf Kind of the demon world! Finally free after a thousand years, he’s out to get the holy maiden who imprisoned him in a canine body for so long. And guess who is her reincarnation..?

INARI, KONKON, KOI IROHA : Fushimi Inari has a hopeless crush on her classmate Tanbabashi. One day, while trying to interact with him, she accidentally humiliates him in front of the whole class. He refuses to accept her apologies, and, to make matters worse, she discovers that he probably has a crush on their incredibly cute classmate Sumizome. She has all these things in mind when she is summoned by Uka-no-Mitama-no-kami, a pale fox goddess. In return for rescuing a little fox-spirit creature before school that day, the goddess offers to grant a single wish of Inari's. Without thinking, she blurts out that she wants to be Sumizome. As one might expect, this wish does not go nearly as well as Inari had hoped, and the kindly goddess breaks a goddess-rule to give Inari the ability to change herself back. Now, Inari can change her own shape at will, and using her new skill is very tempting as she keeps trying to win Tanbabashi's heart. But if Inari flaunts her ability, both she and the goddess might end up in trouble with Amaterasu!

KOUKYUU DAYS - SHICHISEI KUNI MONOGATARI : Hisui, who works for the Golden Rooster Threatre Group, was orphaned when her parents were killed in a giant massacre ten years ago and her brother Kohaku was abducted. One day, she is summoned to the Emperor's palace and only agrees to go because she suspects that he is behind her brother's disappearance. Inspired by "The Story of Saiunkoku".

KOISURU HERB SHOHOUSEN : The day after she lost her job, Renge woke up on a bed in a mansion connected to an herb shop. Then two men of the mansion, Koushirou and Chihiro, suddenly implored her to become their housekeeper. However, the owner Akimitsu refuses to accept it at all… In this cohabiting life with handsome men, a love story is starting to fill this herbal healing space!

BIYAKU CAFE : The popular oneshot “Aphrodisiac Café” has now begun serialization as a series! This time the heroine is a regular customer at the Aphrodisiac Café, Megu. Everyday she takes the time to put on makeup, but the reason for that is… What kind of tea would be suitable for a troubled maiden?

NAN EOMMA NUN APPA : A plain highschool girl, Sun-Nam Bae. She wanted to be free for once in her life, and decided to rebel. But the result of such rebellion.... being a mom?! "Who the heck are you? Where did a ugly pumpkin like this roll in from? You think I was born a man, just to live with a ugly girl like you?" Bravely standing her ground against a spoild young master, Chun-Doong Mah, with her child. Chun-Doong and Sun-Nam's tumultuous diary of raising a child!!

Done with vacation. Back home. Oh how I missed you bed, how I missed you comforter. How I missed you home. Back on this island, back in this rainy weather. Back to where I belooooooooong!

So I decided to share with everyone how I usually conduct research and plot and design things in my RPing. Something to help you guys, too, if you feel they're necessary or just want to learn something new. They've helped me out quite a bit and I'm grateful to the creators because these references really help when I'm in a roadblock kind of pickle.

Writing References
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Ultimate List of Writing Resources
99 Ways To Beat Writer's Block
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Good Sites For Screencaps
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Free Online Image Editing (recced for cropping gifs and writing on gifs, not for resizing)
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Photography of Large Wild Cats
Photography & Sometimes Recipes for Sugary Delights
Desi Theme Fashion Blog
Screencaps of Multitude of Shows
Fairytale Themed Blog (Relevant Fairytales & Obscure Fairytales)
Manors & Castles & Mansions & Estates & Royalties of the World (mostly European)