All i want to do

i heart this song cos it is exactly what i want to do.

dont you guys felt the same way?

Messy

It has been a sad day to me today. Not just work related but more to the fact that I am in a LDM. I hate it the most today or now like never before. This is just not the case of missing my husband and its Monday the day I hate the most!

Part of being married is being there right by your partner, in sick or in health, for richer or poorer. It is in our human nature to be of a help to the person we love. To try give help and support in any form possible whenever it is needed or just to ease the burden for the person we love.

Lately, for almost 2 weeks now, hubby is under alot of stress and extremely busy. I am not exaggerating but I have never seen him like this before. Last thursday, he did not eat anything untill dinner. Yesterday, he said many things that make me worry. He said things like 'there is so much in my head right now, I cant think properly' and ' I feel so helpless as most of the problems are beyond my control'. I almost didnt let him drives back to KL.  At lunch time yesterday, while eating, he keep on trying to send out emails. He sits in front of the laptop almost all day, barely spending any time with me. He goes back earlier than usual yesterday. I worry about him all the way until he reaches home safely.

The reason he has to go back earlier is because he has to go to Singapore today. So he has to pack his stuff. While packing he could not find the Singapore Dollars, Rupiah, and USD that we had changed the day before. So it was very messy last night and I can't do anything but listen and silently cry. Thank God, his parents are at home now so he does not have to battle with Malaysian taxi driver who cannot be on time. His dad sent him off to the LRT Putra station this morning.

He is already on his way as I am typing this. He is going to the airport straight from the office. Tomorrow, he will be in Batam overseeing the project they are doing there. On Wednesday, he will go to a meeting at a hotel in KL right after he step off the plane with his trolley bag. On Thursday, I will spare him the weekly drives back to Kuantan by going to KL after school.

If only we are together, I can make him some packed lunch so he could eat in the office and saves him the time as he does not have to go for lunch.

If only we are together, I can help him pack his suitcase last night and saves him the trouble of packing his clothes and toiletries at least.

But last night, I feel so helpless, felt that I am such a lousy wife who just can listen and silently cry.


There is not much I can do when we are apart like this. I cant wait for this to get over with and I am looking forward to book a hotel room somewhere, preferbly with a good SPA so we could relax and wind off after all this is over.

But for now, I still feel very sad and powerless and I dont know what to do to make it less messy and better.

I hate this feeling.

TREND?

Holla wives :) I bet everyone is jumping your heart out because long weekend is coming ! Whee !! Which means we gonna have extra-occupied-butterfly-tummy-feelings-ahh-you-know-how-it-feels days. (Well I am not yet a weekend wife, at least for now. But he left me a week ago for work *sigh*. Anywayss, will be one in 4 weeks time *double sigh*.)

Well people, I always been asked on how do we cope to long distance marriage. Even we haven’t been a weekend wife/husband yet ! Like can you people spare some space for us to appreaciate the little time we have at this very moment? Aku pun malas nak fikir, inikan pula others. But ya, thanks for all your concern. I had so many kinds of reactions:

“Laa.. dah kawin duduk jauh-jauh. Baik tak payah kawin !”
“Maybe u have to sacrifise la. Benti kerja. Carik duit sampai bila-bila pun tak cukup”
“Ohh you guys punya pemikiran ni tersangat modern. Memang orang yang berfikiran moden moden ni, anggap long distance marriage becomes a trend nowadays. Patutlah you guys don’t mind at all”
“Hrrmm susah la nak dapat baby ramai-ramai”

Ok you want more? Enough said, aku pun dah muak with all those thoughts.
Come on people. Who on earth likes to be apart from the other half? You tell me now.

NONE.

So, just shut up. Put yourselves in our shoes and you’ll understand how do we feel. Really.

It’s so easy to tell people on their face- to sacrifice, quit their jobs, yada..yada..yada. Seriously, if both of us can afford to have a comfy life with only one person’s earning, we’ll do it straight away. Tak payah orang cakap pun, kami akan buat ok. And if quitting job is so easy- not bonded to the company, tak payah bayar the scholarship yang akan convert jadik loan if we decide to leave the company, tak payah breach the contract.. and all this so called political nonsense (ohh pandailah kau kata nonsense padahal dah makan duit company selama 5 tahun masa belajar dulu. Hiks. Ok I am so grateful on that)…And lots of ‘what-if’ situation. Oh lovely.

And long distance marriage is not a trend ok! I don’t believe it. It’s like ooh ok, kami sangat suka ber-long-distance-marriage sebab ianya cool dan telah menjadi trend terkini. Insane.

Sorry for the disturbance entry di pagi Jumaat. Ok ok jom chill sebab cuti ialah 4 hari. Hoyeh ! Have a great long weekend people.

Hugs.

Crystalmerah

Puzzled, Puzzling Puzzles, Ever so puzzled

Dear Friends,

I am more and more terrified to get married now, reading all your posts.. Is this normal? Like there's so much more in marriage than what I expected.. Will this strong thing that I feel about him remain? Oh goodness.. And its less than 4 months down the road..

Puzzled :S
Zie

Once in a month

1st of all, thanks min.

i'm not sure if i was a weekend wife at first, because he will be gone for 4 days a week for outstation, sometimes every week, sometimes every fortnight. 

but now, i guess i REALLY am a weekend wife, except the fact that he was stationed in Batam for 1 whole month and then 1 week back in msia, then 1 whole month in Batam then 1 week back in Msia. this routine will continues until June (or as late as the project completed). 

* so ni kire weekend wife ke or once-in-a-month-wifey? im also not sure*

he left for batam this morning, at 5am to be exact. and yes, i cried, hard. fyi, i never cried when he was leaving for outstation, only sulking coz i was left behind. but this morning, the tears cannot stop falling. 1 whole month, sampai bulan 6. gile kot! sape sanggup?

so now, yes, i do understand what LDW are facing. 

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owh, just to share, mule2 lepas kawen, the night before 1st day working after marriage. time nk tido, abg cakap
"tak payah keje la, duk je umah. lagik best kan"

aku jwb
"kalo abg bg gaji 3k, za berenti".

abg diam, wat muncung mulut.
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pagi itu, waktu bgn nk pegi keje, aku ckp kat abg pulak
"abg, malas nk keje la, xnk keje bole?"

dgn kering abg reply
"tak bole, abg xnk bagi 3k."

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... padan muke aku

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Dear Wives

Thank you for sharing your respective stories. I've enabled the writers' names to be seen. Sorry for the inconvenience previously. I'm not very IT savvy. ^__^ Will add more things in the blog soon.

Weekend Woe

Saturday, and I am still staring at my Lappy... Still alone for this week... but I am going to meet him next week! and cuti for about a week! hehe

I hope i can hug him Friday, Feb 12 @6pm... because my plane is landing on 5.50pm! hahaha..

owh, its gonna be my our 1st Valentine as a Married Couple! heh heh... Nak buat pe ek? candle light kat umah je kot... hehe

Can't wait! Oh, yeah... Happy weekends to other Weekend Wives! Have fun, guys... *wink*



♥princess.dhani♥