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I am happy.  I'm very happy.  I found someone to be happy about and I have found something I want to cherish.  I love Nicholas.  I truly do.  I really want to be with him and I am working hard to be with him.  He is the reason I am how I am.  I am stronger, I am more confident, I am feeling a lot better about myself and not scared to stand up for myself.  I am in love.  I am in love.  I am in love.  I love you Nicholas.

so what's been new?  not much.  a lot really.  left my husband, moved back home, saving up for england, more hours at the bakery, lost interest in conventions, cosplay, etc.  oh my gods, i think i grew up.

ps, the 3rd of the 3rd shift... i'm completely use to it now.

Sorry I have not been keeping up to date with deviant... or anything as a matter of fact.  I've been so involved with work that I had gotten a promotion, I'm working more hours, we have more clients, and Farmer's markets just started up.  You may ask yourself, what is your profession?  If you did not see some of the pictures, I'm a culinary artist.  I currently work for a company entitled "H&F Bread Co." aka "Holeman & Fitch Bread Company" off of Peachtree in Atlanta.  Just to give you a comparison between the everyday numbers between one product from a normal day to the extreme Saturday market; on a normal day during the week the Plain 4 oz croissant can be an average number of 31 to 34.  On Saturday, however, it is almost 100 plain 4 oz croissant and this has just started, so that was a test sample.  I worked straight from 2 am to 8 am getting products ready and out for market and everything was sold by 10 am.  Not even 2 hours after the market had open.  From what my head chef told me, was that we sold "Almost" everything and made about $2,100 just from that market alone.  Which means, the next few saturdays will be the death of me.

Falling in love again, never wanted to
What am i to do, i cant help it
Love always been my game, play it how i may
i was made that way, i cant help it

Men cluster to me like moths around a flame
and if their wings burnt, i know i'm not to blame
Falling in love again, never wanted to
What am i to do, i cant help it

Men cluster to me like moths around a flame
and if their wings burnt, i know i'm not to blame
Love always been my game, play it how i may
i was made that way, i cant help it
Falling in love again, never wanted to
What am i to do, i cant help it

Falling in love again, never wanted to
What am i to do, i cant help it
Love always been my game, play it how i may
i was made that way, i cant help it
Men cluster to me like moths around a flame
and if their wings burnt, i know i'm not to blame

Love always been my game, play it how i may
i was made that way, i cant help it

uh uh.. i'm falling in love again... i never wanted to
i'm not to blame
i was made that way
i'm not to blame...

have you ever felt like you were stuck in a dream when you listen to your favorite love song and stare at the person in front of you, feeling your heart skip a painful beat and flutter as it tries to keep itself from sinking deeper and deeper into your chest.  deep breaths... deep breaths... close your eyes... another deep breath... now open.

























he's still there, but now he's smiling and you feel your heart of ice melt from the warmth he's giving to you...














~sigh~ it's love all over again