RaspberryJupiter

EDIT: Whenever I'm sad/mad, and don't cry.. My heart feels weird, like right now. I apologized to someone, because I accidentally accused them of being an art thief, and they are still talking to me now. She told me my artwork is crap, and I know it is. Then said "you being bullied isn't my problem, it's your fault no one likes you". No one. Yeah.
No one.
I'm already stressed out because of school and those snotty girls.
I don't wish to say their username. I felt like committing suicide from the start of the bullying.
I know it's a sin.. But I can't stand dA drama.. bullies. I don't tell people about this, because I want them to pity me.
" Living is slow suicide "
I'm starting to think it's true.. I never actually liked this life... I made my brothers mad a lot.. Did so many sins. And right now, I'm trying to wipe off my tears before anyone sees them. I know how you are supposed to learn from your mistakes.. but I never did. And, I am NOT writing this for you to pity me.
I know committing suicide is foolish, but I have some reasons why.

1. My artwork is crappy (And this is true, I can't deny it)
2. My improvement happens so slowly
3. I did so many sins in life, and never learned from them
4. My anger always gets the best of me
5. No one usually helps me fix my artwork
6. I get so mad at my dad for small things
7. I'm never actually happy, I always pretend
8. I can't excel at anything, no matter how long I wait


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EDIT: Thank you for cheering me up everyone, now I must sleep. It's 10:53 PM

I don't wish to say their names so I'm replacing them with letters

I'm sorry for worrying you guys so much by disappearing ;n;
I can't stand things anymore. During a dodge ball game, I was hit in the thigh really hard. I was walking away, because I was out. Then, this girl named "Q", started screaming her head off. "GET OUT!!! YOU ARE OUT!!" When I already knew I was. 2 days before that, "F" made me pissed off. She told everyone, that I liked a guy I didn't even like. "Q" sits near me, and none of my friends can stand her and that other girl. "F" makes a fun of me and my friends, recently she asked one of my best friends this:

" Why is your hair so skinny?
Why are you so skinny? Are you poor? "

I said, " WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU "F"?! "
And then "F" said, " What? What's wrong with asking questions? "

"Q" Blabs all day. So f**king annoying. More stress. Great.
Makes me want to curl up in a ball and never come out again.
I found a style, but I hate it. And this is NOT FALSE MODESTY. That is what I truly think. No, I'm NOT fishing for compliments.
Most of my friends can stand "F" and her idiotic cronies, but I can't. A lot of people asked if I was okay, (Because I start to cry tears of anger when I get mad) and asked " Was it the evil "F"? ".
Totally.
"F" and her cronies don't just hurt me and my friends, they do that to EVERYONE.
"Q" won't stop blabbing. No offense to "Q", but she is quite ugly. Her faces crunches up as if I have a really bad foot odor. (Which I don't have one)

I don't know if I can stand this anymore . . .