I've been wanting to get back into writing more for Cobra Kai again.

I burned myself out in the first year of writing, but worse? I also ended up in the same mindset as before when I wasn't writing anything. I started caring too much about how things would be received, and spent too much time editing and revising, and doubting if people would even care for my characterizations, how much would I want to defend things, etc. Basically, got too into my own head and stopped writing to "publish." It's why I have probably 3-4 dozen WIPs. They're enjoyable for me to read and I wish they'd be finished, but I didn't put effort in finishing / editing since why?

But I'm trying to get back to the mindset I had when I first started writing for Cobra Kai. Write what you want to see, and that's it. Maybe one other person will enjoy it. At least I know I can go back and enjoy my own stuff too, so maybe it's really writing for future me.

When I started writing for Cobra Kai, I had this going on as my commitment to myself:
- publish something every week
- do not care what others think
- write what you want
- only publish completed fic

I think what made it the most effective was the publish something every week rule. It made me have to care less about what others would think, and spend less time editing. It was just for fun, to get things out for a smallish fandom. Sure, I didn't always publish once a week, but I was happy with my progress. It also kept my stories small enough that I actually finished, versus the tons of longer fics I never could quite see through.

I felt a lot less accomplished when I allowed myself to publish WIPs and started caring more what others thought. :(

That all being said, I realize I probably shouldn't aim for longer fic. But I still kind of want to make it work? In order to try and help make it happen, I signed up for inkingitout and committed to 100k words for 2026. The minimum is 75k, but for some reason I decided to go above that. WHOOPS!

It's flexible though to do oneshots and also progress with longer fic. So we'll see what 2026 brings!

I used to do a lot of planning for goals for the year. I can’t say I kept up with them, though. I didn’t do so much last year. I still had some goals, but didn’t keep up with them. I think the hard part became the why and how is it really any different.

So what about myself do I want to change next year? Maybe asking that question is a better approach.

2025 was the first year in a long, long while that I was at lower point in my life. We go through ups and downs, that’s life, so it was time I guess? This year was particularly jarring because it mixed eventful highs in with emotional lows. I think the emotional lows were more along trying to get to acceptance that my family isn’t going to change and they will never be or me in the way I need. Which in turn means I have to fulfill that emotional need somewhere else. I think I still haven’t fully accepted all of this.

So really - what do I need to do to change this? How do I build out a better support network for myself. I’ve reached a point in my life where I don’t have to worry about much.
Taking a look at Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, the bottom of the pyramid is solid. I’m also pretty solid with esteem. It’s the love and belonging that is where I need the most help. I really need to figure out what does belonging look like to me.

Need to do more thinking.

Al is being shoved down our throats at work. CEO hears that using certain Al tool or a specific LLM will make us x times more productive, so we're ready to throw all the money at the flavor of the week.

Our Al usage is also being tracked, so it's pretty much now a job requirement. Are we utilizing Al to be more efficient? Who defines and decides that?

I was never worried about Al taking /my/ job, but now even if I can't see it replacing me, employers will THINK it can and keep throwing money at Al, cut people and the when all that shit breaks, they will never admit they are wrong until it is too late.

Got myself another bingo card even though I haven’t even written anything for the AU bingo card yet.



This one is a bit more inspiring. >:D

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Thoughts from the final batch of episodes of Cobra Kai. Spoilers. Obviously.

( Thoughts on Cobra Kai. )

So pretty much, happy with what I got. Lived up to post from a few days ago: What I want from Cobra Kai.

Aaaaaahhh.

I have to write this, because this is something that has been sitting with me since I got into Cobra Kai (which really isn't that long, since I postponed watching for so long. And I didn't get into fandom until much later any ways)

But I kind of have a love/hate relationship with the Daniel/Johnny pairing.

H'ol up! I know, right? Considering how much time I've spent on pretty much almost exclusively Daniel/Johnny fanfic, it's like what gives? Because it is so fascinating.

A lot of the hate and fascination stems from how I guess I have more of a hate/hate relationship with Daniel's character. Hate is probably too strong. I do not like his character, but the issues I have make him so fascinating to think about, especially the dynamics that would play out with Johnny.

Oh, Johnny's character. I try to ignore post S1 Johnny to be honest, but that's basically admitting I don't like his character either. But, he's fascinating in a different way.


With the end of Season 6 part 1?

GUYS. I don't know. I think I burned myself out on Cobra Kai Thursday and talking about it and thinking about it because today I'm like -- I'm done. Daniel and Johnny can break up and stay broken up because they aren't going to ever grow up and I'm done.

Title: Powerless
Fandom: Cobra Kai
Pairing: Daniel LaRusso/Johnny Lawrence
Rating: Mature
Summary: Daniel knew he shouldn't be at Cobra Kai. Yet, he showed up any way.

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( Read here. )

I'm a big fan of analog planners. Paper is great.

Too bad I've done such a shitty job this year of keeping up. It's that time of year though where companies start releasing their 2024 lineups and I always over commit my time and buy way too much. I AM slimming down my purchases, but I still need to decide. My thought process so I don't have to keep rethinking through this over and over again.

( Planners, planners, planners. )

Title: Am I gay if I dream about having sex with a dude?
Fandom: Cobra Kai
Pairing: Daniel LaRusso/Johnny Lawrence
Rating: Explicit
Summary: The Goggle told Johnny dreaming about banging a dude doesn’t make him gay, but banging a dude does.
Easy. Don’t bang LaRusso.

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