Quiet
It was a lot of driving yesterday -- Montague to Sackville to Truro and back. Punctuated by whiteout conditions in parts of Nova Scotia and passing an accident in Charlottetown. Apparently Prince Edward Island ranks second only to the Yukon for car accident injuries, or car accidents in general. I thought it was just my skewed perspective as someone who hates driving. We met up in Sackville and had dinner at Fener's Place. It was good. Friendly people.
I drove from Sackville to Montague alone. No radio, no music, no audiobook. Just quiet. I never know if I am happy to be back in Montague or just happy the pain of getting here is over.
The house has also been incredibly quiet. Just me, the sound of the refrigerator, and the ringing in my ears.
Catriona moved out at the start of September -- she has always lived with us. Gone are my complaints about her terrible taste in music and the ongoing dispute over my favourite spot at the kitchen table. I like to look out the window. The bathroom is always free now.
Camren went back to Mount Allison a week earlier, where he has an apartment with his girlfriend. I expect my electricity bill to drop now that the lights actually get turned off. We may see him at Thanksgiving, but I doubt he'll be back the following summer. Relationships shape decisions in ways that being single does not.
There are more raccoons now, but they are very quiet. I know I'm not supposed to, but I left some grapes for them on the chair by our front window the other night. One came by for the snack while I was watching TV and I turned around to find its head in the window. Maybe it was watching TV too. The cats hate them.
It's noisy outside, but that's a different kind of noise -- trucks, bored boys revving their engines, the constant clanking of the bridge joints. We have a café here, but I'll likely find myself in Charlottetown a few times a week to avoid cabin fever, at least until winter, when I'm thinking of decamping to somewhere warm in Asia. Lots of noise there.
Fragile
Sheryl's aunt passed away yesterday in Truro. Just over a week ago, she and Sheryl's other aunt were on their way to Montague from Truro with a car full of pies and other treats when a car pulled out in front of them on Mount Edward Road, resulting in a crash. Polly was in the passenger seat and suffered four fractures. She was rushed to the QEH where her prognosis was initially hopeful. Though she received excellent care, experience has taught that landing in emergency at that age is never a good sign. After her condition stabilized she was transferred to a hospital in Truro, where she contracted pneumonia and passed away surrounded by family.
I am not close with this side of Sheryl's family, but moments like this are a reminder that life can change completely on an ordinary Sunday, on a regular road, with a car full of pies.
Maybe in the Fall
If our current business fails - which, though not exactly imminent, is always a distinct possibility - I have my next venture already mapped out. I'll start a service business where I come to your house and do the things you don't have time or energy for: weeding the garden, mowing the lawn with care, raking leaves, clearing out the garage. Minor tasks that just need a body. I even came up with a bad business name: The Unhandy Handyman. Which is accurate as I am no tradesperson. But I would manage customer relationships properly and answer my email.
That last part turns out to be a higher bar than it sounds.
It could be me. Perhaps my emails are lacking, no matter how much time I spend on them. But it's not just email - it's notes left for the boss, texts, phone calls. Whatever the means of communication, it seems very difficult not only to find help but to get any kind of reply. A simple "sorry, we're swamped" or "not interested" or even a recommendation would be professional.
All summer we couldn't get anyone interested in helping with our garden. We reached out to multiple companies. The one that replied dropped by unannounced while I wasn't home and spoke to my daughter, who had no idea what I needed. He gave her a quote of $6,000 to edge the garden, and added: "I don't know if you want to invest that much in this property."
Just recently I sent a few emails to illustrators asking if they'd be interested in some work. I have a range of projects and am looking to work with someone new. One replied - she's in Vancouver, and I'm very happy to have the chance to work with her. None of the local talent responded. One of them I'd found through social media, where they were posting about whether illustration could fund their tuition. I hope they figure it out.
No one has to do anything, of course. And perhaps it's cultural. Most of my career was spent in environments where people hustled constantly, to the point of exhaustion. Maybe it's seasonal - I got one reply a year ago that said simply: it's summer and I don't want to work too much. Maybe in the fall.
My Neighbour Stole My Bird Feeder
I'm sitting here at The Gallery this morning, enjoying a treat and drinking coffee while listening to a trio of people discuss their plans for the novels they are writing. Their prospective stories sound interesting, as does all the thought they put into each segment.
People and their stories are interesting -- though not so interesting that I would want to be thrown amongst vast groups of strangers like I was at the last writers conference I attended. A whole room of people you don't know, sitting at round tables that make conversation necessary and polite. Working in design gave me the excuse to meet people under controlled conditions -- you have to interact at some level with the people who use your product.
Some people are fascinating in their contradictions. You can be talking to someone who seems perfectly reasonable and ordinary, and then they start talking about how much they admire a certain leader who, to anyone who can stop laughing or being alarmed long enough to listen closely, clearly doesn't have much in the way of intellectual capacity, or real leadership ability. And yet they repeat the talking points with absolute conviction. Suddenly the person you thought you were talking to is someone else entirely.
Some people confuse me in their complexity. This spring I bought a bird feeder, filled it with feed, and hung it temporarily on a tree in my backyard. It went missing a week later. I thought perhaps a raccoon had knocked it down and I just couldn't see it hidden in the tall grass. When cutting the grass the other day, I saw it hanging in my neighbour's backyard. He stole it. This is the same neighbour who has a dog so aggressive that many won't walk past his house anymore.
We have another neighbour who is incredibly kind. During a short conversation yesterday he greeted a number of other neighbours by name, and they all greeted him with a smile. He gave me some food from his garden and promised to visit ours next year – we plan on planting more after some success this year. He’ll come over, he said, as long as the aggressive dog is gone by then.
People have different personas and we don't get to see them all. The neighbour who was evicted, with police present, was someone I had respect for. Her strength was remarkable -- carrying heavy bags from the grocery store up our steep hill, day after day. The landlord has a different view. The duplex she lived in has had contractors working there almost daily since she left months ago, which suggests it wasn't well cared for.
The writers across from me have been sitting quietly typing for forty-five minutes, mapping out their characters with care -- motivations, contradictions, backstories that explain everything. My neighbours would fit right in. The man who stole my bird feeder also raises three kids on his own. Good stories reveal that people are never just the version of themselves you happen to see.
I bought a Nespresso Pixie and it doesn't suck
For most of this year I have at times been finding it difficult to summon the patience to start my day with pour-over coffee. Some days I am just too tired or too impatient to slow down and enjoy the process — so I found myself reaching for instant coffee, which is an aberration.
I thought I could get a machine with a timer — quality machines like that certainly exist. We have one, without a timer, and the power switch is a weird toggle that won't work with a smart plug. I hesitated to spend the surprisingly steep cost for a quality brewer.
So I bought a clever brewer like Sheryl uses — we don't share coffee equipment. It works very well and pairs with my water boiler, so I can have a cup of coffee in just over the time it takes me to feed the cats. They live on routine, and any deviation causes them to be more of a nuisance than they already are.
Along the way I had thought about a pod brewer — especially The Morning Machine, but it's pricey and never goes on any kind of meaningful sale. And pods taste like crap, right?
As it turns out, the internals of most of these machines are the same, so when Nespresso had a sale recently I picked up the Pixie, made by Breville. This is the original Nespresso, not the newer models that lock you into their pod ecosystem. And that's the important part.
It was trickier to set up than it should be, and the build quality is slightly suspect. I brewed one cup of lungo with their included pods and it was horrid — worse than instant. It's obvious they are trying to emulate espresso and have failed. Fake crema, bad taste. Store-bought pods weren't much better.
Then some pods from a variety of specialty roasters bought on Eight Ounce arrived and I gave them a try. It is a world of difference. All of a sudden there are tasting notes — pineapple tea and strawberry in the ones I've tried so far. It lacks body due to the coffee-to-water ratio, but it is surprisingly acceptable.
It's not super cheap — I use Third Wave Water and the pods themselves can be twice the price of store-bought — but it's been a fun experiment so far.
Likely original
I'm not in the anti-AI camp like so many writer friends of mine - though I am anti-data centre, which I realize is a contradiction. I see AI as yet another in a long line of tools replacing various parts of the creative process, sometimes for the better, often for the worse. It started with software eating physical processes, then informational processes, and now parts of cognitive processes. I prefer to keep my ability to think alive and well.
I do find a number of use cases genuinely useful, one of which surprised me today.
I asked Claude for some possible business automations it could perform. It didn't have any particularly great ideas that didn't intrude too early in my creative process - having computation enter at the beginning takes the joy out of creation.
One thing I did ask was whether it could grab a spreadsheet from Google Sheets and pull out possible topics for future episodes from the many questions that Sheryl inputs. It's not particularly laborious, but if an automated process can save me 10+ minutes and track and categorize what we use, it might be worth it. My query was a simple, can you do this? Its response was a fully working app that lives in the browser and not only does what I asked but also generates discoverable episode titles from the questions. The interface wasn't atrocious either.
It's like some overly keen intern trying to impress.
It’s coming for us all
Peter shared a couple of examples of AI intruding into his life in a malicious way in his post, The Weekend AI Came for Us. I've had a few of my own, but this is perhaps the most notable of late.
For almost 5 years we have been producing a science show, iterating year after year to get the right fit for bedtime. Writing science content in a short time frame is difficult, especially for someone without a genuine science background like me, and we have worked hard to make the process as efficient as possible. I always knew that at some point someone would come along with a similar idea, maybe even improving on it, but I hadn't thought of this. A new show launched last year with a similar name, made entirely with AI and voiced by a human, replicating what we created while stripping out every production choice we'd made - no ambient sound, no music beds, nothing but voice. Then marketing that absence as a feature.
I don't think there's any malicious intent, though some of the marketing frames others negatively, rather than simply making a positive case for itself. It's more of an unsettled feeling, that something built through years of trial and error can be assessed and remixed with a single prompt.
Somewhere on top of a hill
Sheryl and I at the top of some hill. I did a lot of walking, hiking and running in Ireland, some days upwards of 40k, which my knees protested.
It's not impossible
Coming back from Calgary on Monday we had what might be considered a normal flight experience. Normal is worth celebrating in light of the barrage of negative experiences we have had. It's not lost on me that my constant harping about the dire state of air travel might seem like someone complaining about the thread count at a four-star hotel — but I see it more as spending what little money we have on things that matter, so when Air Canada and YUL ruin our experience, I can be found harping on about it.
If there is an indication of aging, it is my body's inability to recover quickly from travel, which often feels like an athletic event punctuated by poor sleep. I have been home for four days and am only now able to think clearly. I haven't started moving my body yet — maybe I should have gone on a long run the very next morning after we arrived. Instead, I napped.
I found a cheaper business class flight for our return, which allowed us the comfort of lounge access and its rubbery eggs and unlimited lungo coffee. It was a gentler start to our short journey from Calgary. Arriving in Toronto, we went up to the inconveniently located Air Canada lounge only to find it packed, with a long line of people waiting at the buffet. There must be something about the appearance of free food that makes people revert to an almost animal-like state. Pity the service staff who work there. They do have tasty white chocolate cookies, of which I enjoyed too many. I used to have a thing for espresso drinks and Japanese cheesecake, but now that we are back in the old country, it's cookies — both work equally well at expanding my waistline.
We left the lounge and visited the Air Canada Café, which is far superior, and packed some snacks for the kids for dinner. We do that too. When Air Canada generously gave us $150 in meal vouchers, we picked up some lovely sandwiches for our son and had room to spare for a nice meal at Dudley's at the Charlottetown airport. Dudley's is probably the best deal you will find at any airport in Canada.
With snacks in tow, we arrived at our gate, where the plane boarded with only a five-minute delay. A small miracle.
When in Dublin
Coffee experiences anchor any visit to whatever town or city we visit - it's not always specialty coffee, but even Sackville or Saint John, New Brunswick, have nice places to sit and have an espresso.
Visiting Dublin, everyone kept mentioning the need to drink Guinness; I guess it's an institution with tourists because I saw many people topping off their morning breakfast with a pint. Succumbing to pressure, I tried a taste and survived. I don't drink beer.
What we did do, happily, was repeatedly visit a couple of the best-tasting coffee shops you might experience anywhere. First was Copper + Straw, which I would characterize as a high-volume establishment. They have more than one location, and the one we frequented was a small spot near Aras Ui Dhalaigh and a Garda station—fewer tourists like ourselves, and more harried professionals wearing wrinkled suits.
The second seemed close to Trinity College, but looking on the map isn't - it's close to St. Stephen's Park. Called Brew Lab, it’s ranked as one of the top cafes in the world. Sheryl and I sat at the coffee station and talked coffee as the barista served us pour-over coffee like the wine it is. Great experience, one I wish I could experience more often. But even Tim Hortons has a role to play once it stops boiling in the paper cup. Trinity College also has a nice bakery nearby called Bread 41.
We drank a lot of coffee when we were in Ireland, and cafe culture seems only second to the many, many pubs. There is even a guidebook to Dublin's many cafes.
Almost home
I’m sitting on a flight from Calgary to Toronto, en route to home. The screen is a blur, my glasses stowed in my bag in the overhead bin above. I could grab them, but the dapper old gentleman sitting behind me might have a cardiac episode if I went near his bags in the same bin. He appeared quite offended that I took time to store my luggage. Or maybe it’s my ragged dress.
I was in Calgary to attend the When Words Collide conference three days of workshops, seminars, and panels covering the whole gamut of writing. My head was full by the end. I am convinced there is no conference or community like it in Canada, something I miss living in the remote vestibule of Montague. Many seem to feel the same, which makes connecting with people there all the more special. Working from home can be isolating.
Calgary is a wonderful city with great coffee roasters and park system. I always enjoy visiting, but I’m looking forward to my own bed - which, if my flights go as scheduled, will be tonight.
Poop buster
It seems to work, didn’t see dog poo on the sidewalks we walked on. I’m thinking of proposing this for Montague, or simply a sign for my neighbour.
Airport Limitations
I'm sitting at a Tim Hortons in Montreal Airport, which feels familiar -- we were here a couple of weeks ago under similar circumstances. We arrived from Dublin and were funneled through some makeshift security corridor to reach our gate, like walking through the inside of an old mall, dark corridors and weird doors, except punctuated by about five layers of security. I'm tired and crotchety, and when the border agent asked why I'd been in Ireland, I wanted to say none of your damn business. I said "for fun" and let my eyes handle the rest.
Our flight left Dublin a couple of hours late -- "Montreal airport limitations," the same vague explanation we heard repeatedly last time. We missed our Charlottetown connection and were automatically rebooked through Toronto. We should have been home in Montague in time to cook dinner. We'll be lucky to arrive by one in the morning. Air Canada offered a hotel in Montreal, but we gambled that the Toronto flight will work out. We'll see.
Montreal's airport is overcrowded and cramped -- they couldn't get us off the plane because there was no crew to open the doors. That was only a 15 minute delay. Dublin's airport isn't much better, though it did offer the entertainment of watching people drink Guinness at breakfast.
I never check baggage anymore, a lesson earned from too many flights into Canada where my luggage arrived days after I did.
I'm flying to Calgary later this month, out of Charlottetown, through Montreal. Twenty-eight years of this, and I still think the next flight may be different.
Connections
Yesterday I was hiking with Sheryl up a cliff near a northern suburb of Dublin when my doorbell rang -- a delivery back home. I could see the car on the camera and asked the driver to leave the package at the door. A little further along the trail, I mentioned to my daughter Catriona that someone had come by. She was on a call with someone on the other side of the world.
Today I was in a pub in the city centre, noisy, just finishing dinner, when I joined a Zoom call with our critique group in Calgary. The table next to us was by chance a couple from Red Deer. He'd had the bangers and mash and said he'd order it again.
When we left PEI, Hozier's Too Sweet planted itself in our heads -- "I take my whiskey neat." I've heard it at least five times in coffee shops across Dublin since.
The world has changed from when we started traveling 28 years ago.
Seventy Flavours, Vanilla
Sheryl and I went to Read by the Sea earlier this month — nice, if far too short. Apple Maps took us on a route I'd never been on, and Sheryl hadn't seen since she was a kid. Read by the Sea was held in River John, a small place I'd never heard of. You can get there via Route 6, which follows the coast through some pleasantly narrow roads from the Caribou ferry.
The actual highlight of the day was a visit to Pictou, a town I've driven past many times and always wondered about. There isn't much to see — an expensive leather goods shop, the usual tourist draws around old architecture, not unlike Charlottetown. What made the day was a stop at Thompson's Dairy Bar, which boasts around seventy soft serve flavours. Despite the selection, I had vanilla.
It was a day more about ice cream than anything else. We'd had one in River John too — the usual oversized serving common at places like that in summer.
The next time we take the ferry to Halifax, a short detour to Thompson’s Dairy Bar is on our list of things to do.
Air Canada Morass
I am sitting at Starbucks in the Ottawa airport, listening to cheers from the restaurant nearby as Spain looks set to win.
We came to Ottawa for the weekend -- an unusual choice, but we haven't been here in years, and the winter and spring in Montague felt long. I needed to get off the Island. An expensive mental break, but a needed one.
Unfortunately, Air Canada had other plans. Flights out of Charlottetown are prone to problems, and this was one of those times. Our flight to Montreal -- Air Canada has no direct flights to Ottawa -- was delayed twice, which meant we would miss our connection. There's no help at the Charlottetown gate, so Sheryl got an agent on the phone who managed to find us a flight out of Montreal three hours later. That one was delayed too, but we made it.
We got a ride to the Ottawa airport early today, dropped off by my cousin after lunch, and shortly after received a text saying our flight to Toronto would be delayed ninety minutes -- which meant we'd miss our connection to Charlottetown. In the customer service line, people were crying and audibly upset; many flights were delayed. The agent was perfunctory at best, likely worn down by problems beyond his control, and walked us through some options. Then our Toronto flight was cancelled outright, and we were rebooked on a later one, which has since been delayed as well. The new flight isn't on the board yet, and no one at Air Canada is interested in talking. The customer service line is very, very long. We are on a morning flight from Toronto to Charlottetown -- that is, if it isn't delayed or cancelled, which the way Air Canada seems to be handling things, might be more likely than not.
One wonders how a business like this survives, with such unreliable systems. But then, on many routes, it doesn't have to -- there's no real competition.
Disappearing craft
I set up a daily task in ChatGPT and while it has only performed it once, I'm a bit surprised by its usefulness. It finds articles and insights across the web tailored to my professional interests, summarizes them, and gives me actionable insight on each one. That's far more useful than Google Alerts, an RSS feed reader, or other methods I have tried.
The downside is that it takes me farther and farther away from personal websites, where I spent so much time at the beginning of my last career. So much of that has disappeared and I now regularly visit fewer than a handful.
Sometimes I wish utility could be better coupled with craft.
Work ethic
Eight years back in Canada, and most of the reverse culture shock has faded. So have the memories — or at least the complicated ones. What remains is mostly romanticized: fruit stands on every corner, the food, more food, the general modernity of life in Taiwan and China.
But twenty years shapes you in ways that don't fade as quickly. Lately I've been thinking about work — specifically about how I assumed leaving would help me escape a toxic relationship with it. Everyone worked there. School kids ground themselves (and their pencils) down just like their parents. Not everyone, of course, but the people around me pushed themselves to a kind of principled exhaustion. There was always something to prove, money to make, BMW to buy. One of Sheryl's former students is visiting us this fall — she just finished her second Master's, this one at Yale. It might have been her, or her sister, who studied for an entire year just to raise her grade point average by one point, enough to qualify for a better high school. A 97 wasn't sufficient. So she failed, and went to a lessor school.
Yesterday I came home from a hard Hyrox workout and went straight to cutting the lawn in the heat. Our new neighbour was on his deck, drinking beer, his lawn has yet be cut. He seems to have stopped working — maybe he has his EI hours in and doesn't need to. Sheryl says she doesn't know anyone who works as much as I do. Not as hard. As much. I notice the difference.
I suppose my working theory is that time is limited and I have things I want to do with it, and sitting somewhere watching the sky with a beer doesn't make the list.
Last night the neighbour's kids had a huge sleepover — loud music, hot dogs over a fire pit, the works. It looked fun. I was vaguely envious on behalf of my own kids, who did similar (and often more adventurous) things but never during the school week. I asked Sheryl if this was normal; the school year isn't over yet. She said things are just different here.
They really are. My son tells me regularly: work-life balance. Maybe he's right. Maybe I should change.
A long bout
I sat down at the table, coffee prepared, iPad open, white page waiting. I'd already written in my diary — which is like a warm-up before a marathon — and I was ready. But nothing came. Or more likely I didn't want anything to come, so I set new writing aside for another day.
The weather has been wonderful, and the gap has filled itself with other things. Physical, sweaty things: running in the woods, cutting grass, planting perennials, throwing bags of mulch around. Today there will be a workout that drains me, and more outdoor work after that.
My strategy for burnout is not rest but more activity — just activity that doesn't involve sitting. Or work myself so hard that writing starts to look like the easy option. I'm not sure it will work, but at least the garden will get planted.