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its funny how i remembered this livejournal for the first time these two years haha, and it was over something stupid :/
so i was talking to jovyne A.K.A qiuling! (: on msn ytd and somehow we came to the topic about dogs cos of the channel U movie and she said the dog the kid and the actors in the movie were cute. and somehow she said in her opinion she thought the dog was cuter than me. dno if it was jokingly or what but i felt kinda insulted (should i be?) and hurt. what i thought at that point in time was that she's saying that a dog's better than me. shucks.

bleh couldnt sleep afterward until abt 3 plus. had to contend myself with watching tv and getting my mind off things. ended up watching some show that goes 'have you got a nail in your head' or sth, it recounts people's close encounters with death, like uh getting impaled in the spine and getting a piece of wire/metal stuck near the heart while eating a hamburger. yea kinda disgusting. also watched ninja warrior lol. finally got to sleep after i forced myself to off the tv.

i felt better the next morning and i thought prob its just me being over-sensitive. anw cleared things up alr and we're okay (:

its 1.04am now. since i havent blogged for close to 2 years i guess i shall just touch and go on what has happened in vj, cos its like impossible to compress 2 years' worth of events and happenings in one single post.

thn again im lazy to start. oh well i shall just write a bit abt the main stuff.

RESULTS: seems appropriate to start with the lousy one first haha. i admit i didnt really study that hard during j1 but its not like i didnt study at all, my results were totally -.- my first exam i got all Es and one S i think. damn. told myself i will buck up but apparently results didnt show, until maybe promos onward got one or two Bs and Cs but never an A. haha seriously no A. that means no h3 and whatever not. thn again its not like im keen to take h3, it just sounds prestigious to me, not really interested. my PW got B :( super siannn. i never knew how i got B i thought i did good. i seriously thought so.

CLASS: actually im quite thankful i have such a wonderful class. during j1 i really felt quite attached to the class, kinda pushed for class outing every week HAHA. it was fine, people came but eventually i think it became impractical. i guess i was one of the quieter ones in class, not the type who will joke aloud during lessons or what i just laugh at whats happening haha. thn thr was this period of time too, in j2 that i felt super left out from my class. some of us just drifted apart like they would prefer to be with their cca etc. haha i was one of them. shucks and it was partly cos of the girls. -.- oh well dont wna elaborate.

CCA: this one is the other way around HAHA. felt super weird joining guitar. cos wanted to have a change of type of cca thn the other ccas like piano and strings only wanted experienced players. i was a total NOOB (now still quite) and it wasnt the type of cca where you get to bond alot with your cca-mates. i was in the junior ensem and from what i saw the senior ensem was damn bonded and i kinda wished everyone was like that. theres this natural separation btwn the junior and senior ensem(s) and its really a prob worth trying to solve haha. (good luck maria!) i proudly say that i tried to blend in, by going to outings in which im the only junior ensem member present and things like that, try to mix around with the seniors. it went well. the seniors were really nice and you could really talk to them as though they were your friends (i mean ya like duh but last time in UG you dont get to do that). slowly i started enjoying going to cca OMG i was kinda amazed i thought that way lol. but its a good thing right. and i can joke and be retarded with those people (: and in j2 i had the best overseas trip in my life! to japan with guitar. boy it was wonderful haha. not that i dont enjoy going out with my family but its different. and its been ages since i performed in front of a crowd and it was a nerve-wracking but memorable experience haha. theres still guitar chalet on the 30th! looking forward to it. (:

and i met QIULING in guitar yay! (: haha i like your name its nice to say (both jovyne and qiuling). i rmb asking you out to study at esplanade! and alot of funny things happened luh like meeting amanda thr that time HAHA. i think i will never forget helping you to queue 8 hrs for the autograph card lor, i deserve a 'nicest person' award or sth cos i really wanted to help you, nth more. hehe (: dont know abt you but i feel that you're a good friend to me! even though sometimes you can rant on about all your cute guys and leave me kinda sad cos it makes me feel unappreciated. BOO i will try to be less sensitive okay and i still wna eat pasta with you!  :/

OG: OG WAS FUN. its like suddenly you know 30 more people in your school! and they're all real nice. sure it was awkward at the start but man everyone became real close during the orientation period! with all the outings the j1s joining it was absolutely fantastic. and the mass dance at suntec is awesome. (Y) i will definitely crash the mass dance next year. (:

random facts i think i should include:
1. we slept in lectures and tutorials in j1 but in j2 everyone was like omg 180degree change.
2. WE WOULD NOT HAVE SURVIVED JC LIFE WITHOUT ITOUCH/IPHONES

OKAY I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF I BLOGGED. i hope my post sounds more mature than my previous ones. lol.

never thought i'll be posting here again. i guess a blog really does help when you cant post stuff on fb and whatever. just feeling :/ you make me feel unappreciated, like im nothing much to you.

omggg im blogging! settled down in Victoria already.. =) so fun! anyway, i'll start from orientation, then maybe CT and lessons, then BBQ!! =D.

First day at VJ was totally foreign, didnt really talk to anyone, nobody was high, everyone did stuff unwillingly, and the bus rides were super tiring! I was in IV5! a.k.a iTouch from Ivanhoe, there was totally close-to-zero interaction within the group from what i can see. We didnt really know our OGLs as well. And we learnt a LOT of cheers and think two mass dances. in a day. couldnt absorb.. was kinda burnt out at the end.

Ah i realise if i keep going on for the next 4 days i dont think i'll be able to sleep.
So at the end everyone became much more bonded and closer together and i made a lot of new friends! so cool! and my OGLs are COOL to the max haha! so fun. iTouch dinner rocks! especially at sky garden.. hide and seek lol! and the PES craze. i love my sub-OG! haha hope I wasnt too quiet or anything xD

Class is damn HIGH. especially with zi-high-ers like veronica around. although i really really dont think i always laugh along with them because i dont find anything funny. and jj's attempts to make people laugh or something doesnt really work on me -.- and vj has twins and triplets lol!. COOL!. anyway i fast forward to bbq yesterday la.

Eric and I stoned at canteen for damn long to wait for Jean, and partly because we didnt feel like going to parkway. The others went to get the OGL presents and we started to write all the thank you letters once they were back. and a prank one for weijian lol. anyway we walked to ecp where we ate like one plate of bee hoon only?! and started playing all sorts of dumb stuff, mainly the prank. haha, anyway it was damn fun going around and watching people do truth or dare forfeits and everything. Hope we can get together again some time! =)

And i realise i miss a lot of my friends. from cat high and cf. These two days were SUPER COOL. saw rebecca and celestine at j8 and I was like omg long time no see and really it was nice to see them again. and bryan also! kenneth tan and terence szeto lol. meeting everyone even though we were from different schools is especially heartwarming. ehh and IM GLAD I TOOK THE BUS AFTER OG BBQ TODAY. bumped into terence and sylvia going home after their OG dinner at AMK mrt station. i was like OMG and again it was really nice to see them again, although i felt a bit awkward. xD Okay terence wasnt really going home, but he stated that he lives in yishun when his og asked where he lived in. lol wth. yup. and when terence and sylvia left on 812 ( terence's hands were over her shoulders la dont think i never see ) jiamin and zijin arrived at interchange after HC Campfire!! wah so COOL!  i decided that talking to them would be more interesting than taking bus home so i walked with them until we reached a fork and we zao-ed to our respective homes. yay haha so nice to see everyone! i suddenly miss a lot of people. ):

today's valentines' day! happy valentines'! for those who dont have a valentine, happy friendship day! i think im stoning at home today la i i still have piano lesson at 4. -.- what a great way to spend 14 feb.

nevermind! i can live with it =D
Lots of homework now! i will go and play gta4 first
if you are free today, give me a call. i need to escape the confines of my home.

.. most depressing day of the holidays. Didnt get in. So what if you had the cut off mark, SO WHAT. -.- thought today see the school can finally stay at home and celebrate by playing. In the end, had to compile and print so much stuff for 4 hours with a heavy heart and change all of the plans to include trips down to hand in appeal form. Thats my last chance already. If I dont get word of anything tomorrow evening, ... i shudder to think. Maybe i'll just break down and die or something. Posting is screwed. About 90% of the people i know didnt get into their choice JC even though their score was the cut-off mark or lower. whatthehell?!
Sian. totally zz. What i've aimed for the past two years, just went down the drain. 
I still want to thank everyone though, for everything they've done to encourage me and all. Greatly appreciate it... In the end, i've failed. failed everybody who had such high hopes for me T_T
less than 24 hours to the veiling of that last ray of hope. hope it shines through..
wah this is even more nervous than receiving results. sigh. really feel kinda emo today. going to hc was kinda torturing too. have to bear with the pain of seeing so many people wearing that same uniform which I had longed, but will never, get to put on. it was a perfect wish shattered so cruelly. i hate it when disappointment becomes such a routine thing in my life, especially during major events. Something always doesnt go my way, every time.

Think today will be the last time im seeing hc in maybe a year or two.  


 

Pretty soon it will be midnight, and that marks a happy WEDNESDAY.
For one, most shops will resume business again =) and maybe i will cut my hair tomorrow. or perhaps leave it thurs or fri.
For 'two', it brings us closer to 30th, posting results. feel like knowing now already.
Although I might say I prefer to be alone at home when i 'bury' myself in the PS3 (for a few hours, that is) , I feel the need to at least step out of the house. Going to L4D tomorrow =) haha dont worry i'll stop gaming once school(again, no idea which school) starts. no, i will cease the number of times i play, more like.
Didnt visit anywhere today, woke up at 11pm or so and watched some jacky wu show which was super funny. haha heard that he will 踏出演艺圈 in june, according to my mum.. If so, whats going to happen about guess? and not just that, it will be a super great loss for the whole taiwan entertainment business. gg. I sort of played dmc4 while parents went to fetch my brothers home from relatives' house. Apparently they stayed overnight.
And, as usual my father comes back all fed up and starts to vent his anger on me. nah, okay it doesnt happen all the time. But yeah, this is what happens when you have two immature brothers (zz). that being said, i slept again and woke up in the afternoon after hearing the phone ring. For some reason when i picked up the phone the whole life in my leg suddenly vanished and i sort of knelt down hard on the floor and i sprained my toe. and like, my brother was beside me and he didnt even ask if I was okay or what, he just went in and told my father, AND leaving me to answer the phone and simultaneously suppress the pain. i cant even talk. Actually I didnt know if my father was in the room so when he was asked for I said I didnt know, because the pain was getting the better of me. -.- cant believe i have such a brother. wont even help to answer the call. i envy people whose siblings are more mature.
Okay i dont know how people can blog very long but I think I have nothing much to blog about already haha. maybe its because i never upload pics.
Speaking of pictures, I want my own digital camera zzz. Requested it for ages but havent buy. Its always my parents holding the one and only camera whenever we go out and they always need to take pictures, and i dont really agree with their shots sometimes. i cant even capture the ones i want. grr. 
i shall stop at 12am. which is 1 more min later. and happy birthday again warren =)
 

拜年-ning started out fun =D met a lot of relatives whom i dont get to see often. Of course, there was the usual bombarding of questions -.- mainly about my height and o level results. Seriously, it gets tiring after a while lol. Yes, many were mistaken that I have already completed NS again zz. For some reason, 'do you have a girlfriend' was quite a common question this year as well. Despite having answered a truthful NO, some relatives still did not believe me. T_T want to make me happy a bit only lol, can tell =)  
 
Went to somewhere else and stoned there until the little nyonya thing showed. I was totally not interested and decided to go out the front door and sleep by the corridor, since all the bedrooms were locked. was SUPER GLAD parents did not want to finish the show.. travelled all the way to admiralty and visited someone else again before going home. tiring, but 'quite' fun. and got 大丰收 also haha.

The BAD thing about today is a lot of shops are closed. couldnt even get a proper, decent meal in the evening. time was running short so we skipped dinner and my parents asked me to eat all those snacks people always place on the table. how will that suffice as a proper meal?! -.-

omg 3 days left. going to l4d tomorrow. and i think i should cut my hair before school starts. haha it feels so weird to say this when i dont even know which school i will be in.. bye for now =)

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CNY mood's setting in, although im not really catching it.
Went over to relative's house to lao yu sheng, haha at least its still quite nice to see people again. I was asked if I had already completed NS lol, and I was totally WHATTT. Yes, Im quite tall (everyone keeps commenting on that) but that doesnt mean im older -.- and according to someone i have a 'baby' face. whatever. Speaking of age, I only imagined myself being 15/16. I dont know what will happen if i reach 17. probably cry out or start to have weird ideas that im old. (<personal view, nothing against people who are alr 17 or older)

AT LEAST I HAVENT RECEIVED MY NS LETTER YET =D makes me feel younger. and more carefree. =D thats going to change in april. 16.5 years old. -.-  Anyway today i woke up at 4+ in the afternoon!!! T_T was having weird dreams about someone lol. guess i'll sleep the whole of today away.one less day until 30th. 
wish time would speed up.

okay its like nearing 4am. Im dying for air con D: haha ciao.

I just finished MGS4 and suddenly i feel sad. its such a great game.. and a great series.  i still remember the time i saw my uncle playing MGS1 on PS1. then i was like so scared of the alerts. then now after mgs2 3 and finally 4, the series reaches its conclusion. T_T I've never felt more connected with a videogame character lol. and with the revisiting of shadow moses nine years after MGS1, and all the flashbacks, it really brings back a lot of memories. i know its kinda dumb to say this about a video game but oh well. not many people i know play the metal gear solid series (like zelda),  im like totally sian. as in really follow throughout the four games... haha. i hope another mgs comes out, but then again maybe its not such a good idea. hideo kojima totally killed off a lot of characters. naomi,vamp,ocelot,big boss,zero,sigint,para-medic, .. and so on.

i think i will never play a better game/series. (this is no understatement).

8 more days to posting results. I realised what we've all been doing these few months is wait. wait for o levels wait for o level results wait for posting results. -.- got a lot of time to kill huh.

nothing much to post about today, went out to eat fish and co. (omg). and played l4d with three other friends. haha.
i hope 30th comes faster. T_T

Like, first post after release of results?
Shall start from results day then. 12th jan '09.

I admit I had a good night's sleep (: no sense of foreboding or whatever. (I even played twilight princess that morning D:)
Admittedly, like many of us, I couldnt wait until like 12.30pm before I went out. I mean, I'll keep pacing around the living room even if i stayed indoors, might as well get out -.- I had this weird feeling when I was locking the door, like.. 'will I come back and open this door happily or what.' yea that sort of thing.

Tension rose, many of us stayed in the canteen waiting for 2pm, while the names of the 10,9,8,7 A1s people were put up on some noticeboard in front of the GO, where a seething mass of students and parents were. There wasnt a longer hour in my life. 1-2pm. 12/01/09.
The usuals began, breakdown of school performance and all. Bio had like 90+% distinction lol. jeff goh qiang2. OHYA I TOTALLY FORGOT. I broke my specs on the way to school can you believe it?! -.- i was like straining here and there throughout the whole thing. ya, so I went up to the table and wongie asked me to sign the namelist, and so I did, couldnt see results lol. Took them back to the floor and sort of prepared myself before opening it. The first subject was English, and boy was I stunned when i saw A1. I mean, i never even had a b3 before! thats like a 3 grade JUMP>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>. Then I saw my other results. Humanities B3! and boy was I stunned when i saw B3. I mean, i had all A1s during Sec 4. Why now? that was like a 2 grade DROP.
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And i had A2 for chem and higher chinese, rest A1. L1R5:7! I got what I wished for. Satisfied, but with a little twinge of regret at my chem and humanities. nevermind, went around congratulating and consoling people i guess, surprisingly I didnt see any one cry. that was a good sign. I thought people would have broken down. T_T Went home after that, when i reached the door i was like woah. At least i didnt come back all sulky. And just to tell the people who werent too happy, dont mull over the past alr (which they shouldnt be doing by this time), chiong A levels lol.

Went RJ and HC for open house, though HC's isnt really an official one. to add on, I went without specs again lol.

Okay gathering. It was at Harrison's house, some Hillside at Bukit Timah. BBQ all the way, played cheat, didnt play bridge cos i dont know how to. I only know two poker card games. Cheat and Blackjack. GG. But hey IM PROUD OF IT. although i guess it would mean less socialising. Night fell. Some of us went to the playground beside the poolside to play Blind Mice but after 1 round we were chased off by security guards. zzz dont like condos, so restricted. hung around and went around via 852. hope i'll be taking more of this bus in feb..
While im at it, here are my choices.  In order of submission:  HC / RJ / VJ / NJ / AC / TJ Didnt know choosing would be such a chore (and a bore). Had to go back to school to seek advice before I decided.

anyway i received a ps3 three days ago! *after much persuasion.
current games are DMC4 and MGS4 (Metal Gear Solid 4 =DDDD)
MGS is the best series ever in the history of video gaming, in my opinion.
Halo comes 2nd maybe.
anyway MGS4 is FREAKING GOOD. survived on AV cable until today. Component cable. HD. Super cool.
Wireless controller. Internet's free. Blu-ray. woah. i kinda left my DMC4 aside for a while, now at mission 3 -.-
AND I REALISED I HAVENT BEEN PLAYING ZELDA. will do soon.
I like the way bosses shout SNAKKKKKEEEEEE! it packs a punch. make you all pumped up. adrenaline rush. hiong.
haha, yea im at Raging Raven now, at the end of Act 3. going back to shadow moses soon omgomg.
for non-gamers or for those who are not familiar with the series I apologise. I seem to be droning on too much.

Ok, im waiting for 1pm. BB (Beauty and the Beast) (Bye Bush).

Tomorrow. A little less than 20 hours away. Dont know what to say, just that i hope im prepared for the worst.
Yes I know everyone says that theres no point worrying, true.
So what i think is we should try to learn how to deal with it after we know our results rather than to harp on the number thats going to appear on the cert.  
then again.. its all probably NATO   (for those who do not know.. yes it stands for "No Action Talk Only") dont know when it popped out but yea.
I predict.. a downpour of tears tomorrow.. no idea if they will be tears of joy or despair though.
yes the grand finale huh.

good luck to everyone.

hope the next post is a happy one =)