Reset

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It’s been sooooo long since I wrote a blog post. I tend to use Instagram much more to chronicle life these days.

Many things have happened in the past almost two years. It would take a while to catch up on all of it, so I’m going to stick to what’s going on now.

Unless you’ve been living under a rock, your world has been severely altered by COVID-19. Same here. I am blessed that very few people of my acquaintance have had the illness. For me, the time of shutdown and forced limited activites was a huge reset. A chance to stop the hamster wheel that was my life.

Because of the brake check, I realized that for a long time, I have been living with a defeated mentality. Most things in my life were something to be survived, something to be endured. I was making it day to day, weekend to weekend.

I was not living the victorious life I supposedly have in Christ.

So now that I see this, there’s a call to action. Things MUST change. To told Dave that I can’t have another year like last year. He was glad to hear it. (Poor guy!)

But how does can I change things? First is my own head. I have to STOP and insist on seeing things God’s way. I have to STOP and take thoughts captive — especially before they cross my lips. The negative narrative in my mind has to end. More of God’s voice, more of the His Word, less of me.

I also noticed that I don’t have good accountability or encouragement where I need it most — in the trenches at school. I have felt “alone” in the building. So I’m reaching out to other Jesus-followers to see if we can start encouraging each other.

Living victoriously does not mean that I will always be “happy” or having a “great day”; it means that I know that my God has won the victory, that He has a plan for my life, He’s caring for me and providing me with all I need, He’s giving me opportunites to love and bless others, that He’s created a place for me in His family, and that He’s coming back soon and I will forever be with the Lord!

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I was sinking deep in sin
Far from the peaceful shore
Very deeply stained within
Sinking to rise no more
But the Master of the sea
Heard my despairing cry
From the waters lifted me
Now safe am I

Love lifted me!
Love lifted me!
When nothing else could help
Love lifted me!

Lessons from Philemon

ImageDave asked me to teach a two-week series in the young adult Sunday school at church, and I had such fun doing so! I decided to walk through the little book of Philemon from the New Testament. It’s wedged between Titus and Hebrews; if you flip too fast, you’ll completely miss it! The book only has 25 verses, but they are so rich!

For your learning pleasure, here’s my notes. MUCH credit goes to other teachers and Bible commentators out there when it comes to these notes! Enjoy!


Overview: The Apostle Paul writes a personal letter to Philemon, a church leader in Colossae, asking him to forgive Onesimus, a runaway slave, and welcome him as a new brother in Christ.

THEMES

  • Relationship
  • Forgiveness & Reconciliation
  • Transformation

Each of the three central figures in this book were saved by God in His mercy and grace through the Lord Jesus.

Read Philemon 1:1-11

BACKGROUND

  • Written by the Apostle Paul in approximately 60 AD
  • One of Paul’s four “Prison Epistles”
    1. Ephesians
    2. Philippians
    3. Colossians
    4. Philemon
  • Paul, Timothy, and a few others, were imprisoned in Rome. Notice, however, that Paul calls himself in verse 1 a prisoner of Christ Jesus (as he also does in Ephesians). Correct understanding of God’s omnipotence.

WHO WAS PHILEMON? V 1-7

  • A beloved friend and fellow worker
  • A church leader in Colossae — believe to be wealthy, house large enough to host a church gathering
  • Apphia, thought to be his wife
  • Archippus, thought to be his son and possibly a preacher (“fellow soldier”)
  • Known for his faith in Jesus, love for the brethren, as a refresher of hearts

COMING TO THE POINT V 8-9

  • Therefore — so what’s it there for?
    • Jenni’s paraphrase: “Because this is who you are, Philemon, and we know and love one another, I’m going to ask you to do something that I actually could demand you do. BTW, don’t forget that you owe me your life because I shared the gospel with you. Just sayin’.”
  • Instead of demanding Philemon do as Paul was getting ready to ask, Paul appeal to him on the basis of:
    • Love — their bond as well as Philemon’s love for God
    • Age — Paul as an elder/leader over Philemon
    • Imprisonment — Paul’s credibility

WHO WAS ONESIMUS? V 10-11

  • Philemon’s runaway slave
  • Most likely stole from Philemon (a capital offense under Roman law)
  • Brought to faith in Christ through Paul (“my son”)
    • Somehow, Paul and Onesimus met while Paul was imprisoned in Rome (house arrest, scholars say). It’s unclear if the meeting was intentional on Onesimus’ part but either way, it was a divine appointment.
  • Formerly “useless,” now “useful
    • Play on words! Onesimus’ name has the same Greek root as the word for useful or beneficial.
    • Onesimus was helping Paul in ministry in some way, making him useful to the entire body of Christ which includes Philemon
    • Just like Onesimus, the truth is that before Jesus redeemed us, everyone was useless (lacking purpose). Ephesians 2:1-5

LEADING UP TO THE ASK

    • As we continue, we’ll see that Paul is asking Philemon to do something supremely Christ-like: forgive.
  • Matthew 6:14-15
  • Ephesians 4:32
    • Paul certainly knew about being changed and having an advocate
      • Acts 9 — Saul’s conversion, help from Annias first and then Barnabas
    • Paul understood the transforming power of forgiveness
  • 1 Timothy 1:12-16
    • Show your love for God by loving others
  • 1 John 4:9-12

 


Lessons from Philemon, Part Two

Read Philemon 1:12-25

SENDING ONESIMUS BACK, v 12

  • Paul sends Onesimus back hoping that Philemon will allow Onesiums to return to Paul.
    • Onesimus was in the wrong: he ran away from his master. Needed to be made right.
    • Paul didn’t minimize or excuse Onesimus’s sin. God wants us to do what is right all the time, even though there will be hardship. In this story:
      • Hardship for Onesimus in humbling himself by going back
      • Hardship for Philemon in having to swallow his pride and forgive
      • Hardship for Paul in losing Onesimus who had proven to be a valuable helper
    • Yet Paul obviously wanted Philemon to deal gently with Onesimus.
      • Roman slave owners had complete control over slaves. Crucified for lesser offenses than escape! Recaptured fugitives were often branded on the forehead if not simply executed.
      • Why so harsh? Huge number of slaves in the Roman Empire (as many as 60 million). An example would be made of runaways; constant fears of a slave revolt.
    • Might be why Paul describes Onesimus as “my very heart.” In other words, Paul is saying, “Philemon, I know this man has wronged you and deserves to be punished. You would technically be within the law to punish him, but consider him as my own heart and please be merciful to him.”

WISH HE COULD HAVE STAYED, v 13

  • Verse 13 is LOADED! It’s obvious that Paul wanted Onesimus to stay. Paul hopes Philemon will let Onesimus return to Rome to continue helping Paul.
    • “take your place” It’s like Paul saying, “Philemon, if you leave Onesimus with me, it’s like you serving me, because Onesimus is your rightful servant.”
    • “while I am in chains” Paul is more or less saying, “Philemon, I know Onesimus might be of use to you, yet I am in the one in chains and need all the help I can get.”
    • “for the gospel” Onesimus was helping to do the work of the ministry. Paul essentially saying,  “Philemon, please don’t forget why I am here in chains. Remember that it is for the sake of the gospel.”

THE DECISION NEEDS TO BE GENUINE, v 14

  • Paul appealed in love, but did not trample over the rights of Philemon.
  • Philemon had to do what was really in his heart. Same line of thinking as Matthew 12:34.

DIVINE APPOINTMENT & HEART CHANGE, v 15-16

    • God providential hand at work in Onesimus’ escape
      • “separated from you for a little while” instead of ran away or escaped, etc. Paul phrases this in a way to help Philemon see things in a different light.
        • On one hand, Onesimus was nothing but trouble: deprived Philemon of a worker, made Onesimus a criminal, put Paul in an awkward spot.
        • On the other hand, it gave Philemon the opportunity to see that God does things His own way, and we don’t always understand it.
  • Isaiah 55:8-9
  • Genesis 50:19-21
      • “have him back forever” Paul “re-introduced” Onesimus. Philemon the master lost a slave, but Philemon the Christian gained a brother in the faith, and he gained that brother forever.
        • We are not to keep a “record of wrong” with new believers! They were lost acting like sinners, DUH.
        • Takes away the sting of the master-slave relationship and laid the foundation for the eventual legal abolition of slavery.
  • Galatians 3:28
        • Revolution of the heart changes society — not laws. “What the letter to Philemon does is to bring the institution into an atmosphere where it could only wilt and die. Where master and slave were united in affection as brothers in Christ, formal emancipation would be but a matter of expediency, the legal confirmation of their new relationship.” (Bible Scholar F.F. Bruce)

AN I.O.U., v 17-19

  • Paul’s personal promise of restitution towards Philemon
    • Put it on my account. Makes it clear that Onesimus stole from Philemon.
    • Paul did for Onesimus what Jesus did for us: taking our sins to His account.
      • “Here we see how Paul lays himself out for poor Onesimus, and with all his means pleads his cause with his master, and so sets himself as if he were Onesimus, and had himself done wrong to Philemon. Even as Christ did for us with God the Father, thus also does Paul for Onesimus with Philemon. We are all his Onesimi, to my thinking.” (Martin Luther)
    • P.S. You owe me, Philemon, so don’t be stingy.

CONFIDENCE IN PHILEMON, v 20-22

  • Another play on words: benefit comes from ancient Greek word oninemi, the root word for the name Onesimus.
  • Based on Paul’s description at the beginning of this letter, Paul had every reason to expect that Philemon would fulfill his Christian duty and do even more than asked.
  • Coming to you soon, I hope. HIstory is not clear if Paul was ever able to return.

CONCLUSION, v 23-25

    • Greetings from fellow friends
      • Ephaphras, Mark, Aristachus, Luke: Each also mentioned in the conclusion of the letter to the Colossians (Colossians 4:10-17). Confirms that the two letters went to the same place.
        • Side note on Demas: In the last letter Paul wrote before being led to his execution (a later imprisonment), Paul urged Timothy to come to him quickly “because (Demas) loved this world, has deserted me and has gone to Thessalonica.” (2 Tim. 4:9-10).
      • The best for last: The grace of Jesus is the REAL lesson of the book of Philemon. A change of heart must occur.
        • When we do something wrong, we must do our best to set it right. Even more true of a Christ-follower!
  • Matthew 5:23-24
        • Forgiveness is the key
          • Matthew 6:14-15
  • Ephesians 4:32
        • Be an advocate for those turning to faith in Christ
  • Acts 9
        • People know you belong to Christ if you love others
  • John 15:12-14
  • 1 John 4:9-12 (again!)

Touching Spirit Bear

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With a seething anger and the capacity to blame anyone and everyone except himself juxtaposed against extreme loneliness and deep, raw pain, I see some kids I know when I read about the character of Cole Matthews in Touching Spirit Bear. That kid, both boys and girls, has been in my class. With some, I’ve even been able to break through the barrier. But not with all.

I think that’s why Ben Mikaelsen’s poignant book was so interesting to me. I won’t give it all away, but the deal is that master manipulator Cole can’t finagle his way of out the consequences after he severely beats a classmate. As a last-ditch effort, he’s given the opportunity to go through Circle Justice (in this case through the Tlingit people of the Pacific Northwest, though practiced by other native peoples). If they allow it and Cole accepts, he will be banished to a remote site in Alaska for a year.

You realize pretty quickly that Cole’s heart is not going to change easily. He has real problems – the kind that don’t go away just because you want them to. And he doesn’t really want them to; Cole spends a lot of the first section of the book reinforcing that he’s not really to blame.

But he has an encounter with a spirit bear that changes his mind and his life.

Michelle Jackson, who teaches English I to 8th graders at the same middle school where I teach, recommended it to me, and I recommend it to you!

SSSSSUUUUMMMMMEEEEERRRR

I’m not a fan of hot weather, but I have come to love summer. The biggest reason is that school is out. This is very important for teachers (and students)!

An extended break is very welcome; however, I want it rightly understood that in June, I have to complete 11 full days of professional development (including teaching 5 days of summer school). Sooooo, it’s not like I’m completely free. No complaints here, though! Time off is time off.

Today is the first day of summer for Granbury ISD teachers. It’s been lovely so far:

  • Worked out
  • Read my Bible and My Utmost For His Highest devotion
  • Started some laundry
  • Had a friend come fix the bottom oven in our double oven unit
  • Made and ate lunch with the hubs
  • Colored in one of my coloring books
  • Posted on this blog for the first time in ages

And it’s only 2 p.m.! It’s going to be a GREAT summer. 🙂

Waaaaaaay Late Post: Feliz Navidog 2017

I’m just now posting Levi’s annual Feliz Navidog post, and it’s February 17; that should really tell you what this year is like!

Anyway, here he is. I didn’t make him pose by the tree because when I do, he usually looks like I just told him he would never get any more t-r-e-a-t-s for the rest of his life. Seriously, this dog’s sad face is why they made up the term “hangdog.”

So, he was lying on the couch with the tree behind him, and I snapped this pic on December 2, 2017. What a sweet boy!

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Rise and grind

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The typical phrase is “Rise and shine.” As a follower of Jesus, I definitely should shine. To me, shining sounds “happy” or at least put together. Ha. These days, shining is a struggle.

This school year has been hard for me. There’s a lot of reasons — everything from changing to splitting up 7th graders into on-level and accelerated ELA classes, a different class schedule/conference period, losing the one teacher in 7th grade ELA who knew what was going on, changes in the STAAR Writing test, and constant upheavals in general. And of course, even though we have many great kids this year, I can’t get over missing last year’s students; the class of 2022 coming out of Acton Middle School is amazing.

There’s usually a turning point after Christmas break when things at school mysteriously get better for no real reason. It’s Feb. 10; it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe it won’t happen at all, and this year is just going to be like that.

So, if I can’t “Rise and shine” much, I can “Rise and grind” — not quit, not give up, stay in the struggle knowing that God is the Mastermind working all things together*, and stand firm knowing that when I am weak, He is strong**. Maybe that is shining after all.

*Romans 8:28
**2 Corinthians 12:9-11

Book of Acts

I woke up thinking about something today that made me want to dig into the Bible… The summer between my 8th and 9th grade years, a handful of college kids at our church (FBC Richardson) led a Bible study of Revelation for the youth. I’m really impressed with that now, considering that the Book of Revelation is perplexing to most adults and teaching it is a daunting prospect!

I’m grateful that God uses things that happened in my life before I had a personal relationship with Him to draw me closer to Him now: When I was young, I believed God was who He said He was/is, Jesus was who He said He was/is, that the Bible was true and all those things, but we did not have a relationship — HUGE difference, a life-altering difference (read Matthew 7:15-23 and James 2:19 to learn more). It wasn’t until I was 25 years old that I confessed Jesus as Lord and Savior and entered into relationship with Him on August 15, 1999. 🙂

So, today I read and meditated on the first two chapters of the Book of Acts. If you want to get fired up, read Acts! It’s so inspiring. I don’t think that the church today needs to be exactly like the church of Acts — we can’t be — but there are some ways that we really should try to emulate. Here are a few that come to mind:

  • The early Christians described themselves as witnesses to Jesus’ resurrection. True, they literally saw the resurrected Christ with their own eyes, but all those who are disciples of Jesus today are witnesses of His resurrection power. Like a witness in a court case, we are called to testify! In fact, Revelation 12:11 says believers will overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.
  • They knew the Word and were ready to share it. Peter seized the opportunity to share the gospel with the Jewish people who experienced the miracle of Pentecost. And he didn’t pull any punches (Acts 2:22-23: Men of Israel, listen to this: Jesus of Nazareth was a man accredited by God to you by miracles, wonders, and signs, which God did among you through Him, as you yourselves know. This Man was handed over to you by God’s set purpose and foreknowledge; and you, with the help of wicked men, put Him to death by nailing Him to the cross.). Ouch.
  •  They met together and talked about Jesus. The familiar passage at the end of Chapter 2 (vv. 42-47) has been long since used as a model for church fellowship: studying the Word together, gathering together, eating together, and praying together. Something that is not stated but is obvious is sharing the Gospel — Acts 2:47: And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved. How would that happen if people did not tell unbelievers about Jesus!

The RRs

Among the many birds we have on Birdsong Court, the one that has captured my attention the most is the roadrunner who lives in our yard.

I found out a couple days ago that there are actually two RRs who live in our neighborhood! They are so big and pretty. I love looking for them. ☺ Haven’t gotten a good pic of both of them yet… in this one, the second RR in by the driveway.

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