Sense of Tranquillity

WOW… After so long. This is really long. It has been years since I came here and I suddenly thought of blogging again!! Hmm.. just a quick update about myself. I’m currently in my last year of uni and things have been going pretty well as of now. Many things had happen but I guess it will be too cumbersome to update everything here. Maybe I should start a new blog instead of using this URL. I shall think about it. 🙂

Oh, looking at the title it seems really intrigue! Alright, I just went for the conference about it on Sunday and I’d not been there yet. At least not for now. Haha. The conference was really A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! With the boy sharing his experience and then the worship team Read You & Me was great too!! Oh, I’m so in love with them. Too bad, didn’t have a chance to take a picture with them. But I actually bought the book “Heaven is for real” and I didn’t realize it’s signed by the author until like a day after I bought it. OMG! I’m so going to start reading it like now! But all the movies are taking away my time! LOL! Alright, I shall find one day and head to a cafe with the phone in silent mode and start reading!! I really can’t wait and I really want to do something relaxing before the school starts again.

Anyway, the service was by VFC and I really felt God’s presence with me during that time and it was really great. It has been such a long time since I’d experience that. And in between, there is this talk about “Satan can’t take your children away”, it was really good too and I learnt soo much from it even though I’m not a parent yet but helping out at Hope Kids really make such talks useful and it’s way easier to relate!

And oh, I should be going to Bintan with the Hope Kids leaders at end August and I hope it’s gonna be as awesome as I want it to be. Maybe it’ll be a great time of relaxation and I think I’ll bring a book with me too! Am sooo looking forward to it!! Haha.

P.S I”m gonna blog more often from now on. (Hopefully)

It’s already like 12 plus and I’m still mugging my way off. (Of course, I’m taking a break now.) OMG! The studying is really driving me insane and I haven’t been blogging for quite some time. To be frank, this whole blogging thing just doesn’t appeal to me anymore. At the same time, I didn’t want to just abandon all the memories of the past though it seems like that’s somehow the best thing to do in certain point of my life.

Many unpleasant stuff happen recently and I don’t think there is any way I can jot all this happenings down being the fact that it’s too gross and disgusting and that everything that happen kind of weaver my faith but I know that I can overcome all this and get back my faith through Christ. I’m really yearning to just sit down and pour my sorrows to God. It has been some time since I last did that and I’m so guilty. 😛

Alright, have to head back to the books now. Will probably update more when the exams end in approximately 3 weeks time from now. Haha.

** Exams is such a chore and I really hate it but oh wells, no point hating it but just do my best to conquer this battle!

It has been soooo long since I last came in here and blog! Well, it’s 2012 and this is my first post!! Haha! Sooo busy and prelims are coming?! Crap! Love studying but hate exams. That’s the irony! Well, how to cram everything into my brain?! It seems impossible but I’m going to make it!! I’m sooo stressed but I’m very determine to put in my best effort no matter what.

Jiayou!!

Alright, wanna stop and go rest already.. 🙂

Whole City, Whole World.

The conference was a blast and I wish it had never ended. God’s presence was so real and that every word that speak, pierce right through my heart and I really want to do something about it right now. I was really overwhelm by the whole conference and I just can’t thank God enough for the people who had contributed to this conference in one way or another. Especially the pastoral team!!!

On the day before the conference, I just had a tiff with my dad and I thought, oh wells, maybe I will just be a daddy’s girl and stay home and such but of course I didn’t. I still went with a heart of expectation and nonetheless, God did what He wanted to my heart. I don’t want to compromise any more. I’m going to do what I know I should!

Every session was so great, especially the interview with the panels on the first day of conference. I’m still asking God for my calling. I’m not sure what it is but I know He’ll reveal to me bits by bits and I just want to obey Him and do what He asks of me. Really.

Oh, and I finally give to the Chairs for soul. I believe that God is going to provide as I give. The significant behind giving is not because the pastors/leaders keep emphasize on it but because I really want to invest in the Kingdom of God!!! 🙂

At the end of this 2 days conference, I was so tired physically but let me tell you, I was spiritually refreshed and I hope the fire that’s ignite will never burn down and I’ll continue to shine for God!

Really, it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!

“You are my refuge and my shield;
I have put my hope in your word.”
Psalm 119:114

– Our God is greater, our God is stronger!

Have you ever experience the joy of giving?? Haha. Well, I did. I bought this student a angry bird key chain and after he finished his classwork, I pass it to him and he was so happy. It’s like blessing someone and in return, I’m feeling happy as well, seeing him so happy. 🙂

I know I’m not suppose to be biased and buy gift for any students but then I kind of dirtied his transformer mechanical pencil and I couldn’t find any transformer stuff so I got him his second favourite. Haha.

The smile on his face just brighten my day after the long hours of work! Haha. A pity they’re leaving to KL soon because their dad is being posted there for work so they’ll be going there for 3 years if I’m not wrong. Kind of sad. But as for now, they’re still here so at least their smile can motivate me. LOL! 🙂

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize
for which God has called me
heavenward in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:14

– so happy! *smiles*

Well, it’s really late or rather early and I’m still up. I really love the serenity of the night where the family is asleep just me, my typing on the keyboard sound, the music that is playing and the sound of the fan. I simply love this kind of environment. But again, it’ll brings in emotions and cause me to be emotional. Of course it’s not going to ruin my mood but the negativity that sets in just seems so irritating and I just feel like leaving it. Allowing my mind to run wild and yet I can’t control it anymore.

I had utilize the public holiday well by treating my family to the USS. I can’t remember why I even decide to treat them there but I thought it’s a sweet thing to do! Haha. Anyway, we headed there at around 11 plus and was glad that the closing time had been extended to 9pm instead of the usual 7pm. Had a really awesome time with the family even though the queuing part was really annoying. I really love the 4D Shrek Movie. Super cute!! Haha. Wish there wasn’t so many people there and it would be greater! Haha.

We had to go grandma’s place to fetch the dogs since we put them there in the morning. But before that, we headed to had out dinner first before fetching them back. Had a great time today and I wish to have more such family time together with them. 🙂

Haha. It has been so long ever since I last came here. Well, things are pretty mundane and pretty much the same so I thought I’ll just leave this once so active blog here to rot. LOL!This is post is going to be in a big mess because I’m going to just briefly update on the recent things. Haha. Well, I guess no one ever bother coming to this place anymore so might as well just rant. Heh.

Alright, just some quick update. I’m so lazy to even blog about my Hong Kong and Macau trip in my another blog and those thousands of photos are yet to be updated. Just doesn’t have the habit of turning on the laptop the moment I came home. Well, I’m going to update it real soon. The memorable trip that was so well spent with my mum have to be recorded somewhere like real soon before I forget all the good times I spend with her in the trip.

Next up is my birthday celebration. I still have some photos with me and I think I’ll have to upload them real soon. Like my birthday is already like in the past tense already since it’s already like over for 6 days. And I just can’t believe that I’d already turn 21!!! Haha. Really appreciate those who turn up for my celebration and indeed, I had a great blast!! 🙂

To make this post longer, I have to say about the ever so hot topic on Singapore General Election 2011. Haha. Well, I didn’t get the chance to vote but it’s better that way because I still get the $$$ from the government. 🙂 I’m not trying to be money minded here but I thought I’ve to make full use of this money that the government gave. Well, I shall keep my comments to myself before it gets to anyone and I’m in deep trouble. Haha. 🙂

And of course, Mother day!! Haha. Well, I didn’t get anything for mum yet but the day spent with her at grandma’s place was really wonderful. Simple but I enjoy it. I’m just hoping that she is going to pull through whatever is happening in her life right now. I really want to help her but I don’t seems to be adequate enough to help her through. All I can do is surrender and let God take charge. Thanks mummy for the things you’d done for me. 🙂 I still think that I need to be bold enough to tell her this verbally in her face and not in the blog or SMS. Haha. I need the courage!!! I’ve missed an opportunity to do what God called me to do but I know there will be a right time and when I do, God is going to back me up!

“Be kind and compassionate to one another,
forgiving each other,
just as in Christ God forgave you.”
Ephesians 4:32

– awaiting an answer from above.

NLC was great and awesome! Like I didn’t expect it to be such a blast but indeed, when you go with a heart of expectancy, God is going to do something GREAT!! This was all I believe and I just headed off to conference with a few objectives in mind. God had spoken to me in specific areas of my life and I had acknowledge them and I’m going to improve/change it in my life. Not going to just waste the time that I spend in conference but I’m going to bring it out to my daily life.

I’m still looking for the right opportunity to do what God had called me to but I’m still lacking the courage. Well, it seems like I’m planning everything. Can I for once trust God and rely on His timing? But something I need to plan is what should the content be first. Plus Easter is coming and I thought it’ll be the best opportunity!!

Leave everything in the hands of the mighty God! This is really what I want to do. Not going to give up and the encouragement by so many of them just makes me want to do more! Continue serving, continue blessing. The phrase, “God is going to use ordinary people to do extraordinary things” had stuck in my brain ever since conference ended. I’m anticipating to be use by God!!

“For the director of music. Of David.
The fool says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, their deeds are vile;
there is no one who does good.”
Psalm 14:1

– our God is an AWESOME God!!

Had been asking myself about my walk with God recently? Well, I can say that it’s not very consistent but every time when I read even a short passage of His Word, it speaks to me. It’s really wonderful when you know that He is near and He is there.

After the whole episode on Saturday, I’m more and more convince that He is near and He knows the heartbeat of every single one of us. Isn’t our heavenly Father great??! 🙂

This affirm me of my decision back then and I’ve not regret it after so many year. Well, they might still not agree with what I’m doing but I’m not going to care what they say and continue to do what gives me the peace and joy within.

Praise the Lord!

“But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord.
Always be prepared to give an answer
to everyone who asks you to give
the reason for the hope that you have.
But do this with gentleness and respect,”
1 Peter 3:15

– walking right with God.