Distance makes the heart grow fonder? read the FB status of a close friend…& it got me thinking. Does it ? , was the question I was asking myself. I started considering if there were any changes in my relationship with the people closest to me like my parents, my brother & my best friends.
Well moving out of Mumbai was something I never wanted to do; I did not bother attempting to pursue my studies outside in spite of the opportunities. The only thing that I was clear about was, whatever dreams & aspirations I had I will be achieving them very much in my hometown & I did that (thank God at the time of being interviewed for my job no one asked me if I was rigid about my locational preference). I know in this age I might sound like I am from the cretaceous period for being so rigid about moving out…but I did not bother. I just did not want to move out of the perfect set up that I had of family & friends.
Then about two years ago I met this guy who I knew I wanted to spend my life with, but there was a small glitch. Though being from Mumbai, he would not be staying in Mumbai for ‘a while’…& that while did not have a timeframe. So today I am sitting in Copenhagen on a cold evening wondering if distance makes the heart grow fonder.
I would say it does not; at least for me it hasn’t. My fondness for all my loved ones hasn’t changed than earlier. But something is different, it definitely is, what is it then?.
I never spent time with mom earlier just talking, my brother & me could never have a civil conversation all we did was had stupid fights, dad was busy with his work & so was I …we did not bother much, to take some time out to spend together. I did make time for all my friends despite being busy with work. Weekdays was always work & more of work and sometimes may be catch up with friends over coffee or dinner. One of my self made rule, that I religiously followed was of the two days of the weekend that I had, one day was exclusively for my family. On this so called family day, all I did was spend it in my room with my laptop, phone, TV, books, catching up on lost sleep…..
But now a year & a half that I have been away from home, things have changed. I have realized that communication and expressing my fondness was what was missing earlier. I have to talk to mom every single day no matter which corner of the world I am or she is, dad & me have Skype sessions very often if not daily. My brother & me have a lot of conversations right from professional talk, to politics to sports, handling relationships… we also pull each other’s legs & sometimes have fights also over Skype…pheewww its difficult to believe that do we actually behave in this manner with each other now. What about my best friends, I think each one of them will vouch for me that, like earlier I still keep in touch with all of them, yes I am not there physically for the rendezvous over coffee ,lunches, dinners, parties….but I have not forgotten any of them & we still talk.
Well I am glad that this physical distance made me realize that I was not spending time & effort on nurturing my relationship with the people who are world to me and this is a lesson that I do not repeat the mistake with some of my newly made ties.
But it has also sparked some other thoughts. What happens when the distances that are created are emotional ones or mental ones? They would not be as easy to overcome as these are distances created by heart.
Well, right now I am happy overcoming the physical ones & for the rest, as they say ‘sometimes it’s best to keep ones distance’….
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I,Me,Myself…
Ever wondered what it is to be like all alone for 9-10 hours a day? If someone were to ask me this question, my reply would be ‘Are you nuts, firstly to ask such a question and then the answer would be I will go mad if I ever have to encounter such a situation’. I am constantly surrounded by people all the time be it work or home so it’s a impossible kind of situation. I meet new people on a daily basis because of my work, then I would do any kind of adjustments to spend time with my friends and last but not the least I had my family to whom I yearn to get back to after a day of hard work. So there was no chance that I could think of spending that long a time all by myself. But yeh I did complain that I was not getting to spend some time just by myself to do nothing, or to do some things which I would have otherwise loved to. I would crib that I am not getting enough of ‘ME’ time.
Then a year back God said ‘Tathastu, you will have the ME time that you so wanted’. I got married moved to a different city & now a totally different continent, quit my job, away from family and friends. Now the same question is back and I am actually spending 9-10 hours of the day by myself where I am my own company. The first few days I was in a state of exhilaration. No alarm to wake me up..jab aankh khule tabhi savera was my mantra, my mobile which earlier rang 24*7 at any time of the day/night had suddenly died, no more meeting requests, presentations ,spread sheets..life was bliss. I got to pursue my hobby of painting that I always wanted to, caught up on some reading, travelling, falling sick and just staying in bed all day to get the rest required & not feeling guilty about it and all such things which I had missed out. Basically a break that I felt I sooo needed after 5 years of slogging.
Now its almost a year spending most of my productive hours of time with myself I have learnt a lot of new things about my own self, since I have a lot of time to do self introspection. Many new strengths, some weaknesses, some different perspectives to various things and life in general. I indeed feel I have learnt and grown as an individual. But now I crib that I have had enough of the ME time and now I yearn for all the thrills of my work , those targets, numbers crunching, spread sheets, meetings and all of it. I have started the process of attempting to rebuild my career, social circle with a new set of friends (though my family & friends back can be never replaced)but I guess that will take a while and so my ‘ME’ time continues.
Well like all phases and seasons, I know that this ME time will not last for long and I will look back fondly at this time that I got to spend with myself, even with all its highs and lows. Two major leanings for me were that God says “Tathastu once every day so one should think & remember what one is asking for or thinking about and I am my best friend”
It indeed is pleasurable to spend so much of time with oneself!
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I have to write Today!!!!
It was in the year 2008 that I attempted to write, this could not have happened if it were not for this very close friend of mine. She even opened my blog account & managed it for a while. All I did was write in and email the doc to her & then forget about it. Writing is not a natural trait to me unlike so many others in the blogging arena. But today after nearly 2 years I decided that I should attempt to write something.
Since I am not a natural writer, for me to actually come up with something, there has to be a strong incident or philosophy or a thought to ponder about & write. Today at this point of time when I want to write I do not have either of them. So now what? Should I just switch off my notebook? Well I have decided that I have to write something today so that option is out. So I decide to create an ambiance, I pull a comfy chair close to the window of my room which overlooks the picturesque by lanes of Copenhagen city with trees, beautiful houses, little snow. It looks beautiful just to sit by there, gaze into the scenery & get immersed into deep thoughts. So I am hopeful that I will be inspired to pen down something…since I have decided to write today.
It’s been around ten minutes now… I have looked at all the people walking by the street, gazed into the beautiful sky, a lady in the opposite window putting up a meal & still no inspiring thought to write about. I decide to make myself a bit more comfortable by cozying up to another window, close to the heater, a different scenery which has a main street now along with the by lanes, beautiful houses and the little snow. I also have a stimulant, my piping hot big cup of ‘kadak chai’. At least now I should get some thoughts and write something…that’s what I have decided for today.
I start my forced thinking process, should I write about the last one year of my life where in I took the most important decision of my life & got married? my life post marriage, a new phase where I am learning & doing things which I had never done before the most important being quitting my job & attempting to start afresh my career in still under the spell of recession Europe/Denmark, discovering my love for a new art form Tanjore Painting, probably want to learn more of it when I am back and who knows may be take it up professionally or the art of cooking which I don’t love but I still explore & experiment. I am already making my mom proud with my culinary skills and also with my mehman nawazi..actually am doing a lot of it in Copenhagen. May be I should write about my experiences of living in one of the best cities in the world or my first snow experience with temperatures plunging into minus something and me surviving in these conditions. I was a girl who would wear a sweater in Mumbai winters & here I am in Copenhagen in one of the harshest winters thankfully still alive. I think I should skip this semi autobiography and probably think of something else. But I should write that’s my target for today & I don’t give up till my task is complete.
I decide to give my not yet started thinking process a tiny break. Let me read the news, maybe it’ll give me my topic to write on…so all d web pages of TOI, ET, The Copenhagen Post, Newyork Times are all open. I am browsing across each page & today when I am reading these pages my motive is different. I am looking for that one thought which will prompt me to write something. The papers all have is the Egypt protest, Raja being caught…will that affect the Indian praja…,the sensex going up & down…ufff…I am frustrated now. Where is my ‘the thought’ which will prompt me to write.
Let me relax now & distract my mind…let me facebook for a while. I am sure I will have something to write on. Am browsing through pictures of god know who they are, some videos which claim that they are the best entertainers in the world…& of course reading through some very interesting updates of friends. Some are a take on life, some attending interesting events…the latest fad being telling all via fb where you are & with whom & so on & on…and I have already spent a good amount of time doing this just on the pretext of relaxing myself. Do I have something to write about? I am afraid, NO.
I was so immersed into my notebook that I forgot about the scenic ambience that I was sitting by. I look up and its 4.00pm and dark and the day is already gone. I have spent my entire afternoon trying to think and write something and by the end of it I haven’t written a word. Not a very good way of spending time. Alas I was all set to give up,but on second thoughts I am at my creative best at the night. So maybe I should give it a shot then…Aah.. I already have selected my corner to sit by for that inspiring ambience….So I will definitely write something today!!!
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The “T” Factor
Some happenings or incidents that take place in our day to day life sometimes make us to sit back and think…and that’s what I was up to today. Was just trying to understand what is the single most important and common factor that I share with most of the relationships that I have with all the people who are dear to me be it my folks, siblings, friends, a few colleagues and may be a few others who may not necessarily be close otherwise but at any given point in time in one’s life they tend to share the same platform as that of the few others who are life to me.
So what’s this common factor that sometimes makes us so dependable even on complete strangers?? Is it the most important aspect to any relation?? Is it the only aspect to keep any relationship goin…???What if this T factor is missing??? But what is this T factor…well I call it the “Trust Factor”. As an old saying which I very strongly believe in is “We are never so vulnerable than when we trust someone, but paradoxically if we cannot trust, neither can we find joy or love”
These questions and the thought kept me bothering thru the day and am yet to find the correct answers…I am actually confused…I was advised by someone never to take people at the face value and the person also added that by saying this it does not mean that we shouldn’t trust people. We should trust them but not fully. Is it possible to say that I trust someone but only 10% or may be the degrees vary from person to person, of course it is. We do not trust everyone around us in the same degree or quantum. I have some set of people whom I can blindly have this T Factor & there are some with whom I will be cautious. So in this process of me trying to quantify the T factor that I have over my near & dear one’s I realised there are a few where the quantum of difference is marginal….so now where does this leave me… Then should I pretend that I actually trust someone when actually I don’t really do that from within. I could keep suspecting them of being up to some activity…Is it really possible to interact with people or just to live peacefully without the T factor…Questions and more questions…I am more confused..
Some more of my “Me Thinking Time” to dwell deeper into this so called T Factor to reach to some conclusion which is able to put to rest my apprehensions. One of the major conclusions that I could draw is that TRUST is the basis for any relationship. It may not be the only aspect to keep a relationship going but it is definitely the basis & strong basis goes a long way for a healthy life of any relationship. How much should I trust someone?? There is no right or wrong answer for this all I would say is that I would go by my instincts. There have been times when the instincts have proved to be wrong, but I guess one learns from experience. Would leave it with the thought that all of us would have heard about. Trust is like glass…once its the broken the pieces may be mended but it may never be the same again.
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Where Is God????
Where is God, why is he allowing so much of evil to spread around, what had so many innocents done to get this kind of death and torture. There is so much of evil ongoing around the world everyday and even at this very minute that I am writing this down, but somehow the terrorist activity in Mumbai has hurt me, distressed and depressed me since this happened in my very own city, a city which I have been calling home ever since I was born.…these were questions that have been bothering me a lot over the last few days. The last week’s carnage has hurt me so very much it broke my hiatus from the blogging scene compelling me to vent out my thoughts.
Being an absolute believer in the unknown, unseen power whom we call GOD I was very angry with him and also a feeling of helplessness started to creep in almost making me questioning his very existence. So much of destruction in his name, such incidents have almost become a way of life in some of the troubled parts of the globe where in the name of religion we have fanatics committing dastardly & cowardice acts .But why is he still allowing this to go on…??? Hindu mythology speaks of the dashavtars or ten forms of Lord Vishnu which takes forms to specially wipe out the evil, nine of his forms have already been adorned and the 10th one is yet to make appearance on the planet..where is this 10th form???….does he need more evil to take place before he makes an appearance???, is this evil not enough for him to take charge & put an end to it all once & for all??
More and more introspection lead to me getting answers for if not all but to some of the questions. Firstly not to give up on the faith & hope…..Secondly God was there in many forms on that eventful day or in the days to come, he was there in the innumerable security personnel who were as brave as ever some of them so very ill equipped yet ready to take on the terrorists, he was there in the fire fighters who fought not only against the fire threatening to engulf the Taj, but also braved the unseen terrorists and all this without any bullet proof jackets and ammunitions, GOD was there in the employees of the hotels under attack for whom the mantra was efficient customer service no matter what the conditions are, he was there as Sandra the nanny who had the courage to escape with baby Moshe giving him a new lease of life, those tireless doctors, nurses and hospital personnel and a lot of unsung, unheard people who had depicted acts of heroism during the entire episode. They were the different faces of GOD who made his presence felt very strongly through these innumerable brave people. Am sure the kith and kin will never be able to thank all these people enough for being the supreme almighty for all those who were on the line of fire.
Though at the end of it all the feeling of helplessness, anger still persists, but also with these persists a hope that things will change for the better, how, what, when & will I be able to do something about it are the questions for which I would be seeking answers for…..
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Experiencing Failure
It is said there are no failures- just experiences and our reactions to them. What is the experience that Failures leave us with? Very often it leaves us heart broken, dejected, low self esteem, low self confidence and a host of other negative thoughts & negativity. Even with all these not so good feelings that a failure leaves us with, we humans are a gifted lot who have this innate ability to bounce back after every fall, to rise & shine brighter and this happens if and only if one wishes to do that.
I have been trying to delve into my setbacks to garner the various experiences. Apart from all the negatives there is also something very strange that I felt to have experienced, I realised that all the setbacks have left me feeling very humble. Humbling??? how could that be possible was the question that kept creeping in, of all the things Humble.
One gets flying really high in the quest to achieve our goals and dreams. We do achieve the set targets, and celebrate the success for all the efforts gone behind the same, the spurt continues and we are on the pedestal. Sometimes in the midst of all the highs, factors like arrogance, high headedness, overconfidence and the likes creep in, we do not realise the same and continue touching the heights which only get higher with each success. Then comes the “Fall” which is not all that a great experience for anyone, leaving us all bruised, battered and the likes of such feelings. But I guess the Fall is very necessary to bring each of us back to the ground to the place from where we started and keep reminding us that it is necessary to conquer great heights but not at the cost of ones humbleness.
Would like to quote a thought that I had chanced upon which says ‘To be truly Great one has to stand with people, not above them. So can say that the true success of an individual comes with the humility & humbleness reflected by them, which I have learnt only after the “Great Fall”.
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The Last Leaf!!!
Writing doesn’t come in as naturally to me as it does to a lot of my fellow bloggers.I really have to think hard & my thoughts have to be absolutely clear about what I wish to write. After my last blog I was really thinking hard as to what my next blog should be on…lot of forced thought process went behind the same & still no luck. The thought process for this blog started in the most unexpected manner. It started at 4.30am on a Sunday morning after I woke up sweating feeling all queasy. I had a nightmare for a dream. I actually wanted to open my notebook & start work on this blog at that very moment but didn’t do that coz people at home would have got worried as to what d hell was wrong with me, nevertheless coming back to the nightmare; it actually showed me a different perspective towards life.
I felt I was the last leaf left on to a tree which was shedding all the old ones at the onset of winter making space for the new ones to arrive in spring. I was clutching on to the tree so very hard almost fighting it out to stay in there. We all do clutch on to things in our life, we do it either consciously or unconsciously and with time we do accumulate lot of baggage without realizing about it. Well “change” is one of the major reasons for the accumulation. Why is it that we all are so averse to change even though it is for the betterment? We all love to live in the familiar surroundings that we are so very used to & any unknown situation makes us uneasy, we detest to even explore the unknown paths which could lead to something better than the present.
Sometimes we under pressure react to certain situations in a particular manner & later when the pressures have subsided think that may be we could have handled the whole situation differently. Even though unpleasant the dream actually made me realise that we should always be open to embracing change, since change is the only constant thing in life, without change actually there would be no life.
So the lesson that I learnt out of the nightmare was that I rather be the “Tree” who is shedding old leaves (doing away with the baggage) every year to make way for the new one’s i.e. embracing change to build a beautiful & a pleasant life, rather than be “The Last Leaf” clutching on to the tree & fighting a loosing battle.
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Common Interests.
This is going to be an interesting write up. A challenge for me to bring out the thoughts on paper the way they are running in my mind right now. To start off I have been thinking really hard as to what should be the title for this write up, at this point of time I have given it the title of Common Interests, if any of you guys reading this have something more interesting, suggestions are welcome.
This was a very interesting topic of conversation that I had with a friend of mine & the topic caught on to my fancy so much that I kind of did a mini research on the same. I spoke to my friends, some colleagues, corporate trainers specializing in human behaviour & also a psychologist friend of mine. Buy now you guys must be wondering what this whole gamut about “Common Interest” is? The discussion that I had was how important it was for one to share the same interest with one’s partner i.e. spouse, girlfriend/boyfriend. Interests like reading the same kind of books, watching the same genre of movies, enjoying the same cuisines, listening to the same kind of music, following the same sport just to name a few.
This friend of mine felt that this was the most important factor for the relationship to sustain & survive, for him in his relationship with his partner this would be the foundation or basis for the same, he actually defied the saying that goes “Opposites Attract”. When I posed this question to the list of people whom I have mentioned above I got the exact opposite views from all of them, not even one amongst them felt it was necessary for couples to share the same interests. Infact one of my friends had an extreme view, he said he would not have married his then girlfriend now wife had she been a clone of him in the area of interests. Spouses/Partners that have diverse interests helps couples to explore new areas & introduces one another to range of interesting new activities to try together, provided the couple has an open mind & attitude to explore & adopt the other person’s interests, was what the psychologist friend of mine had to quote.
What are my thoughts on the same? Well a couple of day’s back I happen to catch up on a bollywood potboiler & sometimes these movies do have some interesting lines. So this movie that I saw had a dialogue which I think makes a lot of sense in the context of this blog, it went like this “We fall in love because we like that someone, but to sustain that love we need to adopt the likes of that someone whom we like” please pardon me for the grammar since I was trying to translate the same from Hindi to English. I would say that all these likes, interests are all incidental factors, the bottom line is about spending time with our partner, there would have been umpteen times when all of us would have done things which are not exactly of our interest but still enjoyed the whole experience, like me watching a hardcore violent movie, though not my types but still had fun. Again another factor is that interests, likes are all variable factors and are bound to change with times & with age as well. Like I was an absolute Coffee Drinker a couple of years back & today am a “Chai” person & enjoy coffee no more a very small example to quote.
I would like to re-quote what my psychologist friend had to say the Crux is having an Open Mind & attitude to adopt & change, I think that goes not only for relationships with partners but for any relationship. If we like or rather would like to use a stronger word if we Love that someone, we will work out & do all the possible things to make the relationship stronger & successful. I have seen people of different cultures, religions & nationalities coming together & adopting each others values & religious beliefs, so interests look very tiny in comparison to those factors.
I would like to end this with a very strong notion that a friend of mine has and I too feel speaks volumes about the success of any relationship,is adopting & making our partners weakness as our strength & vice versa.
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Lessons Of Friendship…
It is said that the character of a man can be judged by the friends he keeps. A statement to some extent I would agree with, because friends are the family that we create, they are family outside the biological family. This family of Friends that I have created has played a major role in moulding me into the kind of person I am. “Friendship”, I am sure a lot is said & written about Friendship as a relationship. Well relationships was something that I was shying away from writing about, but finally gave in because I really wanted to write about some of the major lessons that I have learnt from some of my closest friends. Lessons that have helped me grow as an individual, lessons that have made me look at different aspects of life, lessons that have helped me define my character.
Through this write up I wanted to acknowledge the presence of a few actually to be precise 6 people in my life who have made a lot of difference to me at various stages in my life. I would not be giving out any names but would like to bring out the major lessons that they have unknowingly taught me. And I am very sure when they are reading this they exactly know who it is that I am taking about.
Lesson 1: Selflessness is something which is very rare in today’s times. One hardly gets to see this quality. And amongst that I came across this dear friend of mine who always placed others before herself, who found her joys by making her near & dear ones happy. That was or rather is her mantra for the good health of any relationship, was I able to adopt it fully?? Well definitely not like the way she has but I always have it in my mind.
Lesson 2: Believe In your Dreams: This girl had her dreams very clearly set & today am really glad to see all things falling in place for her (Touchwood!!!).The perseverance & resilience that she has shown towards working out those dreams is just commendable. Just not allowing any kind of set backs to dampen her spirits. Her dreams coming true just makes my belief in the saying “Go for your Dreams” stronger.
Lesson 3: “PATIENCE”I have understood the actual meaning of this word only after interacting with this individual. I don’t think I have so far come across anyone as patient as this girl. She has tonnes & tonnes of the same. She has succeeded to quiet an extent to make me understand the meaning & imbibe the same.
Lesson 4: Positive Attitude. Here is one girl who oozes positivity; her sheer presence makes things around me go very lively & brighter than they actually are. No problem looks big enough for her. When we have so much of negativity and negative people around the presence of this individual in my life is the best thing that can happen to me, rather would like to put it this way that her friendship is one of the most positive things happened in my life.
Lesson 5: Silent Support: This friend of mine has shown me that one need not go over the top with words & actions to show people & friends that they care. This is an art that I have been trying to learn from him. He has been what I can call “The Silent Supporter” for me, has seen me through the highs & lows of my career, relationships & all. Not once has he given me any of those pep talks to boost my confidence, but his actions have always been louder than words screaming to say that “Look I really care”. Well this is an art I would say not everybody can play.
Lesson 6: With due respect to the others I would like to add not just one but a couple of things that this individual has taught me, the foremost being Live life everyday; take each day as it comes & live it as if there was no tomorrow. Enjoy every moment that life is putting you through the highs the lows, because everything has a purpose and there are major lessons to be learnt from them.
The second being Maturity: I have heard this saying that Maturity comes with age, but looking at this person I would say that the saying is more of a myth. This girl has seen & been through some very tough situations at a very tender age. The maturity that she has shown in handling her life has been incredibly phenomenal. She has behaved 10 -15 years older than her age in handling all that life has put her through. I draw a lot of strength by just looking at the way she has been handling her life.
The last lesson being Handling Relationships: By this I mean handling any relationship, be it with parents, siblings, friends or your love interest. She has managed to break another myth she plays the role of a counsellor to innumerable friends (one of them being me also) of hers to help them manage their love affairs/marriage without actually being in a relationship. She understands the complexities of relationships really well & I do not know how & from where does she do that.
Well I would say that these are some of the few important lessons that I have learnt from my closest friends. All of them have many many more facets to their personalities & if I were to bring them out I can actually write a book. But to end it I would just add that Life has been really kind to me by making these people a part of me and through this article I wish to acknowledge the importance of each of their presence for me in my life.
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Introducing Me to Myself…
This is the second of my write-ups & what made me take this up??I am still thinking, why is it that I am writing about myself,seeking answers yet!!!. Well its a few events that have been happening in the past couple of weeks that have actually made me put on my thinking caps and made me think about myself. By the sheer nature of my profession I get to meet & interact with lot of new people on a daily basis. So as a recruitment personnel it’s become mechanical for me to start of an interview by asking the opposite person to tell me something about themselves, the candidates are smart enough and they rattle of things that the recruiter would like to hear about them.
Through the normal course of my life I happened to meet an individual who stumped me with some questions about myself & it was such a “googli” that I actually could not handle it. Someone out of nowhere was asking me some of the very basic things about myself & I was at an absolute loss for words, thoughts everything. I had blanked out completely.
Before I go any further, let me just clarify that I had not gone to give an interview for any job, since I have my colleagues also reading this its better before anyone jumps to any conclusion.
This whole meeting actually made me very uneasy & uncomfortable because after the meeting the thoughts that were running across my mind were what the hell? Why couldn’t I say something when there were so many things that I could talk about, and this individual had not asked me about something which I was not familiar about, the whole focus was me, and how could I not talk about myself, because I am the best person to know myself better than anybody around me, but still What the hell happened to me? The coming days were really tough. All my energies concentrated on trying to analyse why was it that I was not able to talk, I also used my MBA gyan into this & the whole process of self analysis kickstarted.There were umpteen questions that were creating havoc in my mind. It was as though I was trying to find out my identity. What were my beliefs, values, likes-dislikes, thoughts about issues, what is it that makes “ME”.
I then started my quest to find out all these answers. All the answers lay very much within me & it was also not that I did not know the answers to these. I realised that over a period of time I had not nurtured them enough, I realized I had not given time to myself that time which is so valuable in today’s fast paced life style that we all have. The real me had got lost somewhere amidst the innumerable roles that I play, dutiful daughter, result delivering employee, trustworthy friend, loving sister, ever adorable girl next door just to name a few….but what about the real “ME”…why did I forget “HER”. So where has all this self introspection left me…it has embarked me on a very beautiful trail of rediscovering my self, a trail which I am thoroughly enjoying.
If in life I ever get to meet that individual again, I would wish to personally extend my Heart Felt Thank You to this person who from nowhere momentarily came into my life to “Introduce Me To Myself”. A thought for all those who are reading this, please do not wait for some stranger to come in & give us a jolt to wake us up from our slumber….to reintroduce us to ourselves!
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