when stars flew across my room

inner shell of friends only. if you are,
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friends; what are they to you?
who will be there for you in 30 years time?

50,10,5,1,none?

somehow i just want to believe that there's no such things as friends.
just people, making use of people - for their selfish gains.


because they dont want to pass by their current phase of life being alone; that's why they befriended you
because they dont want to feel alone sitting in the lecture; that's why they befriended you
because they dont want to have no project buddy to be with; that's why they befriended you
and maybe because they think you could be of use to them in the future; they's why they choose to keep in contact with you


perhaps thats the reason on why you befriended them as well.
seriously ask yourself.


some people may thing it's sad to even think in such a way. but really, thats usually how the world works.
because it's really hard to believe something called "friend" anymore.

hmm.

i've attended many weddings during the year and each of them never fails to tell a special story. however i was really impressed during last week's wedding.

pretty much the same actually; just that it's so simple that it's so beautiful.

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I recorded it yesterday for a friend who left for Aussie to study. Hahaha its abit offbeat and off rhythm again since I have to record it at one go with the stupid inbuilt mic my laptop has hehehehe but oh well....... Hope you all like it too!


(Btw use headphones!)



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four pillars of a man's heart.

a king; who provides
a warrior; who protects
a mentor; who teaches
a friend; who connects


it's hard, but i'm trying to be all four at the same time.

i just had to share this here.
this is so true.

hello stranger.
do you know you're so beautiful?
sometimes i'd even think beautiful is such an understatement because in my eyes, you'd be perfect inside out.


hello stranger.
do you know that i'm still thinking about you
yes right now you're still on my mind.


hello stranger.
don't take me as some humsup guy because i have many female friends
i just love talking to them because somehow i prefer the depth of conversations i have with them


hello stranger.
give me your hand and we'll disappear
we'll go to a place, do not fear.




i'm willing to let it all go.
just for you. just for you.

where are you stranger?
im still missing you, missing you.

i've finally cleared another phase of my life.

i don't know but the feeling's kinda bittersweet. it's as if everybody's leaving for their own destination in life and every one of us is left alone to face the world again.

it's really a shock when you wake up in the morning, knowing that it's all over - no more 9am lectures. no more 1pm lunch at makan place or no more staying up late to complete projects which are due the next day.

but then again, it's such a joy knowing that everybody is leaving for another place where im sure they will enjoy. new friends and relationships will be forged again and everything will seem status quo.

will you still remember me the next morning?

i have to admit that these two months were the most frustrating months i've been through throughout my entire. i guess it's gotta do with the anticipation of things - uni, army, work, piano exam.

it just utterly bugs the heck out of me when i dont see things manifesting (and how's im being left hanging during this period while waiting for local and overseas uni offers, army letters and the date of my piano exam which majority of it i still do not know.)

started work a month ago; that probably affirmed the heck that i will not be an accountant in the future. but albeit all the hatred about the monotony accounting brings, i've learnt a lot too. work's been fun, especially with my new colleagues and i do hope they like me too.

accepted smu's business (no it's not because there are pretty girls there) a few days ago. i dont know but im still thinking between that and overseas universities. i think ultimately the main problem would be the number of years i take to complete it but i really do like the teaching approach smu brings about, especially the flexibility thingy.

finally after all the thinking, i guess i've set my heart into strategic management. i dont really have any work experience there but i do hope i'll get one when im interning at a uni level. somehow i would see myself being more active in wanting to implement changes so that companies benefit and do well rather than just churning out figures for the month end closing, knowing that it'll be the same damn thing again the month after.

i couldn't much forget the conversation i had with someone while i was in aussie a few weeks back. i could still clearly picture the scene where it took place.

we were collecting our luggages from aunt's place and it was in the suburb in melbourne - meaning trains only come in a frequency of one every hour. felt really excited because we were going to the great ocean road the next day (sans the lethargy). then we met this man; big bulk, tattooed, aboriginal look. i shan't lie but i was quite apprehensive when he said hi.

we began to talk, the normal monotonous "hello what are you doing here" status quo introduction. however he started to open up and told us about how he came from french polynesia and how he wanted to improve things for the family and that he was coming back from a night class in monash. he shared about how he was being discriminated because of his skin colour and that he was really depressed when people called him a drug addict.

well what caught me by surprise wasnt the conversation but rather what he did next. he reached for his wallet and attempted to give us money to buy drinks. he finally relented after our incessant rejection.


funny how someone we stereotype could be so different. i'm sure things would be different if people give chances.