Don’t know what’s the urge to got me back in writing.

Perhaps, i need a place to vent out my feelings/emotions which can’t vent out in any other ways or channels?

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I do not need traffic on my blog because i wrote all these letters for memory’s sake, a happy letter to remind myself of all the happy times i have been through, sad letters to allow myself to reflect what i have been through and what are the lessons being taught from different phrases of my life.

I’m turning 25 this year, I just graduated and ended my course of studies as a student. that’s a great achievement to me. With that, I’ll also embark with a new phrase of my life of being a working adult. This makes me feel like i’m now entering into adulthood 😦 greater responsibilities to adhere but I’m also looking forward to experience this phrase since this is gonna be my first perm job.

Besides all status updates, i have some emotions thoughts to pen down with some mix feelings:

Friendship – I have a friend whom i cherished alot since the day i know him/her (ok let’s name this person as A). i must admit that we shared a special bond after years being together as friends. However, due to some reasons we got drifted as time goes by and also because of the drift i start to realize that actually A is not as sincere as what i thought to be. that’s the point where i start to doubt and feel a lil upset because from my end i’m really sincere about this friendship. Also from time to time, i’ll always try protect A from being hurt from my other friends but again i realized A doesn’t seems to appreciate it at all. So this para shall serve as a reminder to me that there will always be another person out there to appreciate me as a friend and i realized that this person has somehow already appeared 🙂 so let’s just forget about A. A is a past, A is now a history, move on. Don’t cast doubt on B because now i start to feel B is sincere of being my friend.

i want to remember this date because this marks my last examination for my academic journey.

a new phrase of life is gonna begin soon…

it is always inevitable to feel jealous or worried that others might eye on ur love ones.

but i always keep this in mind, “no matter how jealous you’re, trust him completely because you love him and he is the best person in ur life. have trust, have faith.“

this is enough to keep me firm and strong!

keep loving and stay positive ❤

hello

*blow dust* when is the last time i have blogged? 6 months ago? lol

initially i choose to start up a blog is to ensure i pen down impt events and my thoughts so when time passes, i could still rmb what happens. but due to my lazy personality, i doubt i will be hard working enough to continue to blog. so i can never be a blogger. why?

bcos,

1.  i hate loading photos on wordpress, its taking forever to load and sometimes it might even fail. to make things worse, i am a super impatient person.
2. i ALWAYS have typo error!
3. i wonder who reads it. lol
4. and now i owned an iphone, every updates will be reflected on my fb and instagram which i am very active in it. hurr. entertainment on the go! iphone FTW 😀 thanks jobs~

however, i will still continue to blog if i feel like? some times i have to admit blog is the best place to vent our feelings and it is also a place to keep friends connected 😀

till then.

xoxo,

sh

omg, i just have to get this to add on to my briks collection! 5th baby on e board 🙂

hi blog,

i’ve been MIA-ed for the longest time. i’ve been busy and struggling with sch and life since feb.

this is such an “exciting” semester! deadlines after deadlines, projects, test, exams are all squeeze into the interval of 2 weeks each.

which means for all these months, i’m racing against time? yes, but my project results have proven my efforts are all well paid off.

all i hope is,  i will be able pass all my mods in every sem and quickly get out of SIM!

as for now, its time to cut some slack and have a good rest till july! its summer break! wishing that after ken papers we can plan to get out of here and have a short get away? hee.

its time for me to meet with those precious one who having been patiently waiting for me and always get my rejection for all dinner/lunch dates during my peak. i’m so grateful these friends stayed on and wait for me. whereas those who were thinking i did it on purpose and do not want to meet them or befriend with them. too bad then.

it has been some time, i pen down my thoughts. somehow when life gets too busy, i started to neglect my dear ones plus myself. i always tell myself that, there’s no time to feel sad over certain things. bcos i’m rushing against time.  this has started ever since i started working 5days a week. mon,wed,fri work plus evening class. tues,thurs,fri and both weekends projects. so where’s the time for myself? i didn’t realized this, until something bad has happened and it hit me straight telling me that i’m not balancing well at all. so dear siewhwee, it time to let u know that u can’t have everything in life. definitely, not the best of both worlds. u’ve over estimated ur own capability.

i know i’m not someone who has the looks, money and also not belonging to those tough and capable women category. but one thing, i’m very proud of myself is, i treat everyone i know sincerely. i cherish every single one that has cross my path. one of my fren said that, siewhwee u deserved to be happy. but y am i feeling that i’m starting to lose happiness bit by bit?

Couple of mths back, i’ve lost a great pal whom i really like alot. but somehow, i know its no longer possible to have her back again 😦 she is someone whom i can talk with, everything under the sun, no age gap.  jus felt she is someone close to me. i don’t know what really happened. but to me as a friend, she is good enough. 我会永远记的你对我的好。all these yrs, 我是真心把你当好朋友的。i hope u’ll still treat me as a fren. no matter what happens in the future, i just hope that u’re happy with ur life. sincerely, giving u my blessings.

as mentioned above, i started losing the balance for work, sch, life, love and every thing. so i’ve decided to pause my journey with spa esprit and concentrate on my studies. i used the word pause bcos i didnt want it to end. if there’s chance i would love to join them back again. which means now, i’ve also lost a group of fun loving colleagues 😦  so i start to wonder what makes me happy, when bits and pieces of happiness are starting to leave?

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its often said, all good things will come to the end. y? 😦

yay, this is my savior! cheap and gd~

beats the overrated kiehls & beeswax lip balm hands down.

jus a post away, i sum up twenty10 and yet this is only the 1st month of this new year.

i encountered a huge setback.

so there’s always a saying life is full of uncertainties and how much to comprehend the future? who knows.

lesson learnt: don’t be too greedy in life because the reality has taught me that you can’t have the best of both worlds.