If only
August 2, 2014
If only I had a bestfriend ….
Remembering.
February 28, 2013
As God continues to remind us, to trust. Not on things seen. But on Him alone. Difficult. But nonetheless, step by step, day by day.
While I am away from my ‘comfort zones’, places I feel so comfortable at or secure in, I realize more and more, the work of His hands, the beauty through His eyes when my flesh rebels, when my flesh is weak.
I miss home and my love. Yet. Taking the next 7 months as a privilege and striding on with a broken vessel (so that I remember to come before the Mighty One to be filled) for His glory.
i cry
January 18, 2013
I know you listen when nobody does. I know you see when no one can. I know you hear even when I do not speak.
I wish I could be someone better. But more and more I realize how weak I am as a human being. How imperfect I am. How I cannot, cannot please people.
As I cry out painfully in the silence, you continue to comfort and remind me of your grace and your mercy.
I wish I could give up. But I know I cannot.
To greater things ahead
January 7, 2013
this ends your year end break, and i would have to see you off (again). while our heart aches because of the distance we have to bear, i pray that we’ll never lose heart on what’s ahead of us and keeping our eyes on our Creator. looking forward to the day that we’ll never have to be (physically) apart again. until then. (:
oh what joy.
November 5, 2012
with my limited cantonese vocabulary and speaking ability, thanking God for His guidance in leading me to help in a counseling today. totally sensed His leading and guiding. grateful. thankful (:
lunch bought by my supervisor.
“treasures in the ‘darkness'”
(:
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October 14, 2012
looking ahead; to not be apart ever again.
beyond what is seen.
October 14, 2012
this is my prayer in the desert
and all that’s within me feels dry
this is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who providesAnd this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flamesAnd I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remainI will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is hereALL OF MY LIFE
IN EVERY SEASON
YOU ARE STILL GOD
I HAVE A REASON TO SING
I HAVE A REASON TO WORSHIP– Desert Song, Hillsong
It’s amazing how people write songs. I believe it is the very outflow and cry of a desperate heart just hearing this song. All these songs have kept me company throughout my journey on the road to and fro work. Makes me cry; makes me focus; makes me realize a big God who still cares even in the slightest of strive and loneliness. He is there. He is present. Enveloping me in His love.
Need to desire the faith I had when I said, “okay God, let your will be done, help me go there with your peace”. Exactly a month ago since life took on a difference wheel and turn. Faith was what caused Abraham to leave everything ‘comfortable’, everything familiar to unchartered waters. Faith, though I am unable to see the end result. Faith that is sure.
when.
October 13, 2012
“Bila… aku seorang diri
Ku pilu di hati
Engkau yang muncul di sisiBila… ku tak berdaya lagi
Rempuh hidup ini
Tuhan, Kau yang sedia berkatiBiarpun aku lemah
Kau tetap berkuasa
Kau sayangi diri ini
Kasih tak terhinggaKu sembahMu Tuhan Yesus
Ku puji namaMu
Kerana tiada yang seperti Mu
Tuhan peganglah hati ini
Di tapak tanganMu
Hidupku hanya untukMuBila… ku berasa gementar
Akan masa depan
Tuhan, Kau yang meyakinkanBila… mataku hanya sedar
Kan serba halangan
Tuhan, Kau berikan kemenanganBiarpun ombak melanda
Ku tetap pandang
Kepada Yang Maha Esa
Penyayang jiwaKu sembahMu Tuhan Yesus
Ku puji namaMu
Kerana tiada yang sepertiMu
Tuhan penganglah hati ini
Di tapak tanganMu
Hidupku hanya untukMu”-Bila
all my strength is gone, i need your mercy.
Hello Kelantan.
September 30, 2012
You said you’d never leave or forsake me
When you said, this life is gonna shake me
And you said this world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
This I knowWhen everything falls apart your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart you’re the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong, you keep holding on
You keep holding onWhen I see the darkness all around me
When I see that tragedy has found me
I still believe your faithful arms will never let me go
And still I knowWhen everything falls apart your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart you’re the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong, you keep holding on
You keep holding onSorrow will last for the night
But hope is rising with the sun, its rising with the sun
There will be storms in this life
But I know You will overcome, you have overcomeWhen everything falls apart your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart you’re the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong, you keep holding on
You keep holding onWhen everything falls apart your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart you’re the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong, you keep holding on
You keep holding on– FEE – EVERYTHING FALLS
A place I never expected or imagined to be. And my emotions get shaken some times. But help me to do Your will. Help me to know Your will.
On a side note,
being physically away from loved ones, one year is a long time.
yet surprises that comes along the way adds sunshine to the quiet yet most amazing journey.
Hello Kelantan.
growth.
August 14, 2012
growth in every season
It’s me, making a comeback to the penning some thoughts for public view.
I’m finding it hard to bring myself to do things I need to do/settle. And just browsing through pictures of a three-week camp I attended last month, some pictures spoke. In every area in life, we’ll continue to find growth. As long as we’re rooted on right soil and feeding on things that bring life.
her mosaic 
