exams are soo over . holidays are right at my doorstep . how great is this ?! finally no more assignments, no more papers . just me, myself and i doing whatever i like ! year one is tough, trying to get used to the situation though . hmph !

oh well ! why think of all that when im gonna have fun the next 5 days before fasting month arrives ! yayness ! im so looking forward to all my plans !

that includes, sheeshaing tommorow, actually today

yeah ! and cycling and swimming on thursday

teachers day and BAYBEATS on friday

sleepover time on saturday and sunday

weeeee. this is so stress free . great . satisfaction !

yea yea .

aniwaes, i got to know mr understanding a lil deeper and hes kinda cute. and of course understanding . one of the few nice ones ive met after mr soo wrong . but apart from all of that i think i better have second thoughts about him . hehs ! not being bad or so, but just being careful on my choices . but there is this one fact which i have to live with if i were to give him a try . nehhh . i wont tell . =P hehs !

haiz . on the other hand . ive got mr ill be there forever, mr im not sure and mr  i dont want to lose you to consider . hahaha .

lalala . lets leave this hanging ! weeeee .

i want you but i dont

its all empty inside. the pain. i need you to spice it all up. i need you to heal that pain thats growing. its killing me softly inside. i cant bear this anymore. please please i need to feel that love of yours once again. i dont want it this time, but i need it. i aint joking.  please be here again ? will you ? for me ? i need to be a part of you again. i need to feel needed once again. i want the love to be real this time.

sometimes i just feel that, that someone for me is there, but when will he be a part of my life im still waiting and will always be. don’t you ever feel that true love is there? its just not visible ?

riding in the bus, on your way home, or in your bed, all alone, u gaze upon the sky and u feel this great feeling deep inside. this assurance u feel. that someone is feeling the exact same way ? u just wished he or her  was here. right beside you. that right person. your true love.

random moments that are not needed sometimes kills me.

haiz.

i need to be a part of you

woooooooooooooowwwwwwwww

i must consider today is my lucky day

super duper lucky to the max

my mouth was like a wand casting spell

that made everything i said came true,

i was like the luckiest bitch on the earths crust 

i still cant believe it myself

its freaky yet cool at the same time !

started in my class presentation

i said i was gonna go and next and then come my three other friends

in this order, farnaa, mumu and the wani

and for godness sake

i was randomly picked next !

and the rest right after me in the very same order i said

i was super shocked

next

happened when i was at home, in my room

playing game

and as per normal,

kind of an everyday routine for me to at least try my luck to get thru to 98.7,

SU !

so yea

picked up my phone,

gave it a call

the next thing i knew

I WAS ON AIR !

i was happy but thought it was just being lucky for that moment

so

after a while

decided to give it a try again since i was bored and to see if i was really lucky for today

and WTF ?

I GOT THROUGH AGAIN !

woahh

lucky bitch man

random, freaky and cool !

LOL !

oke oke

not a big a deal

but so what ?

im very happy ! =D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i wanna love you

its been a tiring week for me

sorry for no updates

will update soon

sometimes i feel that i need u here

sometimes i feel that ur just my want and not my need

sometimes i hope ur here

sometimes i feel ur presence is a nuisance

sometimes i feel like i wanna blame u

sometimes i feel that u dont deserve the blame

sometimes i dont know who or what to blame

sometimes i feel that im so useless that made u run away

sometimes thinking about it just hurts me bad

sometimes i feel i have the right to fall in love

sometimes i feel that im just desperate for it and it shudnt be that way

sometimes i feel that i put too much hope

sometimes i feel that i dont put any hope and its not good

sometimes i feel just so empty that i do need you

sometimes i dont

i know that this isnt the right time for it

i aint sure

but theres one thing that im very sure of

halfway loves never fails

you’re never gonna be here for me and its the fact i have to live with

ooooooo mr nice guy

i think you are

i hope you are

i feel you are

im wishing you are

maybe, 

only maybe,

just maybe,

YOU ARE THE ONE !

i know i don’t need you, but when you’re here, i know i can’t live without you

IF YOU CAN’T GIVE ME WHAT I NEED

then I’LL DO WHAT I WANT TO GET WHAT I NEED

BUT IF U DON’T ALLOW ME TO DO WHAT I WANT

then GIVE ME WHAT I NEED !!! 

wishing things could be different

hoping you would never change. but i aint god, i have no power, no nothing to make u be that same person.

hoping i could turn back time and pause it at that moment, that very moment where u showered all your love on me. like we were the only two souls alive on this dominated world.

hoping that i was the one who could make u smile, make u feel like theres nothing in these world that can replace what we had.

hoping promises were not meant to be broken, your smile would never fade away, your love would never be casted away.

hoping i could keep that shine in your soul.

hopes were meant to be hopes

nothing but hopeless hopes

this isnt to whom you are thinking its meant for  *winks*

my day started out really boring

woke up kinda late

was so shag

got a msg from iza and planned to meet at orchard to watch a gig

it was scape

deputy siren, plain sunset, giants must fall, caracal and best of them all west grand was there

woooo

they rock

but fanatics spoilt the whole thing

msohing is fine

but moshing into peoples faces and body is NOT fine

*sigh*

these people wahhh they can go really fanatic

crazy shit man

LOLS

ohh well

west grand still rocks anyway

yea !

ttyl ppl ! tired of being the vicitim of moshing

=))

sorry

im too tired to update properly now. sorry. have been quite busy these few days. tires me out. =(

sorry

will write in again soon