Enough for the Day

Things I have been saying lately:

"Yes, 11 September will be 3 months since I left my previous job."

"Yes, I'm still jobless."

"Yes, I should be hunting."

"No, I'm not hunting."

"Yes, I'm usually at home."

"No, I don't feel like talking."

"Yes, I'm a horrible friend for not keeping in touch."

"No, I'm not pregnant."

...

Things I've been hearing lately:

"Rx is not old but NEW."

"Is that your NEW husband?"

"So this makes you his NEW wife?"

"Have you seen the NEWS?"

"Have you seen the NEW NEWlyweds?" (Though this should be replaced with 'the not-so-NEW NEWlyweds' by now?)

"Have you heard my NEW joke?"

"No, really, it's a NEW joke!"

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...

I guess I'm just re-arranging my life over. I'm trying to figure out some things anew. I'm focussing my realities on what the Lord has planned and designed me for.

I'm not letting anyone's negativity get to me. I'm not letting my thoughts get nudged out of shape by other people. I'm going to keep to the point.

And the point is this: I'm happy as I am now.

If it takes anyone else much more than it takes me to be happy, I shouldn't have to be the one feeling awkward. I shouldn't have to be the one answering redundant questions. I shouldn't have to be the one feeling sorry for myself for not having a job, not having a car, not having my name listed on a new title deed.

I'm happy. Either be happy with me, or .. well, just leave me alone so I can be happy.

Happiness is an active choice. A state of being. I made sacrifices to get to this state of mind and I'm not going to allow anyone to prod me off my cushy chair.

I am happy. Rz is happy. We are happy. This is our happy beginning :)


- 26 August 2008 6:31pm -

Next Door

Each time I try to write an entry, something creeps up on me and I lose my frame of mind. It happens so often now that I believe it is getting to be a bad habit.

Today was not any different, sigh.

Anyway, photos :)








- 6 August 2008 5:38pm -