As Rz and I continue our busy-ness, we are still being continuously amazed by how self-centred and self-important people can be.
We really do not wish to be tactless and uncouth in any way, but there have been times when we think that such people would do better minding their own business, and finding ways to solve their own issues, instead of poking their noses and demanding to be assisted or spoon fed.
Although we live in a mostly-Asian culture, I feel that this is not an excuse to intrude on anybody. Yes we should have ethics and an idea of community but it does not mean that an individual has any right to judge another person's behaviour.
I now dislike speaking much to anyone who has judgmental views lest I sound judgmental myself. I do however, draw the line when it concerns someone dear. And this, stubborn loyalty, is also a fault of mine.
In my mind this week, everything just sort of added up. It doesn't help that lately, there have been some developments that have been very trying at work.
I just felt very tired of the games people play everywhere they go - in the office, at church, wherever. Coupled with the fatigue of recent weeks, I was ready to cave in and hide at home sometime around Thursday.
So on Friday I dragged Rz along with me to our Church's bookstore and bought whatever Nourishment we needed.
God was very kind, we managed to get there in time and were their last customers for the day :P I supposed this is what God meant by meeting us halfway whenever we seek Him or reach out to Him and His Word lol :)
I ended up with a Women of Faith devotional, a Lucado inspirational book, and Patsy Clairmont's Kaleidoscope. Rz also bought a few of pastor's DVDs.
I feel more refreshed after having partaken of some of these this afternoon.
As it has been a few weeks (months?) of endless rushing, I said to Rz very seriously that we really need a holiday. And that we REALLY do need one this time.
I've been watching (and doing dreaded covering work) on the sidelines as the majority of my colleagues have gone travelling overseas, some of them for the third time this year, and back.
I can sense the mechanisms in my mind heated up and creaking from overuse. And I can sense that if I don't take time to get away and regroup, everything will start crashing down.
So today's quiet time made a very big difference to me. It sort of helped to clear the toxic cloud that was accumulating in my cramped brain. The Lord's word, as poignantly and brilliantly filtered by the likes of Clairmont and Lucado, is a fantastic astringent.
Also I am glad that our renovations are going on very well and that our running around seems to be paying off somewhat. We continue to thank God daily for His provisions and for His helping us to pick a fantastic contractor for our renovation project.
We can truly sense God's hand in the matter and God's desire to fulfill His promises to us.
I hope that we never lose our focus, nor tear our eyes away from what matters. I pray that we will always find our centre - in Him.
- 19 September 2010 6:40pm -
