Tuesday, September 29, 2009 12:18 pm

ecstatic

listen, ♥
the way you look tonight.

YAY, i'm so happy to be selected for the Law programme
during the holidays. i'm ecstatic but the results will come out
only on the 10th of november.
i'm crossing my fingers and toes!

i've been very unproductive by not studying
and i have to do so because tmr is gp and chinese.
i cannot fail any of these subjects or i'll faint and die.

tuition on thursday, but i'm nt done with memorising anything.
all i've done is to read through, i need to buck up!

flu's bringing me down down down,
making me sink sink sink.
i really hope i feel better tmr
cause doing exams in the hall is a torture
with the aircon at full blast aft awhile.

what more whn i'm sick,
i need all the time in the world now.
gotta mugg real hard, GOODBYE!

you're so lovely, never ever change.

xoxo,MARTHA!

Sunday, September 27, 2009 9:30 pm

sigh

listen, ♥
we knew each other since we were 9 or 10.

i'm nt feeling the least bit well
and i havent felt any improvement at all.

my head is spinning,
my throat is hurting,
my nose is running and blocked.

i need to study so badly
but the everything's driving me crazy. ):

YAY HAM HAM, iloveyou for winning. (;

GOODBYE WORLD,
i wanna die.

think of me and i'll be there.

MARTHA!

Saturday, September 26, 2009 2:57 pm

dumb

listen, ♥
always and i'll be there.

aft countless popping of tablets the doctor gave,
aft eating so many lozengers,
i'm still nt feeling much better. ):

i feel like dying this very moment
and i still insist on going out with Mummy and Daddy.
i promise to bring along my book
but i dun promise that i'll study.

jam packed exam week
with extra tuition for the kids,
i'm gonna faint and die soon.
why must everyone's exam CLASH?!

bloody moronic schools, they deserve to die
just like the teachers in my sch.
farked up bunch of mornic farktards.

the box states ;
" 1 lozengers, 2-3hrly."
but i alrdy had 4-5 in an hour
since ytd.

am i dying yet?
its no wonder i'm seeing heaven.

"dun consume over given prescription"
i've been doing that but i havent died
so, WHATEVER!
its such a freaking lie.

forever and a day.

MARTHA!

2:30 pm

sick

listen, ♥
cause nothing beats having you there.

i've been seeing the galaxy since ytd. ):
the doctors at the polyclinic shld just die.

promos are on coming and its nt time to be sick
yet i am, sigh. what a loser. ):

i'm gonna rip both my throat and nose soon.
Daddy has tickets to F1,
i havent studied at all. ):
i hate myself so much.

okay, BYE!

like a tatoo, you've craved yourself in my heart.

MARTHA

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 9:42 pm

farktard

listen, ♥
i'll make every second count.

i'm giving up aft 150mins of writing.
i'm so tired, i wanna faint and die.
maybe i just need to sleep. ):

physio tmr, i'm so tired.
GOODBYE! :D

wuthering heights suck big time, i swear.
i wish all the teachers in my sch was dead
except mdm cho. /:
roar, i'm being such a bitch.

school tmr, sigh. ):
i hate school so much.

promos frm nxt wednesday onwards. ):
sigh, i need a big fat break. )':

because you're worth every bit.

MARTHA!

Monday, September 21, 2009 10:44 pm

study

listen, ♥
why must i always be the target of your madness?

i spent my day studying
and till now, i dun see any reason in doing so. ):
sigh, i hate sch so much i'm going bck to hell tmr. ):
i wanna cry, i wanna roll on the floor, i wanna die! ):

history took 3/4 my time and i'm only almost there.
literature sucks so much, i'm so gonna give it up!
i wish i took some other crap combination
but coming to think of it, everything in the crappy sch
would prabably piss me off and force me to crack up.

physio again on wednesday, i'm gonna be so tired. ):
i wanna start rolling on the floor alrdy. ):

okay, time for me to sleep.
i'm too tired for literature
and i dun have the brain cells to continue.

time will tell, no promises.

GOODBYE, updates the nxt weekend! (:

with you by my side.

MARTHA!

Sunday, September 20, 2009 9:57 pm

phantomoftheopera

listen, ♥

THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! :D
"the darkness of the music of the night"

there goes Samurai Girl. ):

xoxo,
MARTHA!

12:29 pm

bleahs

listen, ♥
dun make me change my mind.

Mummy's cooking laksa cause i asked her to
but i have to leave home for tuition in abit. ):
i'm so hungry, i'm gonna faint and die.
i dun wanna give tuition anymore. ):
i wanna sleep and laze my life away.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! :D
enjoy your day people, while i slog through mine. ):

cause you're impossible to find.

MARTHA!

Saturday, September 19, 2009 9:12 pm

understand

listen, ♥
we're all to blame.

i hate the debate on sch because you dun understand.
you dunno hw i really feel abt sch within
and you dun really bother to find out.

you say i'm nt opening up to you
but you nvr really bothered
and nvr wanted to knw,
so whats there to say?

sometimes, i just cannot understand
and i'm sorry if i've disappointed you in any way.
it wasnt my intention to do so in the first place and
i'm just as disappointed being stuck in this damn school.

because you're nt me,
you'll nvr knw the feelings inside. )':
can you be more understanding towards me at times? ):

in the end, it doesnt even matter.

MARTHA!

4:05 pm

summary

listen, ♥
whn the world gives up, i'll stay here right by you.

i believe that this is the worse week of my entire life
and i felt like killing myself so badly day aft day.
night aft aft, i cannot seem to fall asleep
and have to awake at an unearthly hour.
having said this, its time for updates.

Monday

i've nvr felt so farked up in my shithole life.
sch went on as usual and i wanted to die so badly.
i wish i was in a better sch, with better teachers arnd. )':
I HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH, i feel like dying every morning.
sometimes, i wish i nvr awaken frm my sleep. )':
things went on fine in sch, i think.
and i rushed home and thn for tuition.

i've nvr felt so unappreciated in such a long time
and what YOU said, hit me very hard BLOODY BITCH!
i spend my farking time rushing here and there
for the sake of your bloody shithole exams
and because i want you to do well in your humanities
and all you can offer me as thank you is
"okay, i'll burn hell paper for you."

i'm sorry but i dun need people burning hell notes for me
cause i dun happen to be in that religious category.
you can bloody keep it for yourself or your relatives in time to come.

BLOODY FARK, do i farking owe you my damn life?
and that destroyed my week of happiness.
SHITHOLE, i wish Shawn wasnt arnd so that i could have
slapped your face, punched your stomach and kicked you in the groin.

i spend 7hrs on travelling plus teaching you 2 days a week
and i'm nt doing that for the shithole money but for you.
ASSHOLE, you're nt paying me THAT much you knw.
and the best thing that you could have said to make me better was
"SORRY" but no, all you said was
"oh, okay. 3 more days to the day i last gt slapped."
FARK, i wanted to scream in your face.

anyway, its all over and i havent received an apology until today.
bloody fark, its as if i owe you my farking farked up life.
i'm thinking if i shld continue with this nxt yr or leave you to bleed.
i wanna be that farked up bitch but i dun wanna leave Aunty all high and dry.
fark that, but i still have a choice cause he's nt that important aft all.
since i'm hell notes that is thrown everywhere on the streets
during random months and stuff.

i came home to celebrate Marcus birthday, to do my project
and thn tried to sleep. i feel so pathetic now. )':
like what did i do and where the fark did i go wrong.

Tuesday

on my way to sch, i saw those hell notes and saw myself in each of them.
am i really that insignificant that i have to be compared to these things?

school went on as usual, COMPLETE DRAG.
Ms Gabby showed us our exam timetable
and its bloody enough to freak me out.
yet i'm still sitting infront of the laptop,
typing this shit out, i need a bloody life.

sometimes, idk what shld i say abt the sch and its system.
i feel like jumping down right now, bloody fark.

i went home aft sch and didnt go for tuition.
yes, i'm farking petty but i dun understand why i shld do so much
whn i'm nt appreciated and stuff.
am i really that worthless and wretched?

i stayed home to continue working on the project
and went to meet Mummy in every hope of changing my handphone plan.
YAY, Mummy said SOON! :D

Wednesday

sch as usual and because its the 7th month on the lunar calendar,
i see hell notes all over again.
this time, someone throwing it all over the place.
i saw myself being thrown in every one of them
and i felt so inferior and pathetic. )':

Louis wasnt in the best of mood and it affected me so much,
my happiness level dipped so low, i thought i was better off dead.
i went for physio and tortured myself.
i was so tired and the farking bus just had to make a fool out of me,
i crossed over to the opposite side to change bus, just to get home.
continued with the project until 12+am and went to sleep.

i was so tired and i wanted to sleep so badly
but i knew my mind was racing so fast
that i didnt sleep until 5am, bloody fark.

Thursday

i saw the uncle who sweep the streets, sweeping the hell notes into the dustpan.
again i pictured myself but i wasnt in the best of mood, having being depressed
over the pass few days. i was tired from staying up late and nt being able to sleep.
i felt like a complete moron and i numb myself.

Louis completely shut us out. )':
and i felt so depressed nt being able to do anything.
its like the worse day in school altogether,
i felt like dying in an instant. /:

my dear lovely friends did make the day better but some bitch just had to screw it.
I HATE LITERATURE SO FARKING MUCH NOW, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Wuthering Heights is the worse book that i've ever read
and i wanna burn the book so badly, NOW!

i went for tuition, which was rather alright.
minus the fact that i had to write an essay which i have complete no idea of.
fark myself, i'm like the worse person on earth. ):
i went home feeling dejected seeing all the hell notes on the floor. ):

Friday

i took a different route to sch in hope of nt seeing hell notes
but no, it was the last day of the 7th month.
EVERYONE WAS BURNING THEM.
and i thought to myself, "bloody fark, i shld have stayed to my normal route."

Louis looked a little better and he did talk to us! :D
sch was still disgusting and i wanted to die.
the good thing was, i didnt have to hear the board being banged countless times
and i didnt have to hear someone scream in my ears and say
"i'll kick you." over nothing.

ht was the worse period ever, i swear upon my name.
i hate the words Wuthering Heights so farking much now,
and she couldnt stop talking abt it the whole period.
bloody fark and she had the cheek to ask why we liked econs more thn lit.
bloody retard, she obviously destroyed my love for lit and i hate her so much.

went home to study and thn to meet the Girls. :D
we had so much fun we left West Coast only at 11pm, ROFL! (x
we had dinner at 530pm cause i was hungry, HAHA!
new york new york was awesome as usual and they had their first try at it. (:
i'm such a great friend to bring them there for dinner but it was expensive.
there goes a week of allowance but on the brighter side,
we all caught up on lost time so it was all good.
we left new york new york at 7pm
and walked to west coast park.

we concluded that the prymaid was wet and went to the swings,
we had so much fun and were pespiring so much
that we deiceded to just climb the prymaid, haha.
we climbed the prymaid despite it being a little wet and i carried all the bags up,
and waited for the both of them to reach.
we took some pictures and went on to play at the swing again
cause sitting on the prymaid wasnt the least bit fun.

we left the playground at 8+pm and went to wash our legs
and to slack at macs until 1015pm. (:
we had so much to talk abt we didnt wanna leave at all, HAHA!
we made our way to the bus stop but instead of walking to the nearest one,
we walked all the way to West Coast Plaza's which was 3 bus stops down. (:

my bus came at 11pm and i left because it was late and i was very tired
aft an ultra long day but i enjoyed so much i wish time froze then.
i reached home only at 1230am cause the bus broke down at some
crappy place and i had to walk home since it was the bloody last bus.
tmd, i felt so irritated and i wanted to faint and die. ):
sigh, i'm such a lazy fool i wanted to take a cab
but the extra charge scared the living daylights out of me
and i've spent far too much on dinner
so i decided to just walk home since i could plug my mp3 in.

Saturday

that was the sum up of the week
and i'm heading to church in abit.
i'm sorry if the post is a little too vulgar,
i just needed to let it out
before i snap at that bloody bitch tmr.

GOODBYE!
i need to study whn i get home frm church.
sigh, i hate school, i hate studying, i hate life. ):

Voda and BestFriend, i miss you girls so much! ):
i wish you were with me. )':

with you, what else should i fear?

MARTHA!

1:13 pm

loser

listen, ♥
i'll be the one.

i've been a major bitch by nt studying at all.
i woke up frm my slumber whn the rest of the world
was busy studying and doing their homeworks.
i feel like crap nt having anything done
and i have every intention to burn this laptop
and every single one at home so that i do nt have distractions.
but thn again, we all need the laptop.
so, CRAP. i shld just die and perish in hell.

sometimes i wish i didnt bother.

MARTHA!

Sunday, September 13, 2009 10:21 pm

highlights

listen, ♥
making me feel like i was the only one.

7 things to sum up the day
and the week to come.

1. i need my sleep so badly, cause i havent been able to sleep lately.
tossing and turning until 3am.
i'm gonna be a zombie soon. ):

2. i dun wanna go to sch.
i'm dreading every moment and i hate school.
yes, i still hate school and i believe that its nt my fault.
maybe theres no sense of belonging just yet. ):
sigh, things will get better. i hope.

3. tuition on monday and tuesday.
sigh, i need my rest.
yes, i may be reluctant but its the only way i get my allowance.
i mean extra income? (x

4. meeting the Girls on friday. :D
i'm so happy and looking forward to it
and every single moment! :P
i miss you Girls, ALOT!

5. i need to complete my project by wednesday.
okay, its nt that i need to but i would love to do so.
i'm so tired from everything, i wanna roll on the floor
and whine and cry and what not, HAHA!
what a retard! :P

6. i have physio on wednesday and i wanna roll on the floor.
i knw its nt very taxing but i havent been very fit, HAHA!
i havent like run or exercised since trng ended
and that sucks so badly but i cannot be bothered.
physio would be very very tiring, nt forgetting all the exercises.
i wanna faint and die now.

7. tmr is Marcus 6th birthday! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS! :D
iloveyou even whn i scream at you time and again
for waking me up whn i'm asleep. :P
i'll buy you more toys okay? :P
you have so many toys in your play pen,
i feel like throwing the ugly looking ones away. :P

okay, GOODNIGHT world!
i'll update in a week, i think.
okay, less thn that.
i'll update on friday!

life's like this.

MARTHA!

Saturday, September 12, 2009 3:48 pm

ignorance

listen, ♥
maybe i'm just trying too hard.

i've nvr thought that i could be replaced so easily
but i guess i was wrong and yes it hurts.
but nevertheless, life goes on because its nt for me to decide.
i believe that things would get better, somehow.
thanks for putting me under such situations
and backing out the the end of the day,
you've been very very nice and i wanna slap your face.

i'm done with the history project. :D
all i have to do is to gather everything aft Mummy prints it for me.
i am so happy and satisfied, finally done something productive. :D
be proud of me, please! (:

so monday and tuesday shall be busy busy days,
pasting and crafting everything, finalizing the touch ups.
and we're ready to hand it in by thursday. (:
a day before the deadline. :D

hopefully everything goes on fine and nt screw up, zzz.
i need to get my idiotic ez-link card done, zzz.

okay, gonna get ready for church
and thn tuition. *yawns*
i need my sleep so badly. ):
i hate having insomia. )':

goodbye world, i'm in a farked up mood today.
damn the happenings.

BestFriend. (:

walk away.

MARTHA!

12:26 am

liar

Friday, September 11, 2009 11:51 pm

scarred

listen, ♥

somehow, i just cannot stop thinking abt you.
will you come bck and take all my sorrows away like before?

i swear i miss you with every beat of my heart.
thinking of you hurts but i cannot stop doing so.

i wish you could come bck and take away all my fears,
to lead me and to be there for me like before.

my only wish, is to see you again
so that i can bid you farewell.

simple request, yet i cannot have it done.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry.

would you please come back?
)':

iloveyouBestFriend,
MARTHA!

11:24 pm

trapped

listen, ♥
thinking of you till it hurts.

because no matter hw hard i try,
i wanna end up being by your side
all ovr again, in time to come.
BestFriend, do you know that?
you'll always be a part of my memory, xoxo.

i had the weirdest dream
but it doesnt matter anyway.
reality hits hard and right in the head.

i tried to think that i have the best life
but i guess i'll always fail in this aspect.

aft so much of whining,
i still didnt get down to business
and to study.
all i did was to clean up my room, desk and living room.
well, its enough to kill me,
take up 3/4 my time and give me time to think.
i'm so tired aft a day of work and nt studying.

i dread the up coming jam packed schedule for sch.
the hectic schedules is coming bck to haunt me
and take away all the freedom i've got.
3weeks of torture before hell.
i think i shld just buck up or decide to leave.

i'm trying as hard as i can and i'm sorry if i've failed in anyway.
all i wanted was you to be proud of me,
is it too much to ask for?

goodnight world, i have hell loads of burden to lift.

BestFriend, i miss you so badly. )':

in this life, i was loved by you.

MARTHA!

Wednesday, September 09, 2009 11:08 pm

bestfriend

listen, ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST FRIEND!

i could have celebrated your 19th,
only if you were around.

I MISS YOU!

xoxo,
MARTHA!

Tuesday, September 08, 2009 9:04 pm

famouslastwords

listen, ♥

Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart
But where’s your heart
But where’s your...

no no
There’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change

So many
Bright lights to cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
well incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, you'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out there
On the other side
Of the jet black hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Is it hard understanding
well I’m incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, you'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, you'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights are
always blind to me
These bright lights are
always blind to me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
[x4]

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
[x3]

xoxo,
MARTHA!

6:57 pm

accomplished

listen, ♥
its closer to your heart.

maybe i'm trying too hard
cause i knw i'm nvr gonna make it this time.

a fruitful day i would say,
having studied fairly hard and making notes
for oh-so-idiotic econs. (;
i'm finally down with National Income Accounting
and thats only part of what is coming out.
i still have loads to do but its better thn nt getting anything done. (:
i feel accomplished today. :D

my finger is abt to drop
and theres literature tmr.
sigh, i'm so reluctant to go for lessons
but i see no reason why i shld skip it.

and home to study aft that.
i've gt such a sad life
i feel like banging my head on the way.

oh well, i wanna be able to promote to year2 smoothly
so i have to take the chance.
3weeks to GP and Chinese. -.-
and soon, all the other papers.

i'm happy i didnt touch lappy and my handphone
until it was almost 6pm.
ACCOMPLISHMENT! :D
i shld be proud of myself, hohoho.

Voda, i miss you.
BestFriend, i miss you.

i shld have my dinner and get bck to my books once again.
its so difficult to motivate myself
and i better get things done since i'm in the mood to. (:
alrighties, GOODBYE! :D

TWIN! :D

i'm still trying to figure out.

MARTHA!

Monday, September 07, 2009 9:34 pm

away

listen, ♥
i nvr knew love would turn out like this.

life is so vulnerable but it seems so bleak
yet i wanna see all the stars in the galaxy.

i've always tried to be of wonders
but failed failed failed.
it doesnt matter, i'll make it through some day.

i deserve a smack in my face
for nt doing enough to brush up on my work. ):
sigh, i'll mug through the night
and wake up to study all ovr again.

i dun get any thrill quarelling with you
time aft time, again and again.
i'm sick and tired of it alrdy,
i dun wanna fight for something that will nvr be mine.

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE TAKING N LEVELS. (:
especially Monster and Gunny! :D

i wish i could bid you a last goodbye
before you left but i've failed
and i'm so so so sorry. )':

its the end of you and me.

MARTHA!

Sunday, September 06, 2009 9:45 pm

listen

listen, ♥
i struggle with what life's putting me through.

maybe i shld listen to myself more often.
i can tell you so much but nt myself.
you listen to what i'm saying whn i dun even do so.

i tried to be as perfect and flawless as you want me to
but to no avail and i'm sorry.

school on monday, wednesday and thursday.
i wonder what kind of holiday i'm actually having
and hw am i suppose to find time to meet all my love?

i feel so tormented
and i need to study during the holidays. ):
sigh, 24days to GP and Chinese.
screw everything. ):

if only you were still arnd,
i can celebrate your awesome 19th with you. )':
since its during my sch holidays.
BestFriend, i miss you. ):



"cause good things in life are hard to find."
- BestFriend.
but i found you only to see you abandon me at the end. ):


i think i shld just let go of everything.
i'm tired of everything alrdy.

because i fought so hard to be what i am today,
i dun wanna lose anything to anyone
especially you. do you get me at all?

you're just afraid of what i can bring you through.

MARTHA!

Saturday, September 05, 2009 1:08 pm

hope

listen, ♥
lead me to you.

i've thought abt it long and hard
and decided that i shld just let go.

sometimes, i wish i could enjoy sch like before
but some things are better kept as memories.
i dun wanna dread my life, going to sch
and doing the things that i'm doing, but to no avail.
nevertheless, i shld just learn hw to brave through this.

i knw hw tired i am, i knw hw hard i've tried.
i knw hw much these means to me
but theres nth much that i can do to salvage this.

i shld try to find my sense of belonging here.
i dun wanna end up struggling through the 3years.

sometimes, we set expectations that are too high
and whn we fall, we fall too hard and struggling to stand up again.

"for your smiles always that brings summer,
and trying to smile always even whn it rains in your heart"
- :D

thanks for always being there :D

hold your breathe.

MARTHA!

12:11 pm

alwaysbemybaby

listen, ♥

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, yeah
So I'm letting you fly
'cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave, girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably,
You'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh, oh
I know that you'll be right back, baby
Oh baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my, my baby
(You'll always be a part of me)
You will always be
(I'm part of you indefinitely
(Girl, don't you know you can't escape me)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(And we'll linger on)
We will linger on
(Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(No way, you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby)

Always be my baby...

xoxo,
MARTHA!

Friday, September 04, 2009 10:14 pm

sigh

listen, ♥
i may have failed but i have loved you frm the start.

i will stay silent and stay right here,
it doesnt matter what happens,
it doesnt matter hw long.
nothing matters as long as i have you.

my heart's crumbling cause i knw i'll lose you very soon.
i'm sick of all the lies you put me through,
i'm sick of all the shit you're putting me into.

everything's a drag and i'm tired.
the "holiday" is just in name
cause i'm going to sch for 3/5 days.
how pathetic is my life uh?

anyway, i'm so tired that i cannot be bothered with anything.
i'm nt gonna care abt what life is gonna bring me through.
i'm sick and tired of battling with myself.

i swear i'm close to snapping.
i'm trying to hold it bck and stay calm for as long as i can
but if things get out of hand, i'm sorry if i turn nasty.

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh. )':
i dun wanna live anymore.

BestFriend, would you come bck? )':

thank you for the gift :D
and the little note. (;
xoxo,

once or twice was enough.

MARTHA!

Wednesday, September 02, 2009 6:53 pm

bruised

listen, ♥
once in a lifetime.

sometimes i feel so out of place,
i feel like climbing up to the 4th floor
and jumping off. ):

can you just stop and spare a thought for me?
i'm nt there to watch you fall,
i'm only human and what i can do is limited.
tell me these werent lies, would you?

stop lying to me
and thinking that it'll make me feel better
cause i'm sick of it.

i'm tired of sitting here and watching you crumble
but i cannot do anything to help
if you refuse to help yourself.
i'm tired of trying to be nice.

if you could only stop to think abt what i've done for you,
you'll realise that i've done more thn i shld
and what you say is nt going to make me feel guilty
cause all you need is one more lie
and i'll never be there for you anymore.

its the last straw before i really snap.
GOODBYE!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009 6:00 pm

kevin

listen, ♥
a brighter tmr.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KEVIN LIM CHENG YI! :D

thanks for being such a joy to have arnd
and a great great friend.

school would have been sooo boring without you
and thanks for all the joy you've brought into my life.

for cheering me up whn i'm down
and for always standing by me.

we'll all meet up soon
and keep rocking. (:

keep smiling and i miss those times we spent together.
the chalets and lessons. our nonsense and crap, everything.

most of all, i miss your smile and presence
in my everyday life.

psst, let's go night cycling with the rest all ovr again. :D

always be my baby.

xoxo,
MARTHA!

5:54 pm

teachers

listen, ♥
we'll always be one at heart.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! :D

MrTham ;

thank you for all the attention and guidance
that you have given me over the past 5years.

thank you for walking with me through thick and thin
and for being my pillar of support whn i falter.

for being my light in darkness and my hope in despair,
i cannot thank you enough.

thank you for being someone dear to me
and for playing the role of my daddy whn i'm in sch.

from the bottom of my heart, i thank you.
thanks for always catching me whn i fall. (:

Mrs Khan ;

thank you for guiding me as and whn i'm in need.
for the things you've said and done for me,
i thank you frm the bottom of my heart.

Mrs Ong ;

thank you for teaching me all that i needed
and for guiding me whn i was young. (:

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY THE TEACHERS WHO HAVE TAUGHT ME. :D
especially those in Kellock and Tanglin.

we'll never be apart.

MARTHA!