You may fall sometimes, but you're never fallen.
Saturday, October 31, 2009 11:39 pm
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Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

xoxo,
MARTHA!


9:55 pm
beattitudes


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someday out there you're thinking of me.

Advent is coming soon!
3 more weeks! :D
Christmas is coming soon!
7 more weeks! :D

Holiday starts in,
6 days.
and ends in,
10 weeks! ):

Monday is All Souls Day,
you knw i miss YOU.
you know deep down inside,
i think of you all the time.
you are aware but you nvr returned,
even to just say "HI!"
or "I'M DOING FINE."

i love the Beattitudes.

Happy are the poor n spirit ;
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Happy the gentle ;
they shall have earth for their heritage.
Happy those who mourn ;
they shall be comforted.
Happy those who hunger and thirst for what is right ;
they shall be satisfied.
Happy the merciful ;
they shall have mercy shown on them.
Happy the pure in heart ;
they shall see God.
Happy the peacemakers ;
they shall be called sons of God.
Happy those who are persecuted in the cause of right ;
theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Happy are you when people abuse you and persecute you
and speak all kinds of calamny against you on my account.
Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven.

do i ever cross your mind?

MARTHA!


8:50 pm
whatever


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sometimes, i wonder what life is bringing me through.

F-A-R-K, i havent been in the mood for anything at all.
such a pathetic and moodless day,
i wish i had more in life to look forward to.

photoshop is driving me C-R-A-Z-Y.
stupid dumb thing, sigh. ):

i seriously need to snap bck to reality
before i sink too deep, sigh. ):

BestFriend, i'll find you soon okay? (:
i knw you love me and am waiting. ^^

Voda, come home soon.
i'm missing you so much!

i miss my secondary school friends so much! ):

gosh, i'm craving for dim sum.
i'm gonna be a fat idiot soon,
eating like a big fat pig. ):

you're the meaning in my life.

MARTHA!


Friday, October 30, 2009 7:32 pm
broken


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whoever told you i was letting go.

ever felt your heart breaking into a million pieces
and trying to get the pieces fixed like a jigsaw puzzle
only to see it being ripped over and over again
by someone whom you wish was there for you?

ever tried to love someone so much,
you wouldnt let them go
but find out eventually that they have betrayed you
and sob bitterly every night so that you can sleep?

ever tried to take revenge on the one who've hurt you
so that you'll feel better
but instead feel worse off thn before
because you cannot bear to hurt them?

ever cried so hard that you lose your voice
and slowly drift away frm sanity
just so that you feel safe and secure
without a care abt the rest of the world?

ever tried to bounce back to prove someone wrong
but feel that you're more hurt thn the other
and eventually back down
because your heart is being broken all ovr again?

Bunny, please cheer up.
i knw you're feeling all bitter and upset within
but life goes on.
and like anyone, i want you to be happy.
you knw i'm there and you can count on me.
i may nt make the best of friends
but i promise to make a good listening ear.

i miss you in all that i do.
BestFriend, Voda.
wish you were here.

be a bitch as long as you want. i dun give shit.

i've been trying to let you go.

MARTHA!


7:03 pm
truth


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Partner says it best ;
being lonely isn't the worst feeling in the world.
it's being forgotten by someone you can never forget.

iloveyou Partner. (:

MARTHA!


Thursday, October 29, 2009 4:50 pm
thoughts


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if you could only let it be.

sometimes, i wonder why i try so hard
to make things right when i know that
things wouldn't go my way eventually.

its like you dun even care
and you dun even wanna know
so why should i actually bother?

is it always fair that i'm wrong
and that you're always right?
can you judge me base on what you think and feel
and not bother about my being?

because we don't share the same sentiments
doesn't mean that we are different.
thousands and millions of people
have opposing views from me.
but ain't we ordinary people,
trying to live extraordinary lives?

no matter what, it's always my fault.
its never you or the others.
its always me because i'm destined to it, right?

thanks for bringing me through such a roller coaster ride
that i never wanted to experience in my life.
thanks of hurting me time and again,
knowing that i'll rather hear the truth.

you know what?
if i'm a loser, then you make the biggest one of all time.

its only a matter of time.

MARTHA!


Wednesday, October 28, 2009 5:10 pm
gosh


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take that step.

i just screwed all that i have in life.
FARKING LOSER.

Dude, stop acting like some BITCH
cause it irritates me so farking much.
just get a farking life and stop being caught up
in that dumb farking hole that you are in.
like farking seriously, get an assholic life.

i hate it whn you farking have your dumb moodswings
and it pisses me so much, i feel like slapping your face.
*roll eyes*

rot, die and perish in hell please.

for all those times.

MARTHA!


Tuesday, October 27, 2009 5:50 pm
shingz


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whatever it takes.

aft today, i believe i make the biggest LOSER on earth.
i completely lost control ovr myself,
i wallowed in self-pity for 5mins
aft realising that slowly, i'm losing myself
and all that i have, all that i've worked hard for.

i lost the one i loved with all my heart.
i lost some of my awesome friends.
i lost my sanity and myself.
i lost more thn i gain in such a short period of time.
i felt like the most pathetic person the earth could ever have. ):

my results were so appaling, i'm so prepared to slit my wrist.
BestFriend, i miss you so much.
and i badly wanna join you at the place whr you are.
wish you were here to encourage me and hear me whine. ):
i miss you so much, i'll tear my heart into a million pieces
if you could just come bck to me. ):

fate is sealed and i'm praying so hard that i'll be promoted,
conditionally ; advanced ; promoted.
whatever it is, i just wanna go to the next level.
PLEASE!

i believe i deserve a second chance for at least trying
even if its the last minute.
at least i didnt attempt to get an MC
just so that i can skip the exams.
i knw there's no second chance in our education system
but i strongly believe that i deserve more thn this.

nobody said it was easy. - Kevin
but nobody told me it was gonna be this tough. - Me

screw life, screw this, screw everything! /:

i loved you so much
but all you ever do time and again
is to hurt me and make me feel worthless. )':
i dun farking deserve this kind of treatment.

fark what i've said.

MARTHA!




Monday, October 26, 2009 7:22 pm
bahhh


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baby i'm tired of being friends.

i saw a super awesome pencil box and bag
frm ripcurl and i want it so badly!

i'm highly inflexible and its sad. ):
my knee will get better soon, i'm sure! :D

i'm so tired tired tired,
i wanna start rolling on the floor.

tmr i get all the papers that i've sat for bck.
i'm so scared, my stomach is churning like mad.

friday we knw if we're promoted or nt
and i'm praying so hard that i'll be promoted.

i promised more thn i could give.

MARTHA!


Sunday, October 25, 2009 8:45 pm
):


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for the love of you.

i wish i didnt have to make anyone worry so much.
i'm so tired and what nt, i feel so close to giving up.

i'm trying to find meaning in life
but nth's coming my way,
i feel so useless and screwed.

no one's gonna accompany me day in and out
or make me feel loved like before. )':

WHY?

i'm so tired of everything especially life
and what its putting me through.
i promised so much that i feel that i'm unable to live up to it.
i'm tired of trying to be what i'm nt.
i'm tired of pretending to be alright.

i'm so useless and so blind.
i pray that tonight,
ManUtd will give me some hope.

whr did i go wrong?

MARTHA!


Saturday, October 24, 2009 11:50 pm
farker


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i dun need your lies to keep me going.

my heart shattered knowing the truth.
why must you lie to me time and again,
making me feel like a complete fool and idiot?
if thats what you want, good job.
you just gave me alot of hell
and i'm bleeding more thn before.

Farker, you promised me so much
but am unable to farking live up to it.
if you farking cannot treasure these things
thn fark off and nt promise a single shit.

you meant so much to me
with you gone, i'll pick myself up
and prove that i'm better off without you.
i'll make you the biggest loser of all time!

STOP ALL THE FARKING LIES.
stop texting me, i wun reply you.
stop calling me, i wun answer your calls.
stop e-mailing me, i wun read them.
JUST STOP DOING ANYTHING,
I DUN FARKING NEED YOU.

the pieces of my heart are missing you.

MARTHA!


Thursday, October 22, 2009 5:49 pm
weird


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would you be there?

awhile ago, i was hungry like an idiot
but now, i feel like puking everything out.
and i realise, i havent even eaten anything. ):

sigh, i think i'm gonna have gastric flu all ovr again. ):
this sucks so badly, i wanna die. /:

i'm so tired, i really need to sleep early
but there's Project Runway
and i cannot afford to miss it!

i sound like an idiotic loser. ):
Goodbye World, i dun wanna go to sch anymore. ):

i'm gonna start rolling on the floor soon.
stupid headache, you shld go away.
you've been bugging me for DAYS!

Good Luck to my lovely juniors taking their O lvls! :D
i wish i was in secondary sch all ovr again! ):

Best Wishes HweejiePrecious, MeiyanHoney and ShitingSkinny! :D
and the many many others.
you'll all do fine, dun worry.
oh yah, Shengjie too! (i'm so nice! :P)

somehow, i miss Corny so much. ):

till death do us apart.

MARTHA!


4:43 pm
uncertain


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what abt the despair that we felt in our lives?

sometimes, i realise that the people who i love and care for
just cannot understand me as much as i understand them
and for that reason, i'm hurt and lost in every aspect.
maybe i'm just a loser through and through.

i knw we're drifting apart but knw that i'll still be there for you
no matter what happens, rain or shine.
i miss your smiles and laughter in my life.

somehow, i feel so empty inside.
birthday celebrations coming up again.
i need to save ALOT of money. ):

J, iloveyou. (;
happy now? :P

why can someone love so much
yet whenever i bank in on a relationship,
i start to doubt myself so badly?

we're closer to a better tmr.

MARTHA!


Wednesday, October 21, 2009 6:42 pm
caught


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perfect for each other.

physio and school are a walking disaster alongside one another.
my knee couldnt take all the burden that is being rested upon it
and gave up trying to push to its limits.

my Physiotherapist seem rather disappointed
cause i didnt reject the offer to play frisbee
and for kneeling over a period of time.
i really didnt expect my knee to be so fragile to such an extent. ):

although i didnt do much and gt reprimanded,
i knw somehow that its for my own good
and no matter hw reluctant anyone is going to be,
having to pay for each therapy. i'm nt gonna give up trying.

my world crashed when she told me to stop running completely.
i knw i'm nt able to do that and she sensed the agony within me.
i'm very much reluctant to give running a miss despite my condition.

somehow, the pain takes away all the sorrow that i'm feeling
whn i cry myself to sleep unknowingly at night.

i'm hard core sadistic and no matter what,
i wouldnt wanna give up on something that i found interest in
aft such a relatively long time.
idk, i'm in such a dilema, i wish i was dead right now.

its either giving up or absolutely no chances of recovering.
and i knw i wun give up on running no matter what people say.
its my passion and a part of my life.
i'm so in tune to running that i struggled through the o lvl period
and inbetween promos whn it was stopped.

bck to the doctors' on monday, i'm praying for the best
and before that, physio all ovr again.
sigh, i'm so tired from everything.

I HATE LIFE.
I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE MYSELF.

i knw i make the biggest loser of all time
but trust me, i'm really trying.
J, i'm sorry for hurting you in so many ways. ):
but hold on cause i'm still trying.

we'll never find another.

MARTHA!


Tuesday, October 20, 2009 8:30 pm
memories


listen, ♥
seeing your brother reminds me of you
and those days we spent so close together.
we were so young and innocent thn,
i didnt knw what to expect in a relationship
let alone to commit.

i'm sorry for hurting you before
but i swear i nvr meant for things to turn out this way.
i knw things would nvr be the same like before
and you'll continue to somehow hate me all your life
but hey, why carnt we be friends again?

i mean, come on, we've all grown up
and knw that certain things happen for a reason.
you couldnt blame a 12 year old kid
for nt understanding hw a relationship works
and you were the one who took the first step.

so shouldnt you take the initiative
to tell me what its all abt so that i would get a better picture?
but still, you were one of the best i've ever had
and i'll nvr forget you and all the times we've spent together.

only BestFriend would understand. ):

xoxo,
MARTHA!


Sunday, October 18, 2009 11:55 pm
resentment


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nobody but you.

so my meeting with Sweetheart was cancelled that very day
but i gt my own entertainment as soon as i woke up.
spent an awesome day with my Parents
and i miss those times whn i'll always be accompanying
my Parents to and fro where ever they wanna take me to.
sometimes with my Silbling and sometimes, just me.

i miss those times whn i can run into their arms
to seek protection and security.
but those days are long gone
and i have to be independent,
learning how to adapt to harsh cruel conditions
that the world bring me through without my knowledge.

i miss being Daddy's little girl,
i miss being Mummy's little princess.
i wish i was a kid all ovr again with nth to worry abt.

week in and out, i realise hw much i'm drifting away frm my friends
and i'm sorry because i still cannot find my sense of belonging there
despite trying utterly hard for 8mths.
i've given up trying because i knw that there are many
who can relate to the situation that i'm in
and there are some who would criticise me for whatever reasons.
still, i believe that i have my choices and reasons
and i dun have to explain my life to anyone except myself.

i miss my secondary school days whr i can just have fun
and nt worry abt a thing in the world
because i'll always have people to count on.
but things have change and i need to take control of my own life.

somehow, i've planned out what i want and expect in my life
but in many ways, as much as i want you by my side,
i cannot seem to be able to find a place to fit you in.
you wun exactly understand what i'm saying and am going through
but just knw that, you'll always have a place in my heart, just like before.

there's so much resentment in me for many many reasons
but i'm nt gonna vent it here and now.

i'm so happy there's no sch tmr but i cannot give tuition a skip
so oh well, i'll drag myself out of bed early tmr morning
just to be at tuition on time. i must be on time!

i'll take you in my arms tonight and nvr let you go.
if i could hold your hand once more,
would you walk through forever with me
and never let me go no matter what happens?

sometimes, its wrong to do the right thing.

MARTHA!


Saturday, October 17, 2009 2:11 am
blast


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cause to me, every moment is precious.

i had a fun filled week, full of surprises and what not.
i enjoyed myself so much, i wish the week nvr ended.
but oh well, good things always come to and end. ):

Monday was the only day i relaxed and stayed home.
other thn that, i was out out out, enjoying myself. :D

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Tuesday was initially a bore until i met J for lunch
and thn dinner with BFF where we talked like there wasnt any tmr.
haha, i love her so much. (:
we talked so much, we didnt wanna leave
but she had to study for her exams whn mine is just over.
haha, bet she's jealous but oh well.
i had my period of suffering and she'll survive
because she's my smart lil BFF and i love her to bits. (:

Wednesday was spent with J before and aft physio.
i swear i was so tired and it was so expensive,
i wanted to jump down and die right away.
stupid ultrasound for my knee cost a bomb. -.-
watched PS I Love You with J on his lappy
and i cried like a dumb fool while he laughed at me for being silly.
ROAR, i'll bite your head off uh! /:

Thursday was day out with Rachel before tuition. (:
i was sooo tired walking here and there
from the east to central to west.
i was so tired, i wanted to sleep so badly.
thank goodness theres starbucks to keep me awake. (:
tuition was good cause we didnt have to do essays or compres,
like finally and thank god!

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Friday was the most meaningful day despite me skipping school.
i had so much preparation to do before the big surprise. (:
i'm so happy things worked out so well.
i love my Aiai so so so much. :D
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AIAI!
and i wouldnt make it without Dearr to help me as well. (:
i love the both of you so much! ♥
we walked arnd the whole of orchard,
going frm one mall to another, frm one shop to another.
it was a blast, i swear i didnt wanna go home even at 10pm.
but Aiai has work tmr and Dearr has a midnight movie to catch.
we parted ways soon aft they reached their respectively stations
and i couldnt bear to let them go. ):

we're meeting again next week anyway
to celebrate Dearr's 18th.
i'm so excited but i have to think of another surprise
and i need my brain cells to cooperate so badly. :P

Today, i'm gonna meet FeliciaSweetheart aft such a long time.
we're gonna have fun because i havent seen her in abit
and we have so much to bitch and talk abt.

i'm so excited but am waiting for Dearr to reach home
before i head to sleep. i'm worried abt her.

J: you'll always be my candy coated baby. ♥

Twin, iloveyou. (:
Voda, i miss you badly. ):
BestFriend, wish you were here. ):

no matter the distance, hold me like you'll nvr let me go.

MARTHA!


Friday, October 16, 2009 11:57 pm
fareen


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HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY DEAREST AIAI! :D

thank you for walking with me through thick and thin
aft such a long long time and putting in so much effort
to sustain this friendship despite us being in different schools.

thank you for never watching me fall
and for encouraging me in all that i do.
whn i need a pat on my back and motivation to move forward,
you never fail to disappoint me and be there like no one else.

thank you for everything you've given, said and done for me
in these past years that we've spent so close and dearly together.
you never fail to put a smile on my face
and warm my heart.

i miss those times that we spent so close,
running to and fro west coast park aft sch
under the blazing hot sun
and whining abt everything we are being put through.

i remember the times whn we'll stay bck aft a long run
to unwind and to study soon aft.
i loved teaching you history because its like telling you a story
where you listen so attentively.

i'm sorry i can no longer be there like before to protect you frm dangers
but do be careful in all that you do and stay strong.
stand tall no matter hw much people try to put you down
because in my heart, you'll always be the best
and i will always be there for you like you were there for me.

in all that you do, i wish i could play a part like before
but because of our different lifestyles, i wish you all the best
and i love you to bits to matter what happens.
we'll never be apart at heart. (:

we'll keep rocking together and try with all our might
to sustain this friendship we share till the end of time.
we've stood the test of time, nw its time to challenge our determination
and i knw you'll never let me down.

ILOVEYOUAIAI!
no matter what happens,
rain or shine,
i promise to be there for you like no one would.

keep rocking alright?
i hope you had a blast today
and love the present that i gave you. :D

xoxo,
MARTHA!


Monday, October 12, 2009 6:55 pm
gunny


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HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN GUNNY LOVE! :D

you might have been a pain in your earlier years,
but you slowly changed and made me realise
hw much of a good friend you really were.
thank you for being such a nice friend and a great junior
,full of encouragement and nvr looking down on others
who are worse off thn you.

you've been such a joy to have arnd
that i wonder hw much calamity i would experience
without you back thn in my secondary school days.

thank you for making my life so colourful
with all sorts of surprises
and for all the comfort and encouragement
whn i need them the most.

good luck in all that you do Love,
you knw i'll always be there for you like before. (;
i'll see you soon whn i return to tanglin. (:

xoxo,
MARTHA!


6:43 pm
booo


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i'll stand up with you forever.

as long as i feel a sense of satisfaction,
no amount of money is not worth spending.
and thats how it'll always be! (:

deep inside me i could be the one.

MARTHA!


2:27 pm
finally


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if i ever hurt you your revenge will be so sweet.

F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!
the long awaited day has come. (:
aft so much of mugging and cramping,
promos is finally O-V-E-R!
i'm over the moon and above the stars. :D

theres so many people which i need to thank
for taking my nonsense day in and out
and for encouraging/reassuring me all the way
despite knowing that i'll nt do fine.
(nt up to my expectations at least)

my family has been under immense pressure,
seeing the way i'm mugging and cramping
but it nvr stopped them frm showing me more love
and thats what i love about them.
cause i knw theres always someone to count on
despite having vent my anger on them
due to stupid reasons.

my friends who nvr failed to stand by me
and to cheer me on, telling me that i can do it. (:
day aft day, night aft night.
through calls and textes, whatever means. (:

last but nt least, the stupid pig J,
who calls me day aft day, asking me to wake up and study.

THANK YOU! :D
how can i not love my family, friends and you? (:

my plans for today is screwed and
i'm so lazy to clean the living room and my room
but i have to do so soon.
because i'm irritated with how messy the house is,
thanks to me and my family is equally sick
of seeing all my books around.

jam packed week ahead
and i have to crack my brain for Aiai's birthday
because i want her to have a blast.
i've gt everything in my head,
its all about penning it down and stuff
and i'm more thn ready to celebrate her birthday.
i'm so excited for friday.

i'm contemplating if i should go to sch or not. :P

out with BFF tmr.
physio on wednesday.
thursday needs confirmation,
but theres definitely somewhere to go.

i'm so excited, i wanna fly. :P

i wanna meet Sweethearts soon. ):
but with a lvls creeping in soon,
its so difficult to meet all at once.
i'm just waiting for stupid a lvls to end
before i go out with my dearest Sweethearts
and the CrossCountryTeam.

i'm so going bck to tanglin soon
because i miss my friends and teachers.
especially MrTham and Gunny.
nt forgetting, the Track&Field team
that i can always call MINE. (;

i need to enjoy myself before the results comes out
and scares the crap out of me.

this is a very long post, like finally. :D
alrighties, GOODBYE! :D

Voda, i miss you ALOT!
BestFriend, wish you were here!
Sunshine, we'll meet up soon!

nike human race anyone? (:

for you i'll bleed myself dry.

MARTHA!


Sunday, October 11, 2009 9:04 pm
bitch


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it doesnt really matter.

sometimes people are so oblivious to everything
and think that they're always the best.

who in the world are you to comment on me
whn you're nt the one doing anything.

whatever please, like you're such a superstar
that i need to coax all the time.

BITCH!
*points middle finger*

we'll make you go around the world.

MARTHA!


1:17 pm
tired


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if i could hold you in my arms tonight.

my post didnt turn out well ytd
cause the hp's blogger is so restricted. ):
oh well, at least there was something.

i'm tired frm doing nothing.
i barely studied which is making me feel
like a complete asshole
because i'm suppose to be doing something.

nevertheless, promos is coming to an end
and its freedom frm tmr onwards.
my only wish is to be promoted to year2
and i will bloody work harder next year.

okay, i'm so tired but i need to study.
the dramas on tv are killing me so badly
cause they suck so much.
i want my hongkong dramas! ):

goodbye world, wish me luck for tmr. (:

your joy killed my hatred.

MARTHA!


Saturday, October 10, 2009 9:11 pm
tsk


listen, ♥
I have a pig whose still stuck in his bed
whn he's suppose to meet me at 7pm.
Stupid pig!

Oh well, haha.
I'll just have to study and rot thn.
See you next week stupid pig,
i dun wanna talk to you at 2am in the morning.

Raya outing, i'm so excited!
Update me soon cause
I'll have to cancel my physio on wednesday
and change my appointment


Friday, October 09, 2009 2:34 pm
(:


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hand in hand, love is sent.

i miss secondary school so much,
i'm gonna start rolling on the floor
and banging my head on the wall.
i miss 5n1 o8' sooooo much. ):
i'll see all of you sooooooooooon,
at least after all my papers are done.

i swear i'm just awaiting monday
whn i get my paper over and done with.
i'm praying that i wun get a 'S' again
but at least an 'E'. project, please pull me up.
i need that motivation and push for next year.

i'm just looking forward to the whole of next week,
especially the week's break after biology. (:
i'm so excited and i gt my schedules jam packed. :D

i'll continue to smile and be happy
cause i knw i'll always have you. ♥

till the end of time.

MARTHA!


12:47 pm
xoxo,


listen, ♥
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i cannot promise that i'll love you forever
but for now, you have more than my soul to keep.
the past would fade with time, for sure. ♥

xoxo,
MARTHA!


Thursday, October 08, 2009 5:39 pm
call


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take my hand, never let go.

1:42am

J: morning sunshine! wake up, wake up, wake up!
Me: *looks at phone* its only 1:45am!
J: wake up, wake up, wake up. time to study.
Me: tsk, i dun have any papers today.
J: oops. go to sleep, go go go!
Me: damn it, you just woke me up.
J: sorry sorry sorry, go bck to sleep nw okay? GOODNIGHT SUNSHINE!
Me: bye!
J: goodnight!
Me: okay, bye.
J: GOODNIGHT!
Me: tsk, goodnight.

i'm walking on sunshine.

MARTHA!


Wednesday, October 07, 2009 6:55 pm


listen, ♥
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if you just realise.

if you understood enough,
you would knw that the deciding factor
is nt with me but the both of us.
i promised you too much
and i'm sorry i cannot live up to it.

despite the countless quarrels,
i knw i'll always have you arnd somehow.
thank you for the calls and text
day after day and night after night.
especially during the exam period. (;



we could be better off.

MARTHA!


Sunday, October 04, 2009 11:20 pm
gosh


listen, ♥
I'm done with wuthering heights ytd, like finally.
Today was hard core econs but its nt working out well. ):

I'm using Daddy's awesome phone to blog, cause i'm lazy to on my lappy.
Theres alot of funtions that are missing but its better thn nothing. (:

Good luck to everyone whose taking their promos, n lvls and sch base exams.

Love,
Martha!


Saturday, October 03, 2009 8:56 pm
lost


listen, ♥
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nothing beats having you there.

the natural disasters are taking away the lives of many.
slowly, i'm losing my soul as well.

one by one, i'm losing all that i've got. ):
BestFriend, take me away with you. please!

time, can you freeze for abit.
i still have too much to catch up with
before promo comes. )':

J, stop being an asshole.

i've stopped thinking that i would make a difference in anyone's life.
whatever the case, you may leave if you want to.
i'll hestitate no longer cause
you'll never be there for me like before, to catch me whn i fall.

take me to your heart.

MARTHA!


Thursday, October 01, 2009 5:43 pm
thoughts


listen, ♥
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you're all that i long for, all i worship and adore.

nw its time for me to stay silent
and just wait till you come back.
i miss you, ALOT.
come home soon.

cause you'll always be my baby.

MARTHA!




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