Monday, February 28, 2011 8:36 pm

Sigh

listen, ♥If you told me how much I meant to you then, I wouldn't have walked away.

Now, I live to regret the decisions that I've made.

Wish you were here like you were many years ago. /: I'm only left with used to be(s), and once upon a time.

7:41 pm

Warning

listen, ♥This is me, telling you that enough is enough. If all you're gonna do is piss me off, then seriously, just go away. Screw you and your stupid initiative and such. I don't give shit and it doesn't matter to me, AT ALL! So stop annoying me and just get off my back!

You're so annoying, I feel like screaming at you over the slightest thing you do. Your presence is not needed, so buzz off!

Really hate how people think they're irreplaceable when they don't mean a thing to you.

/roll eyes

Saturday, February 26, 2011 10:45 pm

IJ

listen, ♥It's one Of those days that you wish you were a kid all over again. To have that little more attention from your family, to have that little more care and concern to what you've been up to and such.

I really miss those days when I'll always have your backs no matter how hard we try to piss each other off, we'll always come back together and sit down instead of running away from each other should problems arise.

I miss how we were way back then. Young, cute and innocent kids, awaiting our Parents return home from work, the weekly lunch at various places and the times we all go to church together.

I really miss how much of a kid I was, dependent on everyone to get things done. I admit that I'm spoilt and such, but it never stopped any of you from showing more care and concern.

I miss being in primary school. /: I miss Kellock so so so much! I cannot help but recall how much fun and how much of a terror I was back then and the countless times Daddy had to be called up cause I scolded my classmate 'Fuck You' in her face! It was epic now that I think of it.

It's times like these that I really miss being a kid. Having the house all noisy and such. Now, all I ever hear at hone, is the rustling of the fan, telling me how old it already is.

If I could turn back time, I'll treasure my family time even more.

Friday, February 25, 2011 11:24 pm

Time

listen, ♥They say time can heal all wounds but I beg to differ.

Time is a constant element that evokes your emotions that you try to hide away from others.

This flawed concept of holding on or giving up is essentially what time has bestowed upon up - doubt.

11:34 am

Hi

listen, ♥Hello there!

Finally a break from school. Well deserve break I swear! The hours of mugging and trying to stay awake with Redbull, sweets and all the headache, they're over for the week.

Next week, I embark on the journey of mugging harder at a moderate speed so that I don't die cone Promo 1. I know I always make such promises but I will keep to it! I will stick to it.

A levels is not easy at all and the journey towards it is only gonna get tougher. I will survive, I know I will.

I hope I wouldn't burn out or breakdown too soon. /sigh

I will make it to Law School! /crossing fingers

And yes, God helps those who help themselves and I will do myutmost best to prove that I can make it! And you ignorant bitches who laughed at me then, would swallow your words and take them back the way you had to last year! (:

I will do myself proud! I know I would. ^^

Tuesday, February 22, 2011 9:03 pm

Stress

listen, ♥I am so scared for tomorrow, I am on the verge of crying. It's not the best time to break down now but I feel so disconnected from what I set out to do. My aims and vision, they're all screwed! This flawed theory of life, is breaking me. It's literally taking me by the neck as I try to scream for help when nothing comes out.

I am trying, I really am but it's just too much for me to bear. I find myself cringing and suffocating in what I'm stuck in.

Help me Dear Lord to find meaning in life as I seek to constantly better myself. Amen.

I miss you Bestf, really do. 1095 days.

9:03 pm

Stress

Sunday, February 20, 2011 9:10 pm

heh

listen, ♥My blog isn't dead .. It's just inactive for a bit.

I'll be back when Common Test ends. (:

Friday, February 18, 2011 10:39 pm

Fareen

listen, ♥

I had my doubts in Year 1, when I saw how my friendship with the people I once shared my life with deteriorated just because I didn't have enough time for them then. I'll never forget how hard I fought to get my friendship going and how some of them became stagnant, making me conclude on the journey that I've embarked on.

People came, I gained and lost, I fought to keep mysel alive in times of adversities and I'm proud that I've succeeded and have come thus far. But it wasn't without the help of my amazing friends who never failed to be there when I was in need of someone.

Meeting up with Aiai made me realize how lucky I have been, to always have her around. Rain or shine, night or day, she'll always be there to take me by the hand and assure ne that everything will be alright and that things would get better.

I'm glad I've worked on our friendship and I'm proud of our achievements and how much we've grown. Thank you for being the light of my life when I was in darkness. Thank you for always being there to take me by the hand. I love you, forever and a day. /blows kisses

I'll see you soon! Enjoy your well deserved holiday! Meet me more often kay?! /Teddy bear hug

Monday, February 14, 2011 10:39 pm

valentines

listen, ♥

One of the best Valentines to date!

I feel so loved today! ^^

Thank you to those who gave me something and the many texts! (:

I love each and every of you in many different ways! :D

Thank you for the chocolates and the sweeeeeeeet note Louis! /big hug
Thank you Sasha, the Angel for the cute gift, love it! /big hug
Thank you Hidayah, the smiley for the biscuit! :D /big hug
Thank you Ramo, the awesome one for the card/note! /big hug
Thank you Naq Cupcake for the goodies and notebook. /big hug

Happy Birthday to my awesome good friend, on this special day!
Happy Valentines my Love, Balqis! /teddy bear hug, blowing kisses

Voda, I love you to infinity and beyond! :* :* :*
fOR YOU A THOUSAND TIMES OVER!

Thank you all who made Balqis' surprise a success.
All of you rock! :D

Sunday, February 13, 2011 5:19 pm

Narimah

listen, ♥

Let's face it, we've all changed. Somewhere between school ending and school starting. We've all gone in our own directions. Hearts broken and friendships fucked over. New people came into our lives. We no longer hang out with our circle of friends that we thought that was going to be there "forever". We no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've all changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.

- Narimah

When reality strikes, only your good friend would understand and would always be there without you having to say anything because everything she says, makes perfect sense.

11:15 am

Bitch

listen, ♥

I take offense in the thing you put me through and the words which you've said to hurt me.

If this is the kind of friendship I'm fighting for, I'll gladly do without it!

12:25 am

bother

listen, ♥

It's like you don't even care.

12:14 am

see

listen, ♥

I fake a smile so he won't see.

Thursday, February 10, 2011 11:30 pm

unpredictable

listen, ♥

You're so unpredictable, I don't know what to expect from you.

11:24 pm

lose

listen, ♥

I wish I didn't lose you.

I miss you Bestf.

11:23 pm

annoying

listen, ♥

If I don't want you in my life, why do you have to keep pestering me?
If I'm pushing myself away from you, why are you coming back time and again?
If I don't wanna care about anything, why should you bother?
If I'm rejecting you, why must you keep annoying me?

Like seriously, I want nothing to do with your life. I don't give fuck over any shit that's happening to you and your fucked up life. I don't wanna care so please, spare me the agony cause you're pushing me even further than I already am.

11:14 pm

myob

listen, ♥

IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!

10:23 pm

momentarily

listen, ♥

I hate how much we're quarrelling right now for lame reasons. I really don't see the point in this.

You know, it really annoys me when you're so egoistic as not to see or understand what I'm going through? It's not as if I'm free and such, I have so much work on hand, you need to bloody understand that there's a gap between us!

Sometimes, I don't understand how you formulate reactions of actions. I don't get why you're over protective when there's nothing much to protect. /:

You might have meant well and I might have wronged you. But really, I hate how you try to control me and please, ...

I hate how you've ruined my day, my whole entire week because of what you said yesterday and I can't stand another fight. Today's such a bad day, I want it to end like NOW!

Bed time, till I awake. Goodnight.

Tuesday, February 08, 2011 7:23 pm

sucks

listen, ♥

You know what sucks the most?

Not having you around when you've always been mine.

Friday, February 04, 2011 3:15 pm

bored

1:21 pm

andy

1:11 pm

thanks

1:10 pm

awww

12:00 am

birthday

Thursday, February 03, 2011 6:58 pm

headache

listen, ♥

I've been having this headache since god knows when and I can't take it anymore. ):

Brother's bringing his girl FRIEND home. Apparently, just a friend.

Okay, shall help set the table!

6:57 pm

hmm

listen, ♥

Maybe, I'm just being over sensitive. /:

4:56 pm

money

listen, ♥

I hate Chinese New Year cause there's really nothing to do.

12:00 am

cny

Wednesday, February 02, 2011 1:26 pm

life

1:25 pm

time

1:03 pm

complain

12:41 pm

different

12:40 pm

blah

Tuesday, February 01, 2011 11:00 pm

cry

listen, ♥

It really sucks to find yourself crying in the silence because you feel your heart breaking and the million reasons why it's doing so and to make it worse, you feel your whole world just crashed on you.

I need to grow out of this and not make this a routine. I'm sick of all the laughing and smiling when I'm not the least bit happy.

You promised to always be there. But you're never there when I really need someone and really, I'm utterly disappointed.

10:49 pm

older

listen, ♥

Listening to songs that we use to sing and groove to. You probably have no freaking idea how much I miss you and the person you use to be, but it's okay.

I learnt that in life, we need to move away from the shadows of our past because it is only then that we can truly learn and experience from what we're going through.

It's funny how we never seem to appreciate until we lose someone/something and then start regretting it. And when the person/thing returns, we become so egoistic as to not say sorry and pretend that everything's fine. And how we just continue at where we ended.

The mind works in such a weird and complicated way. Sometimes, I don't even understand the reason and logic behind every move I make, but I still do so to make myself feel better then and start reproaching myself at a later stage for being stupid and such. But isn't life all about learning and making mistakes? That's another thing that I'll never figure out my whole life.

I should get some sleep and stop thinking of silly stuff. I miss you, you know? ):

5:02 pm

phone

4:21 pm

blah

4:12 pm

women

4:06 pm

females

3:58 pm

reasons