Tuesday, May 31, 2011 10:12 pm

lol

listen, ♥Me: Mummy, what's a baby pig called?

Mummy: Piglet.

Woman: /stares at us

9:57 pm

tattooed

listen, ♥I'm sleepy.

You've been sleepy since morning! -.-

Yeap, I am.

Hurry go sleep then!

Can't.

Why? -.-

Cause you're not home yet?

/beaming

12:34 am

unprepared

listen, ♥So not prepared for the mock later, in about 12 hours. I don't wanna fail anyone in any way.

I will fight, till my death.

I'll get by, somehow.

Monday, May 30, 2011 12:42 am

numb

listen, ♥Numb from all the pain I feel,
It doesn't even hurt missing you.

Sunday, May 29, 2011 11:58 pm

Life

listen, ♥The road to nowhere, at many points in time, I cannot help but wonder, what the hell do I really want from life and if what I'm goin through it worth the time and effort.

Yet time and again, I'm just pacifying myself and telling myself that I can do it, I'm on the right track and all I have to do is to work harder and not let the negative vibe eat into me.

Honestly, I've failed in this aspect.

I hate myself.

1:41 pm

sunday

listen, ♥i should stop thinking, about anything and everything.

My mind needs to go on a vacation, maybe blank and then recover.

Too tired to bother, too tired to even care.

I'm done.

Friday, May 27, 2011 11:18 pm

emotions

listen, ♥And tears just rolled down.

I don't know why.

Wish you were here.

Thursday, May 26, 2011 10:18 pm

memories

listen, ♥Somewhere only we know.

Looking back, 6 years really passed quickly.
We could have lasted but I'm sorry, for letting you go.

Yes, at many points, I do look back in regret.

We were meant to be, suppose to be, but we lost it.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011 11:29 pm

feelings

listen, ♥I hate how I get emotionally attached to someone and their mood inevitably affects mine, it's like we're all entwined.

I don't know how I'm feeling right now. /: I'm uncertain of the direction I'm heading towards and as much as I wanna help and be there, I find myself lost in my own world, struggling to find a way through.

If that's what life's all about, I'm done. I've had a shot at it and it's time to take me back to where I belong.

I'm tired of everything. Tired of studying. Tired of getting crap results despite trying so hard. Tired of having to wake up early to mug. Tired of trying. Tired of even having to live through the day.

My motivation in life? I'm wondering too. Yes I know, it's very easy for me to cheer people up cause talk is cheap. But when I have to put what I've said into action, I stumble at each and every possible point. Tell me I'm not a loser, sure.

I'm beginning to despise myself more with each new day. How fake and insincere I've become. How numb I am towards the people who have inflicted pain on me without knowledge.

Okay, I've got to keep these negativity in check. Need to shut the hell up now and get my ass onto bed.

P/s: thanks for dropping by Voda, I love you! :*

Sunday, May 22, 2011 10:50 pm

Idiot

listen, ♥Seriously, I wonder why people actually call themselves friends when they're only out to make use of you. /roll eyes

People like you, SUCKS! #slapyourdamnfaceleftrightcenter

10:00 pm

Stupid

listen, ♥Apparently I cannot blog with my iTouch but I can using the laptop that I stole for 1 hour. -.-

Wednesday, May 18, 2011 4:01 pm

contrast

listen, ♥I hope Voda's having fun in Bangkok! We're so gonna go there in December, after my A levels. ^^

Tuesday, May 17, 2011 10:08 pm

Blah

listen, ♥As much as it hurts you to be rejected, I wish I didn't have to do as such. But sometimes, situations force you into being a bitch which you never knew you would be at any point in time, especially to someone whom you've held so dear to.

You know, sometimes you make me feel like saying goodbye for good. And that I would never return but yet again. You take things so easily and with a pinch of salt. But how easy is it to really let go and move on after considerable time? I really don't know.

Men, sometimes, you just don't understand them. And to them, the problem always lies with you, when they are in fact the one's cracking up. Like seriously, I'm tired of such games. Tell me when you're coming back, wake me when your sanity kicks in.

Night.

Sunday, May 15, 2011 11:08 pm

Landslide

listen, ♥"When two or three are gathered in my name, there I will always be." - Matthew 18:20

Love love love this song since I was a kid. (: I don't know why I got reminded of it, but I'm glad I was. ^^

I'm happy I've completed all my homework but /sigh, I haven't studied or done any revision at all! GP is fast approaching and I swear, I'm no where near being prepared. /loud sigh I hate how incompetent I am. /:

I need a freaking wake up call from reality. And a literal wake up call so that I won't laze in bed and fall asleep yet again. /sigh Where did all the determination go? How will my hard work pay off when I haven't ever tried?! /louder sigh

Sometimes, I hate myself and my incompetence so much that I wanna birch slap myself and just kill myself for being idiotic. My level of intelligence is beyond hope, it's like in it's negative range. I really need to snap out of this, and start concentrating. I need to bloody stop slacking. /sigh sigh sigh

Just 6 more months, and a few days, and I'll have my freedom. In the mean time, please work hard Marty! Prove your worth, stop letting people look down on you! Stop looking down on yourself and thinking that you cannot because that's what losers do and you're better than that!

Okay, shall sleep now and wake up early. I need to, last minute preparation for the class test AND to study for GP. Not forgetting the need to revise for Economics. /sigh So much to do, so little time.

5:36 pm

Homework

listen, ♥It's only when you've started on your homework that you remember that you have 515704347 other work that needs to be done.

Well, at least I'm done with Economics. Wanted to do some revision but I have GP homework and Literature Paper 5 test tomorrow. /sigh

Not forgetting how much if work has to be done for tuition. I'm so afraid I'll falter. ):

On a happier note, Kerby's coming back tomorrow! :D Miss him x10^37984315558785

Okay, time for GP! I can do this! /fist pump I will sacrifice my sleep since I've slept for 15 hours which is equivalent to 3 daysofsleep during school days. I'll survive!

Basketball tournament tomorrow. Blahhhh, knee, be nice!

Okay, byeeeeeee!

Saturday, May 14, 2011 11:26 pm

urgh

listen, ♥I swear that you're one hell of a MCP and I feel like kicking you when you're like that. /pissed

When you ask me for an opinion, at least respect it. If not, why bother asking? Don't blame me when things go wrong. Just because your choice didn't work out well, you don't blame me for not convincing you then and there. You were the one who refused to listen. You rejected the idea, not me!

Urgh, so bloody annoying when everything becomes my fault when I didn't do no shit. /kicks you

Nevermind, Mummy taught me to be kind to animals. /bleah

Manchester United makes me happy! /beaming :D

9:52 pm

yayyyyyyyy

listen, ♥So proud of Manchester United. 19th title. (:

Haha, you owe me something. :P Chelsea sucks. :P

8:40 pm

Silence

listen, ♥The touch of your hand, says you'll catch me, whenever I fall. You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

6:33 pm

Breaking

listen, ♥I'm not gonna ask you to stay. That wasn't the plan from the start. But if nothing's gonna fall into place, and if you're not gonna at least try, why should I bother? Like seriously, would it matter to you at all? I have my doubts.

You left me wondering why.

Monday, May 09, 2011 9:53 pm

hotttttt

listen, ♥My Venti Chocolate Cream Chip Frappe melted within 7mins. Awesome much, didn't even have 2 sips of ice before it became liquid. /:

I want Rockey, but I don't know if I can make it to Bukit Batok in time. ): It's the best bubble tea avaliable at Bukit Batok. /thumbs up

Last lesson tomorrow! /fist pump

I smell Horfun but I'll puke if I consume anything as of now cause of my gastric. ): I want to die. Praying some liquid would do me good. /:

Thanks for finally taking the initiative but I'm still angry!r

Productive study session all alone, thanks to Umi.

Can't wait to get home!

11:45 am

Disappointed

listen, ♥This sense of disappointment is weighing me down, I feel myself breaking up internally.

Stop expecting anything from anyone cause, you'll only end up being miserable and disappointed for placing your trust in them.

Family, friends, even you!

Wednesday, May 04, 2011 12:43 am

Disappointed

listen, ♥I lie in bed, wide awake, with eyes all sore and puffy due to the lack of sleep and what not. Checking my phone every two minutes in hope that you'll call or text. Each time the phone vibrates, I secretly wish it was you. But time and again, I find myself disappointed, sighing in spite of the attention that I'm receiving.

It's just you, that's oblivious to all these. It's only you, that's taking all that I've done for granted. It is you, that's constantly breaking me deep down inside when you're suppose to make me whole once again.

I'm tired of these. I'm tired of holding on and wondering where I went wrong. I did nothing to deserve all these crap and I will not entertain any nonsense anymore. Screw these emotions! Screw the fact that I've trusted you so much.

Let's end it at this. /loud sigh IF ONLY YOU REALISE how much you mean to me.

Okay, stfu and sleep! Goodnight there! I hope you're doing fine..

Monday, May 02, 2011 11:19 pm

Hmph

listen, ♥Took you two days to realize.

I don't know if it's something I should be happy or sad about. For a fact, I was elated during tuition thanks to you. (:

We may not have met as planned but I know I'll see you very soon. Screw tuition, cause I could have seen you and Voda!

I miss Voda! ):

Bed time! Need to wake up earlyyyyyyyy! /: