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Friday, May 30, 2014 12:52 am
Snoopy listen, ♥ 
I know it hasn't been long since you're gone. But in all honesty, I miss you more than I ever did. These last few hours has been grueling, having to put on a brave front so that others wouldn't have to worry about me.
The silence of the night pierces through. I hate seeing you suffer and going through all the pain, but yet, I can't seem to let go. Of you, of all the memories that are held so dearly to my heart. And I'm crumbling. I wish you were here, I wish you could come back for a bit. But I know, that you're at a better place now, and that God has better plans for you.
Thank you for being my bundle of joy.
For teaching me to give without restrain and to love unconditionally, I thank you. For being my alarm clock during my younger days, for being my study partner when I had no one to turn to, for being so happy to see me all the time, I cannot thank you enough.
You've taught me so much that I could never have learnt on my own.
I'll never forget the very time you said 'No' when you were accused of doing something wrong. I'll never forget the smile on your face when I come by from time to time just to see you. I'll never forget how you encouraged me to take that step closer to you when I was at first afraid of you.
Thank you for taking this hand, and holding on to it for so long, till you finally reached the end of the road before letting it go.
Thank you for letting me be able to bid you a final farewell before you left me for good.
I hope you're happy and safe wherever you are! You know I love you. Please take good care of yourself and have fun with the Bestf! :)
Till we meet again in paradise!
x
Saturday, May 24, 2014 10:02 pm
Deserve listen, ♥
What is it like to be told that you deserve something? What is it like to think that you deserve something, or maybe something more than you already have?
In this age and time, everyone goes around saying 'I deserve this', 'I deserve better', and the list goes on. But do we really deserve the things we want, the things we have?
Desires are what drives us to strive to improve on our situation. Yet it is these very desires that destroy us, that tears us apart, that haunts us on a continuous basis. Is this what we were looking for in the beginning?
I know I always go 'I deserve better', but when I look back and ponder, I never knew that that better was. I just thought that I should be getting more than I should, despite all that I have.
I know it's not fair to say things like 'I deserve better' in a relationship, unless he's really a jerk. But sometimes, incompatibility just screws you over and there's no way that you can stop yourself from thinking that way.
Friends come and go, they betray you at any given point and pretend that things are fine. What did we do to deserve it? Maybe it's just in the blood, that people take one another for granted until they lose themselves.
Life just has it's way with us. And like it or not, thinking you deserve better might not be the best way forward because it can act as a hindrance to moving forward.
"If we continue to go around thinking we 'deserve' anything in life, we are going to look back at a life full of disappointments when we are old. I'm not saying you can't be disappointed at times when you feel you have earned something, but do not let it destroy you. Pick yourself up, deal with the situation, and move on." - Jenny Kelly
Labels: http://thoughtcatalog.com/jenny-kelly/2013/12/what-do-you-deserve/
Wednesday, May 07, 2014 11:17 pm
Dreams listen, ♥
Everyone has a dream, whatever it is, it deserves to be respected.
There are times when we feel that we're too far off from what we want to achieve in life. People tell us that we dream "too big" and its almost impossible for us to achieve the aims that we lay out in order to take us closer to our dreams. And we despair, we get caught up in the negativity that is piercing through us, without mercy. But still, we get by.
Despite having a dream to work towards, sometimes, we choose to take the easy way out - to give up on our dreams and aspirations, and to settle for something that is less than what we have aimed for.
Yes, we can have all the support we want from others. But when we look back and think of all the times we abandoned our dream of becoming a doctor, a lawyer, a bus driver, a cashier and such for what we are pursuing now, we look pass the circumstances that have stopped us from achieving our aims, we look back in regret, with tainted glasses, in despair, and sometimes, with relief.
There are many points in life where people will call you crazy and all sorts of stuff because of what you desire, of what you have attained and such. But then again, we've gone through so much that life has to offer, and has thrown at us without free will, and we survived. So what is wrong, when we run away from the reality of life, when we decide to abandon our dreams for something else, for better or for worse. Why must others always be at the back of our minds when it comes to making decisions, especially when it concerns the future that we have?
We may say that this life is ours, and it's our choice whether we live through or ruin it, but is it really true? Time and again, we're reminded that any mistakes made, would warrant us 'failures', no matter how hard we try to bounce back.
What are dreams exactly? Should we even have one? Can people really accept what we want to achieve in life, even if it's deemed unworthy?
Honestly, I'll be lying if I say yes because when we look at how things are before us, that's exactly what is implied. We always have to be at our best, no matter what we are going through. Why are we doing this to ourselves, I wonder. To be accepted maybe?
How many of us can truly be happy with what we have in life? How easy is it to achieve our dreams, aims, and clock these milestones without any problems or fear?
"You will learn that your best interests and your dreams don't always align, and you will learn that sometimes, when your best interests mean stability and safety and the status quo, the right thing to do is what nobody else would do. The right thing to do, sometimes, is to run as far in the opposite direction as you possibly can." - Ella Ceron
Labels: http://thoughtcatalog.com/ella-ceron/2013/11/how-to-chase-a-dream/ |
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