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20
Sep
12

can you see what you feel…1

Describing a mint leaf to a visually challenged person using the 5 senses – touch, taste, hear, sight, smell

Did you like the chutney you had for lunch today? Well that was ‘pudina‘ chutney. Pudina is also called ‘mint’. The chutney is made by crushing many tiny mint leaves together. Let me get you to experience mint leaves:

Can you feel this soft tiny leaf? This is a mint leaf. Run your fingers on the edges of the leaf. You’ll realise that they are jagged and not smooth. Now turn the leaf over and feel the rough surface. Run your fingers over the middle. The many raised lines are its veins similar to the lines you feel on your wrist. They are the lifeline of a leaf storing food and water, similar to your veins storing blood.

Crush it slightly with your thumb and index finger. Feel the juice on your fingers. Now smell it. Doesn’t it have an overpowering fragrance? Can you feel it calm your senses? Mint leaves are medicinal. They help relieve stress and many other ailments. Put the leaf in your mouth and chew it. Can you hear the juices being released as your teeth grind the leaf. Feel the blast of aroma as it cools your throat and fills your nostrils.

Long after you have eaten or smelt it, you will still feel the fragrance and aroma lingering in your memory.

(An assignment of Writestuff Writing Club – A community for writers who meet every alternate Sunday to discuss their work and learn more about writing and also to sharpen their writing skills.)

19
Sep
12

anger…

Describing ‘anger’ using the 5 senses – touch, hear, smell, taste, sight:

I feel it in me. It actually consumes me. I know it’s not a good emotion to have, but I can’t help it. Every time I think of letting go, it keeps coming back. Through various mediums. Directly or indirectly. Personally or socially. There is always something happening to trigger it.

If I could feel it, it would be as hot as a burning coal. Touch it and you’re sure to get burnt. Experience it daily and your innards would get charred.

Red is its predominant colour, shut your eyes and that’s the colour that surfaces. Though once it subsides, black ashes are all you are left with. A demon with an unquenchable thirst; it feeds on your thoughts.

Sounds like a serpent hissing. So close to your ears, enough to send shivers down your spine. Accompanied by sounds of your teeth gritting, jaws clenching.

Smells awful. Not fragrant at all. After all if the thoughts are unpleasant, how can there be any aroma. Anger smells of burnt embers, charred leather.

It’s bitter, distasteful even because sometimes you eat humble pie. At other times, you have your foot in your mouth. In this state can you really taste anything???

(An assignment of Writestuff Writing Club – A community for writers who meet every alternate Sunday to discuss their work and learn more about writing and also to sharpen their writing skills.)

19
Sep
12

pain…

A four letter word but encompasses a world of emotions. The mere word is enough to evoke unpleasant memories, distort the contours of an otherwise smiling face. Eyes well up with tears despite the mind ordering it otherwise. The heart experiences a dull ache as if being stabbed by a blunt object…slowly…blow by blow. The mind wanders from the present to somewhere in the past. Memories, people, places, experiences are awakened from the deep recesses of the sub-conscious mind. Soon the temples start hurting and before you know it, your head is throbbing. Sometimes it leaves you with tears in your eyes and smile on your lips. That’s the ‘sweet pain.’

(An assignment of Writestuff Writing Club – A community for writers who meet every alternate Sunday to discuss their work and learn more about writing and also to sharpen their writing skills.)

19
Sep
12

unanswered questions…

He runs errands in the rain, a mere chit of a boy.
Soaked to his bones, pale yellow shirt clinging to his dark wiry body.
Maybe it was his necessity, maybe it was an emergency.
Unanswered questions in my mind, a helpless umbrella in my hand.

19
Sep
12

unspoken…

She sat looking out of the window, her wizened face criss crossed with time. Her fragile wrists held together by gold specked green bangles, her silver mop cloaked under modesty. A cloth bag her prized possession. Curious eyes darting back and forth, the bright red dot creasing in wonder. Every now and then, she fidgets with the cloth bag, her busy fingers arranging and rearranging. Wonder what thoughts run through her mind. Through all this he sits reading his newspaper, as unaware of her thoughts now as then…

19
Sep
12

time to move on…

She thought she got it right when she first saw him. She celebrated all her achievements with him – a promotion, the house, a new job, trips abroad. Everywhere she took him along with her. It was perfect, this relationship. No questions asked. No answers given. No demands. Or so she thought. Friends and family thought otherwise. They felt he was not the one for her. He had been nagging her with his obstinate behaviour since awhile. “Let go”, they said. “You’ll find another one. Someone better and befitting you.” She declined, can’t just let go off him. He had become a habit, she thought they had eyes only for each other. But his mood swings got worse. She didn’t know how to keep him turned on. And for the first time in 4 years, she let her eyes wander over others. The time to move on had come….

21
Aug
10

lost and how???

I have been staying at this girls’ hostel since the last 4 years (since my separation from my ex) and these have been peaceful years. I had heard of things happening to others – like mobiles being stolen, room mates siphoning cosmetics, toiletries even food from others cupboards, etc. But I have always been lucky to have roomies who have been extremely caring even motherly to some extent. I had one of the maushis (caretakers) wash clothes for me, the laundry was right below my hostel, breakfast, lunch and dinner too was available. Life was set and very convenient so much so that I didn’t feel like moving out of here. Never in these years did I feel unsafe and I considered myself blessed. But I guess I spoke too soon. Just 2 days back, I discovered to my dismay that someone had stolen my bag of washed clothes that maushi had hung on my door. The clothes were worth Rs. 8,000-10,000. My attachment to them priceless. I searched high and low and asked everybody but drew a blank from all quarters. The reason I am writing this post is also to vent out my anger and sorrow and hoping to be able to get it out of me.  I need to move on but I can’t. I know I should replace them but I can’t. I feel extremely guilty of not being able to save them. Maybe I should have gone up to my room and kept them inside.

The only thing that has kept me from completely wallowing in self pity has been humour thanks to friends who see the light side of any problem. “Who would fit into your clothes?”, “oh! my god…your clothes have been stolen! That means your lingerie disappeared too?” (why on earth would I do that in the first place?) and the latest, “are you going to travel wrapped in a towel?”. Ridiculous…Funny…All I wanted was some sympathy and all I got in return were these one liners. Well I’ve got to put this behind me. But I still miss my clothes.

07
Aug
10

in the lap of nature

Image Couple of weeks back our entire team had been to Sai Farms at Kolad. We set off early morning and sometime around noon reached Kolad only to find that the bus wouldn’t be able to enter the narrow passage lading to Sai Farms. So we had no other option but to walk it up for a kilometer or so. I dreaded the walk as it was raining and our bags and its contents were sure to get wet. To top it I hated getting wet and trekking. Nevertheless there was no other option and we trooped out; some eagerly and some (like me) grudgingly.

While walking I remembered the various exercises Pat would make us write. One of them being to observe the sights and sounds around you. Putting my “observational” skills to use, I decided to tune in to nature. The entire place was green right till where my eyes could reach. The natural path formed from daily travelling of people and cattle and strewn with gravel and pebbles stretched far like a serpent. Dotted with plants, shrubs, bushes and trees, the image was one of lush fertile greenery. Due to rains, water had collected in places forming small pools. Ahead of us the hills loomed large in all their emerald glory with their peaks enveloped in dense mist. It seemed straight out of a Mani Ratnam movie, only difference being I was aware that this was all too real. The rains had washed the dust off the leaves unearthing various hues of green and bright yellow. The soil let off a natural fragrance as though these were the the first rains. A heady mix it was as the drops fell on your parched lips, the melody of the sheets of water filling your ears, the fragrant soil tickling your nostrils and the flora strutting its stuff in a rainbow of colours letting your eyes drink in their beauty.

The skies had opened up generously and the rain kept coming down in a steady stream creating an orchestra of sorts as it fell on trees, rocks, roofs and the puddles. The colourless water blended into the surrounding like a chameleon; turning brown when mixed with mud, green as it formed pearls on leaves. The few crows that were flying around cawed pitiably as they too were drenched from head to claw; their silky greyish black feathers ruffled to give then an ‘out of the nest’ look. Our rooms faced the Kundalika river, a majestic river flanked by dense foliage on either sides, the silt and soil in her womb giving her a muddy brown colour. She flowed calmly pregnant with all the water from various tributaries as well as the rain. But we knew that beneath her calm exterior was a restlessness that was growing by the minute. The life giving Kundalika was also capable of taking lives if one did not pay heed to the strong currents that were masked by her serenity.

The steady stream of rain seemed music to my ears, almost welcome from the sounds horns blaring any time of the day, the dip in temperature was natural as against the artificial cooling of an air conditioner. At that moment I realised how in cities most of us consider rains to be a nuisance. As a kid I always thought, “why did it have to rain everywhere?”, “why couldn’t it rain only above rivers, wells, lakes and other water bodies suppling drinking water?”, “why does it have to rain above the sea and gutters and roads when that water is obviously going to waste?”. I know now that it is not the rain that wastes itself but us who do not capitalise on this natural resource. How much would it take for the municipal corporations to encourage water harvesting so that the city does not face water crunch? People in dry states view us enviously while we let all of this elixir of life go waste. Have we actually reached the point of no return? If we do not act now it will be too late. Like they say, “you realise the worth of something only when you cease to have it.” We owe this much to our future generations.

I remember a marathi poem that went like this:

“ye re ye re pavasa, tula deto paisa

paisa zhaala khota, paus aala motha.

paus padto jhim jhim jhim, angan zhale ole chim

paus padto musaldhaar, raan zhaale hirvegaar.

ye ga ye ga sari, maazhe madke bhari

sar aali dhavoon, madke gele vahoon.”

18
Jul
10

class of ’95

There is a very famous play doing the rounds of theaters since some time – Class of ’84. The plot revolves around 7 people from college meeting after 17 long years. I will not delve into the rest as I haven’t seen the play myself. But I did see another kind of play being enacted at Azzuri Cafe & Lounge on July 17, 10 and what’s more I was one of the actors. This plot revolved around 12 school friends meeting after 15 years.

The story began some months ago, when one of our classmates, PR took the effort to scan our Std. Xth class photograph, upload it on Facebook and tag as many as 50 of us. What followed was completely unbelievable. In a matter of days, everyone was commenting on the pic. Those who were not on our friends list were being traced and added. Everyone seemed to go back in time recollecting stories from school. I was extremely happy to be connected to my classmates as back then I wasn’t very social and hardly ever spoke to anyone outside of my group. And boys were certainly a big ‘no’ save for NM (Nilu) who was my childhood buddy (who I would rightfully bully). From here stemmed the idea to have a reunion, something that was immediately lapped up by all. The date was set, venue fixed and curiosity heightened. Though many of us were out of Bombay and out of India, we didn’t let that be a damper. The idea was to set the ball rolling.

And so the evening dawned and I set off with mixed feelings of anticipation and excitement. Anticipation at the numbers that would show up (it will be demoralising if it turns out to be a no show) and excitement at seeing them all again after 15 years. As I reached Azzuri, I was filled with dread thinking I was the first one to reach. Thankfully BM, MC and SG were already present. We made our way up to the 1st floor; everyone with similar thought, “how many of us are going to turn up tonight?” Then came NM and we waited, chatted up with each other, catching up on long lost years. Then came DB and for a long time no one came. We looked at the door anxiously everytime it opened. That’s it just 6 of us. For the all the conversations we had we expected at least 15 people and 3 of them (AD, HS, ND) had messaged their apologies due to some sudden developments. So if not 12 at least 10 as a saving grace. And then it happened as one by one the rest started trooping in – RB, HP, SB. Phew we were now 10…sigh of relief. MK who was the most enthusiastic had to drop out as he was down with bad flu and we were truly sorry that he would have to skip this evening. KM one of our classmates who was in the US had asked us to call him once we had a good enough quorum so he could be present in spirit if not in flesh. Looking at the projector and big screen I was thinking to myself how good it would have been to see KM on the big screen and talk to him at the same time. And as if someone read my mind, the door opened and in stepped KM himself in flesh and blood. Amidst loud exclamations, hugs and pat on the back we chided KM and EK (not present) for successfully pulling off the surprise as we were all under the impression that KM would not be able to make it for this meet. Indeed what a pleasant surprise it was.

It was nearing 11.30pm and we were almost through with our drinks and sizzlers when NM announced that he’s still optimistic. “Everytime that door opens I feel someone will walk in”, said he. And lo! behold who should walk in but MK with his wife. Oh! my god. Were we dreaming…no he was here coughing and obviously under the weather in health but not in spirit. It was really touching to see that he took the effort of putting their baby to sleep, take his dose of medicine and reach Chembur only to meet us despite the unearthly hour. Some conviction he had that we would still be there.

SB suggested we all narrate an incident from school time that stayed in our memory or that nobody else knew. Of course this was like an invitation to open the Pandora’s box and we all delved into the recesses of our memory to dig out that embarrassing anecdote of those present or absent. A lot of stories came out and I was astonished as I had been very oblivious to almost all of them. The clock ticked 12.30am reminding us that we had to make a move. Reluctantly everyone called for the bill and when it arrived we again fought over the payment with the division being handed to those good with numbers. It seemed like we just wanted to drag the time and not let go so soon. Finally the bill was paid and we trudged downstairs but not before clicking loads of pictures for those who missed out. Loads of hugs and kisses followed, BM & NM offered to drop the rest home and we bid adieu to each other with the promise of meeting again.

We were all of 15 when we left the haloed precincts of our alma mater and today we are 30. We learnt many new things in our journey from adolescence to adulthood; we also let go off many things as we travelled. But one thing remained constant and that was to be a child at heart forever.

To those who came; thanks guys for making this evening special. To those who missed out; there will be another time.

And to those reading this post; welcome to Std. Xth, Div. A…the Class of GEA ’95.

03
Jul
10

city of joy – adieu

After the idyllic Shanti Niketan, we were back to the sounds & sights of Calcutta. However since I was to fly back the same afternoon, we had to get into action pronto and Ant R and me immediately left for Flury’s, a popular breakfast joint again from the British times. A lovely place with wood work and the fragrance of fresh coffee and bacons, sausages and eggs  permeating the sounds of cutlery and the hush tones of the patrons. SK would have loved to come here and she’ll be mighty furious with us for not bringing her here while she was with us were the thoughts that crossed both our minds. We ravenously tugged into a hearty English breakfast and left for home stopping on the way to buy some sandesh (else I would have been dead meat had I gone without any Bengali mishti). I also indulged in my last touristy activity of this trip and that was a short ride in the tram with Ant R’s driver following us.

Ant R and her mother dropped me to the airport and with a heavy heart I bid them adieu. As I walked through all the formalities I couldn’t help but get emotional at the thought of leaving this beautiful city with its old world charm and delicate balance between history and modernism. As I deliberated if I should call Ant R and speak to her mother (lest I give in to my emotions), Ant R called and as her mother spoke to me, we both opened our tear gates and let our emotions flow freely much to the amusement of my fellow travellers.

Finally boarded the aircraft and soon I was back in Bombay. My Bombay, my home, my city on which I prided. But what was happening? Why wasn’t I happy, excited, elated at returning home? I don’t know. I can’t explain. I didn’t look forward to it one bit. I trudged home with a heavy feet and an heavier heart. I was longing to go back to the simplicity of Calcutta. It took me a long time to get over it and I almost gave my mother a heart attack when I wistfully confided in her that I wished to quit my job and go to Shanti Niketan. “But what will you do there?” was her anguished response. Anything. Study dance or music. Maybe learn pottery and sell terracotta artefacts by the road side. Anything that will let me live there. Wisely she left me to myself hoping that I will come around soon. Well come around I did (better sense prevails everyone) but I know now where my heart truly lies and where do I truly belong. So yes in a way I am at peace having calmed my restlessness with answers.

Thus ended my sojourn with the erstwhile capital of the East India Company. A city that captivates you with its simplicity yet surprises you with its traces of modernity. Calcutta truly is a city of joy.




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