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A summary is clearly overdue. Since then I (three words to describe each piece, though I'm probably repeating myself a bit here for the 2020 works):

Drew The Summoning (a bit of a fan comic to go with a poem I like): haunting, touching, sentimental.

Wrote Behind the Scene: Between the Lines (or How Harry Courted Severus, the Complete and Unabridged Edition) which was silly and amusing at the time: romantic, flustered, unique.

Wrote Talk to Me (which was slightly more serious and dramatic, with a healing journey): heartbreaking, heart-mending, immersive.

Wrote Of Mercury and Canvas Ghosts in one weekend for a deadline. It still strikes a chord with the right reader: packed, subtle, ambiguous.

Wrote One Invincible Summer in the same weekend: youthful, light-hearted, grief and growing up.

Wrote The Seventh Stardrop which I'm quite proud of for becoming a light-themed subtle creation of joy and solace as far as writing goes: green, sunny, restorative.

Drew Absolution: contrasting, unusual, layered.

Drew The Bravest Man: poignant, elaborately-plotted, complete.

Wrote The Spell For The Lost And Lonely: queer, underground, intimate.

Wrote Much Ado About Asmodeus: quirky, lighthearted, demonic.

I am currently creating for a deadline associated with various fests, here's hoping the result can be shown soon.

I've learned to finish things rather than perfect them and learned that things are rather finished as they are without procrastinating to put the final 5% touch on them to get them over the finish line to 'done' for months and months.

I've learned to let things go and to let them out in writing and that the best of my personally cherished creations will not align with the popular tropes.

I've learned to ration my time and my creative pursuits in a more focused manner.

I've learned that the best of my writing is still an unfinished draft but I'm closer to making those WIPs a reality. It's not perfect, but it's a good place to be.

I still need to re-learn how to step away and breathe, focus and read longer, immersive works, all over again. It's been a while since a fan work blindsided me into awe, and I miss that feeling. Here's to unread masterpieces.

Quite awhile back I strung the wrong words together without much thinking.

Do we all search for that special place? Coveted behind many mental walls, a thousand thought locks, it's safe and sound, even from Dementors, even from heartbreak, even from loss. Within inner peace, warm and quiet, Patronuses dwell, to emerge to aid when called. A Legilimens may know how to look for it inside others' minds, but anyone who'd spent more than an hour listening to one's own thoughts knows how to find it inside themselves.

Sometimes all you'd need is warm tea and silence. Other times, a memory of green and a smile. Private, safe, Severus unleashes the parts of himself most vulnerable and precious, and looses them free like a doe prancing.

Being able to find that place of soul-healing inside his own mind, again, after many years of searching, to draw of its calm, its acceptance, is the closest he'd ever come to redemption.

These are my revisions today in a different frame of mind.

Do we all crave that place, safe and sound from Dementors, from heartbreak, from loss. Within that inner calm, warm and quiet as a toddler's sleepy mind, no Patronus can ever emerge. A Legilimens finds such emptiness inside others' minds and carefully steps aside, but anyone can fall prey, drawn inside this complacent, sleepy well.

Sometimes all you'd need to fall is warm tea and silence, a comforting and sinister kind of calm. Other times, a litany of assurances and instructions. In the lukewarm safety of an empty mind, no hope ever dwells. How can one unleash the parts most vulnerable and precious when they don't exist yet? There is nothing to unleash up onto the sky, free like a doe prancing. But the ability to crawl out of that deceptive, calming stupor is the only possible way to redemption.

ETA: ~~This seemed much more impactful and important to share online this morning, but far less poignant and life-changing now that I had more to eat. That said, how is your day going?~~

ETA2: October 24. Mostly striking things out.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/139504.html

The Seahorse

Eileen Prince & Severus Snape | Rated M | 21.3k

Summary: Lee is used to winning his Gobstones matches, and he thinks he can come out ahead in the game of life. If only things were as simple as when he first met Tobias at that pub in Cokeworth. In a perfect world, he sure as hell wouldn’t be pregnant and learning his way around a Muggle kitchen, but it’s 1959, and he is all bones and weary mind, weighed down by the flesh that doesn’t feel like his own.

Notes: This was written for the HP Trans Fest to the following prompt: Who would have thought it would be a game of Gobstones that got Character A to realise they were trans? (Also inspired by: Character A is a trans man and is pregnant. It's hard, but so worth it.)

Lee’s story was a hard story to tell and yet it was worth telling. In it (cross-generational impact of bigotry and xenophobia aside), I wanted to explore one trans man's survival in a gender-binary society of the 1950-1990s U.K.

While the Muggle world had Michael Dillon as a hidden trailblazer, someone born into the life of Lee Prince around the same time would have had no awareness of other trans men and would have had to reconstruct his identity from crumbs of belonging and gender euphoria. Overall, I wanted to portray the deepest of closets and the survival techniques that emerge from such a brainwashed existence.

I also wanted to explore the complexity of flawed human relationships and commitments and the stories people tell themselves (Tobias and Lee) to feel good about their lives, and how often such narratives deviate from the fairytale versions of happy endings.

In a sense, this story is the polar opposite of the mpreg trope and is probably the only 'mpreg' story I'll ever write. It's also as close to body horror as I will probably ever get to portraying. In addition, it pits culture clash against the conflict of unacknowledged gender dysphoria, which basically leaves Lee confused and uncertain for a couple decades of his life.

Many liberties were taken with Gobstones as a game and Jareth the Goblin King, the master of contact juggling, approves of all such deviations from canon.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/138793.html

Look, I'm posting a fic.

In many ways, this story has been difficult to put down on paper. It's arguably the most emotionally charged story I've written since the Price of Magic (because of course a perpetual boy ghost whose entire world and existence depends on the presence of a single person seeing him as himself is totally not what a clueless trans man would write, nope, not at all!) In any case, recently I've been going through a period of intense stress (no longer an issue, thankfully), so writing out the introductory scene was a matter of condensing the stress from weeks of personal experience to a few pages' worth of frantic sentences. It was the most therapeutic thing that I could have done. It then got me thinking about what kind of world this particular Harry would exist in - what would be different and what would be the same.

This is the snapshot of approximately a year's worth of fictional transition. It is far from the exact lived experiences of any human being. Like any fiction, it may match or it may be vastly different from your - or anyone's - life. It is certainly not meant to serve as a how-to reference to life or all things trans. Several shortcuts were taken for the sake of Narrativium. I did my best to research HRT process for the UK, since I'm not British, but did not go out of the way to do so. I also did my best to think things over and map out Harry's specific dysphoria triggers and comfort levels with his body in various parts of the story, since some of them match mine, while the others do not.

Overall, I wanted to capture the uncertain, turbulent time of early transitions (and the darkest of closets that came before) as the mind still sorts out internalized misconceptions, and as one navigates the cisgender and gender-binary societies where people can be both clueless and unintentionally-hurtful with daily interactions. Fred, George and the Ministry scenes, in particular, are all good examples of this.

So yeah, without further ado,

The Measure of a Man (18915 words) by ac1d6urn
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape, Harry Potter/George Weasley
Characters: Harry Potter, Severus Snape, George Weasley
Additional Tags: Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Trans Harry Potter, Spinner's End, Closets, Coming Out, Minor Character Death, Grief/Mourning, Alternate Universe - Harry Potter Setting, Angst with a Happy Ending, Male Protagonist, FTM Harry Potter, Trans Male Character, Misgendering, Gender Dysphoria, Gender Identity, Gender Issues, Cross-Generation Relationship, Trust Issues, Post-War, Post-Hogwarts, Auror Harry Potter, Fred Weasley Dies, Severus Snape Lives, Alcohol, Not Epilogue Compliant, Legilimency, Transitioning

Several years after defeating Voldemort, Junior Auror Harry Potter discovers himself and, at the risk of losing his childhood love, follows the truth. Through it all, Snape is an unexpected solace. Will he become more?

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/138438.html

It feels like Spring outside and I wrote something sweet for a change.

Theriac Therapy (16628 words) by ac1d6urn
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Additional Tags: Seduction, Slow Burn, Sexual Tension, First Time, Dessert & Sweets, First Time Blow Jobs, Hogwarts
Summary: One day, young Defence professor Potter encounters the greasy git paired with dessert he didn't quite bargain for.

All the thanks to Perverse Idyll and Drawlight for this one. PI is a superhero beta who suggested key changes in Snape's characterization (and stopped my Harry from non-stop grinning by default). Without Drawlight's prompting to participate and the daily word count race, this would never be written at all. Also thank you to Sinick for giving it a name.

On that note, I'm now almost 50% into the Project-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named for an Anon-Fest-I'm-Not-Supposed-To-Talk-About. Full speed ahead.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/137516.html

Dawn of a New Era by 6urn

Today I redrew this 2005 piece, with a nod to the original's color scheme.

Take Care by 6urn

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/137346.html

Now that the Snapecase reveals are up, I can post about Brew, Bottle, Stopper, which was a pinch-hit for category Four.

Somewhere around Christmas, a friend and a fellow participant reached out to me wondering if I was interested in entering any of my Snape or Snarry art to help out, I happened to be sketching something suitable at the time, and the rest is history.

The drawing is meant to represent Snape's journey between 30 and 40 years of age. The stag in the background is Harry's. In this version of the story, Snape happily lives on to see his fifties.

Brew, Bottle, Stopper by 6urn

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/137094.html

So the Secret Snarry Swap revealed their writers/artists today, and I can confess to making Halfway to Hornsea (Harry Potter/Severus Snape, Hurt/Comfort, Small Towns, Secret Snarry Swap 2018, Seaside, Dark Magic, Muggles, Auror Harry Potter, Spy Severus Snape, Patronus, 30,000 words).
Summary: As Auror Potter’s first mission goes terribly wrong in Atwick, Yorkshire, will Severus Snape’s curse-breaking knowledge and family roots be enough to save the day?

The artwork is also now here on DeviantArt.

It is surprisingly hard to disguise an art style for an anonymous fest, though I’ve briefly tried (before giving up). I’ve experimented with digital watercolors, which is not a medium I’m strong in. About half of these have been sketched on a post-it note and colored digitally. Baby Severus still gives me nightmares. Eileen turned out better than expected. It was really difficult to keep Severus’ and Harry’s faces consistent throughout the entire series. I also wish I had more time to render the flight scene at the end as more than a scribble.

Thank you to my beta-readers, Antuhsa and Katze (and to Badgerlady!), for their endless improvements, and to maraudersaffair who submitted the original prompt which started it all.

This week, I also recommended a story in a couple of LJ/DW communities - it's one of those one-of-a-kind journeys that leave you changed (inspired, touched, and amazed in equal proportion) after reading it. I am so happy I came across it, and it will remain one of my all-time favorites in the HP fandom. Ghost Story by Drawlight is a Jane Eyre inspired tale of Severus Snape and Harry Potter falling in love. Its summary reads: "All love stories are ghost stories; Severus Snape has seen a ghost."

Severus Snape is the protagonist in this and the style of writing as well as the role he plays fits him like a glove. He is difficult and stubborn and full of mourning, but is also in possession of quiet dignity, the strength of a survivor, and the curiosity of a scholar. Harry is an enigma, and an old regret, unforgettable and hiding in plain sight. They find each other. They'll never be friends.

I finished reading it in one go, surfaced for a breath, and I'm honestly blown away. Here's the quote from the third paragraph that pulled me in:

"He’s lost weight and the bones of his body jut out at severe angles like a postmodernist building. The bags under his eyes are dangerously entering checked luggage territory and his hair, never much to speak of, lay greasier and lanker about his face in serpentine clumps. On these increasingly infrequent trips to Diagon Alley, Severus Snape limits his dealings to those merchants with whom he’d had accounts for decades."

It's a work of absolute beauty. Go read it.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/136895.html

One Fell Swoop: Chapter 3 - Felix Felicis by Sinick, ac1d6urn
Series: Part 2 of The Bat
Summary: As Snape returns to teach during Harry's eighth year of Hogwarts, Harry remembers something important about Snape that Snape himself may not. Will the stubborn sod let Harry close enough to explain the situation? And what does Headmistress McGonagall have to say about it all?

Headmistress McGonagall had always made it a point to keep a large fire crackling in her office. This preference of hers hasn't changed just because she became Headmistress and moved her belongings from the first floor corridor up to the Tower. The fire remained lit from the early morning to the midnight hour.

Once visitors stepped through the oaken double doors and navigated past several spindly tables, they were surrounded by the portraits that filled the walls. Wide windows offered a breathtaking view of the lake and the Forbidden Forest. Stacks of papers were piled neatly on the desk and a small study off to the right contained a multitude of books from McGonagall's personal library. A small cat bed was tucked away under the corner curtains, and a saucer of milk in the far corner behind all the bookshelves was a mouthwatering offering if one happened to be a cat.

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Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/136431.html

Chapter 2: Valor is now posted.

One Fell Swoop: Chapter 2, Valor(15393 words) by Sinick, ac1d6urn
Chapters: 2/5
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape, Harry Potter & Severus Snape
Characters: Harry Potter, Severus Snape, Minerva McGonagall, Galatea Merrythought, Dean Thomas
Additional Tags: Bats, Hogwarts, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Harry Potter Being an Idiot, Severus Snape Lives, Severus Snape is not a vampire
Series: Part 2 of The Bat
Summary:

As Snape returns to teach during Harry's eighth year of Hogwarts, Harry remembers something important about Snape that Snape himself may not. Will the stubborn sod let Harry close enough to explain the situation? And what does Headmistress McGonagall have to say about it all? Sequel to The Bat.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/136051.html

One Fell Swoop (7669 words) by Sinick, ac1d6urn
Chapters: 1/5
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape, Harry Potter & Severus Snape
Characters: Harry Potter, Severus Snape, Minerva McGonagall, Galatea Merrythought, Dean Thomas
Additional Tags: Bats, Hogwarts, Hogwarts Eighth Year, Harry Potter Being an Idiot, Severus Snape Lives, Severus Snape is not a vampire
Series: Part 2 of The Bat
Summary: As Snape returns to teach during Harry's eighth year of Hogwarts, Harry remembers something important about Snape that Snape himself may not. Will the stubborn sod let Harry close enough to explain the situation? And what does Headmistress McGonagall have to say about it all?

So I have to give credit to the three very patient readers who left comments on The Bat asking for a sequel. The sequel turned out to be much longer than expected in my head, so we're going to post it in pieces as we finish the individual chapters. It's also lighter on the comedy and heavier on the drama than the original.

With that I'm also going to dust off The Bat artwork, which inspired the whole series.

The Bat

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/135806.html

More art.

Comparing Scars

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/135511.html

Remember by 6urn

Look, I'm drawing these two again.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/135247.html

Memento Mori (41,357 words) by acid

After the Death Eaters win, Harry clings to life stripped of himself and terrified for the future, but determined to fight. Could an unlikely alliance help him defeat Voldemort?

Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Characters: Harry Potter, Severus Snape, Tom Riddle | Voldemort, Hermione Granger, Ginny Weasley, Original Female Character(s)
Notes: Thank you to

antuhsa for the tireless work of beta-reading above and beyond the call of duty and for the moral support and to

sinick for pointing and laughing as this '15,000 words, max' story grew past 40,000. Yep, she told me so. This is for everyone presently clothed or fearless. As per title, remember that you have to die. Live life to the fullest anyway.
Tags/Tag Clarification: War, murder, one semi-graphic torture scene. Character deaths, not Snape or Harry. Magical slavery, not Snape or Harry. Suggestions of an off-screen rape, also not Snape or Harry. Angst. Hurt/Comfort. BDSM. Nudity. Fear. Maybe love. Rampant prompt deviation. Canon-compliant up to most of Book 7. Voldemort wins. Ambiguously canon Snape. Magical bonds. Memory charms. Gryffindors are too stubborn to be brainwashed for good. Nolite te bastardes carborundorum. Biased judiciary, folks, don't do this at home. Dystopia, flangst and fairytale endings. For certain odd values of fairytale.
Prompt: Harry Potter Cross Gen Fest: Lucius/Hermione, Bellatrix/Ginny, Snape/Harry. During the war, Naked and Afraid takes on a whole new meaning.

( Story spoilers under the cut )

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/134491.html

After several months of work, Mirror (rated teen and up) is finally finished.

Hogwarts, Eighth Year. Harry Potter must choose: talk about a secret or keep it. Place trust in one teacher or keep silent. Speak up in support of a war hero or let the weight of public opinion take its toll. Will Harry's reflection in the Mirror of Erised offer guidance? Mirror is a choice and consequence game with ~12,000 words of dialogue. What's next, treacle tart or flying? Was it really Snape that Harry saw in the Mirror of Erised? Will Harriet tell the Headmistress all about her crush on Ginny Weasley? Will Harry ever feel as free on the ground as he does in the sky with Ron? Will Severus Snape keep his job? It's up to you.

Thank you to my beta-reader,

antuhsa , for playing all the storylines and not getting tired of seeing the same Snape with his hair over his face and the same outraged Harry expression over and over.

Mirror was made over the Spring and Summer of 2018, to answer a question, how would Harry Potter's story unfold differently if it had been about Harriet Potter? It then became a personal study of sex and gender, and various closets we hide in. It has a Snape/Harry or Snape/Harriet and a Ginny/Harry or Ginny/Harriet endings. You can also play a pairing-free variant. Drawing and writing for this game made me smile many times. If you choose to play it, I hope it does the same for you.

Please comment below if you run into any issues or have any questions (or if you are unable to download and want me to send you the install file.)

Summary , Download and Walkthrough on AO3 | Summary, Download, and Walkthrough on DA

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/134323.html

Grim (17240 words) by ac1d6urn

Summary: After the war, the house on Spinner's End is a shelter, but not a home. Then Snape lets in a pair of strays.
Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
Rating: Explicit
Relationships: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Characters: Severus Snape, Harry Potter, Sirius Black
Additional Tags: Snarry-A-Thon18, Spinner's End, Dogs, Auror Harry Potter, Grief/Mourning, Romance, Hurt/Comfort

So Grim has suffered the same fate as the EIA draft and I have to thank the fest mods for handling the situation swiftly, reaching out and re-posting, as well as sharing their copy of comments. (I have now commented in the new version replying to all the wonderful feedback received. There were around 16 replies in total that I am aware of and no comment has been forgotten.)

I also must thank the superhero beta-reader team, whose names (a shout-out and a huge thanks to Antuhsa) I can now provide in the story header without breaking the anonymity clause of the fest.

Grim is a quiet and an understated tale (at least that's what I've been going for), and I've been writing it with Sinick in mind, so it's a story for her as much as anyone. It's interesting to look back at the writing and examine it to see which trends and habits are uniquely mine, but guess what, after writing with someone for so long, you realize how huge of an influence they are, even if they're less of a direct influence this time around.

As for the rest, the intro already states:

"This is for all the dogs I've met that would make a great wizard, for all the humans who aren't really dog people, and for anyone brave enough to risk a change, be it tackling house-cleaning as therapy or sharing childhood traumas."

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/133944.html

The Last Memory by 6urn

"Harry goes back to the Shack to get Snape’s body, only to find a last strand of memory. Evidently Harry had missed it in his horror and haste when he had siphoned them into the phial Hermione had provided. Harry collects the last memory even though it is strangely reluctant to come out, clinging to Snape’s temple, still halfway embedded in his mind. And then Snape coughs."

OK, so the not-so-secret is out. I've submitted the artwork piece to this year's Snarry-a-thon. Thank you to the mods for organizing and making it possible.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/133858.html

Art gallery is back online.

I was desperately lacking space for HP and slash art, so now it all lives here. I need to redraw a lot of it, but nonetheless, it's on the web and therefore has the right to exist.

For people on tumblr/pinterest/elsewhere, sure: repost or reblog, just link back.

I've done my best to keep commissions requested to be kept away from DA off it, but I may have made a mistake. Let me know, if so. In the meantime, if artwork says 'for X', it's likely a commission: back off, don't use for icons, comment to check reuse policy.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/133451.html

I'm going to use EIA downtime to talk about us finally completing Pleasant Hope (41565 words) by Sinick, ac1d6urn: (Snarry AU: In Pleasant Hope, Missouri, Pastor Severus Snape survives from day to day, until a restless youth called Harry teaches him that life is worth living.)

If Commonplace Magic's London and Red Right Hand's Camden are all Sinick's, the small town Americana setting in Pleasant Hope is my contribution. I've never lived in Missouri but I did live nearby: the cornfields are a familiar sight, in any case. Libraries in general are a welcome sanctuary. Churches are still a mystery after all these years and I want to be Eileen with her garden (of numerous plants, bones, and sayings) as I age.

Awhile back it struck me how much I wanted to finish this story in particular and Sinick complied as we completed the final chapter in an afternoon from a draft that's been gathering virtual dust. I'm very happy we did so. One of my favorite parts is the early morning atmosphere of a lifting fog over the town cemetery, and the distant view of the deer herd across the cornfield. That, by itself, is its own magic.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/133316.html

EIA translation (https://archiveofourown.org/works/13115346) has been taken down in error last weekend against my intention. I'm working with the AO3 support to see if it's recoverable, otherwise I do have full backup and it will be re-posted by this weekend in a new form. (Unfortunately without all the wonderful feedback received so far, although a good portion of it has been translated and passed onto the author of the original.)

My sincere apologies to anyone worried about sudden disappearance. I cannot apologize enough to the tireless beta-reader, Antuhsa for such an unfortunate surprise.

Crossposts: https://acid.livejournal.com/133112.html

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Has it really been 2020 since I updated this? Well then. Three year summary it is.

Sept 26, 2020

The Seahorse (Mature, Eileen & Severus, Eileen/Tobias)

Fic: The Measure of a Man [Snape/Harry]

Theriac Therapy (Severus/Harry, NC-17)

Dawn of a New Era

New art: Brew, Bottle, Stopper

Fic, art, and story rec

One Fell Swoop, Chapter 3 is now posted

One Fell Swoop - Chapter 2, Valor

One Fell Swoop by Sinick, Acid

Comparing Scars

Remember

Memento Mori (Harry/Snape, Explicit, ~41,000)

Mirror

Summary , Download and Walkthrough on AO3 | Summary, Download, and Walkthrough on DA

Grim (Snape/Harry fic for the Snarry-a-Thon)

The Last Memory - Snarry-a-thon 2018 entry

Art Gallery back online

Pleasant Hope

Everything I Am translation

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