acceptance

"Terimalah seadanya" they say. But what happens when I couldn't help but think they are meant for greater things?

Have you ever felt that someone had so much unexploited, raw potential that you just want to scrape the hell out of him/ her. Squeeze those raw juices out, make him or her realise the power they have within themselves.

But they don't realise it. They have already accepted it is how it is. And with acceptance comes contentment. With contentment comes stability, a comfort zone that is hard to break through. And they will stay in there forever.

It made me sound ungrateful for what I have, but I'm constantly thinking about feeding this hunger inside of me that wants more. How do I accept people for who they are, when I can see them becoming so much more?

Things To Do Before I Die.

I may not be the fittest, nor the fastest. But I realized that putting myself in uncomfortable situation is…addictive. I do not take uncalculated risks, I am control-freak when it comes to itinerary and punctuality, but I let myself go and jump into the unknown when I try new things.

So while we are still young, with boundless energy, and commitment-free, I came up with a list of Things To Do Before I Die.

1) Get a scuba diving license.
Current progress: Pulau Redang in September, inshallah.

2) Run a marathon
Current progress: still at 10-15km races, target to run half-marathons (21km) by 2015, and full marathons (42km) by mid-2015.

3) Run an ultra marathon
Current progress: berangan je lebih!

4) Run an international event
Current progress: Targeting Lululemon's Seawheeze or Runfire Cappadocia in 3 years time.

5) Conquer Mount Kinabalu
Current progress: masih berangan!

Will be adding more from time to time. But that's the physical part of Things To Do Before I Die list.

p/s: I just realized that Things To Do Before I Die quickly turns into Things To Do Before I Get Married, unless I find a husband who shares the same interests as well.

What do you run for?

In my quest for losing weight and challenging my fitness level, I have discovered that I really enjoy running. I can't run fast, but I know I can run long. I am not new to running, it has been my main form of cardio when I was regularly going to the gym back in Edmonton. But, if you are new to competitive running just like me, here are some points:

1) Train for realistic goals

Don't jump into a 10km race. Start with a 5km fun run, and train your butt off weeks before, at least 4-6 weeks prior to the event

2) Invest in gears

Never wear anything new on race day. You may never know how the material reacts on your body.

Dress good & comfortable. It is a confidence booster.

Hijabi girls, dress light. Look for a good dri-fit long sleeve t-shirt, there are surprisingly easy to find in the men's section. No layering. No pins. Preferably no bags too.

3) Carbo-load

Eat mostly carbs and minimize the fibre the night before the race. If not, you will feel like fainting at the 7th kilometre. I am still searching for a good energy drink/ gel pack for longer runs.

I'll be running my first trail run this Sunday, and breaking my personal record of 10km to 12km. Wish me luck!

Polar

What is it about the notion that opposites attract? How can a complicated mind be bound to something more straight-forward? My head will be racking out 10 thousand ways from point A to point B. Yet you laid out the path so easily, like a one way street.
How is it that you laugh so easily? I wasn't even trying to be funny, yet everything is witty to you. Do you honestly find everything amusing? Or are you just easily amused?
How is it that you can give so freely? There must be a limited amount to your resources. Do you not care about what is important to you? I know money can be replaced but what about emotional investment?

There is nothing more intriguing than discovering a world so different than mine.

Takut

After 6 months of working,
And losing track of the number of interviews I went to
After turning down several offers
Or being turned down
I think I am ready to move on
Because with my current qualification
I don't see a future of advancing in my career.
If I don't do something about it, I will be stuck calling for project informations
For the next several years.


I need to do something about it.
I need another qualification.
I need another degree.


Takut.
Sebab baru sedar,
What I want the most
Might be too big
Too ambitious.


But ada pepatah mengatakan:
If your dreams don't scare you
They are not big enough.

sometimes I like to pretend I'm a food blogger too

So I've came to terms that Malaysia will never be like Canada. The cupcakes will never be as fluffy, the salmon sashimi will never taste as fresh etc. But I've been on a food crawl lately, being a tourist in my own hometown.

Places I liked, and will go there over and over again:
1) Chinoz on the Park, KLCC - best burger ever
2) Plan B, Bangsar Village & Paradigm Mall- enough said. Period.
3) Sprezza Coffee, Phileo Damansara - hot hipster barrista who makes good hot coffee
3) Sri Paandi's, Near UM - RM8 for mango lassi, but so worth it
4) Sri TTDI, TTDI Jaya- because I am still a Malay girl who likes her sambal kentang
5) Serai, Empire Mall - came for the pavlova, stayed for the fusion food
6) Melur & Thyme, KLCC - mocktails and malay-mat saleh food
7) Foodsbury, Seksyen 9 - small portion but that's what you get for cheap good food
8) Chawan, Jln Telawi & Citta Mall - Generous portion
9) Nutmeg, Bangsar Village - Authentic Rueben Sandwich but so frickin expensive
10) Artisan, Bangsar Village - because I like my mocha rich
11) Kelantan Delight - Buka puasa buffett FTW

Places I do not want to go again:
1) Wondermama - nothing wonderful about that
2) Wondermilk - overly hyped cupcakes. Do I see a wonderful pattern here?
3) Figaro - the nachos were so wrong
4) Johnny Rockets - dry burgers, instant frozen fries. Nothing compared to dodgy Canadian / USA Highway diners / bar food.
5) Upstairs, Subang - nothing memorable from there

Places I want to go:
1) The Daily Grind, Bangsar Village
2) Ben's General Foodstore, Bangsar Village
3) Antipodean, Jln Telawi
4) The Departure Lounge, Damansara Uptown..or TTDI?
5) The Good Batch, Damansara Uptown..or TTDI?
6) Garage 51, Subang
7) Coffea Coffee, Jln Telawi / The Curve
8) PikNik, Publika

notes from february

The red deer boy is in edmonton this weekend. I wish he could dress up like today more often, it just shows that he has potential. I forgot to compliment his blue jumper, he could use some confidence booster after his truck got stuck in the snow in front of my house. People can tease us all they want because we showed up and left the event together. Because I have no expectations of us, I can laugh it off. Having no expectations relieves the pressure. I used to worry so much that I was too boring, too mengada. Now I could not care less if he thinks I am a cranky old women. We are just good friends, and I have nothing to impress him. I do not want to think too much about where we are heading, all I know is that I am having a good time enjoying the ride.