pre-homebound

Wow, it has been one week since they left Edmonton for good. I can't lie and say it wasn't easy for me. The first day felt 10X harder than breaking up. I was in a wreck, but everyone must move on. A lot of things have changed in the past one week. Things are still shifting around, nothing is permanent yet, and nothing is done on a regular basis. I tried my best to establish a routine with other people, but what I need to understand is that not all social groups work in the same dynamics as we used to. I still miss all 4 of you dearly, it is just not the same without all of the boysss. I will be home in 3 days, and I don't know what to expect once I am in Malaysia. If anything happens, it is for the best.

"....jika Engkau mengetahui persoalan ini baik bagiku dalam keagamaan dan penghidupanku dan baik pula bagiku dan mudahkanlah ia bagiku, kemudian berikanlah keberkatan bagiku di dalamnya.

Jika Engkau mengetahui bahawa sesunguhnya hal ini tidak baik bagiku, bagi agamaku dan penghidupanku, tidak baik akibatnya bagiku, maka jauhkanlah hal ini daripadaku, dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya..."

Hmmm, God answers your prayers in the most mysterious or weirdest ways....

"It never occurred to me that our lives, until then so closely interwoven, could unravel and separate over a thing like that". (Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro)

Whatever happens boys, thank you for being a part of the best 3 years of my life.
Happy Graduation Day, I'm so proud of all 4 of you.

so the search for my Other Half continues

"...and it may be that you dislike a thing while it is good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is evil for you, and Allah knows, while you do not know" (2:216)

Alas, they were not good for each other.

A friend said:
People that come into your life are blessings, others as lessons. I think you are both, Best Friend and Friend. Kalau ada jodoh, kita jumpa lagi.