I want to win. Always.

We were playing mahjong at Kak Sa and Mira's. My strategy was simple: Be calculative. Do not change plans if you do not know what you are getting into. Weigh pros and cons. As much as you rely on luck to get you through, I am pretty sure I can take charge.

I really really wanted to win at every round.

That's how I am, and I am not sorry about it. I don't 'go with the flow'. I do not sit around and wait for things to come to me. I make things happen, I love taking charge. I do not jump into things without having a long term plan. And most importantly, I don't wait for people.

Because past experiences have taught me to know what I want, and nothing can make me change my mind.

Happy Birthday, Ainaa

Graduation is looming ahead. I feel like I am being thrown out to the world unprepared. Remember Ainaa, you have plans. Stick to it. So go home. As much as I like it here I can't stay here. I need to go home, for all the right and wrong reasons.

I don't feel like I have just turned twenty-two. I am a 27 year old woman, trapped in an adolescent 22 year old body. That's because I can see myself 5 years from now, but not all people share the same sentiments as I do