26weeks now and counting

Ya Allah boleh tak in 2011 i wrote only 3 posts?! cant believe that!! has somebody been deleting my posts or wat? ok takperlu la paranoid .

anyways, this is just a short update. or mayb im just gonna write short2 updates after this (if im keeping this one promise la since last time i thot i promised to put on some japan trip photos which i ddnt so takpelah.)

im 26weeks pregnant now. and work in the office is just crazy i'd be clocked out at only 640pm to 7++pm and no more earlier than that. now who wont be counting the days for a good 2 months maternity leave (dem if i work in govt of course its 3 months). i'd say work is crazy there are times i came home just to okla tak cry but shed some tears on hudband's shoulder. hehe now thts wat we call shoulder to cry on. literally :") . husband said its time for me to consider career/work orientation during the maternity leave nnt. tu laa ive thot so too. haih dah nak masuk 28thn pun masih termangu2 nak keje ape.

anywaysss bleak days aside,,,,

so happy now baby is actively kicking or rather rollercoaster-ing , sommersault-ing , spinning, bla3-ing. sometimes i felt my stoamch turned so tight i seriously thought the baby was stretching. turns out its just the womb/ the rahim 's activity preparing the change for bersalin (kalo tak silap). or is it the braxton hicks they called? ok ape2 la kan. tapi rupanye baby tak bersalah. hehe sorry baby mama ingat ko suke menggeliat, sbb scan pun nampak u were yawning la ape la. same je cam mama ko suke tido haha.

yesterday was one of those days i came back a bit moody but husband was smiling sheepishly cuz he told me earlier he's got surprise for me. i told him it'd better be a good surprise -_-. so he took out his phone and show me a website. woohoo he booked us a babymoon in cameron highlands ("CH") yeayyss!! alhamdulillah thank u sayang! kih3. so happy :)) we've been considering on the babymoon ideas, where to go, budgets and stuffs n we've agreed to postpone it sbb mcm membazir je had to save up for the baby nanti. then he found a good deal and yeayy! :) dah la skrg tgh musim panas betul kat kl ni so CH sounds great! the first and the last time i went there when i was in standard 4 ke apa. haha. cant wait to eat strawberry manis, sayur2 segar, baby/cherry tomatoes etc etc. alhamdulillah thank u Allah for blessing me with husband :)

yeah ok so 26weeks. back is hurting and aching like toot. seriously no kidding. at the office duduk depan pc typing is torture. drive husband's car more than 5 minutes is torture (maybe sbb tak biasa dgn seat kereta dia or i adjusted wrongly?). lying flat or on sides is torture also (would wake up at 3/4 in the middle of the night and tido duduk kejap). hm, i definitely sound complaining but if its how mama went through all the 7 pregnancies then may Allah bless her and no wonder perempuan senang masuk syurga.. may Allah makes me stronger facing everyday for the next few months and may Allah grant me strength during delivery nanti coz i truly hope i wont have to take epidural cuz wudnt wanna experience the backache side effect :( .

ok this is not short. gotta run to shower now tampal tayar before masuk office. haih balik kol 7 lagi le gamaknye.

hello leg cramps

ok so the morning (more like, all day -_-") sickness is over, and im not that constantly hungry now. but the bloating after eating part is still here, guess it'll never go away sbb perut makin besar kot.

the fatigue part pun i guess will never end ,.. ok u just wait until the baby is born lagi la penat tak tido malam etc - org kata. no wonder perempuan sebenarnye senang nak masuk syurga eh. sbb byk trials yg leceh2 nih haha. anywaysss,, alhamdulillah ala kulli haal.

ok so the 1 week trip to japan was GREAT, but i was penat every minute. now that im getting all the leg cramps, i thank Allah that i dont get those when i was in japan. gila kau nak leg cramp hari2 mmg duk rumah je la jawapnye. sgt membazir..so alhamdulillah on that too. pictures... semua masih di dalam memory card camera boleh tak. just couldnt find the time to upload in the pc.

mama still in the hosp. papa said doc said boleh keluar on friday. think its quite a while for mama to be there. hopefully by friday she's feeling all better. amiin.

thinking of my hopes for the child, made me think that every parents have high hopes and expectations for their child. but how many turns out to be as their parents' wish? a good smash on me. haha. mayb thats y ppl says being a mother could change you. n i hope it'll change me the good way. amiin.

ok gotta go work fill the empty pocket with some money. money runs dry now that we're back from japan. everything there is x 4 = so kopak :)

p/s: am also blinded by the books uswah lent to me which one to read first (while automatically hands reached down on rob's n browse thru haha. thats said, cant wait for 24th! oh wait, its tomorrow!! dang... *hearts beating*)

peh 7 bulan! okla almost

Hello blog. Lama tak jumpe.

Readers,,, mayb dah tak ada sebab its been 7 (okla almost) friggin monthssss saya tak update apa2!!

u know sometimes when u feel lost or when u drive alone in your car, u were thinking about this n that, suddenly it got u like 'oh i must write about this!' n u start berangan to write, u did feel a little off because u have put writing on hold for far too long and yes u got the feeling that notwriting makes u less urself. maybe thats why writers become writers. (and bloggers become bloggers hehe) my point is, yes i have had those moments selalu jugak for the past 7 (okla almost) months ni, but dunno what has kept me so long to even write a post.

yesterday i suddenly had an epiphany ( eh ke camne usage die?) like ok well since im pregnant now (entering 11weeks today! ) semalam only i got the 'motherly feelings' haha a bit funny tho cuz im not motherly at all. so i was like terharu sekejap pastu my mind started la imagining things we (me n baby insyaAllah) can do together, like baking2 (inspired by kak aliya sbb layth looks so cute lagi pandai bake dari aku!) masak2 while waiting for the baba from work - im gonna familiarize him/her with masak2 apa2, gardening, science-project-ing, deco his room and etc. so thats when i thot to myself. ok kena blog ni. haha

anyways thats the quick update. need to mandi now n off to the office.

hope to write again soon. been busy all this while doing donnowats. haha. k moving around every week is tiring n time consuming, not to mention being pregnant itself is tiring ,haha.

Spring cleaning

Omg the amount of cleaning tht has to be done by friday nite!! x_x"

Inilah akibatnye if ure a procrastinator -_-"

Imang will whack me nicely when she reads this n hopefully she wont feel tht way when she sees the room nanti (dh siap kemas, amiiinn)

Tomorrow is a new day inshallah, hope i'll be better than today biiznillah.

On life recently: changed, rerouting, bleak, hopeless n mundane. Praying for a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel, inshaallah.

P/s: omg annoyying nye apps hape haku gune nih xleh landscape view! Leceh gile type 1 jari...

note to self

Dear self,

2011 is tomorrow. 2010 has indeed been a great year for you, in case you forgot. you have been to Australia on a whim, threw your career that you despised (then) to become a babysitter to a wonderful boy (that you are missing quite much n thank god for the videos of him that u sempat amik haha is that even allowed kak aliya? ;p)and being a part of a good little family in Frankston. You met a few friends that you certainly humbled by their good values, appreciate your relatives and amazed at Allah's wonderful creations on the other side of the world. I believed you went for a soul searching, and i wonder if you have found what you have been looking for. Or maybe if you still havent find it, go for another soul searching journey? Tettt.

Anyways, you've entered a new chapter or rather, the next chapter of your life; you were proposed, got engaged within 2 months after you were safely home and are due to get married in July 2011 inshaAllah. You've got urself a wonderful husband to be insyaAllah ;) keep on reminding yourself on that n keep on improving urself and pray to Allah for His blessing and for the journey to get there to be easier. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal..

Youve got a job, alhamdulillah.. now you can save/ spend for your wedding :) although its ..urm... well,, watever but at leastt, you have an income. so alhamdulillah..

you have identified your weaknesses but did you do anything about it? if you know how to, lets get it fixed. if you dont, well, just continue to find the solution and be positive.

you have reached to that time of life where u start asking the FAQ: what do i wanna do for the rest of my life? what am i good at? do i even have a talent to brush up?

truthfully speaking, this is scary. partly because it'd be great if u figured those out when ure like 18 and not 26 (cey tanak ngaku. baru bday kot aritu!), and partly bcuz well, how are u gonna figure that out? and the most scariest is, so whats next?

oh well, its not actually touring around the world, walking runways (apehal ingat kau model ke?), went to the moon - those totally awesome kind of yr, but heck, your life has been mundane all this while and a little twitch here and there just made your life a little bit awesome (by your own standard of course ;p).

so what comes next?

marriage? new career (i WISH!!) ? new place to start over? (I WISH!!)

Whatever that may happen, its a new year, honey (bajet darling). promise me that come what may, always take the time to feel happy and fortunate. dont waste days with "what could have beens" and "what should have beens" because those things dont matter. Go figure out on what does matter and do something about it :)

Happy new year to you. As usual, dont announce your new yr's resolution, its embarassing cuz its the same as last year's :p

Sincerely,

Aalaa'

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ok ok i did stole some lines from OTH. oh well... YEAYYYY oth's back in our tv series collection!

happy new yr ppl. another year wiser i hope.

erm... yes, i also think that this post is quite personal dan agak memalukan? haha.

Dear readers (if any),

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Sincerely,
writer's block


p/s: awesome gila this site! hahhaha :D

sakit

oh. so now i'm in charge of KIV Files, and 2008 (2007, 2006, 2005, 2004 ...neverending) and below?

yeah

oh..ok.

cuz Mr. S and Encik A thinks u have no work

oh.. i have no work

(can u please just go to hell already? if u can simply petik2 nama diorang and sortof blaming them for thinking i hv no work and thats the reaosn im handling all those cases, then whats ur role huh? postman?! if YOU dont think so, just tell them what are the things im working on?! wth.supervisor my a$$ dah la.i'm done. u can do watever u like)