my friend....
no one can ever make me laugh the way you made me laugh.
no one can understand me better than you, except God of course.
I don't have to pretend in front of you.
I can cry and laugh the way I want.
I am just missing you, all of the sudden.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Fall 2010 in a wrap up
This semester has been hectic to me. Busy.
A lot of things happened. A lot of things changed.
Family, friends, relationship.
A lot of emotions: anger, frustration, confusion, depression, loneliness, hopelessness....
It makes me to reconsider my future. To think about what I really want to do. What I really want.
I am unsure if what I am doing now is what I like. I am unsure if I am still going to do the same things that I am doing now in the future. I lost the passion.
At the same time, God has been helping me to get out of a lot of hurts that I had. Guilt and shame. Bitterness and unforgiveness. I don't know how everything is going to work out. But I am trusting in Him. I am learning to let go bit by bit. And to let Him to come in. To cleanse my soul.
This semester turned out to be fine. I would say. But not a journey in my life which I want to go through once again.
A lot of things happened. A lot of things changed.
Family, friends, relationship.
A lot of emotions: anger, frustration, confusion, depression, loneliness, hopelessness....
It makes me to reconsider my future. To think about what I really want to do. What I really want.
I am unsure if what I am doing now is what I like. I am unsure if I am still going to do the same things that I am doing now in the future. I lost the passion.
At the same time, God has been helping me to get out of a lot of hurts that I had. Guilt and shame. Bitterness and unforgiveness. I don't know how everything is going to work out. But I am trusting in Him. I am learning to let go bit by bit. And to let Him to come in. To cleanse my soul.
This semester turned out to be fine. I would say. But not a journey in my life which I want to go through once again.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I am sorry
I am sorry =(
Maybe I should say this to you in person.
But I am not sure if I should raise this up again or not.
I don't want it to be anymore awkward than how it is now.
Maybe I will tell you.
Maybe I should say this to you in person.
But I am not sure if I should raise this up again or not.
I don't want it to be anymore awkward than how it is now.
Maybe I will tell you.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
He is not angry at you
God's wrath is upon the evil, the wicked, the death, the sin that keep us in bondage with brokenness and separate us from Him.
His wrath is upon the enemies. Not on us.
He is angry because He loves us.
If He doesn't even care about us, why would He even care to angry?
He has all the rights to choose not to care about us and to leave us all here purposeless, hopeless, waiting to be sent into the lake of fire (hell) forever and ever.
If He is angry at us, why in the world would He sent Jesus Christ here to save us?
Why would He even care to show us again and again, telling us again and again, warning us again and again, to come to Him? To have a relationship with Him?
Why would He keep trying and not giving up?
Even when He knows that our hearts are harden?
Even when He knows that His heart will be broken again and again by our rebellion?
Even when He knows that His sorrow will only be deepen by our ignorance?
Because He wants what's best for us.
Because He wants to heal our wounds.
Because He wants to lavish us with His love.
Because He has a plan for us, a plan to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
because He wants to break us free from our sins.
Salvation is a gift.
There is no ways that you can ever earn salvation except confessing with your mouth and believing in your heart that 'Jesus is Lord'. (Romans 10:9)
It is not a matter of how much good deeds you have done, how many verses that you can memorize, how many times that you have been to the church, how many rules that you have followed etc etc...
It is a FREE GIFT!
What you need to do, and learn to do, is simply ACCEPT IT!
You trade your sins to Him, He returns it with eternal life to you.
God did not create us to send us to hell.
He created us so that we can enjoy the felllowship with Him, so that we can have this relationship with Him, so that we can have eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
It's burning in my heart that I have to share this with all of you, because you need to know the Truth.
"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"
---John 8:32---
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
My merciful God
You have no idea how many times I failed Him again and again.....
And when I made this mistake,
I thought there will be no way out for me.
I did it.
I disobeyed Him.
The end.
But He has been so merciful on me.
He did not condemn me.
Like a father, He picked me up, saying "it's ok my princess"
"Let's take it one at a time"
And with His arm that is never too short to save,
He led me step by step.
This peace that I have not been feeling in a long long time.
Surround me now.....
Monday, November 29, 2010
Thanksgiving 2010
This thanksgiving has been an eventful one. With friends, road trip, birthday party and homework!!!
The thanksgiving break started on Wednesday but it only started officially on Thursday for me because I still needa worked on Wednesday.
On Wednesday night, we celebrated CE's birthday with games, birthday cake and lots of fun. The girls are really good in cooking and I am so blessed with all the good food. They stayed until very late but I came back earlier to prepare for my road trip the next day. *excited*
On Thursday morning, I set off for a road trip to Columbus, Ohio with a few friends from Hong Kong and Taiwan whom I just met at the Chi Alpha thanksgiving dinner that are from the Chinese church.
We rented a car and drove more than 4 hours to Columbus. It was a relatively long journey but we had fun in the car interacting with each other. Laughing, singing and just to get to know each other better. We talked a lot about our countries too. And I got the chance to practice my Cantonese with the Hong Kong people. ^^
It was raining the whole day on Thursday and many restaurants were closed due to thanksgiving. After checking in at our hotel, we literally had no where else to go. We spent such a long time trying to find a restaurant where we can go to have dinner.
We really thought that we had to just eat the cup noodles and snacks we brought for thanksgiving dinner.
But thank God that He is faithful.
Finally, we managed to find a restaurant. A really good one! And had so much good food! Mum mum.... Hmmm....
After dinner, we went back to our hotel and played some games before calling it a night.
The next day, I woke up real early and went for a walk around the campus on my own while the others were still sleeping. lol. The campus is really quiet and peaceful during a break like this. I enjoy quiet time like this when I can spend time with the Lord and praising Him for all His beautiful creations. =)
Around 12pm, we checked out of our hotel and continued our adventure.
First, we went to a Japanese restaurant and had sushi. We ordered a boat full of sushi besides our own meal (ramen or udon or bento). Arrr... So blissful!
Next, we went to the Columbus Zoo! Since I had been there before, I automatically became the tour guide. Haha. I think we had such a great time there! =D
We left the zoo around 5pm when the sky began to turn dark and the decoration lights were lit up all around the zoo. It was so beautiful. Many families went there in the evening just to enjoy the festive atmosphere.
Next, food again!!!!
We went to a Korean restaurant this time for shabu shabu. We met a Hong Kong waitress over there and the Hong Kong people were happily chatting with each other in Cantonese. Lol.
Next,
Highlight of the night: KARAOKE!!!
It has been a long time since I last karaoke-d. Remember last time when I was in Malaysia, karaoke is the most popular past time among friends. Therefore, I was very excited when I found out that we were going to karaoke. And surely, I had such an awesome time singing my lung out. Haha xD
We sang until 1am in the morning and had our supper with McD 2 x 50 McNuggets! Yum yum..
Then we drove home and waved bye bye to Columbus =)
Now back in West Lala, I need to rush and finish my homework and study for my quiz T.T
The thanksgiving break started on Wednesday but it only started officially on Thursday for me because I still needa worked on Wednesday.
On Wednesday night, we celebrated CE's birthday with games, birthday cake and lots of fun. The girls are really good in cooking and I am so blessed with all the good food. They stayed until very late but I came back earlier to prepare for my road trip the next day. *excited*
On Thursday morning, I set off for a road trip to Columbus, Ohio with a few friends from Hong Kong and Taiwan whom I just met at the Chi Alpha thanksgiving dinner that are from the Chinese church.
We rented a car and drove more than 4 hours to Columbus. It was a relatively long journey but we had fun in the car interacting with each other. Laughing, singing and just to get to know each other better. We talked a lot about our countries too. And I got the chance to practice my Cantonese with the Hong Kong people. ^^
It was raining the whole day on Thursday and many restaurants were closed due to thanksgiving. After checking in at our hotel, we literally had no where else to go. We spent such a long time trying to find a restaurant where we can go to have dinner.
We really thought that we had to just eat the cup noodles and snacks we brought for thanksgiving dinner.
But thank God that He is faithful.
Finally, we managed to find a restaurant. A really good one! And had so much good food! Mum mum.... Hmmm....
After dinner, we went back to our hotel and played some games before calling it a night.
The next day, I woke up real early and went for a walk around the campus on my own while the others were still sleeping. lol. The campus is really quiet and peaceful during a break like this. I enjoy quiet time like this when I can spend time with the Lord and praising Him for all His beautiful creations. =)
Around 12pm, we checked out of our hotel and continued our adventure.
First, we went to a Japanese restaurant and had sushi. We ordered a boat full of sushi besides our own meal (ramen or udon or bento). Arrr... So blissful!
Next, we went to the Columbus Zoo! Since I had been there before, I automatically became the tour guide. Haha. I think we had such a great time there! =D
We left the zoo around 5pm when the sky began to turn dark and the decoration lights were lit up all around the zoo. It was so beautiful. Many families went there in the evening just to enjoy the festive atmosphere.
Next, food again!!!!
We went to a Korean restaurant this time for shabu shabu. We met a Hong Kong waitress over there and the Hong Kong people were happily chatting with each other in Cantonese. Lol.
Next,
Highlight of the night: KARAOKE!!!
It has been a long time since I last karaoke-d. Remember last time when I was in Malaysia, karaoke is the most popular past time among friends. Therefore, I was very excited when I found out that we were going to karaoke. And surely, I had such an awesome time singing my lung out. Haha xD
We sang until 1am in the morning and had our supper with McD 2 x 50 McNuggets! Yum yum..
Then we drove home and waved bye bye to Columbus =)
Now back in West Lala, I need to rush and finish my homework and study for my quiz T.T
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Thanksgiving
Just want to thank everyone who love me and care for me.
Family and friends.
Thank you for accompany me all this while.
I want to thank those who have hurt me as well, even though they might not realize.
Thank you for being honest with me and teach me to realize my weaknesses.
And thank You God for Your mercy.
I was once lost, but You give me hope.
Thank You that now, I have hope and know the purpose of my life.
Even though I fail (again and again), but Your love remains.
This thanksgiving, spend time with the people you love and be grateful =)
Family and friends.
Thank you for accompany me all this while.
I want to thank those who have hurt me as well, even though they might not realize.
Thank you for being honest with me and teach me to realize my weaknesses.
And thank You God for Your mercy.
I was once lost, but You give me hope.
Thank You that now, I have hope and know the purpose of my life.
Even though I fail (again and again), but Your love remains.
This thanksgiving, spend time with the people you love and be grateful =)
Friday, November 19, 2010
Grandma
Heavenly Father,
My heart dropped......
Another friend's grandma just passed away........
The sorrow of my heart just getting worsened.
Oh Lord Oh Lord, I am crying out to You.
You never give empty promises.
I am trusting in You. I am holding unto it.
Thank You for saving my grandma.
You turned the hardest heart in the family to You.
Unbelievable.
The one who was totally fighting against You,
the one who was the most upset when my uncle's whole family accepted You
the one who went all the ways to ridicule my uncle and his family for accepting You
Wow Lord! Look at what You have done. I am amazed!
Even my dad acknowledged that there must be the power of faith in You.
Thank You that You have been faithful
Thank You that You have been answering prayers
Even at a time like this......
Lord, keep my family safe and in peace
Lord, please...........
turn this sorrow into joy
turn this pain into joy
Father, take care of them...
I wish I could be at home now.......
Your princess,
Amy
My heart dropped......
Another friend's grandma just passed away........
The sorrow of my heart just getting worsened.
Oh Lord Oh Lord, I am crying out to You.
You never give empty promises.
I am trusting in You. I am holding unto it.
Thank You for saving my grandma.
You turned the hardest heart in the family to You.
Unbelievable.
The one who was totally fighting against You,
the one who was the most upset when my uncle's whole family accepted You
the one who went all the ways to ridicule my uncle and his family for accepting You
Wow Lord! Look at what You have done. I am amazed!
Even my dad acknowledged that there must be the power of faith in You.
Thank You that You have been faithful
Thank You that You have been answering prayers
Even at a time like this......
Lord, keep my family safe and in peace
Lord, please...........
turn this sorrow into joy
turn this pain into joy
Father, take care of them...
I wish I could be at home now.......
Your princess,
Amy
Thursday, November 18, 2010
他比你重要
朋友啊。。。
不是要否认 真心朋友的存在
我也会怀念以前在一起的时光 我珍惜它们
我好希望 我也可以 无遮掩地
把我所感受的 告诉你们
但是
我现在所有的 一切一切 都关于他
我的心 我的灵魂 我的人 都属于他
那些对我最重要的事 我该怎么 跟你说？
那些能让我感到快乐的 我该怎么和你分享？
我的生活目标 你能理解么？
我对生命的看法和热忱 你会有共鸣吗？
如果 你不能明白和接受 这些我在乎的事
我真的不知道
该如何 对你完全坦然
所以 当你问：“最近好吗？”
我也只能回答还好吧
心里面的难受 的不好过
那些我真正在乎的 该怎么说好呢？
当然 我不是要否认 我们之间的友谊
它们对我而言 还是一样地珍贵
但是
比起我们之间的友情
他更重要
他已是我生命中 最重要 也无可取代
朋友们 别误会 我还是爱你们 需要你们哦！
只是
他在我心中 已占了第一的位置
他比你重要
不是要否认 真心朋友的存在
我也会怀念以前在一起的时光 我珍惜它们
我好希望 我也可以 无遮掩地
把我所感受的 告诉你们
但是
我现在所有的 一切一切 都关于他
我的心 我的灵魂 我的人 都属于他
那些对我最重要的事 我该怎么 跟你说？
那些能让我感到快乐的 我该怎么和你分享？
我的生活目标 你能理解么？
我对生命的看法和热忱 你会有共鸣吗？
如果 你不能明白和接受 这些我在乎的事
我真的不知道
该如何 对你完全坦然
所以 当你问：“最近好吗？”
我也只能回答还好吧
心里面的难受 的不好过
那些我真正在乎的 该怎么说好呢？
当然 我不是要否认 我们之间的友谊
它们对我而言 还是一样地珍贵
但是
比起我们之间的友情
他更重要
他已是我生命中 最重要 也无可取代
朋友们 别误会 我还是爱你们 需要你们哦！
只是
他在我心中 已占了第一的位置
他比你重要
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Jesus' bride
I am always awed by how You call me as Your beautiful bride.
Really? Me?
Do You realize how ugly I am? How impure I am? Do You still want me? Are You still going to marry me?
Jesus, I feel ashamed
I am so unworthy for Your unconditionally love
My bridegroom
Purify me now as I wait upon Your return
I want to be pure before you
Purify me from the inside out now
Thank You for being so patient with me
I long for the day to return to Your loving embrace
Jesus, fill my heart now as I wait patiently for Your promised glorious return
Oh Jesus,
I love You
Really? Me?
Do You realize how ugly I am? How impure I am? Do You still want me? Are You still going to marry me?
Jesus, I feel ashamed
I am so unworthy for Your unconditionally love
My bridegroom
Purify me now as I wait upon Your return
I want to be pure before you
Purify me from the inside out now
Thank You for being so patient with me
I long for the day to return to Your loving embrace
Jesus, fill my heart now as I wait patiently for Your promised glorious return
Oh Jesus,
I love You
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
This love circle
Since the Fall retreat last weekend, God has shown up crazily for me. He broke me up, trained, disciplined and wanted to purify me. Although I was not very happy at first, and even complained a lot, I am glad for what He has done.
In a time when all these school works are suffocating me, God never let go of me, and I don't want to let go of Him as well.
For now, I am learning how to love people. Truly love them. Even though they might dislike me and think that I am weird, I am going to love them. I want to keep this passion inside me burning and not to be turned down whenever I come across unfriendly people. Maybe they just need someone to love them.
You love me, I love You.
That's not enough.
Now, go and love others.
In a time when all these school works are suffocating me, God never let go of me, and I don't want to let go of Him as well.
For now, I am learning how to love people. Truly love them. Even though they might dislike me and think that I am weird, I am going to love them. I want to keep this passion inside me burning and not to be turned down whenever I come across unfriendly people. Maybe they just need someone to love them.
You love me, I love You.
That's not enough.
Now, go and love others.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Listening
I am learning
to listen to Your still small voice
So peaceful.....
So satisfying.....
You are good =)
to listen to Your still small voice
So peaceful.....
So satisfying.....
You are good =)
Brief update on Fall Retreat
So many amazing things happened over the retreat. Oh man! I really hope that I have the time to blog all about it but, it is just too much!!!
So, I guess for now, I will just give a brief update:
1. People getting saved
2. People getting baptized in the Holy Spirit
3. People getting healed
4. The presence of the Lord
I will come back for more details when I have the time.
Love you all,
Amy
So, I guess for now, I will just give a brief update:
1. People getting saved
2. People getting baptized in the Holy Spirit
3. People getting healed
4. The presence of the Lord
I will come back for more details when I have the time.
Love you all,
Amy
Saturday, October 30, 2010
50 requirements
Was talking to a Korean Christian girl friend today. We are in the same class for two courses this semester and she has been a real blessing to me.
She is in a relationship now and they are already engaged. The wedding will be held soon after her graduation =)
She shared with me the story of how she met her future husband. And she said, it's God's plan =)
Before that, she made a list of the requirements that she wants in a spouse. 50 OF THEM!!! And she will pray over it to God everyday. And God is faithful, He gives her a guy that meet all of the 50 requirements!
Then she turned to me and said seriously: "You should start making a list too! God will answer them!"
Haha. She is just so adorable.
I guess I will start making a list too. Soon. Lol. But really, 50 requirements? I can't think of that many now. Or rather, I kind of doubt there is any guy that can meet all of those requirements. I am happy enough if he can meet half of them.
But let's just believe in God that He will bring the best spouse to us. Trust in Him =)
p/s: girls, should we all start making a list?
p/s: Show me what you got in your list k? ;)
She is in a relationship now and they are already engaged. The wedding will be held soon after her graduation =)
She shared with me the story of how she met her future husband. And she said, it's God's plan =)
Before that, she made a list of the requirements that she wants in a spouse. 50 OF THEM!!! And she will pray over it to God everyday. And God is faithful, He gives her a guy that meet all of the 50 requirements!
Then she turned to me and said seriously: "You should start making a list too! God will answer them!"
Haha. She is just so adorable.
I guess I will start making a list too. Soon. Lol. But really, 50 requirements? I can't think of that many now. Or rather, I kind of doubt there is any guy that can meet all of those requirements. I am happy enough if he can meet half of them.
But let's just believe in God that He will bring the best spouse to us. Trust in Him =)
p/s: girls, should we all start making a list?
p/s: Show me what you got in your list k? ;)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Secret place
Take me to that place Lord
to that secret place
The place where You belong
where I can be with You and You be with me
I just want to be with You my Lord
I want to just rest in Your peace
and dwell in Your presence
Oh Lord,
I will stay up all night long
I will not fall asleep
if You will just hold me gently
and sing lullaby to me
My comforter
My redeemer
My lover of all
Take me to that place Lord
to that secret place
I want to hear Your still small voice
Your whispering wisdom
Your guidance and Your teachings
I live in this world Father
yet You said my citizenry is in heaven
You give me the right to be Your daughter
not just another child in the family
but a princess in Your kingdom!
Take me to that place Lord
to that secret place
Oh my Lord, deeper and deeper I am falling in love with You
to that secret place
The place where You belong
where I can be with You and You be with me
I just want to be with You my Lord
I want to just rest in Your peace
and dwell in Your presence
Oh Lord,
I will stay up all night long
I will not fall asleep
if You will just hold me gently
and sing lullaby to me
My comforter
My redeemer
My lover of all
Take me to that place Lord
to that secret place
I want to hear Your still small voice
Your whispering wisdom
Your guidance and Your teachings
I live in this world Father
yet You said my citizenry is in heaven
You give me the right to be Your daughter
not just another child in the family
but a princess in Your kingdom!
Take me to that place Lord
to that secret place
Oh my Lord, deeper and deeper I am falling in love with You
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Comforted
So much is happening.
And I can't tell you the details. Because these are the secrets I share only with my heavenly Father.
I am not doing very good right now.
But this morning, He came and comforted me after my desperate cry for Him. He came. And told me "do not worry" twice when I stepped into that room this morning. Oh of course that is not coincidence.
He is still with me.
He still cares.
He is here comforting me.
So, I just want to let you know.
Even I am not feeling right right now,
I am doing fine.
Because He is with me.
When no one else cares,
He cares. He does.
And I can't tell you the details. Because these are the secrets I share only with my heavenly Father.
I am not doing very good right now.
But this morning, He came and comforted me after my desperate cry for Him. He came. And told me "do not worry" twice when I stepped into that room this morning. Oh of course that is not coincidence.
He is still with me.
He still cares.
He is here comforting me.
So, I just want to let you know.
Even I am not feeling right right now,
I am doing fine.
Because He is with me.
When no one else cares,
He cares. He does.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
Housewife
Maybe I will be a housewife one day.
I mean.
Full time housewife.
Because I am now starving and no one cooks for me. This makes me miss my mum.
She is a primary teacher and hence have the time to cook dinner for us every night. This really makes me feel so blessed all the times. *my heart smile thinking of her*
If I am going to work, I cannot promise that I would be able to make dinner for my kids every night.
And I don't want them to feel like how I am feeling right now. Loneliness.
So, to make them feel worthy. And to let them know I truly love them.
Yea... Maybe I will be a full time housewife one day.
Just maybe. xP
But before that,
A GOOD HUSBAND!
LOLOLOLOLOLOL xP
Ok... this post is totally random....
I am sorry if this is TOO random for you and you can't accept it xP
I mean.
Full time housewife.
Because I am now starving and no one cooks for me. This makes me miss my mum.
She is a primary teacher and hence have the time to cook dinner for us every night. This really makes me feel so blessed all the times. *my heart smile thinking of her*
If I am going to work, I cannot promise that I would be able to make dinner for my kids every night.
And I don't want them to feel like how I am feeling right now. Loneliness.
So, to make them feel worthy. And to let them know I truly love them.
Yea... Maybe I will be a full time housewife one day.
Just maybe. xP
But before that,
A GOOD HUSBAND!
LOLOLOLOLOLOL xP
Ok... this post is totally random....
I am sorry if this is TOO random for you and you can't accept it xP
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMM
I wish I can just scream
Oh my heart hurts and longs to scream!
This passion that's burning inside me
This blood that's bleeding out of my heart
How can the world be so blinded?
You! Satan! I hate you!
You come to steal and destroy
Oh how I wish I could scream into your face that
YOU ARE SUCH A LOSER!
Oh how I wish you around me can get it
How much time are we left with?
Don't you know the time is coming?
How many times oh how many times do you need to be told?
You have been told
You have been informed
You are annoyed because you do not know what's approaching
You are annoyed
because don't you know that even satan tremble at the mention of His name?!
You said "maybe not right now"
but do you know that He is returning soon
Oh how urgent how urgent is this can't you see
I want to scream!
Lord!
I want to scream the truth
You said "speak the truth in love"
Lord how to speak the truth in love?
This fire burning inside of me
I want to scream
It's not ok for you to be ignorant
It's not ok for you to be negligent
It's time! It's time! It's time!
IT'S TIME TO COME HOME!!!!!
Please
keep this fire burning inside of me
so one day
when I am equipped
when You show me Your way
You say "go!"
I will put on the full armor of God
I will explode
I will explode in the Holiest Name of God!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Whisper His name!
This song strengthen me.
It's true that the name of Jesus is powerful. Very powerful I might add.
Whenever you need Him, just shout out His name and He will be there for you.
He will RUN TO YOU!
Healing!
Faith!
Set free from depression!
Set free from fear!
Set free from anything that are not of God's will.
HE WILL RUN TO YOU!
It's true that the name of Jesus is powerful. Very powerful I might add.
Whenever you need Him, just shout out His name and He will be there for you.
He will RUN TO YOU!
Healing!
Faith!
Set free from depression!
Set free from fear!
Set free from anything that are not of God's will.
HE WILL RUN TO YOU!
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Happy 21st Birthday!
Well, where should I start? I guess I can start with this:
I can never imagine a birthday can be that simple and sweet.
(hmmm... kinda lousy opening eh?)
People have been asking me if I had celebrated my birthday.
If it was the old me, I would say no. And really unsatisfied with how my birthday celebration went. I would demand more people to celebrate it with me.
More presents. More wishes. More phone calls.
What's more, it's my 21st Birthday!!!!!!!!!! It's supposed to be SPECIAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's what I used to think. I used to think and sort of plan out that I will have a huge and glamorous 21st birthday celebration. Everyone will come and bring me presents.
I agree, I was very self-centered.
And I confess that I can still be quite selfish sometime.
But this year, my birthday is very different. So different.
God just give me this revelation that the only true joy I can find is in Him.
Not the friends around (even though I do love them! and they bring so much joy to me)
I am so thankful for God revealing that to me.
I am so grateful that He completely change me in that area: seeking attention!
When I am not trying to desperately seeking everyone's attention on my birthday and for human companionship but a heavenly presence of the Lord, I have so much peace.
I am so thankful that my birthday fall on Friday this year, which is an Ignite night!!!!
I got to see so many people that I love and who love me dearly. I received so many blessings from them.
Oh no. They did not have a birthday cake or any glamorous party for me.
But I am grateful.
These people mean so much to me that they keep reminding me of how God has been loving me and broke through my fear of loneliness and brought such wonderful family into my life.
Above all, of course, I found peace in Him. Nothing is better than spending our days in seeking the presence of the Lord.
I am reminded once again about how precious I am in His eyes. How His love has remained even though my faith was shattered. I guess the first question I am going to ask Him when I meet Him face to face in heaven, is "How can You be so faithful to me?" (this is a hard one because I have so many questions to ask!)
Anyway, thank you everyone for your wishes and blessings! May God bless you abundantly with peace and grace.
Side note 1: My lovely housemates and "neighbors?" threw me a surprise last night with a "boiling water story" (failed I might add haha), a birthday song, a too-creamy-birthday cake, and a fabulous perfume! Nothing glamorous but I can feel the sincerity. I am truly blessed. Thank you so much! Love you girls........ and a guy? Hahaha....
Side note 2: I got the most precious 21st birthday present ever = BIBLE!!!!!!! It's so cute and lovely! Thank you to Bev, Ivan, Gary, Darren and Michelle =)
Saturday, September 18, 2010
A family overseas
I just want to brag about how God has put these wonderful and amazing people into my life.
I know I have been telling about this over and over again.
But really....
God saved me from my deepest fear: loneliness.
He put these faithful friends into my life. And it's not just "hi and bye" friends. But friends who truly care. People who really want to get to know you. Who will be there when you need them.
After a rough day,
it's just feel so relaxing and grateful that I can be with my XA family.
Everything seems so right after the fellowship no matter how bad was my day.
I love you guys <3
I know I have been telling about this over and over again.
But really....
God saved me from my deepest fear: loneliness.
He put these faithful friends into my life. And it's not just "hi and bye" friends. But friends who truly care. People who really want to get to know you. Who will be there when you need them.
After a rough day,
it's just feel so relaxing and grateful that I can be with my XA family.
Everything seems so right after the fellowship no matter how bad was my day.
I love you guys <3
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Nothing gonna hold me back
From trusting that He is the ultimate Truth, my Savior and my Lord.
I might be questioned.
I might be doubted.
I might even be considered as crazy.
I am persecuted.
But how can I deny that He is the truth. For He has been so faithful to me.
My voice may tremble and my words may messed up.
but I am going to stand firm. Like a rock.
Nothing gonna hold me back.
Nothing gonna hold me back now.
I might be questioned.
I might be doubted.
I might even be considered as crazy.
I am persecuted.
But how can I deny that He is the truth. For He has been so faithful to me.
My voice may tremble and my words may messed up.
but I am going to stand firm. Like a rock.
Nothing gonna hold me back.
Nothing gonna hold me back now.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
The Last Song
I watched the movie "The Last Song" for 2 nights continuously.
It is based on a book written by Nicholas Sparks. (I want to read this book when I have the time! or maybe someone can give this book as a birthday present for me? XP)
The first time, I watched it alone in my room.
I cried terribly starting in the middle of the movie towards the end.
The second time, I watched it with Beverly and Justina.
I thought I would not cry since it's not the first time I am watching, but anyhow, I cried again!
And I love this song in the movie.
Besides its beautiful melody, the lyrics are very meaningful.
And this song seems to be talking about God.
"When I look at You
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
like the stars hold the moon
right there where they belong
I know I am not alone"
Be blessed with the movie and the song =)
It is based on a book written by Nicholas Sparks. (I want to read this book when I have the time! or maybe someone can give this book as a birthday present for me? XP)
The first time, I watched it alone in my room.I cried terribly starting in the middle of the movie towards the end.
The second time, I watched it with Beverly and Justina.
I thought I would not cry since it's not the first time I am watching, but anyhow, I cried again!
And I love this song in the movie.
Besides its beautiful melody, the lyrics are very meaningful.
And this song seems to be talking about God.
"When I look at You
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
like the stars hold the moon
right there where they belong
I know I am not alone"
Be blessed with the movie and the song =)
Monday, September 6, 2010
Persistent in prayers
"Don't have faith in the person we are praying for,
Have faith in the person we are praying to."
I become so weary in praying.
It seems impossible for what I am praying for to come true.
It just seems impossible.
But God's plan is way higher than ours.
His vision is way further than ours.
He changed my parents' heart once to agree with my water baptism.
One day, He will change their hearts and draw them back to Him.
And so then we will be rejoicing in heaven.
I will pray. No matter how long it will take.
1 year.
5 years.
10 years.
20 years.
Let it be in God's timing...
Have faith in the person we are praying to."
I become so weary in praying.
It seems impossible for what I am praying for to come true.
It just seems impossible.
But God's plan is way higher than ours.
His vision is way further than ours.
He changed my parents' heart once to agree with my water baptism.
One day, He will change their hearts and draw them back to Him.
And so then we will be rejoicing in heaven.
I will pray. No matter how long it will take.
1 year.
5 years.
10 years.
20 years.
Let it be in God's timing...
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Update for Week 2 =)
God has been so good to me this week.
Remember how I was deeply convicted last week about being selfish and not living my life for God? I have been praying a lot for that area this week. Amazingly, God started to show me things that I have missed before.
It's not that God has stopped working in my life while I was far from Him. I believe that He is still working, all the time, 24/7, without rest. It is just that starting early this week, He has been opening my eyes and heart to see things that I missed before.
I feel so good for the revelation that God's presence is with me all the time. Nothing is better than being in His presence.
Every person can sense the presence of God in different ways. For me, answered prayers and divine appointments are the best parts.
I have been asking God to help me to be a good witness for Him and make it something easy and effortless to do because I always feel that I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING to earn His approval. (and of course, that's not the truth)
And surely, He answered that prayer.
I have met several Christians this week on campus. And it just encourages me a lot to be able to share my faith with others.
I asked God to send me someone who is looking for a church so that I can help. And He did!!! It's amazing how a girl just came and asked me which church I go to and asked me for the address.
I asked for fellowship and new friends because I feel lonely. He gave it through International Food and Friends life group! And there are so many Malaysians this semester year which just add the excitement for me.
I asked for His grace to be able to balance my study and work. So far, everything is good! At the work place, my professor is real nice to me and he said I can rearrange stuff as I like in his lab, which, really surprised me. And I can on music too if I like to. So of course, I opened up Youtube and fill the whole lab with gospel music. Haha.
Ahhhhh.........
I believe this "goodness" will continue....
I am so excited for what He is going to do at Chi Alpha tonight =D
Remember how I was deeply convicted last week about being selfish and not living my life for God? I have been praying a lot for that area this week. Amazingly, God started to show me things that I have missed before.
It's not that God has stopped working in my life while I was far from Him. I believe that He is still working, all the time, 24/7, without rest. It is just that starting early this week, He has been opening my eyes and heart to see things that I missed before.
I feel so good for the revelation that God's presence is with me all the time. Nothing is better than being in His presence.
Every person can sense the presence of God in different ways. For me, answered prayers and divine appointments are the best parts.
I have been asking God to help me to be a good witness for Him and make it something easy and effortless to do because I always feel that I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING to earn His approval. (and of course, that's not the truth)
And surely, He answered that prayer.
I have met several Christians this week on campus. And it just encourages me a lot to be able to share my faith with others.
I asked God to send me someone who is looking for a church so that I can help. And He did!!! It's amazing how a girl just came and asked me which church I go to and asked me for the address.
I asked for fellowship and new friends because I feel lonely. He gave it through International Food and Friends life group! And there are so many Malaysians this semester year which just add the excitement for me.
I asked for His grace to be able to balance my study and work. So far, everything is good! At the work place, my professor is real nice to me and he said I can rearrange stuff as I like in his lab, which, really surprised me. And I can on music too if I like to. So of course, I opened up Youtube and fill the whole lab with gospel music. Haha.
Ahhhhh.........
I believe this "goodness" will continue....
I am so excited for what He is going to do at Chi Alpha tonight =D
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Conviction
I have been trying to live out a "good Christian life". But seriously, what is a" good Christian life"? Who has the right to define that?
Does it mean reading bible every day? Witnessing to people? Be a really nice, patient person? And not easily angered??
This week has been hard for me. To live a "good Christian life".
I am impatient. I am angry. I tried to be nice but failed anyway. I am afraid to fell back to the way I was (you have no idea how I treated people back then and NO, I don't want to be that person again).
And this morning at church, I am convicted.
At that instant, I know what went wrong with me.
All this while, I am doing things on my own and not with the will of God. Unrealized of what's been going on, I had slowly shut the door for God's presence to come in.
I have to be really honest to myself that,
I have let pride to overcome me.
I want to look good on the outside, but deep down inside, I am being teared apart into pieces....
I am looking at this world with my eyes, not with the eyes of God. I am doing things in my own way, not with God's way. I am chasing after things in this world, not the treasures in heavenly realm.
I want to look strong and mature,
but really, I am still weak.
Never will I be strong without the grace of God. I need Him. It will never be enough.
"zeal without wisdom won't work"
And this wisdom comes from God.
(this is such a messy post)
Does it mean reading bible every day? Witnessing to people? Be a really nice, patient person? And not easily angered??
This week has been hard for me. To live a "good Christian life".
I am impatient. I am angry. I tried to be nice but failed anyway. I am afraid to fell back to the way I was (you have no idea how I treated people back then and NO, I don't want to be that person again).
And this morning at church, I am convicted.
At that instant, I know what went wrong with me.
All this while, I am doing things on my own and not with the will of God. Unrealized of what's been going on, I had slowly shut the door for God's presence to come in.
I have to be really honest to myself that,
I have let pride to overcome me.
I want to look good on the outside, but deep down inside, I am being teared apart into pieces....
I am looking at this world with my eyes, not with the eyes of God. I am doing things in my own way, not with God's way. I am chasing after things in this world, not the treasures in heavenly realm.
I want to look strong and mature,
but really, I am still weak.
Never will I be strong without the grace of God. I need Him. It will never be enough.
"zeal without wisdom won't work"
And this wisdom comes from God.
(this is such a messy post)
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Fall 2010 - first week
This first week of mine is killinggggggggggggggg meeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so tired.
Let's hope next week will be a better one.
I am so tired.
Let's hope next week will be a better one.
Monday, August 23, 2010
The day before school starts
First of all....
THANK GOD IT'S SUNDAY!!!!
Church:
I got to go back to First Assembly Church after like... 2 months?? Aww... I really really miss the people there. But *sad*, I found out that today is Pastor Greg's last day preaching at First. He and his family are moving to Orlando, Florida to plant a church there upon the calling of God. Even though I am excited that God has called a new church to be planted in one of the major cities and appointed Pastor Greg to go, I feel sad at the same time.
I really like Pastor Greg and his wife, Lisa.
Although I cannot say that I know them well because I only had been there for less than a year but they are really nice people. Loving, caring, God-fearing people.
For now, the church is praying for God to choose a new pastor for us. I personally strongly believe that God has a complete plan for us. If He is taking Pastor Greg away from the church and putting him in another place that needs him more, He is going to provide us with a new shepherd for He will not leave His sheep astray.
Shay's birthday:
Apart from church, of course, IT'S SHAY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
This girl. Hah! I think she is one of the most wonderful person I have ever met. Not lying. Not boasting. (Not that I am saying the rest of the people I know are not amazing) Haha
She let me to stay at her apartment while I was "homeless". And even cook for me!
Well, I said everything else in the card I wrote to her so... Let's just keep it private. ;P
Once again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
School:
Well, classes start tomorrow. What else can I say? Hoping that this will be a great semester =)
THANK GOD IT'S SUNDAY!!!!
Church:
I got to go back to First Assembly Church after like... 2 months?? Aww... I really really miss the people there. But *sad*, I found out that today is Pastor Greg's last day preaching at First. He and his family are moving to Orlando, Florida to plant a church there upon the calling of God. Even though I am excited that God has called a new church to be planted in one of the major cities and appointed Pastor Greg to go, I feel sad at the same time.
I really like Pastor Greg and his wife, Lisa.
Although I cannot say that I know them well because I only had been there for less than a year but they are really nice people. Loving, caring, God-fearing people.
For now, the church is praying for God to choose a new pastor for us. I personally strongly believe that God has a complete plan for us. If He is taking Pastor Greg away from the church and putting him in another place that needs him more, He is going to provide us with a new shepherd for He will not leave His sheep astray.
Shay's birthday:
Apart from church, of course, IT'S SHAY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
This girl. Hah! I think she is one of the most wonderful person I have ever met. Not lying. Not boasting. (Not that I am saying the rest of the people I know are not amazing) Haha
She let me to stay at her apartment while I was "homeless". And even cook for me!
Well, I said everything else in the card I wrote to her so... Let's just keep it private. ;P
Once again,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
School:
Well, classes start tomorrow. What else can I say? Hoping that this will be a great semester =)
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Beautiful dream
I had a very beautiful dream last night.
In the dream, somehow I was nervous and full of fear. I felt very uneasy and uncomfortable. And I was surrounded by people who are ready to prowls on me like hungry lions. Their eyes were full of disguise and anger that made me very scared.
Suddenly, there's a guy, stepping beside me. He hold my hand and started to pray with me. All of a sudden, I was filled with peace and comfort. The peace was so overwhelming. It seems like everything around me changed. It is filled with joy and happiness instead of fear.
I woke up with a smile.
Thank you Jesus for taking me in as Your bride =)
In the dream, somehow I was nervous and full of fear. I felt very uneasy and uncomfortable. And I was surrounded by people who are ready to prowls on me like hungry lions. Their eyes were full of disguise and anger that made me very scared.
Suddenly, there's a guy, stepping beside me. He hold my hand and started to pray with me. All of a sudden, I was filled with peace and comfort. The peace was so overwhelming. It seems like everything around me changed. It is filled with joy and happiness instead of fear.
I woke up with a smile.
Thank you Jesus for taking me in as Your bride =)
Move in
Huh.................. Finally................. @.@
I moved into my new apartment yesterday. It was a long long day.
I volunteered at the ISS in the morning starting from 8:30am then went back to Shulei's place to rest and wait for the guys to help me to move my stuff.
They told me that they are going to help me move around 1pm.
So I waited
and waited.........
And you know what? They only came around 4pm.
But cannot put the blame on them too. Because there were so many houses that they were helping to move. And I was the last one because I had to go to Lafayette to get my stuff since I was staying at my friend's place for the moment.
The guys rented a U-haul truck. And since there were so many people coming along, there were no place to sit in the truck. And so, it ended up with the guys "hiding" in the back of the truck. With no oxygen and light. *Pity*
When we reached my friend's house to get my stuff, the guys were so shocked by my "property". Buahahahaha....
I have:
1) 2 tables
2) 3 chairs
3) 1 bed
4) 2 pillows
4) 1 HUGE dresser
5) bookSSSS
They had to do 2 trips to get all my stuff traveled to my new apartment. LOL
I am so so so so grateful for their help. Else, I would not know how am I going to move all those crazy stuff.
And oh ya! The guys kept complaining: "Ini perempuan gila".
Hahahahahahaha.... XD
I moved into my new apartment yesterday. It was a long long day.
I volunteered at the ISS in the morning starting from 8:30am then went back to Shulei's place to rest and wait for the guys to help me to move my stuff.
They told me that they are going to help me move around 1pm.
So I waited
and waited.........
And you know what? They only came around 4pm.
But cannot put the blame on them too. Because there were so many houses that they were helping to move. And I was the last one because I had to go to Lafayette to get my stuff since I was staying at my friend's place for the moment.
The guys rented a U-haul truck. And since there were so many people coming along, there were no place to sit in the truck. And so, it ended up with the guys "hiding" in the back of the truck. With no oxygen and light. *Pity*
When we reached my friend's house to get my stuff, the guys were so shocked by my "property". Buahahahaha....
I have:
1) 2 tables
2) 3 chairs
3) 1 bed
4) 2 pillows
4) 1 HUGE dresser
5) bookSSSS
They had to do 2 trips to get all my stuff traveled to my new apartment. LOL
I am so so so so grateful for their help. Else, I would not know how am I going to move all those crazy stuff.
And oh ya! The guys kept complaining: "Ini perempuan gila".
Hahahahahahaha.... XD
Saturday, August 14, 2010
First week back at the States
1. I got to meet my Chi Alpha family at the noon prayers.
2. Came to Hicks library to online since my friend's place where I am staying now do not have internet access.
3. Texted and chat with a few friends that I really miss.
4. Met Kho Pin and Feng Chen to update each other with our summer.
5. Attended ISS International Students Picnic yesterday. Helped to prepare the food for the picnic in the kitchen. Yes. Kitchen. Haha. Met a lot of new friends. Tired. Happy.
6. Can't wait for All Night Prayer tonight at Bethel Church.
7. Can't wait to be embraced by the love of God once again.
2. Came to Hicks library to online since my friend's place where I am staying now do not have internet access.
3. Texted and chat with a few friends that I really miss.
4. Met Kho Pin and Feng Chen to update each other with our summer.
5. Attended ISS International Students Picnic yesterday. Helped to prepare the food for the picnic in the kitchen. Yes. Kitchen. Haha. Met a lot of new friends. Tired. Happy.
6. Can't wait for All Night Prayer tonight at Bethel Church.
7. Can't wait to be embraced by the love of God once again.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Back at Purdue!!!!!
Wooohoooooooooooo~!!
I am back at Purdue.
I miss home already.
Yet, I can't wait to see my XA family again!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am back at Purdue.
I miss home already.
Yet, I can't wait to see my XA family again!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Update 4 from Malaysia
Hi guys,
I will be back to Purdue soon. Will be seeing you guys next week! Are you excited?!! Lol
As much as I enjoy my summer at home, I begin to worry about a lot of stuffs.
Summer went by so fast. And I feel like I did not do anything meaningful this holiday. Just relaxing at home and had fun with my siblings.
Looking at my friends who worked and studied during Summer, I feel shameful for myself.
Don't know if anyone having the same feeling as I am.
I am so worried. So scared about my future. I don't know what should I do with it.
Everyone else is so good.
Will there be a place for me?
I will be back to Purdue soon. Will be seeing you guys next week! Are you excited?!! Lol
As much as I enjoy my summer at home, I begin to worry about a lot of stuffs.
Summer went by so fast. And I feel like I did not do anything meaningful this holiday. Just relaxing at home and had fun with my siblings.
Looking at my friends who worked and studied during Summer, I feel shameful for myself.
Don't know if anyone having the same feeling as I am.
I am so worried. So scared about my future. I don't know what should I do with it.
Everyone else is so good.
Will there be a place for me?
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Update for the post "He never forget"
The guy told me this:
"By grace, I will be returning to the States." (not direct quote though)
Isn't it awesome? =D
"By grace, I will be returning to the States." (not direct quote though)
Isn't it awesome? =D
Friday, July 16, 2010
Update 3 from Malaysia
Halo!!!!!!!!!!
Here's the update:
I am currently in Mukah, which is a small town in Sarawak. It takes approximately 1 hour to fly (using flight lar duh) from Kuching to here.
So what's in Mukah????
It is my dad's hometown. Now, my grandma and uncles and aunties and cousins are living here.
It had been so long since I last visited this place. About 4 years. I think.
There's nothing much to do here in Mukah. Not many entertainment. But I have been watching a lot of dramas online. Hehe...
Plus, the town is near the ocean too. But I seldom go to the beach because it is quite dirty.
I wish I can upload the pictures I took here in Malaysia but I left my camera cable in KL. Argh...
Oh! And I am still looking forward to meeting my friends in Kuching when I am back. Have not met them since I came back.
What else did I do?
Sleep.....
Eat....
Sleep.....
Eat......
Sleep....
Eat....
Sleep....
Bye bye!
(Really, there's nothing much to talk about...) =P
Here's the update:
I am currently in Mukah, which is a small town in Sarawak. It takes approximately 1 hour to fly (using flight lar duh) from Kuching to here.
So what's in Mukah????
It is my dad's hometown. Now, my grandma and uncles and aunties and cousins are living here.
It had been so long since I last visited this place. About 4 years. I think.
There's nothing much to do here in Mukah. Not many entertainment. But I have been watching a lot of dramas online. Hehe...
Plus, the town is near the ocean too. But I seldom go to the beach because it is quite dirty.
I wish I can upload the pictures I took here in Malaysia but I left my camera cable in KL. Argh...
Oh! And I am still looking forward to meeting my friends in Kuching when I am back. Have not met them since I came back.
What else did I do?
Sleep.....
Eat....
Sleep.....
Eat......
Sleep....
Eat....
Sleep....
Bye bye!
(Really, there's nothing much to talk about...) =P
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Update 2 from Malaysia
Hi friends,
I do not have much internet access right now as I am staying at my uncle's place where my cousins would be using the computer 24/7. XD
The past full week had been more eventful compared with the previous one.
Tuesday - went to the book fair at Mines Shopping Mall. Most of the books are in Chinese but anyhow, I got to buy 2 English books from MPH to keep me "busy" during my free time.
Wednesday - went to Sungei Wang and Times Square with my cousin. Only 2 of us. Lol. We went to sing k and shopping, which was really fun. Meanwhile, I got to know her better, which is really exciting. Because I used to think that there is a "generation gap" between us. XP Well, maybe I am not that old after all. haha
Friday - went to Midvalley to meet with my Lao gong -- Ah Fung Fung!!! It's weird that when I was waiting for her, my rate of heartbeat increased like mad!! Haha. And she said she experienced it as well. So, I am not the only one. Lol. Besides her, Steffie and Joyce came along too. It was awesome to be able to hang out with them. Because it was not merely a hang out, but a fellowship. =)
Mum and sister are coming to KL tonight.
Dad and brother would be reaching tomorrow.
I do not have much internet access right now as I am staying at my uncle's place where my cousins would be using the computer 24/7. XD
The past full week had been more eventful compared with the previous one.
Tuesday - went to the book fair at Mines Shopping Mall. Most of the books are in Chinese but anyhow, I got to buy 2 English books from MPH to keep me "busy" during my free time.
Wednesday - went to Sungei Wang and Times Square with my cousin. Only 2 of us. Lol. We went to sing k and shopping, which was really fun. Meanwhile, I got to know her better, which is really exciting. Because I used to think that there is a "generation gap" between us. XP Well, maybe I am not that old after all. haha
Friday - went to Midvalley to meet with my Lao gong -- Ah Fung Fung!!! It's weird that when I was waiting for her, my rate of heartbeat increased like mad!! Haha. And she said she experienced it as well. So, I am not the only one. Lol. Besides her, Steffie and Joyce came along too. It was awesome to be able to hang out with them. Because it was not merely a hang out, but a fellowship. =)
Mum and sister are coming to KL tonight.
Dad and brother would be reaching tomorrow.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Back in Malaysia
I reached Malaysia on June 3. Was very excited when the plane landed on this land.
The weather is so hot and I will sweat no matter what I did.
Still experiencing jetlag in which I will sleep from 3pm to 7pm and then from 12pm to 5am.
Need adjustment dy.... T.T
I am now staying at my uncle's place in Serdang, KL.
Will only be going back to Kuching on June 19.
My parents and sibblings are coming on the 12th. Can't wait to meet them!
I am so damn bored here....
When one is bored, know what happen? ---- Thinking nonsense
Memories just keep splashing into my mind. Sweet. Bitter. Everything.
The weather is so hot and I will sweat no matter what I did.
Still experiencing jetlag in which I will sleep from 3pm to 7pm and then from 12pm to 5am.
Need adjustment dy.... T.T
I am now staying at my uncle's place in Serdang, KL.
Will only be going back to Kuching on June 19.
My parents and sibblings are coming on the 12th. Can't wait to meet them!
I am so damn bored here....
When one is bored, know what happen? ---- Thinking nonsense
Memories just keep splashing into my mind. Sweet. Bitter. Everything.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
God healed my ankle
I have been really busy with Malaysia Mid-West Games recently and have not been able to check my email and stuff. But I think it would be really cool to just share this quick testimony with you all.
Some of you might have known that there will be performances on the closing ceremony night of MWG. As for me, I am going to dance.
Yesterday, I went to Chicago with my dance teammates to get our equipments for the dance. It sounds stupid but I accidentally sprained my ankle, not knowing exactly how.
It was still okay in Chicago but when we came back and practice, my ankle hurt so much that I could barely dance.
My friends suggested all kinds of methods to relieve my pain.
"Put ice on your ankle!"
"Put on some medicine!"
It might sound really weird. But somehow I am not worried about it. I had peace with it that God is going to heal it.
So I went to Chi Alpha Ignite (Christian fellowship) last night. After the sermon, I had Joanna and Eric prayed for my ankle.
After they finished praying for me, Eric asked me to try and see if my ankle was still painful. I did not think much and just moved my leg.
To my surprise, IT DID NOT HURT ANYMORE!!!!
NOT AT ALL!!!!!!
I can move swiftly. I can dance again.
I was so shocked that I did not even know how to response to it.
Haha...
GOD JUST HEALED MY ANKLE IN JESUS' NAME!
Hallelujah!!!!
Some of you might have known that there will be performances on the closing ceremony night of MWG. As for me, I am going to dance.
Yesterday, I went to Chicago with my dance teammates to get our equipments for the dance. It sounds stupid but I accidentally sprained my ankle, not knowing exactly how.
It was still okay in Chicago but when we came back and practice, my ankle hurt so much that I could barely dance.
My friends suggested all kinds of methods to relieve my pain.
"Put ice on your ankle!"
"Put on some medicine!"
It might sound really weird. But somehow I am not worried about it. I had peace with it that God is going to heal it.
So I went to Chi Alpha Ignite (Christian fellowship) last night. After the sermon, I had Joanna and Eric prayed for my ankle.
After they finished praying for me, Eric asked me to try and see if my ankle was still painful. I did not think much and just moved my leg.
To my surprise, IT DID NOT HURT ANYMORE!!!!
NOT AT ALL!!!!!!
I can move swiftly. I can dance again.
I was so shocked that I did not even know how to response to it.
Haha...
GOD JUST HEALED MY ANKLE IN JESUS' NAME!
Hallelujah!!!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Quick update
I have not updated my blog for quite some time. Well, of course I would give the reason for being unable to online because I have moved into Seyi's place where there is no internet connection (In a way, that's good because I have been able to spend more time with God without distraction from fb). But really, the true reason would be, I have been lazy. Haha.
Yea.. Like I have said, I moved into Seyi's place already on last Thursday. We got Seyi driving the U-Haul truck and Jordan P., Victor and John Mejia helping us to move my stuff. It was faster than I thought it would be. We finished everything in the morning then went for lunch.
On Friday, I left in the morning to go to Cleveland, Ohio to attend Jesus Culture Conference. It was intense. I don't even know where should I start to talk about the past weekend. Everything came so fast and ended too soon. I still don't have enough time to process everything yet.
Starting form Monday this week, I will be undergoing endless practice for the performance on MWG night. So, I could already imagine how weary I would be at the end of the week.
And then....
June 1 ----- MALAYSIA!!!!!
Yea.. Like I have said, I moved into Seyi's place already on last Thursday. We got Seyi driving the U-Haul truck and Jordan P., Victor and John Mejia helping us to move my stuff. It was faster than I thought it would be. We finished everything in the morning then went for lunch.
On Friday, I left in the morning to go to Cleveland, Ohio to attend Jesus Culture Conference. It was intense. I don't even know where should I start to talk about the past weekend. Everything came so fast and ended too soon. I still don't have enough time to process everything yet.
Starting form Monday this week, I will be undergoing endless practice for the performance on MWG night. So, I could already imagine how weary I would be at the end of the week.
And then....
June 1 ----- MALAYSIA!!!!!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Need time with God
I need Thee. I need to be with You. I need Your guidance.
I am going to Jesus Culture Conference tomorrow for a few days.
I need to prepare myself.
I need to listen to You.
I don't want anyone else. I just need You right now.
O God, only You know....
I am going to Jesus Culture Conference tomorrow for a few days.
I need to prepare myself.
I need to listen to You.
I don't want anyone else. I just need You right now.
O God, only You know....
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
He never forget
I was talking with a friend a few weeks ago. He is undergoing probably the hardest part of his life right now. He has talked to pastors and a lot of sisters and brothers in the church, yet he could not help but to feel hopeless about his future.
That night, I just finished my last exam and was feeling so free and relieved. I prayed a little prayer inside my heart: God, now that I am free, use me in any ways You want. After that, I decided to go to the church and just to spend some time alone with God. As soon as I reached there, I met other brothers and sisters who were having their choir practice there too. Hence, I kind of hang around with them for a while before he came.
When I saw him, I was shocked. And I am pretty sure he was too.
I already know what he is going through right now and have been trying to contact him. But he never respond.
But that night, we talked.
He said, he is going back to his country and might never have the chance to come back anymore after that. So, that would probably be the last chance for us to meet.
God is so good that He set this divine appointment.
People might thought that this is a chance given by God to heal him, but they might have missed that this is actually a healing from God for me too.
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God brought him to me and another sister through a divine appointment too.
It was during the passion week. While me and another sister were praying in the prayer room, he walked in and sat alone at one of the corners of the room. When we were about to leave, he suddenly spoke up to us, telling us the depression and helplessness that he was having. We prayed and I left soon after that to run for my class.
After that, I found out one of our brothers in Chi Alpha knows this friend of mine too. It was kind of crazy that this brother ran into this guy EVERY week after the divine appointment. Hence, he tried to invite him to our Chi Alpha meeting.
A few weeks later, he came.
I was so happy when I saw him. But I never got the chance to talk to him because the worship had begun when he walked in. And then, I had to leave for intercession prayer in another room.
Throughout the whole prayer, I was praying for him, praying that God will set him free from the chain of depression. I truly truly believe that God sent him to our meeting for a purpose and He is going to change his life.
But that did not happen that night.
When I returned to the room and tried to look for him, he was not there anymore. Later, I found out from another friend that he left soon after he came in.
Suddenly, I broke down. And cried. I felt so sorry and regret that I did not do "something" earlier (But in fact, I clearly knew that there was nothing I could do at that moment). I felt condemnation but was not clear where did that condemnation come from.
Earlier during the intercession prayer, I had a vision that there was a spiritual warfare occurring in the room. I saw angels surrounding the people in the room, protecting them from the attack of the enemies.
At that very moment, I even had the sense that satan has won (which of course, is a lie from the enemies).
I just could not understand why God has set a divine appointment among us and yet, let this to continue to happen on him. Why had God not set him free? Why did God let him leave like that? The vision I had earlier make the situation worse. I could not understand.
After that, I was kind of down for the next several days, asking God why why why.
But God's grace is really enough to get me through. He showed me Jeremiah 33:3.
I continued to pray for that friend, and having faith that God is going to do something about him. He will have His perfect plan for him. I learned to surrender everything to Him. I tried to cast the burden on Him and not to carry everything on my shoulder. Really, nothing would work unless it's done by His will.
I have to admit that my faith was weak.
But God used so many crazy ways to get His message across to me. He was telling me to continue to trust in Him and that He is going to do something great!
(For reference, you could read my previous posts)
All of those helped to rebuild my faith in Him.
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So, that night, was a confirmation from God to me that He never forget. And He will always have the victory. All the negative feelings, all the condemnation that I had earlier was not from Him, but from the enemies who are trying to crash my faith and distract me from continue to pray for my friend.
As we were talking that night, my friend was still feeling hopeless for his future and had a strong sense of condemnation from God for the mistakes he did. But in my heart, I felt extremely calm and suddenly had all the confidence that God is doing so not to condemn him but that He has a better plan for him.
Halfway through our conversation, he stopped.
And then he asked: "Amy, what makes you believe that God is real?"
I smiled.
I was thinking
"Don't you think that it is evident enough that God is real when He set up this divine appointment between us just one day before you left the States?"
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Hmmmm..........
I am filled with so much peace and joy now that I know
our almighty God will gain the victory forever and ever...................
That night, I just finished my last exam and was feeling so free and relieved. I prayed a little prayer inside my heart: God, now that I am free, use me in any ways You want. After that, I decided to go to the church and just to spend some time alone with God. As soon as I reached there, I met other brothers and sisters who were having their choir practice there too. Hence, I kind of hang around with them for a while before he came.
When I saw him, I was shocked. And I am pretty sure he was too.
I already know what he is going through right now and have been trying to contact him. But he never respond.
But that night, we talked.
He said, he is going back to his country and might never have the chance to come back anymore after that. So, that would probably be the last chance for us to meet.
God is so good that He set this divine appointment.
People might thought that this is a chance given by God to heal him, but they might have missed that this is actually a healing from God for me too.
======================================================
God brought him to me and another sister through a divine appointment too.
It was during the passion week. While me and another sister were praying in the prayer room, he walked in and sat alone at one of the corners of the room. When we were about to leave, he suddenly spoke up to us, telling us the depression and helplessness that he was having. We prayed and I left soon after that to run for my class.
After that, I found out one of our brothers in Chi Alpha knows this friend of mine too. It was kind of crazy that this brother ran into this guy EVERY week after the divine appointment. Hence, he tried to invite him to our Chi Alpha meeting.
A few weeks later, he came.
I was so happy when I saw him. But I never got the chance to talk to him because the worship had begun when he walked in. And then, I had to leave for intercession prayer in another room.
Throughout the whole prayer, I was praying for him, praying that God will set him free from the chain of depression. I truly truly believe that God sent him to our meeting for a purpose and He is going to change his life.
But that did not happen that night.
When I returned to the room and tried to look for him, he was not there anymore. Later, I found out from another friend that he left soon after he came in.
Suddenly, I broke down. And cried. I felt so sorry and regret that I did not do "something" earlier (But in fact, I clearly knew that there was nothing I could do at that moment). I felt condemnation but was not clear where did that condemnation come from.
Earlier during the intercession prayer, I had a vision that there was a spiritual warfare occurring in the room. I saw angels surrounding the people in the room, protecting them from the attack of the enemies.
At that very moment, I even had the sense that satan has won (which of course, is a lie from the enemies).
I just could not understand why God has set a divine appointment among us and yet, let this to continue to happen on him. Why had God not set him free? Why did God let him leave like that? The vision I had earlier make the situation worse. I could not understand.
After that, I was kind of down for the next several days, asking God why why why.
But God's grace is really enough to get me through. He showed me Jeremiah 33:3.
I continued to pray for that friend, and having faith that God is going to do something about him. He will have His perfect plan for him. I learned to surrender everything to Him. I tried to cast the burden on Him and not to carry everything on my shoulder. Really, nothing would work unless it's done by His will.
I have to admit that my faith was weak.
But God used so many crazy ways to get His message across to me. He was telling me to continue to trust in Him and that He is going to do something great!
(For reference, you could read my previous posts)
All of those helped to rebuild my faith in Him.
===================================================
So, that night, was a confirmation from God to me that He never forget. And He will always have the victory. All the negative feelings, all the condemnation that I had earlier was not from Him, but from the enemies who are trying to crash my faith and distract me from continue to pray for my friend.
As we were talking that night, my friend was still feeling hopeless for his future and had a strong sense of condemnation from God for the mistakes he did. But in my heart, I felt extremely calm and suddenly had all the confidence that God is doing so not to condemn him but that He has a better plan for him.
Halfway through our conversation, he stopped.
And then he asked: "Amy, what makes you believe that God is real?"
I smiled.
I was thinking
"Don't you think that it is evident enough that God is real when He set up this divine appointment between us just one day before you left the States?"
==========================================
Hmmmm..........
I am filled with so much peace and joy now that I know
our almighty God will gain the victory forever and ever...................
Saturday, May 8, 2010
The enemy has been defeated
*dancing in joy*
Satan is under our feet!!!!
he will never, ever, gain victory over our Almighty God!!!!!!!!
God has answered, and showed me that
HE is in charge in everything =)
Satan is under our feet!!!!
he will never, ever, gain victory over our Almighty God!!!!!!!!
God has answered, and showed me that
HE is in charge in everything =)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
You know how excited I am
For SUMMER HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!
woot~!
I have two more exams on Thursday and then I would be done with my finals. Can't wait.
Going to Columbus, Ohio on Friday with my buddies and then off to IUB, Bloomington on Monday. Not sure yet when should I come back though. Friday or Saturday?? Hmmm......
Then, moving in to stay with Shay for a coupe of days before going back to Malaysia!
Yay!!! Going back Malaysia!!! That's my favorite part. haha...
After that, Midwest Games!!
Ugh...... Did I mention to you guys that I am going to dance for the closing ceremony?
Don't know if I have gone insane or what. =S
And oh ya! Not to mention about Jesus Culture Conference in Cleveland, Ohio on May 21 and 22.
Going there with some of the most awesome XA people I ever known!!! XD
(p/s: Caitlin, I am really excited about this one!)
Hmmm....
I seem very free now. But actually, I am not!
I still have two finals to crack my head and squeeze some brain juice on.
It's just the idea of what I am going to do once my finals is over
EXCITES ME LOTS!!!!
xD
till then...... tata~!
(I cannot resist but to promote XA all the time. Of course, it's not all about XA, but about the love that God has poured on me abundantly through this awesome family ;) )
woot~!
I have two more exams on Thursday and then I would be done with my finals. Can't wait.
Going to Columbus, Ohio on Friday with my buddies and then off to IUB, Bloomington on Monday. Not sure yet when should I come back though. Friday or Saturday?? Hmmm......
Then, moving in to stay with Shay for a coupe of days before going back to Malaysia!
Yay!!! Going back Malaysia!!! That's my favorite part. haha...
After that, Midwest Games!!
Ugh...... Did I mention to you guys that I am going to dance for the closing ceremony?
Don't know if I have gone insane or what. =S
And oh ya! Not to mention about Jesus Culture Conference in Cleveland, Ohio on May 21 and 22.
Going there with some of the most awesome XA people I ever known!!! XD
(p/s: Caitlin, I am really excited about this one!)
Hmmm....
I seem very free now. But actually, I am not!
I still have two finals to crack my head and squeeze some brain juice on.
It's just the idea of what I am going to do once my finals is over
EXCITES ME LOTS!!!!
xD
till then...... tata~!
(I cannot resist but to promote XA all the time. Of course, it's not all about XA, but about the love that God has poured on me abundantly through this awesome family ;) )
Monday, May 3, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
I am so "smacked" by the Spirit right nowwww!!!!
WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I signed up for Dick's "You got the Holy Spirit" email series. And this is what I just got.
And whoaaa!!!
I feel like God is really trying to get His message across to me. In so many crazy ways!!!
Here are parts of the email that really hit on me:
"To the degree that you are available to Him, He will touch others through you."
"In John 7:37-39, Jesus describes the work of the Spirit in us: 'On the last and greatest day of the Feast, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, 'If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him'."
"Other people observe things about you that you are probably totally unaware of."
"This living water oozes out every time you speak the name of Jesus, pray a prayer for someone, or demonstrate an act of kindness toward a fellow human being."
"Believe this truth with all of your heart. A river of living water bubbles out of your life wether you feel it or not.
"Remember, it's a function of faith, not of feelings"
I think this is so CRAZY!!!!!
Yet I LOVE it to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's how fun our God is =)
I signed up for Dick's "You got the Holy Spirit" email series. And this is what I just got.
And whoaaa!!!
I feel like God is really trying to get His message across to me. In so many crazy ways!!!
Here are parts of the email that really hit on me:
"To the degree that you are available to Him, He will touch others through you."
"In John 7:37-39, Jesus describes the work of the Spirit in us: 'On the last and greatest day of the Feast, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, 'If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him'."
"Other people observe things about you that you are probably totally unaware of."
"This living water oozes out every time you speak the name of Jesus, pray a prayer for someone, or demonstrate an act of kindness toward a fellow human being."
"Believe this truth with all of your heart. A river of living water bubbles out of your life wether you feel it or not.
"Remember, it's a function of faith, not of feelings"
I think this is so CRAZY!!!!!
Yet I LOVE it to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's how fun our God is =)
Haha... Another one!
Okay... I told myself not to blog these days and tried to spend more time on my studies.
But hey.... when good things happened, I just could not withhold myself from writing down in this blog!!!!
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I just received a text from my friend saying that he got through his interview and got recruited in a summer research group!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Okay. Cool. So what's so exciting about this? You are not writing this post in the midst of your studies just to tell us about this. Do you?
OF COURSE I AM NOT!!!!
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Listen to me....
This friend of mine told me that he was nervous about this interview and how much he wanted to get into this research group because it seems real fun. He said he was pretty panicked by this whole coming interview thing.
To my surprise, I told him to trust in God! (he is not a Christian). And I told him that I am going to pray for him.
To be honest, I did not know what to do about it. Because I was spiritually dry, remember? So as soon as I told him that I would pray for him, I regretted what I said. At that moment, I did not believe what I am going to pray is going to reach God.
Also, did I just told him that I am going to pray for him? Really? Why would I say so? I can just secretly prayed for him. Why would I tell him that I am going to pray for him? It just seems awkward.
(But the reason become obvious to me later on)
So,
I prayed anyway.
Secretly, I asked God
"God, You have to listen to me and really help me in this. I told him to trust in You. But I have no confidence in what I am praying at all. So, it's not gonna happen unless it's by Your grace."
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I am still so stunned right now!
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Isn't God just so fun?
Even when we are faithless, and don't feel Him. Even when we are spiritually dry. He remains faithful. And He will always show up to rejuvenate us again.
The even cooler thing is that,
We still be able to witness to others!!!!!!
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So, I now know why I would tell him that I am going to pray for him. Because only in that way, he would know that it is God who is doing these things.
I can see that God is really working in him right now!
Maybe he did not believe or did not think much about that prayer that I said I would do for him. Maybe he thought that God would not answer his prayer because he is not a believer.
But wait a second!
Do you think God would care and concern about the non-believers too?
=P
*dancing happily*
But hey.... when good things happened, I just could not withhold myself from writing down in this blog!!!!
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I just received a text from my friend saying that he got through his interview and got recruited in a summer research group!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
====================================================
Okay. Cool. So what's so exciting about this? You are not writing this post in the midst of your studies just to tell us about this. Do you?
OF COURSE I AM NOT!!!!
====================================================
Listen to me....
This friend of mine told me that he was nervous about this interview and how much he wanted to get into this research group because it seems real fun. He said he was pretty panicked by this whole coming interview thing.
To my surprise, I told him to trust in God! (he is not a Christian). And I told him that I am going to pray for him.
To be honest, I did not know what to do about it. Because I was spiritually dry, remember? So as soon as I told him that I would pray for him, I regretted what I said. At that moment, I did not believe what I am going to pray is going to reach God.
Also, did I just told him that I am going to pray for him? Really? Why would I say so? I can just secretly prayed for him. Why would I tell him that I am going to pray for him? It just seems awkward.
(But the reason become obvious to me later on)
So,
I prayed anyway.
Secretly, I asked God
"God, You have to listen to me and really help me in this. I told him to trust in You. But I have no confidence in what I am praying at all. So, it's not gonna happen unless it's by Your grace."
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I am still so stunned right now!
==================================================
Isn't God just so fun?
Even when we are faithless, and don't feel Him. Even when we are spiritually dry. He remains faithful. And He will always show up to rejuvenate us again.
The even cooler thing is that,
We still be able to witness to others!!!!!!
================================================
So, I now know why I would tell him that I am going to pray for him. Because only in that way, he would know that it is God who is doing these things.
I can see that God is really working in him right now!
Maybe he did not believe or did not think much about that prayer that I said I would do for him. Maybe he thought that God would not answer his prayer because he is not a believer.
But wait a second!
Do you think God would care and concern about the non-believers too?
=P
*dancing happily*
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
God's phone number
Guess I am going to share this quick one with you....
Jeremiah 33:3
"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know".
I have been really dry (as in spiritually) recently.
I feel that God is so distant. I feel like He could not listen to me anymore (or I could not listen to Him).
I don't know how did that happen.
I am scared. And feel so insecure.
I will go to the prayer room at Wesley Foundation. Trying to search Him. Talking to Him. And try hard to listen to what He has to say to me.
But I didn't feel anything.
I was kinda disappointed.
I was so filled with the spirit before that.
Crazy thing kept happening around me.
But for the past few days, I just felt very empty.
I was trying to look for an answer from Him.
But it has not been answered.
Just now, I got to hang out with my girl friend and we were talking about God. Even though I did not really told her what happened, but what she said just kept hitting on me. I feel like God was using her to reconfirm and trying to rejuvenate my faith in Him.
And on our way back, we saw a truck with this verse, Jeremiah 33:3 on it.
I did not pay much attention at first.
I had no idea it's what people call "the God's number". Seriously, I did not know at all.
But the verse did not leave me after I came back home.
So, I decided to take out my bible and try to look for that verse.
And WHOAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did God just answered another prayer???
Jeremiah 33:3
"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know".
I have been really dry (as in spiritually) recently.
I feel that God is so distant. I feel like He could not listen to me anymore (or I could not listen to Him).
I don't know how did that happen.
I am scared. And feel so insecure.
I will go to the prayer room at Wesley Foundation. Trying to search Him. Talking to Him. And try hard to listen to what He has to say to me.
But I didn't feel anything.
I was kinda disappointed.
I was so filled with the spirit before that.
Crazy thing kept happening around me.
But for the past few days, I just felt very empty.
I was trying to look for an answer from Him.
But it has not been answered.
Just now, I got to hang out with my girl friend and we were talking about God. Even though I did not really told her what happened, but what she said just kept hitting on me. I feel like God was using her to reconfirm and trying to rejuvenate my faith in Him.
And on our way back, we saw a truck with this verse, Jeremiah 33:3 on it.
I did not pay much attention at first.
I had no idea it's what people call "the God's number". Seriously, I did not know at all.
But the verse did not leave me after I came back home.
So, I decided to take out my bible and try to look for that verse.
And WHOAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did God just answered another prayer???
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Happy Birthday Papa
It's my dad's birthday today.
04/24/19** (haha... not going to tell you how old he is)
Yesterday, Pastor Linda was sharing the message on Experiencing Father's Embrace.
Throughout the message, she kept praising her dad as the best dad in the world ever.
Her message makes me miss my dad so so much =(
My dad.
I don't even know where should I start to describe him.
Maybe from his forever-young-looking-handsome face?
hahaha....
Many people have made the comment that I look very VERY alike with my dad. If I walk together with him, people can straight away tell that we are father and daughter.
I like it when people say that. Because my dad looks really good. If others say we look alike, that means I got his good looking gene too!! Even if it's a female version, I don't really mind. LOL
If I want to buy anything, I will always go look for dad first.
Or good food!!!!
Haha.... Dad is definitely the right person to run into first, instead of mum XP
It's funny how my dad and I will always be in the same ally when there's a difference in opinion between our parents. My sister will support my mum while I will be on my dad's side.
Don't get me wrong. It's not like there is a big war going on in the family or whatever. It's just that sometimes, we have different opinions on certain things. Things as minor as "where to have dinner tonight?" XD
I would have to say that my dad started to get busier and busier nowadays.
His work position was raised and now he is taking some courses in Open University too. Yes! My dad is taking courses to upgrade himself. Can your dad be any cooler than mine?!! hahaha...
Hmmmmm................
There are of course, a lot more to talk about my dad.
But that's really something personal that I don't wana "expose" here.
Another thing is that.....
It is just so weird to know that he is getting older.................... =(
but,
older = wiser
right? XP
*this is another rambling post*
04/24/19** (haha... not going to tell you how old he is)
Yesterday, Pastor Linda was sharing the message on Experiencing Father's Embrace.
Throughout the message, she kept praising her dad as the best dad in the world ever.
Her message makes me miss my dad so so much =(
My dad.
I don't even know where should I start to describe him.
Maybe from his forever-young-looking-handsome face?
hahaha....
Many people have made the comment that I look very VERY alike with my dad. If I walk together with him, people can straight away tell that we are father and daughter.
I like it when people say that. Because my dad looks really good. If others say we look alike, that means I got his good looking gene too!! Even if it's a female version, I don't really mind. LOL
If I want to buy anything, I will always go look for dad first.
Or good food!!!!
Haha.... Dad is definitely the right person to run into first, instead of mum XP
It's funny how my dad and I will always be in the same ally when there's a difference in opinion between our parents. My sister will support my mum while I will be on my dad's side.
Don't get me wrong. It's not like there is a big war going on in the family or whatever. It's just that sometimes, we have different opinions on certain things. Things as minor as "where to have dinner tonight?" XD
I would have to say that my dad started to get busier and busier nowadays.
His work position was raised and now he is taking some courses in Open University too. Yes! My dad is taking courses to upgrade himself. Can your dad be any cooler than mine?!! hahaha...
Hmmmmm................
There are of course, a lot more to talk about my dad.
But that's really something personal that I don't wana "expose" here.
Another thing is that.....
It is just so weird to know that he is getting older.................... =(
but,
older = wiser
right? XP
*this is another rambling post*
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Ha! I want to attack you from any direction you come!
I received an email from my dad, telling us about the attitudes we should have to face life.
I like this one the most:
Soldier: "Sir. We are surrounded from all sides by our enemies."
Major: "Excellent! We can attack them from any direction."
I wish I could become a soldier that is able to stand firm in my faith. Hold strongly to the truth.
I wish that one day, I would not be afraid of the enemies surrounding me.
Instead,
I will be brave
I will attack them back with confidence
No matter which way they attack me
I will rejoice!
Because it is through testings that we learn to lean on Him closer.
Because all of these tests are His plan for us
to strengthen us
to help us to build our faith
to give us the testimonies that we are able to share!
All of these..........
are going to worth it!
Even though it is difficult to have faith when we don't see it.
I will live by faith, not by sight.
I believe
One day, when I turned back and looked
I would be filled with joy and gratitude
looking at what He has done for me.
If this is Your will and plan for me,
Have Your way Lord.
I like this one the most:
Soldier: "Sir. We are surrounded from all sides by our enemies."
Major: "Excellent! We can attack them from any direction."
I wish I could become a soldier that is able to stand firm in my faith. Hold strongly to the truth.
I wish that one day, I would not be afraid of the enemies surrounding me.
Instead,
I will be brave
I will attack them back with confidence
No matter which way they attack me
I will rejoice!
Because it is through testings that we learn to lean on Him closer.
Because all of these tests are His plan for us
to strengthen us
to help us to build our faith
to give us the testimonies that we are able to share!
All of these..........
are going to worth it!
Even though it is difficult to have faith when we don't see it.
I will live by faith, not by sight.
I believe
One day, when I turned back and looked
I would be filled with joy and gratitude
looking at what He has done for me.
If this is Your will and plan for me,
Have Your way Lord.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Prayer
Dear brothers and sisters,
I need your prayer........
Pray for protection over my sisters and brothers
Pray for strength
Pray for faith
Pray for peace
Pray for unity
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened!
Pray for spiritual rain to fall upon our thirsty heart again
I need your prayer........
Pray for protection over my sisters and brothers
Pray for strength
Pray for faith
Pray for peace
Pray for unity
Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened!
Pray for spiritual rain to fall upon our thirsty heart again
Monday, April 19, 2010
Favortie part of my life in US
Friday, April 16, 2010
Happy 4th Anniversary
except that you are not beside me to celebrate together anymore....
It is just so weird, to think that it would be our 4th anniversary already if...
Don't misunderstand,
I am fine.
Totally fine.
I guess I am just missing someone....
(I don't even know if you would still care to read my blog)
It is just so weird, to think that it would be our 4th anniversary already if...
Don't misunderstand,
I am fine.
Totally fine.
I guess I am just missing someone....
(I don't even know if you would still care to read my blog)
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Your cross necklace
I love seeing your cross necklace.....
It is very powerful. Illuminating the light of truth. Full of love. Full of courage. Full of faithfulness and unshamefulness.
I do not know how is your walk with God.
But your necklace has never fail to bring hope to me.
Maybe you are unaware of the power of the cross necklace you are wearing.
Maybe it is just a everyday routine of wearing it.
Maybe I will tell you someday =)
It is very powerful. Illuminating the light of truth. Full of love. Full of courage. Full of faithfulness and unshamefulness.
I do not know how is your walk with God.
But your necklace has never fail to bring hope to me.
Maybe you are unaware of the power of the cross necklace you are wearing.
Maybe it is just a everyday routine of wearing it.
Maybe I will tell you someday =)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
战争
我不想这样就被打败
这太难看了
突然的 在大家面前崩溃
我不知道 自己是怎么了
我知道 你没输
但为什么 这恐惧感 会那么强烈？
我看见了 敌人在进攻
他们正努力地把我身边所爱的人夺走
最后 来到了我面间
见了那么多 你能办的事
经历了 那么多的奇迹
听了那么多 你的话语
为什么 我会忽然害怕了？
但你的话语 再次反复提醒着我
恐惧 不是来自于你
内疚感 不是来自于你
责备 更不是你的方式
在这场战争里 你不曾离去
你比谁还要在乎
感恩
因为 我们有你
因为 你说你会给我们安慰 给我们勇气
更因为
不管敌人多强大 胜利永远属于你
这太难看了
突然的 在大家面前崩溃
我不知道 自己是怎么了
我知道 你没输
但为什么 这恐惧感 会那么强烈？
我看见了 敌人在进攻
他们正努力地把我身边所爱的人夺走
最后 来到了我面间
见了那么多 你能办的事
经历了 那么多的奇迹
听了那么多 你的话语
为什么 我会忽然害怕了？
但你的话语 再次反复提醒着我
恐惧 不是来自于你
内疚感 不是来自于你
责备 更不是你的方式
在这场战争里 你不曾离去
你比谁还要在乎
感恩
因为 我们有你
因为 你说你会给我们安慰 给我们勇气
更因为
不管敌人多强大 胜利永远属于你
Friday, April 9, 2010
Little fun stuff God did for me
A quick update from the not-so-optimistic post yesterday.
So, the end of the story is...........
I got a ride from a girl who went to the meeting too. And I came home earlier than I thought it would be.
Haha. Didn't know it can be this easy. XD
Praise the Lord!
We were having sort of like a Christ Body Prayer today at PMU lawn at 4:30pm (in case you walked past and figuring what it was) XD
The weather today is very very very cold. And it is supposed to rain.
But we need a good sunny weather (well, at least not raining) in order to be outside praying for the revival of the campus. So, I was doing a little prayer to God that if it must rain today, let it be after 5:30pm. You can make it rain as heavy as You like after that.
It was still cold and windy when we prayed at 4:30pm....
Cold cold cold........ cold........ cold.....................cold..............
We finished our prayer at around 5:26pm and were preparing for the worship to close the whole thing.
Me and Jordan were like, "Oh faster! We still have 4 more minutes until 5:30pm (because we prayed that it would not rain until 5:30pm!)
So we kinda finished our first song and moving into the next......
Just when the cloud set apart and the sun shine its light so brightly through the dark clouds.
And guess what time it is? 5:30pm!!!!!
So, the end of the story is...........
I got a ride from a girl who went to the meeting too. And I came home earlier than I thought it would be.
Haha. Didn't know it can be this easy. XD
Praise the Lord!
We were having sort of like a Christ Body Prayer today at PMU lawn at 4:30pm (in case you walked past and figuring what it was) XD
The weather today is very very very cold. And it is supposed to rain.
But we need a good sunny weather (well, at least not raining) in order to be outside praying for the revival of the campus. So, I was doing a little prayer to God that if it must rain today, let it be after 5:30pm. You can make it rain as heavy as You like after that.
It was still cold and windy when we prayed at 4:30pm....
Cold cold cold........ cold........ cold.....................cold..............
We finished our prayer at around 5:26pm and were preparing for the worship to close the whole thing.
Me and Jordan were like, "Oh faster! We still have 4 more minutes until 5:30pm (because we prayed that it would not rain until 5:30pm!)
So we kinda finished our first song and moving into the next......
Just when the cloud set apart and the sun shine its light so brightly through the dark clouds.
And guess what time it is? 5:30pm!!!!!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Tomorrow
.....
How am I.... going to survive tomorrow?
.......
Sigh....
I am gonna have a long long day tomorrow. Starting at 8:30am and don't even know exactly when can I get home.
And... Having a meeting at 5:30pm?
Sincerely, it's not that I don't want to attend the meeting. It's just giving me headache because I would never know how can I get back after that.
You know, no bus after 6pm.
At least none to go back to my apartment =(
But God reminded me once again
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own."
- Matthew 6:34 -
So, I am going to sleep after this.
Trusting God that He will provide.
He always does.
How am I.... going to survive tomorrow?
.......
Sigh....
I am gonna have a long long day tomorrow. Starting at 8:30am and don't even know exactly when can I get home.
And... Having a meeting at 5:30pm?
Sincerely, it's not that I don't want to attend the meeting. It's just giving me headache because I would never know how can I get back after that.
You know, no bus after 6pm.
At least none to go back to my apartment =(
But God reminded me once again
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own."
- Matthew 6:34 -
So, I am going to sleep after this.
Trusting God that He will provide.
He always does.
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