I miss you

my friend....
no one can ever make me laugh the way you made me laugh.
no one can understand me better than you, except God of course.

I don't have to pretend in front of you.
I can cry and laugh the way I want.

I am just missing you, all of the sudden.

Fall 2010 in a wrap up

This semester has been hectic to me. Busy.

A lot of things happened. A lot of things changed.
Family, friends, relationship.

A lot of emotions: anger, frustration, confusion, depression, loneliness, hopelessness....

It makes me to reconsider my future. To think about what I really want to do. What I really want.
I am unsure if what I am doing now is what I like. I am unsure if I am still going to do the same things that I am doing now in the future. I lost the passion.

At the same time, God has been helping me to get out of a lot of hurts that I had. Guilt and shame. Bitterness and unforgiveness. I don't know how everything is going to work out. But I am trusting in Him. I am learning to let go bit by bit. And to let Him to come in. To cleanse my soul.

This semester turned out to be fine. I would say. But not a journey in my life which I want to go through once again.

越来越乱

　惨了咯。。
事情变得越来越 复杂 =(

我好想 可以找个人聊

可是 我可以找谁？

I am sorry

I am sorry =(
Maybe I should say this to you in person.

But I am not sure if I should raise this up again or not.
I don't want it to be anymore awkward than how it is now.

Maybe I will tell you.

He is not angry at you

God's wrath is upon the evil, the wicked, the death, the sin that keep us in bondage with brokenness and separate us from Him.
His wrath is upon the enemies. Not on us.

He is angry because He loves us.

If He doesn't even care about us, why would He even care to angry?

He has all the rights to choose not to care about us and to leave us all here purposeless, hopeless, waiting to be sent into the lake of fire (hell) forever and ever.
If He is angry at us, why in the world would He sent Jesus Christ here to save us?
Why would He even care to show us again and again, telling us again and again, warning us again and again, to come to Him? To have a relationship with Him?

Why would He keep trying and not giving up?
Even when He knows that our hearts are harden?
Even when He knows that His heart will be broken again and again by our rebellion?
Even when He knows that His sorrow will only be deepen by our ignorance?

Because He wants what's best for us.
Because He wants to heal our wounds.
Because He wants to lavish us with His love.
Because He has a plan for us, a plan to give us hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).

because He wants to break us free from our sins.

Salvation is a gift.
There is no ways that you can ever earn salvation except confessing with your mouth and believing in your heart that 'Jesus is Lord'. (Romans 10:9)
It is not a matter of how much good deeds you have done, how many verses that you can memorize, how many times that you have been to the church, how many rules that you have followed etc etc...

It is a FREE GIFT!
What you need to do, and learn to do, is simply ACCEPT IT!
You trade your sins to Him, He returns it with eternal life to you.

God did not create us to send us to hell.
He created us so that we can enjoy the felllowship with Him, so that we can have this relationship with Him, so that we can have eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

It's burning in my heart that I have to share this with all of you, because you need to know the Truth.
"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"
---John 8:32---

My merciful God

You have no idea how many times I failed Him again and again.....

And when I made this mistake,
I thought there will be no way out for me.

I did it.
I disobeyed Him.
The end.

But He has been so merciful on me.
He did not condemn me.
Like a father, He picked me up, saying "it's ok my princess"
"Let's take it one at a time"

And with His arm that is never too short to save,
He led me step by step.

This peace that I have not been feeling in a long long time.
Surround me now.....