The turnover...
well... friends...as u read this... it's gonna be very very long post...after two bloody years of not updating...
all i can say is...
2012...not really a good year neither a bad year... for me...it's the year of experience, the year of turnover.
let me begin from my school, the current course i'm in...Higher NITEC in Mechatronics Engineering (MCE).
The reason i chose MCE in ITE CW instead of being in College Central which is so damm near my house!
because of friends and all these...and erm...just to zabo from NS that's why i chose to come into this course...
after the the first sem and i got back my result and i see GPA 1.4....i look at myself and ask..."is these really what i want?" and because of that my mood literally sank....often come to school with the ai mai ai mai (come as when i like to) attitude...and here comes the thought....the thought of quitting...
and then i kept thinking and thinking...does these seems right?
and i decided to procrastinate about it...went around to ask if this are right...ask my dad, ask my close friends, and i really really thank god there's this person really enlighten me...he told me this society are practical (in layman's term, means realistic) ...people kept using one another...
sharing about how his navy mate so ah ga liao ( close ) with him... until he sees him outside and his friend told him these, i'll not acknowledge you as friend, if you are of no value to me...
somehow or what i'm kinda forget about the thoughts of quitting school!
then this is the where the turn around starts...
one day as i came to school, the time was 0840+, after squeezing through a heavy traffic!
i came into class, and the lecturer was writing on the whiteboard...let's call him Mr J...
upon seeing me, he said loudly: "the door is over there, i don't need to say so much...(pointing towards the door)." i was stunt and blured... and out of the class i went...go to a nearby table to sit... and i think angrily.."I HAVEN'T EVEN EXPLAINED MY SITUATION AND YOU CHASE ME OUT OF CLASS?!"...i was like...*)^*$&%&#@@@$#!!!!!
and then i think and i think again...if i don't ai mai ai mai pattern coming to school and came late somemore...would he treat me this way? that kinda inspire me to come early...the next day i tried to wake up early, but alas! was late again! because of sleeping late at night...and sometimes i do have problems sleeping at night and i don't know why...ok let's get back to the topic...even tough i was late, i'm glad mr J didn't chase me out this time round...and the next day i tried even earlier, didn't slept the entire night! and just come riding to school! and FINALLY i came early for class! throughout his lesson i didn't sleep at all...kept doing all the works all these...only until after his lesson and after a meal at the canteen...i literally fell asleep in the canteen! filled with hundreds of people somemore! power right? haha!
and for the next few months...kept didn't sleep and went to school straight!
this is one of the transition period that changes me. the other was... once i started regularly come to school and all these...the class were assigned into pairs to a project of a circuit to make a lamp on/off by sound detector (by clapping la) and...sadly, none of my clique in the class wanna pair with me, one of them rejected me and said "i'd rather do myself" (indirectly). so that's kinda struck me hard...and suddenly this navy classmates's words came back into my mind...
and once, it became my motivation to do things! nevermind! alone so shall it be! initially i kept struggling trying to follow the circuit map lay out and plot them into bread-board (those studying electronics should know what's that) which is like a prototype circuit. kept tearing down the entire circuit and place them back again for like 3-4times! damm sot sia! even get my electronics friend to help, but unfortunately, he also wasn't that zai, but i'd really wanna thank him and appreciate him from the bottom of my heart for helping me out! then i tried again...and thank god, it finally worked! but... that's just the beginning only...still have to put this circuitry into the vero-board, so another round of struggling moments again!
attached, soldered, test, failed, de-solder, tear down...on the verge of giving up, on the verge of going to sim lim sq to ask the fella do the circuit for me...but thanks to mr J, who never ignored me or whatsoever. really.... thank you so much:)
Mr J taught me to trace the connection instead of kept attach solder bla bla bla...
and FINALLY, i got it, i made it thru! but alas! it's submission time tomorrow! and i have yet to design a single outlook lamp for my project! crap shit! how ah? ji pai siao liao!
then the person who rejected me once called me up and asked if he could pair with me anot, aha! i asked ge-siao ask him, i thought u alr done with your circuit alr? he said he'll settled the design and that's..b'cos i'm kinda lazy to stress over the design, so agreed to pair with him...but scarly design...sign...."what's past is past"!
and on the submission day itself, Mr J understands i've been struggling with the circuit board itself and he reprimanded my partner, expecting him to show his own circuit board next week..phew! and during the 2nd sem i got 60% of average attendance, but guess what? i got double Bs! whoo!
so GPA sort of push it back again!
i know perhaps B to some of you are not really high, but for me, as i'm a person who's not good in studying, especially formulas, so to me personally it is very high alr! can even counted as an miracle for me alr!
so everyone's perspective towards me has started to change! And during the 3rd sem, those top 4 GPA scorer all went to team among themselves, very practical indeed...
So left 8 of us including me.
Well... both me & the navy big bro, I'll just call him song...wanted to be in a team...but the rest are unhappy with their team..so ended up me & him gotta split:( then the rest are happy with the arrangement. But I'm not saying my groupmates are bad or what...
But I'm glad that we're all so bonded!
That moment during fyp period time flies...
And guess what?! The project I'm leading in was sent to an nea competition we clinched the 3rd! Whoo!
Of cos not just credit to me, but every member for their effort...especially
edward for his heart and determinations and all the disagreement all these, actually i do find it fun also! HAHAHA!
HY uh? Er... the anything kind fella...always play around, but thankfully have u this monkey attitude that's what makes our group fun! And annoying! Ha!
Lastly, wc! U and me same pattern, but I'm really touched plus impressed that you during this fyp period u nvr mia and you make the effort to contribute, and if u notice, i think that sem was the most attendance u have gathered thruout our hnitec course...
And now...im so glad I've finally made it through ite both nitec and Hnitec!
And fi ally made it through poly! Now the path ahead is getting tougher! But i believe it's gonna kept getting me tougher!
Ps: it took me abt 6 months just to finish this post!
Worrying heart
This few days, or should I say, this few few weeks? Have been worrying and worrying a lot about others...
Especially when one of my friend whom I've known him for 6 years had recently left...even though 心里有点舍不得, but well, I wish him all the best in his future...and another friend of mine is getting addicted to gambling...worrying indeed does not end...
What if...
Heart's in a mess right now...
DK what to do for my future,
I'm a goner...
Sometimes just hate myself for being too caring for ppl...
Sometimes kena fk for nth... It's no point la... Haiya....
Finally come to an end...
Finally everything, attachment and life in sch has come to an end, it's nostalgic to leave these sch I've spent my two years in... Meanwhile, I'm happy becuz I don't have to come back. Now? Just waiting for graduation, but must also get an job to sustain, oh god, I wanna thank you for Your faithfulness in me . despite the fact im a disappointment, but u nvr give up in me, lord, I'm really sorry for all the things I've done...
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