Jcsy...

I still love you...

I love you...

what a liar. 

you played me out. -.-

I thought back on what I have done and why do I keep having friends like that. No, I meant why do I not have friends, friends that will share your woes with you, joy, friends who will tolerate your nonsense. Friends that will hang out with you , places you as an important friend, friends that will NEVER MAKE USE OF YOU. Friends that will talk to you and ask you out even when its the holidays. Friends that will not leave you aside even when they have their boyfriends. Friends who will not turn their back on you when you have problems.

Everyone has their little flaws here and there, so do I. Sometimes I say or do the wrong things. So do others. 

I do have a lot of friends. But I can't seem to find friends that I can really say that they are my best friends. Except God. But right now, I could feel the sense of loneliness. I really feel like going out after a tiring week of work and the only person I go out with is my boyfriend. Not that I don't like going out with him, but its different. I don't get to do manicure, haircut , shop for girls stuff with him. One more thing, whenever I quarrel with him, I do not know who to turn to?

I don't get it. Why are we only friends in school and we do not contact each other during vacation? 

Aside from family, work , boyfriend and many "hi-bye" friends, I really wish there is someone that would do things together with me.

My family and my boyfriend will definitely not like to shop around with me, gossip or just complain about things. 

The holiday is like a revelation of where I stand , I began to feel that the friendship I thought was so true was in fact a facade.....

It feels so hurt. I mean I really feel that I have been taken for granted. Why am I so nice? No, why am I so silly????? What's with the bestfriends forever or sisterly thing. I really treat them as one but I guess I am not treated as one. It gets really tiring and upsetting. 

This is such a personal post and I really hope no one will find their way to my blog cause I haven't been updating.

GAHH finally let out all my frustrations for the past week.

Bye.