The Last _ 2012

It is my last post for 2012
It's the end of my 18th years old
They said the sweetest moment is 18th, is it?
To me, 18 is a different year
A different teenage year.

Everything seems to be a fact
yet, I am too reluctant to accept it
or should say afraid :O

I remembered when I was small, I was craving to become at a certain age.
Yet, now as we grow older, we seems to be hesitating for some moments.
Well, to me, 2013 is another year.
I felt the same for 11.59pm in 2012 and 12.00am in 2013

I had a gathering dinner yesterday with Desire & 946
I really can't imagine what we will be after 10 years
Will we gather again leaving no one behind?
or
Having more and more difference in topic to talk on?
There are stil more to be improved in the future.
I really hope those kind of things won't happen again.
It's a matter of planning problem! aizzz

Sorry for those who are reading these
Recently, I just knew that many of you all do read my blog
I knew my blog affects some of your mood, maybe making you all feel down
Well, I am trying to " refurbish " it :P

Perhaps this is life
Having different colourful stories to fill our time

Happy 2013 dear all
I love you all < 3

庾澄慶 - 情非得已

宮崎駿的夢想之城

有時候 幼稚的要求
是因為知道你都會為我做到

─心之谷

有时候，最好的安慰，就是无言的陪伴。

Recently

Although is a bit late,
I would like to congratulate my dearest friends of achieving splendid results in SAM and UEC
You all are awesome !
Well, apparently some might be dissappointed of not having what have expected
but dear all life goes on
It's a chapter of your book but not the whole book

I decided to give myself a break after taking my SAM results
My parents were happier than me, especially my dad
He had never ever putting pressure on me.
On the other words, he told me to do my best

The moment I decided to have a choice
everything doesn't seems to go well.
Perhaps, I might not have faith for that course?

It is not that I being pessimistic
but do imagine I couldn't get in a uni which has a lower entry requirement
yet to say a uni of higher entry requirement
Waiting for my last favourite uni for reply in Jan
I do predicted the results
Well, all the best?
It is quite sad that I couldn't study in Australia like my parents do.
Maybe they are one of the reasons I strongly wanted to go there
The life I have been craving for

There are two choices
I got other courses in Australia in some universities but not the course I want currently
If I damn wanna study in Aus, I would have to take the courses.

However, I really do not know what came to me
Have a sudden strong belief of what I want.
In the moment, I need to apply hk, sg, uk
Tons of stupid application stresses me out!
Meanwhile, I couldn't reject any Uni in AUS
what if there is no university wants me :(

I was scared that I made a wrong choice.
As you said, a small step from now might affect the whole life in the future.
It is just like chinese chess, if you do not have a good start, life becomes harder later.

Anyway, piss off the bad things for a moment
I do enjoy the events this happened this week
It is a Christmas week !
MERRY XMAS

悲

好想崩溃了

眼泪在眼眶打滚

却一再的叫自己不要献丑

要坚强

you

Hoping for you to come back from vacation as soon as possible

YET I am afraid what's happen next

Can I just get my results and leave as soon as possible?

two days left..Are you nervous?

Can anyone tell me which is better?
Iphone 5 or S3? :/

I am so picky!
Aquarius can't decide things which are equally good
aiz~ My parents can't stand my hesitation too

Moments

Trying to understand every moment of what you did

Trying to achieve something which is hard to me

Can I do it?

It took years to become an expert

and I am doing a miracle to be expert in a month?

Angeline, the girl who always give me a helping hand

Velyne, the one who is crazier than me

Have a lots of outings this week.

It had been a week for not eating mom's food.

I DON'T WANNA MISS A THING- AEROSMITH

This is a song that I love so much

It reminds me of every moment and how I really feel

I've miss you

 I could lie awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Well you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
And just stay here lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

[Chorus]
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
Just stay in this moment forever, forever and ever

[Chorus]

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

[Chorus: x2]

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

感触

一些话 我以为我已经没感觉了
但 今天却影响了我的心情
不能告诉别人 我很在意 那些问题
因为我最了解 所以大家都来问我
我都没说
其实心里 已经被划了一刀 再一刀

下午 游车河
一直塞车
因为某些原因
我们和ShitWei 吃饭
还是那么搞笑
但大家似乎都有自己的方向
你说 十年后再 全校Gathering, 行吗？

很享受在ANGEL房
我们的胡闹
我想 我们这种幼稚不知道要几时才会有了
某些人 某些动作 好怀念

晚上
见了一些朋友
似乎是久违的道别
今天 我偷偷地望了每个我认识的人
观察他们
像是最后的永别
但 有缘还是会见的吧！

 对于一些事
我非常后悔
当时懵懵懂懂的我
因为 就是提不起勇气
只要 稍微 一变
我想 结果应该不一样了！

还有几天
人生就要大变

提醒自己
你是我的好哥哥

work

Well, it's an emo day for me
It was the first time I stay serious when I was working in my dad's shop
I can say,
I am a picky person
I don't like clerk work
Business doesn't suit me too

I wanted to help people
but at the same time I need to earn a living too

Anyway,
I was so glad that Dad thought me some of his things

Don't regret
I was telling myself

11 days to enjoy before my Atar is out

Felt better after Y asked me to watch a show
I cant explain the real situation to you
Everything is not that simple like theory

KTM

Remind me don't ever take KTM

Do you know how it feels when your phone is dead and you have no one to contact

You know your friends are desperately waiting for your reply

Well, it is a challenging day

Asking unknown people for their phones

I was so grateful that they had helped me

Imagine those days people without handphones

How they tell each other where they are

I am sorry for letting many people worrying about me

I felt bad

I am really sorry




Suddenly I miss you so much!

Do you really wanna know a girl!

When a GIRL is quiet,

Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around
When a GIRL answers “i’m fine” after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms’s u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can’t live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says “i miss you”,
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

This is a poem I saw online

I showed to one of my friend

and this is how he replied me

When i am quiet,

Billions of things are running in my mind (Gong sam-ing)

Even I am arguing,

I am thinking deeply

When I looks at u with eyes full of questions,

Im wondering how can you be so noob

When I answers “i’m fine” after a few seconds, (I never fine)

When I stares at you,

Im wondering why you are so noob

When I lays on your chest,

I am chao-ing ur sui

When I call you everyday,

U must be a potato

When I sms’s you everyday,

I am going to bankrupt

When I says I love you,

Please wake me up

When I says that I can’t live without you,

I must be crazy

When I says “I miss you”,

No one in this world can be gay-ier than me.

MIDVALLEY

好久没那么开心了

没想到自己，TOKEN和 ANGEL可以走整天

大包小包 东西都不是卖给自己的

也是我第一次去逛街 吃那么多东西
台湾餐、SNOWFLAKES、DELICIOUS、TONG PAK FU、DELICIOUS 蛋糕

好久好久没那么开心地笑了
真的笑了

谈回往事
都是傻事

笑容總是在相逢後露出 卻又會為了下次的離別感到難過
─崖上的波妞

说不定 我们 很久很久之后才能这样了

谈起未来
还真好笑
有莫名的期待 却带着无比的不舍

无意间看到师妹的po
让我感触很深

 spm的华文题目的第一题就是回家。
简短的两个字，我却想起了许许多多故事。
14岁那年离乡背井到一个不熟悉的地方，17岁这年终于回家。
我本身就是个粘家的人。一年级上学我在学校哭了好几个月都还在哭。
然后，14岁，我去了一个很远的地方读书。虽然不是很远，但还是远。
我以为离乡背井很好玩，好像可以变很独立。所谓独立，就是跌跌撞撞的成长。

飘飘荡荡的过了几年，一年又一年的，我开始成长。
可是越成长就发现，怎么世界越变越多。我开始怀念小时候。
从14岁那年，我就一直希望时间过快点，我要17岁，这样就可以回家。
在外面流浪多年，就会发现家里才是最温暖的。
很多人告诉我，很讨厌在家，很想出国。
我就在心里想，等你体验了就会开始爱上家。然后才发现父母是最好的。
不过当然，人都要离开家的。
4年流浪在外，我回来了。
回来一个真正属于我的地方。继续开始我的人生旅途。
我，也不打算再离开家了;D
我选了离家最近的大学。每天都可以回家了。
我也要修学我最爱的音乐了。

我的未来现在才开始;D
现在我要学习更多的东西;D


Token 告诉我 出国读书没那么好玩
我还是不幸
往往想事情 没那么简单
举了几个例子
我还是坚持我的立场

其实 我也很害怕

但 还是要用正面的态度 去面对

学着 找回自己

 知道那是多么美好的 而清楚自己不可能拥有的心情
想象到吗?


这就是人生

"真正的朋友不會因為你有了新的生活而忘記你只是有時候他們選擇安靜的祝福等待再次的交集
－魔女宅急便"

心情

我有好多好多东西想写
好多好多东西想分享
但 往往都是在脑里想了算了
或是不得空写

结束了两个prom
应该让父母心痛了吧

SILHOUETTE- CH Prom
meaning-shadows

Desktop Screensaver :P

Part of Desire & 946

Casino Royale- Taylor Prom

Me laughing :D
No image :P

My current FB Profile Picture

Part of my classmates :)

Just wanna say I like this picture as it looks so natural
Everything looks so happy
and it is not fake
What happen in that moment? 

MY BELOVED DEAR YAN RU < 2
Part of my < 3 

本想假期 好好找份有意义的工
看着大家 都为自己的假期 打算
我好像又颓废了
答应自己要实行的 却懒惰去做

放下了一些东西
真的 没那么难受了
很想告诉一位朋友
我很明白她的感受
不要脸封闭自己
找些有意义的东西 让生活更充实
你不知道自己的存在对别人来说是多么大的意义

最近
我也担起了责任
为desire & 946 之旅忙碌
不知道为什么
很想为她分担
过去她一人处理，我真的觉得她很强大
我都做到快崩溃了
自己好多事情都不懂


跟叔叔借了三本书
我想我可以转行当导游了
这次 告诉自己不能在懵懵懂懂
很想让你另眼相看

Books I had been reading recently
Trip for Desire & 946

很感谢姑姑待我环游马六甲
告诉我那里那里 好吃好玩
怎样走才是重点

回忆下去年COWBOY gang 去马六甲
还真的让自己难忘
看回旧照片
看回group里面的短片
笑笑下当时傻傻的我们
那恐怖的TRUE OR DARE 我还记得！

傻婆的自己   xD

Satay Celup :P

模仿那些年？

hehe

帅？

扮可爱？

美好回忆 曾经的我们

瞧一瞧日历
她的生日好像要到了
不知道为什么
总觉得很想做一个卡给她
邮寄份礼物给她
虽然很不想再见面
自己还是答应了
这样做 不虚伪吗？

那天 写了一大堆感言
我想我们保持这样的距离最好
很开心 你愿意跟我分享
面对你 只有微笑 但 有莫名的舒服感
无可否认 我是最了解你的人
但 我们都有各自的梦想
我相信缘分
我可爱的 弟弟

很快的
就要步入大学
如你说的 事实
我知道
但 我就是不想接受

家里的事，也慢慢学着做

娶我的人 有够可怜

除了幼稚 还是幼稚