1.2

最近 总觉得自己像个变态

1。看了某位朋友的fb 让我没那么害怕上我的大学
她是我未来的学姐
看了他在当地的生活
我希望 一切顺利

2。后悔没有去当SUKMA 工作人员
毕竟我没去过 SUKMA 全国赛
感觉很壮观 不一样
 偶然间 看到一位女生的FB
她是马大毕业的牙医
也得到了INTERNATIONAL EMPIRE
突然燃烧起我想 去考一个牌会来
她环游全世界，认识各国球员
让我很羡慕 也佩服

加油吧！

Live

Probably that's the way I should live.

bye

Why should I care?

Why are you telling me those?

My heart breaks till million pieces ..

but I can't blame you because you don't know about it


Please let the time pass faster, please.

I wanted to leave
wanted to live without you

I know that's my faith
saying bye to you

记

今天去了医院

看到了一个布告板

冲忙行走的人， 往往都会忽略它

上面帖着癌症病人感谢卡

里面装满了病人们的话

不知道为什么 我觉得很温馨

提醒了我16日的父亲节

好像大声说 我爱你 爸

shit

The moment you thought you know

but actually it's just s piece of shit

新界面

原谅我的新界面

因为一些事的确让我感到不安

欣慰

欣慰你过得很好

The day

It's gonna be tuesday.

That frustrated me.

羡慕

你往往只会有羡慕的眼神、心情、梦

八独中

近期是学校假期
也是雪隆八独中

我相信曾是代表球员都有所感触

最近比赛的花絮一直涌往心头
如果继续在中华读先修联 可以参加八独中
继续发梦吧！

原来我那么怀念八独中
一起住宿舍
一起5点起来做体能
一起睡午觉
一起练球
一起吃杯面
一起检讨
一起哭
一起分享胜利

每场比赛往往都深深刻入脑子里
尤其是那些输了的比赛
好像对我留下阴影
哈哈！
不过也值得怀念

学弟学妹们一定要加油！
很抱歉 上星期没有出席你们的练习
现在 又无法到场为你们加油
非常抱歉

原来我曾参加了3年的雪隆八独中，2年的全国独（沙巴、太平）
好怀念啊

这是我从箱子里找到的八独中与全国独钟奖牌，
不知道其他收取那里了 ==

早睡

如果每晚很早躺在床上

但是 睡不着

那算早睡？

感

感恩 感谢

做美食

喜欢自己做美食的朋友们

分享以下的link

http://dodocook.com/

same

I have been listening to the same phrases all the time.

Looking at the similar expressions all the time.

Is it me or what I just don't like to talk about it

Perhaps I am a fail daughter, a fail grandaughter

How I wish I can be Sherlock

何时

何时名单上已经没有你的名字

何时会因为忙碌而把你隐藏在土里

何时抗拒知道你过得好不好

何时

从去年计划好的东西
最后因少了那份勇气，还是 被理智操控？

这几个月做的功课
最后会因为惋惜而留恋

很努力地学习一些东西
因为知道你会喜欢

因为知道你喜欢那个感觉

最后只能道一句 敷衍的话 告诉你

Like I care 会是你给我的答复

任性

应该继续任性 还是 心软？

神探福尔摩斯

最近迷上了神探福尔摩斯

虽然是虚幻故事 却往往能给人惊喜的画面

真的好想飞去伦敦，到Baker Street的神探福尔摩斯的博物馆

http://www.google.com.my/search?q=sherlock+holmes+museum&newwindow=1&stick=H4sIAAAAAAAAAGOovnz8BQMDAy8HixKnfq6-gXlWVpYpb0RLvUroXsMrZ74sz5pyvGFlrsgNAIx50a0qAAAA&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ei=FbCZUezhN4OtrAfH8YDQCQ&ved=0CAoQ_AUoAQ&biw=1366&bih=667


好像很漂亮

Whether

Don't know whether I am cold -blooded or lack of knowledge

乐

静静陪伴我地音乐

感恩感恩

何时男人会流泪?

平安

那天 我目睹了妈妈偷偷地哭了3次
我的心真的很酸很酸
一面在抹地的她一面哭
默默凝视她吸气眼眶都红肿了
心真的很痛

亲戚致电问道

看着妈妈忍着泪水 声音却变了

我知道他的心如刀割般

深夜里，她睡不着 一直哭一直哭

我真的不知道要做什么
抱着妈妈却无法让她停止伤心
心痛

妈妈在爸爸面前逞强
我相信爸爸应该会比我们更伤心
只是没有表现出来

大人往往都喜欢在小孩面前逞强
妈妈告诉我
爸爸人那么好,为什么
爸爸说他凶多吉少
妈妈眼泪一直在打滚

我知道妈妈比我还脆弱
我必须要坚强

更不用想去英国读书
拿到好的大学有怎样
最坏的打算
除了经济问题,也不可能抛下照顾我的父母

妈妈离开社会那么久
一直以来都是爸爸在工作
我,真的恨不得赶快毕业

明天爸爸要去动手术了
祈祷他一切顺利

心理应该会很害怕吧
我想爸爸应该更害怕

愿爸爸平安健康
我爱你 爸妈

回忆

回忆一直涌入眼帘

One day

I knew one day we might be different.

After got some tips from your classmates, I knew we might be different one day.

I don't know how thirsty we will be one day

How vulnerable we will be

Just hope you will live well

Happily..hing buk ka

happen

I don't know what happen to me?

MAD? FURIOUS?

FRUSTRATED? DEPRESSED?

I can't believe I cried in front of the public

cried in front of my parents for no reason, perhaps?

I was holding back so hard

but every time when someone asks are you okay

I couldn't control and just burst into tears

Probably I was mad at someone for making me feeling unbalance

Probably I was stressed about decisions

Probably I miss you so much

Probably having mood swings, ladies problems

Probably...

Bye Bye

#I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

I wish I could talk to you for awhile

Miss you but I try not to cry#

放

现在想想

没必要为一些事努力了

虽然很不舍

心淡

LIAR

Staying Tough
Staying Strong

STOP IT

YOU LIAR!!!

Crying

He's crying...

Kills

You do not know how it kills me..

Just give me a reason < 3

Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat weren't all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep oh ohThings you never say to me oh ohTell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love
(Chorus)Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
It's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understandWhere all of this is coming fromI thought that we were fine(Oh we had everything)Your head is running wild againMy dear we still have everythin'And it's all in your mind(Yeah but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams oh ohYou used to lie so close to me oh ohThere's nothing more than empty sheetsBetween our love, our loveOh our love, our love
(Chorus)Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
I never stoppedYou're still written in the scars on my heartYou're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh tear ducts and rustI'll fix it for usWe're collecting dustBut our love's enough
You're holding it inYou're pouring a drinkNo nothing is as bad as it seemsWe'll come clean
(Chorus)Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
It's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
It's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againOh we can learn to love againOh we can learn to love again oh ohThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

place

I thought I found a place to hide but yet you found me unexpectedly .

解

的确很惊讶　她告诉了我

当时　我向往的一切美好　仿佛　让我继续质疑

到底　我所希望的　可靠吗？

有很想　知道我未来的冲动

其实我一点都不了解

THIS WEEK

Attended 2 different type of classes this week.
I didn't find a partner to go with me because I wanted to be independent and make new friends.
If I bring one, I might be overly attached to her :P

Well, it's a great learning with different kinds of people.
I felt that I am young in both classes.
People even called me " xiao mei mei " :p

I really need to improve my communication skills.
I tend to be shy in front of just known people.
Some people are really good in finding topic to talk at but I just rather keep quite and stare at the table.
OH GOSH :X

Everyone here is serious about learning.
Even grandmothers came to learn as well as some parents.
Having different country friends are cool.
If you ever know their lifestyle or culture of their country, I am sure one will be amazed :P

In my opinion, Malaysians aren't quite friendly.
Unlike the overseas people, they tend to greet you everyday.
It's good when you have a bad day and someone just greeted you.
It makes you energetic and happy instantly.

Sometimes I do grateful for the family background I have.
There are many things are beyond our expectations.
Sometimes I do shocked about knowing "what people really are"
You can't believe what you see as we are living in a comfortable environment.
Maybe that's what society is or worse.

How do you feel when talking to someone who is a working man or woman?
How do you feel when speaking to someone who is your classmates and also a mother ?

Good luck and I am gonna improve myself :D

JJANG~!!
HWITTING~!! :)

English

Hello people!

I do have something to share with you guys.

I am currently attending full time English Course at British Council. They gave us some useful websites which
 is free for everyone. Well, I hope to share with you guys.

Below are the links!

http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en/grammar-and-vocabulary


http://grammar.ccc.commnet.edu/grammar/spelling.htm


http://selfstudywebsites.blogspot.com/


Hope you all enjoy them!

me

I do really hope there's another me to talk with

The one that will understand the most

The one that I can lean comfortably

random

Well, it's another so called " Rusting Day" to me.

Suddenly I just remembered that I haven replied her message which had been left aside few days ago.

It was long and emotional. I really don't know how to reply and that's why I left it for few days.

I was watching the video I made for her again and realised there was a lot of mistakes on the video.

I wanted to give her something that is perfect but sometimes my strength are still limited.

You can't force those people to give you if they don't want.

I just don't understand why some people can't just be honest and tell the truth in the first place.

Procrastinate just make everything getting more and more worse.

And also it's something that I had told them few weeks ago.

No matter how old you are, the same things happen too!

Anyway, that's not the main point for now.

Looking at the book that I wrote, I really hope I can finish them before I enter the uni.

How does a smart woman look like?

well, let's figure this out.

Smart women

What do smart woman know?

Smart women know that they can feel fear and still act fearless.

Smart women know who they are and what they’re worth.

forward

I never dare to have a single thought about what will it be for our future

If think deeply, it's just a kid's play

Maybe we are just used to having each other around.

You never know those tiny bits of words which sound simple but it kills

Maybe I am just worried or lonely or not

I had written a list of work to do similar to the movie " Scent of The Woman"

I am gonna finish them before my university life begins.

Well, I truly remembered what you said and I am upgrading.

Thank you and have your own life.

OH YEAH~!

最后一天

我也不知道自己怎样坚持到现在

此时的心情 我也不知道怎样形容

等待？发呆？期待？

我很讨厌自己那容忍度

我真的很想爆发在那些人面前

那些不负责任的家伙

我为什么还是会那么那么的在乎

对！我不能把全部人想像都是一样的。

无法理解


在我身边的朋友都上课了

我想 应该去学 自己要学的东西 充实自己
我知道 大家都很忙 不得空 理我了

或许 应该隔绝 自己
妹说，＂你生病了＂
对！ 我也这样觉得，很严重的病。
我也不想让自己那么无法自拔

会因为小事而愁
真实性笨蛋

愁

亲自见了 他们

平复了 我的 伤感之情

没有 那几天想象 的 伤心

No such thing as 'I can't live without you', cause the world still moves on. So does the people. :)

真心祝福你们

Thank you

Thank you so much for the surprises, attendance, wishes, presents, etc

I love you guys < 3

生日

最近 要生日了
很多人问我 感想 T^T
还有 礼物？ :3

我很想说 我很想低调地过 ._.

不知道是我 长大了 还是什么
以前的我 是向往着 开派对 等
父母却迟迟 不赞同
或是 希望大家来跟我庆祝

现在呢 我想 简简单单地过
因为每一年都有生日
一句真诚简单的祝福 我都会很开心
心领了

虽然没有见到面
但 依旧 以温暖的语气 问候
还真的 会很感动

不想那么快到
回想起 结束了一月
要面对现实了

怀念和大家去旅行
暂时 放下包袱
睡也比较快入睡

2013
我只有愿望

爱你的那颗心依旧那么坚持

我不小心把其中一个愿望给了你

有人会说我傻 但我不后悔

其实 我们根本不需要后悔

你决定的那当下 不是你真真要的吗？

所以啊

应该好好充实自己 让自己更完美

音乐

原来我可以感性到 听一首音乐 流泪了

从未发现音乐可以那么好听

曾经 应该是 被负担所逼 不喜欢音乐

最近 真的很想学会音乐

看到朋友 信心满满 表演 真羡慕

Everything has beauty

but not everyone sees it 

- 一切都结束了-

Tehee

Insta :P

SAM Award Ceremony 

心愿

最后 我还是鼓起勇气 问了

这礼拜 都知道两位好友 藏在心中 的谜
也没有预料到 他们会说

总算料了 去大学前 的 小小心愿

一定一定要 幸福

大学

明天同年的朋友开始上大学了
开始上课了
自己还真的很羡慕很羡慕

我真的真的 好想上大学
现在的心情，我想 不是每个人都能体会到的
犹记得 四月  自己成绩已经合格了 却还有人比我更好 与新加坡无缘
来了一股一时的失落感
接着 陪我度过分享心事的朋友的离开
让我更想上大学了

最后还是自己的犹豫不决
还有一股莫名的坚持感
选了一个 超级竞争的科系
放弃了自己 最喜欢的澳洲

刚刚一直在浏览网页
其实自己为何那么坚持？
突然真的很想做医生 进全世界都去的大学
看了 心术 让我了解 医生 的生活
或许是被某人影响了
但 我是不会走这条路的
我知道自己 是不能抗压的
所以 选了一份类是 医生的科系吧
或许让我坚持的理由 是 想 让有不一样的自己
活在你的阴影下 好想 二十年后 被刮目相看
或是 不小心 我们同级了
好傻

这些日子
我好像没有进步
怎样才能突破呢？

你那微小的脑子
能有如光速般的速度 思考 我好羡慕


我會努力完成所有
讓你看見更好的我