Flower Therapy

While assisting Ida with her daily chores as an administrator, (and enthusing more pizazz into executing the chores if I may) we had the most pleasant trip to the local florist. Usually with flowers ; roses, a single stem for a lover, 3 for saying I love you, a dozen for something, and 2 dozens if you really mean it. Haha. Google it, I'm not much for remembering these things.

I used to always get flowers from F, until he got me. Haha. But seriously, even my mom says that. Which is unfair because F accused me of neglecting the stems that he gave me when I accidentally left them in the back of the car (cue : boooooo!) So, that was his official reason for quitting this highly acclaimed habit of his. Cis cis.

The other day he made me feel like shit and I told him exactly how I felt and the next evening he came over for coffee and gave me a 3-way-puzzle. A red, a white and a pink rose. Abang ni kenape? Haha.

Today he sent me off to the heliport, like old times. I miss having him around, being the soul of Kemaman and Kuantan for me. I barely take the time to learn the streets, spoilt silly by him. He had to rush home and my pout brought in 5 lovely stems of pink roses.

Malangnya chopper aku 2.45 ptg esok. I hope Ida wouldn't mind sharing their wonderful ambiance in my absence.

Pau Serat

Haritu pergi Kulim, Kedah. Trip yang agak zombie-esque (I made that word up). Aku sedap sangat tidur di belakang. Dan Kepen dan Faliq sahaja yang memandu. Kesian mereka. Sarapan that day, ginger tea with pau serat perisa ayam kari. Ooh la la. Vatt?

Aku agak excited bila nampak sawah padi. Sangat excited. I hope my films will roll out nicely. The wedding was joyous, and purple. Such a lovely color.

I'm glad I made it at least to one of my bestfriend's wedding.

W : Jitters

I close my eyes, and try to envision what the big day will look like. I feel like I've done everything pretty much according to the checklist. Omitting videography, a professional MC, usherettes that will follow me to the stage, a specific theme for the night to say the least.

I hope it will be as pleasant as any ordinary dinner, with the exception that there will be 2 people sitting on the stage begging for your well wishes and prayers for our commitment to marriage.

At times I feel like I have simply ordered people, flowers and decorations to be present for the wedding. I am scared that it will not flow, like a wedding should. And that I have forgotten a special X ingredient that no-one could point out to me.

I am not, thank God a bridezilla. Just picky in all the right places. Did I share that the wedding process usually brings out the true color of your partner's tastes and priorities? Its fun to learn.

Sepetang di KSB

Aku teka ni mesti kereta boss. Minggu ni agak best, aku dan housematesku semua berpuasa. Seronok masa berbuka. Semalam pasar malam, the day before kami pesta masak dan melantak berkilo-kilo sayur. Malam ini kami sekaki celebrate pemergian boss Ida. Aku rasa pipi aku sangat tembam sekarang. Alin tak berkesudahan menyuruhku untuk mencuba slimming centers. Yarks.

Let's see if starving myself for 3 weeks offshore will do the trick.

Making our way there

Early morning, long drive. Two pillows. How I wished I had more time to stop by Ipoh, or get some guava from Tapah. I miss Perak.

Sek mek minom petang

Mi calong (serba masin) , ikang goreng tepung so, otok-otok, kepuk ngang lah skali ape ke benda tu. Last skali its called pais.

Total meal (it started out as snacks) for 3 adults = rm 30 plus.

Satu Bulan dan Tiga Minggu

This was from last night. Bye!

Spotted!

Aku rase F mase kecik adalah seperti : sembam mcm bantal busuk, padat, rambut besar sebesar songkok, muke nakal. Perwatakan dia mesti tak lain tak bukan, cuma satu : degil.

Gambar ni agak kelakar, tapi aku simpan jugak. InsyaAllah, aku berdoa cepat dapat anak nanti.

W : Scrapbooking

Its more like colorful filing than anything.

Theres something about KL, when I come here to work I always find myself coming down with a fever. I'm guessing its the full-blast air conditioning and unpredictable weather we have.

Delia aku dah kira

Basically ada lagi 60 hari sebelum hari tersebut. Hari yang di nanti-nanti kan.

Hari di mana apis sudah berjanji padaku sesuatu.

Betul ke die akan berhenti merokok.

9 things

1. degil
2. lumbe kerete
3. futsal
4. rokok
5. tido
6. music
7. kawAn2
8. arsenal
9. sylvia

and I didn't even make it on the top 9. wow.

Tying up the loose ends

So this is what it feels like, to near completion. To come to the moment we've all been planning for. I'm collecting pieces, putting them together into a scrapbook that will turn up to be a book full of memorabilia consisting of snippets of fabric, stickers I peeled off the things we bought, business cards, receipts, hand notes. I'm such a collector I believe this is my talent put to good use.

We sealed the deal with our flower power provider. I'm so giddy and excited I need to make sure I am always thankful to Him. To be blessed with good health, a positive mind, and pure heart.

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I noticed F and I are advancing to a different level of goofing around. It involves making fun of things we both find ridiculously funny, apologizing for nothing and everything, telling one another off in good nature and with a whole load of respect.

9 hours

Today all I remember was how frustrated I got whenever I had to explain myself or the reasoning behind everything. I am upset because most of the time I feel that he's just not putting that much thought behind a process. Its sad. Which is also why I get so messed up whenever you make a remark that passes as a thoughtless comment.

W : It's so fun I could die

I enjoy this so much I'd be sad to see it come to an end.

W : Inspired by

To all brides to be, the best way to satisfy your own quench over details and more details of your wedding would be to do all the homework. Work out what you like, and know for sure what you don't like. If that alone is a challenge, know your own style and make sure it looks good on you! It always helps to have a second opinion from a bestie, or your partner. At the end of the day, he's the one you want looking at you. Zarina shared with me this link. I think its pretty cute get up especially if your donning the hijab.

Sketch out what you want, and be inspired by everything you love. There's tonnes of stuff on the internet. I stopped buying bridal magazines a while ago, since I think the local ones carry pretty much the same stuff and I set out not to rent my dress.

Most importantly, have fun and stay within your budget!!

W : More advise you don't need

Look at em toes. At least his are way more fugly-er than mine. Hehe. Its funny how people tend to hand out to you advice especially since they know your preparing to get married. I think its kind, and thoughtful of them but at times I can't help but feel disgusted and tired of the same things people kept on saying to me.

Like, slimming world. What in the world for would I need to go to a slimming world prior to my own wedding? Hitting the gym, fine that makes sense cause you might as well be in the prime of your health in order to endure a long day smiling and posing for people you love. Especially if you're looking at conceiving. Which makes perfect sense to me. Ideal world case. I'd like to be in top shape before I conceive so that it might be easier on my body to bounce back to its original state (haha ye ke?).

The only things I do want to do before the big day would be to bleach my teeth, get on a regular healthy diet to control my cholestrol level (I get so annoyed every time he wants to have a meal at KFC), try to jog or do yoga in front of the telly. And stay within budget. Haha.

I've always been an avid fan of honey and its embarrassing when they tease you about consuming it for other reasons. Doink. Oh just so you know, Yemen honey is of the highest quality =)

W : Eureka!!

As I was editing my slides.









Something to refrain from : have not yet paid the seamstress. Nor have I settled paying the event location, band, flower arrangements, cake...

Found these babies here.

Zumgeburstag Fuhrer!

Happy birthday. Semoga ayah sentiasa dikelilingi dengan orang-orang tersayang. You will always be my benchmark on happy living. My love for you may never be fully revealed, but we share our likes and interests, and odd hobbies. I guess that will remain to be our special thing =)

Heil, Fuhrer. Ich liebe dich!!

Little specks of cocoa powder

There are two things I can't really bear in this world :

#1. is when we have to part ways with those we love
#2. is when I feel like I am a contributor to a financial crisis

Yesterday we got his stuff =) well deserved and very happy.

Hanging on to shadows

To have everyone constantly asking if you were going, you might as well went.
You could have easily put yourself in a loop and gave each caller the same answer.
'Im sending off my mum'
I'm curious to know what you really feel, inside that small head of yours. Its just covered with so much hair.
You need a haircut.
But you're such a superhero, famous for being in 2 places at one time. Never have put yourself before others. You may be selfless, and forget.
Please don't forget me.

You fixed other people's toilets, in their homes.
Do they need a superhero too?

I just felt that you were sad to see her go.

Had a great weekend

I wanted to recall how frustrated I was last weekend. But decided against it. I'm at Sara's now. So much more happier. I wrote something earlier.

Anyways. He still smokes.

It never fails to break my heart.

Well Control

And in between studying about reverse circulation and bullheading operations, I went out to get his =) (men's are wayyy cheaper thats for sure!)

Yellows and Blues

Just wanted to share a piece of my life here.

Would I want to spend the rest of it in this business though? Not really sure.

A tear for 200 calories

Such a pleasant thought, to know that with each tear we cry we actually get to burn 200 calories? Lets start those cryin' engines ladies!! Amidst all the subtle but disturbing chaos in my life, I want to recall how ridiculously silly I was when the time came for him to get me the ring. Haha. Like, really stupid silly I was.

On a bind for time, I, we didn't really know when the next time both of us would be around together so I took liberty in surveying alone while he was at work. It was on sale.

Of course it was.

A few days later I dragged him along to take a looksy. Compared the prices and texted mama all the way out there to get her input. No pictures were taken. Just prices and which one I liked by rating. So I had my heart set on a pretty basic shape, nothing like the posts I shared earlier. I didn't want to regret getting an all out funky ring and then not wearing it in the years to come.

Anyways the day ended up with my cheeks stained with dried up tears and him not really getting the problem I was having with the whole ordeal.

The picture clearly depicts him with his rejected body language positioned away from me insisting that he has everything under control and my actions have belittled him and his capability.

So here's to the jug of tears on the day we got my wedding ring.

(Love you!!)

Plea.

Somebody please align the stars back to the way they were last week. Cause apparently some how my mojo's been hacked into smithereens and I'm pissed off shitless and exhausted from even beginning to remember how I got to this point. Please just shoot yourself.

Lovetel

I'm enjoying the view here. The bright sunlight from my train rides as I pore over a good book. I brought one over for you babe. I'm enjoying the early morning walks and the early afternoon retreat back to security, cease the studying at once!

I've got the chance to recuperate, sweat it out a little, binge a little, cry a little.

I hope you won't get tired of me.

Texture Sensitive

Aku nak cerita pasal minggu ini je lah. Semalam aku buat purchase paling penting dalam hidup aku. Bukan beli rumah lah. Walaupun membeli rumah itu adalah penting juga.

Anyways. I had a blast shopping with my junior. Which lead me to come back to fashion basics. Invest in some essential piece clothing, buy some cheap comfortable fabrics and get them replicated at 1 percent of the initial price. The outcome? A wardrobe full of colors you wished the store carries!

Its kind of a bummer you have to save so much for things like weddings and buying a house. And the need to cut off on how much you spend a month for yourself. Sheesh.

Aku masih sedang menunggu bilakah boss aku akan naikkan pangkat ni. Choi.

W : Wedding Rings

F's given me the green light on choosing my own ring since he chose blindly for our engagement. I'm definitely thinking of going funky. I found it a preference of mine to wear one piece that is outstanding, rather than have to pile up or wear more than 1 ring to make a statement. I've been browsing and browsing.. Have fallen deeply in love with these babies. Where in KL can I find these?? The furthest I'd even think of venturing would be to Singapore. Even so..I'd need to know where to look. Ah ah ah.

Lovely turquoise! One of my all time favorite stones. Should I consider getting the rocks and then setting them in white gold here. Sigh. Too many choices. Turquoise. Its rustic. And utterly romantic. Well at least for me.

I've got a feeling these jewels above totally sticks out and is wearable if you had a pair of them piled on top of the other kan. Tak sasal nak dua cincin? Dream on. But they look so do-able and affordable..?

This would be the ultimate ring for me. Its from grey diamond. Where to get lah? I think its very raw and rough and is a far cry from the norm of perfect cut diamond wedding rings which I have started to lose interest in. Mahal ke a? Mari google skrang!

Ok for all you wonderful stalkers/friends.. I have no clue what my wedding ring will be like. Of course, deep down I want a solitaire set diamond ring, with a twist or two. But if the time is not right for that kind of purchase, then why force it? Happy day dreaming kin!

All pictures are obtained from the web.

Introducing

My new official ride. New as in, brand new concept to me. Not even our bike. Holy smokes all I do is shut my eyes tight every time we take a bend. But its also fun cause I get to hug f on the run =p

As cool as you

I had a great time discovering myself tonight. With the aide of my good friend. Its high time I put myself first. I guess it was never really in my blood to do so. I've always wanted to do things with others, nothing much on doing things alone. Having too much fun on my own makes me feel guilty. This usually leads to finding myself getting upset over excursions that did not have me as one of the guests. Typical if you consider my work cycle. My weakness would be wanting to share every fun stuff with others. I need to learn to cut loose of those nasty strings that hold me down.

Anyhoots. I want to go to at least half of the seven wonders of the world. Let's try to name them for starters shall we? And the silk road. That would be so me. Already I can see ayah teasing me saying that I look a lot like the locals. Haha.

I learnt a new phrase today, reverse culture shock.

In my eyes, you're real cool babes. Thanks for your company.

W : The right pair

.... shoes!!

On the day I left for KB, I saw a pair of these yellow yummies in Sembonia! That brand is a local brand, and I've never really given them credit since I've never worn them. But I did pay a visit to Sembonia in pavillion and where credit is due, I think their heels are comfy and had the rubber soles that help keeps us from tripping all over!

These babies are pretty cute..but a tad too bridal-y and formal for me. They've got just the right amount of spunk without going over the top.

Going whimsical is plastered all over my face, please!! I love the green and bright red contrast. Looks like the bride is going to have some serious fun.

Black pumps..no, don't see me and black pumps striking a fair deal. Well at least not on my most important day...of my life!


All pictures are obtained from the web

Jln Alor II

We had dinner at Jalan Alor again, its such a nice chilled out place. Its probably the only place on home ground that makes me feel like a tourist. Cause everyone else is looking at me funny. This time we had a smaller turnout. Azimah couldn't make it and neither could Rachel. But we had additional people tho! Woot woot. I dragged poor F along. Knowing his dread over seafood. He only ate a tiny bit and lied when I asked him if he was full. Tipu punye busuk.

The last time I was there I had a white shirt with black dots. That night I did the inverted.

The climax must have been when they opened pandora's box and ended up in fits of laughter. Oh Jalan Alor, till we meet again.

Making generations

On my trip to KB recently I was stunned and getting used to being addressed as 'Puan', which literally means Mrs. as in, married, with kids. In the flight, at the hotel concierge..even by the doorman.

Ah well, its just another couple more months before that will be officially what I am, a married missus.

Mama on the other hand is getting used to being recognized as 'Nenek'. At supermarkets, babies in trolleys would smile and call her 'Nenek!' and then smile as if making contact with an old acquaintance. Haha. Even parents of little children would push aside their son and say, 'Make way, Nenek here needs to pass by'. Haha.

How life is treating us fair and square. You wanna be a missus? Then its time that your parents are now upgraded to the next level, Nenek and Atok.

FourteenOhSevenTwoTen

He passed me a brown paper bag and in it, presumed to be a sickly sweet cupcake to soothe the burning pain imposed from waiting on him for nearly an hour (which is typical). Instead, and to my surprise. Beneath the frothy pink colored icing I forked out metal. Bejeweled metal with smooth surface. Couldn't possibly have been the aluminum wrapper on the cupcake.

We never did any formal proposal one knee serenade fishing trip or flower petals along the walkway thing. We have been agreeing with each other in silence. Its more sound that way I guess.

We get to celebrate our anniversary on any given day.

October Picture Trail

Going Hippie

Am feeling the happy vibe all over. Even more so that I've asked my intel to update me on the current operations offshore. In a nutshell, its not going to spoil my weekend! Yeahu. I've pored through my truckloads of clothes and not so newly bought-but never worn stuff. Making an effort to wear something different everyday. Its a cross between going overboard with the necklaces, hand cuffs and super youth like watches.

I met up with my florist, Kak Su. She says I'm the most laid back bride to be ever. Haha. I hope thats a good sign. I can take a chill pill, knowing you'd deliver. But when she came out of the restroom, I mustered the most 'chilled out' way I could, telling her the colors I wanted were to be based on purple, pink and whites. No perky yellow or surpise! fire orange. Haha.

Minggu ini adalah minggu pinjam kereta kawan-kawan.

W : Budgeting

Haha I can't seriously be taken as someone with wits on budgeting or money allocation. But perhaps my lack thereof? Ini lah akibatnya pergi jalan-jalan dengan mama dan beli barang bile on sale. Ok peace apis. Sape suruh awk pergi Johor time2 indah saya di KL. Super choi.

I found the white paper lanterns at ikea, which will become as gifts once the reception is over for my aunts and relatives. Good good. I'm also taking up the idea of decorating the tables for the KL reception. Not that much decorating in fact, just a simple vase with a flower or two. I think this whole wedding process has made me become more and more stingy. Tee hee. I even got wedding pressies for Wafa and Noran. Tapi tatau ade ke tak kat darat mase tu.

Oh so my two cents on budgeting. Work out the numbers. Make it work for you and your partner. Try to resist the parental front attack. Its gonna come and strike you hard. Haha. But please don't lose sight that this is also an event (of a lifetime) for our parents.

Esok, F balik. Yeayhuu.