God's Direction Via Decision for 2006

It was a blast!.. I have to say Youth Camp 2005 was terrific! Water City was beautiful, room was comfy, worship sessions were power-packed, sessions were life transforming, ministry time was spectacular, group was crazy, skit was madness, and the company was absolutely fantastic. Youth Camp is definately something I wouldn't wanna miss out every year. Its such a lifting feeling after camp. Left for Melaka on the 26th. Met up at church in the morning and soon boarded the bus. It is funny how God stretches someone he wants to use. During the whole camp duration, I was bus leader, group leader, room leader and worship leader. What more can you ask?! But I must say, this camp long I've reached the stage where it has been ministry all through out. I didn't really receive much but I know it was awesome. I was serving more already. But its good. My receiving season is over. I still remember where at some camps I'll be at the alter crying my heart out. But in this camp was different. God is really bringing GTYC into a different level, whether it be ministry level, worship, and commitment. Its really great to know young ones really rising up and taking the position God wants them to take. A change is taking place and I definately see a good change in 2006. After we arrived at Water City we went to the hall immediately. Got into our groups and rooms and soon prepared for the first session. Led worship and definately God's presence was felt. First night wasn't too bad. Powerful word spoken that got me and Benedict conversing on our bed till 3am. Brought up so many issues and topics which were really interesting.

Got up the next morning and had to take over Joann's place in her worship session coz she wasn't feeling too good. Led worship again and enjoyed morning session. Afternoon was games time. Gosh we had fun. Before games we prepared for cheer and skit. Fuh~ stressing!.. Go SPORTS MANIA! Had a blast too!.. Really enjoyed the balloon game on the suspended bridge. Bleks. I just wanna shout out to all my GROUPIES which were totally awesome! Love ya'll! Expecially to my great, sexy, cool, wannabe, Ass-cum-Assistant Leader, Vincent Tan Zic Wae! I have to tell ya, during our human bingo he had to proove he could do 30 push ups within 40 secs and he did it in 20 secs. *Girls Screaming*. But thanx dude. All this while you've been an awesome friend, supporter, brother, teacher, mentor, girlfriend, entertainer, wateva! Its gonna be an eventful 2006. Can't imagine seing you leave for the States~ Ah.. Don't even wanna think about it.

Anyway, next morning was stressing! Woke up at 7.30am and got to the hall to prepare for skit prac at 8am. No one was there yet. So I had sat down and prayed for first place (ngek ngek ngek). It was a productive practice and soon was rushing for worship session with Delaine. Loved the fast songs. Everyday, This is How we Overcome and Reflector. Con-ned Vincent into singing too. Fast forward to afternoon. During lunch we were discussing on how to dress me up. In our skit I had to dress up as Oprah Winfrey. I was turning into Joprah Limfrey. Miss Woo Wei Wen was brilliant enough to suggest me wearing her BRA?!! Gosh I was freaking out by then. So I challenged her to ask Pastor Julie about it because I was confident enough that Pastor wouldn't allow such a thing. But Wei Wen immediately asked Pastor and she was like "if the guy doesn't mind, i don't have a problem with it". After MUCH convincing, we left for Wei Wen's room to get dressed up and GAWD IT WAS THE EXPERIENCE OF A LIFE TIME~~~~~. She got her padded push up bras for me and a yellow baby-T, a denim jacket, and a TUBE TOP~~ Tried the yellow baby-T but it was UGHH.. bad!!!!... SO WRONG!.. Vinz was going all crazy over the HOT GIRL he was looking at! We decided at last that I was to wear the Bra, Tube and jacket. You have no idea how I fit into those. Am I that small? :(. Will include pics soon. Got on with our skit and we did AWESOME! Damn lame la. Had a good laugh. Every other team did good. I particularly liked Suspense. Because they had the choir which was really special. But as soon it was over I was SOO relieve! Had a good break time and soon after had fun at the night session. It was all great!

During the whole camp I've learn so much. A special shout to my God-Bro Victor, thanx for being there for me! Hehehe..

2006... This is it. I'm beginning my last day of the year online. It has definately been an awesome year. A year of growth, new possibilities, challenges, experience, humbling year, and defiantely I've met new and awesome people. I am definately looking forward to 2006. With SPM ahead and new hurdles, I'm gonna face it head on with my Lord. Here I go 2006! *CrAsH*

Running after You, Lord!
-jOhN "jOpRah" LiM-

As the days go by...

Time ticks away as you read and as I type. Its a countdown till the end of this wonderful, tragic, eventful, and beautiful year. Well, I must say this has to be a good year. Got to know so many wonderful ppl. Got to strengthen relationships. Its wonderful when God places so many different kinds of people in your path. I'm thankful for that, really am.

Well, to go on bout this week. Benedict kidnapped me and we left to Kajang to stay a night at Lionel's mansion. At arrival we had dinner and soon after messed his room. Lionel is some 17 year old dude that is studying in London. He's a really nice fair guy. I have to say he has this really boy band kinda personality. He's really into his music. After hanging around with his hot sis Racheal(14) and elder sis whos name i forgot(20) I'd kinda felt I was in H.K. Racheal had this REALLY strong American accent and elder sis was SOOO Hong Kong girl. If you've not guessed, they were brought up on the upper class and attends an international school in Kajang. After a lil debate, we all agreed to watch Into the Blue featuring JESSICA ALBA. Soon after his neighbours joined us in his mini-theater at home. It was GOLD CLASS wei~ Wif cool surround sound and lounge chairs, blankets and pillows. We were in heaven with Jessica Alba and Gawd did she save the movie. Without her, it'll be a flop. By this time it was already 2am. We actually planned to swim in his pool outside (he has a REALLY nice pool at home.. now can u imagine how huge his house is? :P). However we'd unanimously agreed it'll be freezing if we did. So we left for Lionels room once again. Played some Tony Hawk and Fifa Street, and not to mention some PSP too. We just played around with the gadgets and guitar till late and got to bed at around 5am that morning.

Woke up the next morning at about some 11am. Hahaha. Benedict was some realy gay ass in bed. Shall not go into details. But anyway, maid prepared Lo Mai Kai and Tong Sui for us. Ain't too bad considering it isnt SS2. Got into swim attire and swam the morning away considering there wasn't much or morning to enjoy anymore. Once again, accidents do happen. Benedict was so pandai and did a backflip without looking and hit Shaun on his head (ouch). Both were injured. It was lame. Took a shower and soon enough, driver was around to send us back liou. Boohoo. Really had fun at Lionel's. Well, Cheers to another Sleep over soon! Weee....

The past few nights has been terrific. Church had prepared for a musical, Wondrous Gift. I must sallute them for this production. It was rather memorable. Of all in house production, this i would have to say is the best. Janice and Hazel had really wrote quite some bit. Was there both nights to enjoy it ;P

Its Christmas Day! The birth of Christ! Gifts too!!.. Ngek ngek ngek. Left for church first thing in the morning to celebrate Christmas. Wasn't too bad. Highlight of it was Sue Vern and Daph just HAD to be angels and got me TENNIS BALLS. Wait!!.. LIMITED EDITION TENNIS BALLS! They had written lovely messages on it. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. Thanx girls. Owe you girls kisses ya! Remind me on the bus. After church went to 1U with Vincent, Charisse, Grace and Yi Theng. And guess wat! I watched Perhaps Love, AGAIN! Unfortunately, they hated it. But the more I watch it the more I love it. Awwww. Listening to the Soundtrack RIGHT NOW! Weeeeeee..

Alrighty dude and du-dez, I've to go pack right now. Gonna be at Melaka the next 4 days for YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!! Thats gonna wrap up my year. And gosh have I not done BIO HOMEWORK!!! SAVE ME SANTA!

Emmanuel,
-jOhN LiM BoOn OoN-

Nike Cortez Deluxe 

Perhaps Love Soundtrack 

Ru Guo Ai <3

Perhaps Love is the key to life? Perhaps it doesn't mean a thing? Love... Why is it always clearer after looking back, even with pain and tears, But such is Love. Little snippets from the Movie Perhaps Love. WARNING: I'm over-rating it, but I LOVE IT! Just went over to 1U to buy the original soundtrack. Playing over my Com now. Had my cousin who is with me right now to help me get the han yi ping yi for the song. Ngek ngek. So totally gonna remember the song Perhaps Love now. If you ever need a copy of the han yi ping yi lyrics, drop me a message. I shall not spoil the movie for you if you'd not watch the movie yet but all I can say is that Perhaps Love really deplicts love at a certain degree. Pure true Love. Yet again and again I've been posting about Love. What is it with Love? Gosh~

I've been blog jumping and came a cross a few blogs and I've realised youth these days only blog about their ups and downs and gossips, how predictable. But then again, what else can we blog about? But then again, I am not about to judge any post out there, whether it be real substance or just pure crap, hey, they're just expressing what their thoughts are correct? Can't blame them if they're so full of crap. Hahaha.

So, back to life, weeee.. Christmas around the block and I've not gotten Christmas gifts (except Emelia, Melinda, Melissa P, Ee Jin and Chups which already gotten their shinny gifts). What does Christmas mean to you all out there? For some of you it might just be about gifts or decorations or just another holiday. Christmas means a whole lot than that. It was one that day they it was destined the world would come to a change. Christ the Saviour was born in a manger. Its rather ironic that such a King had only to be born at such a place but yet in all humbleness and humility He has never despised His life and what He was meant to do; to die for us all. Christmas, a celebration so special but have some of us only experienced Winter all our lives till we forget to see the Season that is to be celebrated.

It was our last Youth Service of the Year and it did end with a bang. Worship this morning was particularly enjoyable. Did Tell the World, What the World would never take, All for Love and Forever with a dash of some carols. Love singing. I'm just thankful God is gracious and merciful enough to allow and bless me with the privilege to be able to sing His praises with talent. It sure is something to be thankful of. But hey, to ya'll that isn't bless in such a way, you have yet to discover your area of talent and speciality that you are capable of that may just turn the world upside down. Seriously. Everyone is Talented and Capable in different areas that sometimes may just take time to discover but don't be dismay or discouraged if you are yet to find out. Sometimes it might just be in front of your eyes but you fail to recognise. You'll find it soon.

Ahhh... Lovely night. Wished I was watching Perhaps Love again. HAHAHA.. jk jk. Anyway, gonna leave now and drop a pic of my new beloved shoes that my parents just got for me from Melbourne back from their sweet Second Honeymoon. THAXN MOM & DAD! They got me a whole bunch of gifts I really love, Shoes especially. Love it! Enjoy! Love ya'll. Countdown, Few days to Christmas, Few days to Youth Camp 2005 (weee!!!!)!!!, Few weeks to School re-Opens (****). Miss ya'll!!!...

Ru Guo Ai Ching shi Zhen,
-jOhN LiM-

Genting Crew '05 

Me & Wei Yen 

Emeeelliaa.. :D 

Graduation Ceremony for Cam-whores in Dinasaur Land, Genting 

With Family at Dinner in Eastin 

One Day..... :P

Greetings to everyone once again! Once again forgive thou for not updating. Don't have the precious time to do so, however I shall update now. Lets talk about last week!..

Weeeee... last week on Sunday went for Undang with some gang. There were bout some 15 of us. Mostly DJ girls.. lolz.. It was dumb boring. Seriously. I was dying to get out of there. Although it was boring I still listened and did learn a few key things. At last got home safe and sound.

Next I was off to Genting with Jinny, Benny, Arvinny, Emeliany, Ee Jinny, Melindany, Melissa Pongy, Wei Yenny and Chupsy. Took the late bus from Sentral to Genting with Jinny at 7pm coz I had Jam Session at church and he had some gathering. Relaxing bus ride with Jinny's music in my left ear while it rained outside. Soon after we had arrived we took a cable car up to the Highland Hotel. We had shared a cable car with some guy who was smoking and boy, it felt we were clouded by smoke and not fog. Anyway, didn't really enjoy my cable car ride coz I didn't get to see the cute animal characters on the way (boohoo). All the way up I kept telling Jinny, where's the elephant and tigers and so on :D. Got out of the cable car and made our way to Starbucks where we grabbed a drink or two and met up with Arvin and Ben. Soon after we were on our way to the arcade to meet up with the girls. Outside = Cold, Inside = Hot! The place was just stuffed up but we still played a few racing games, some Ghost Squad thingi and our favourite, Picture Spot? Some game where you had to spot the difference in the pictures. You all know it don't you? After we had done those, we had stuffed ourselves in one of those kareoke boxes and screamed our lungs out. Had too much fun there and almost got my fingers slices by the vantilation fan. After our night of screaming and shouting we got back to the room all ready to HAVE MORE FUN. No no no, we didn't do anything illegal. We just drank sprite and ate green apples. Thats all. The night went on by us playing Taboo. The unforgettable discription was Vibrate. Ee Jin immediately went, "When girls want to satisfy themselves what do they use?!" We all went, VIBRATOR! "Ok ok cancel a bit get wat?!" VIBRATE! Correct! HAHAHAH.. Gosh, we were damn horny wei~~ Gross. Anyways I'd still never forget my abominable snowman. Mua was tired and took some rest while the rest wondered around the hotel at 4am. ZzzzzzzzZZzzz...

The next morning we woke up REALLY late and thus was too late for any games in the morning. Got washed up and left for theme park. Me and Melissa got the tickets while the rest cam-whored without us :(. During our que there were a number of people who wanted to budge in and cut the line. Ughh.. Pethetic low-lifes~ One malay UNCLE got infront of me, immediately I tapped his shouder and asked him to BUZZ OF. HAHAHA. He acted as though he didn't know anything and was ignorant bout the line. Shut the tuut up la. HAHAHA.. jk jk. Anyway, got the tickets and went lunch before our theme park trip. Weeeeee!... Melissa's HOT mom brought us to THE OLIVE which was EXCELLENTe! Gosh, LOVED the soft shell crabs and pizza. The restaurant was very classy and elegant with cute chairs and sofa and a bar. As we waited we got hold of Kebaya books and Ripley's collection of "unbelievables". After filling ourselves with terrific food, we left for the theme park. I shall not go into details at the theme park but we were jynx la. When we went out it rained. When we were in, it didn't. Didn't really make our RM34-6=28 worth it actually. But we had ride the Spinner some 3 times. It was superbly cool. Love the feeling of flying and kicking Leg Juice around. Hahaha.. :P After that we went for KARAOKE SESSION at "Be A Star". HAHAH.. They had some super cheap offer where you only paid RM10 and get a fried rice with a drink for TWO hours! Freaking Cheap!!! Got hold off a room and yet again we sang our voice boxes off!

Continueation...
After our lovely Karaoke session we left for our room. Supposingly to play Taboo or so but as we passed the carpark we had an awesome idea. HIDE AND SEEK! Remember those days when you'd play hide and seek but now we were playing hide and seek in the cold dark of night at the Hihgland Hotel Carpark. My first hide with Emelia was a disaster. Emelia's ass stucked out so Benjoz spotted us. Don't worry Emelia, you still have a cute ass. I can so imagine Emelia *sweating/bleeding* now (internal joke). Anyways we had so much fun running around. We have all these weird encounters with passer-bys. First it was Ee Jin behind a small tree where she had raised her hands to resemble the tree. You know, Indian style? Suddenly an auntie came by. Hahaha.. She was devastated. Emelia too had funny weird encounters. One was which she was very close a car or was it a tree. It was as though she was a theft or something. Same thing with me. I was hiding SOOO close a 4WD a lady passed by and stopped to look at what i was doing. I immediately started picking rubbish. HAHAHAHA.. The security guard at the Hotel realised that we were playing the game and soon after we were done and as we passed them by, the guards were laughing at us. Lame asses. Anyway the next day wasn't too pleasent. First, we were leaving (boohoo) secondly was our damn bus driver. Gosh, was he having PMS. But anyway, don't wanna complain too much, everyone has their bad days horr? :)

Next highlight of the week was Dad & Mom's Surprise anniversary on Saturday. Dad had plan this without mom's knowledge the past months. It was sooo secretive and major. Dad had single handedly called each person on the invitation list which were bout some 200 people. It was their Silver Jubilee of marrige and in Full-time ministry. It is really amazing how they really love each other. Let me tell you something, I have some cool parents. They go for midnight movies and watch the latest movies BEFORE me. Dad is such a cool person. Dad had a moustache all this while. For my entrire life, I'd never seen dad shave it. But when he got married to Mom to prove his love, he had shaved it and grown it since till that day. Thus it was gone. 25 years of moustache hair. HAHAHAHA. Mom is Wonderwomen. She's just this superbly blur women with sooo much wisdom and perserverance in her. She never fails to nail every person that comes to her for advice. Once again for the reason to prove his love. They renewed their vowes and they had funny testimonies about them from different people and so on. Sang them a nice slow song before they moved into their dancing session. Boy, they are in love. Amazing. Love ya too Mom & Dad. Muaxxx

Well, cousin is down from Alor Setar. He's just this cute 13 year old kid who loves the PS2. Hahahaha. Life has been cool. Still in love with tennis and friends. Victor came back! Victor is my God-Brother that left for the USA in 2001. I'd still remember when he left. I cried like shit. He's such an awesome friend, brother and companion. He's the one person that only knows everything about me at that point. I'd confided with him so many things and time and time again he was always there for me although not here physically. But yet through the years I had taken forgranted of his care and love. Didn't really talk much to him the past year. But when I saw him on Sunday something just clicked and we started talkin and laughin again. The moment I saw him again I suddenly realised how much I missed this dear brother of mine. Thanx for everything you've done for me Kor. Love ya loads.

Went out today with the Genting Gang again. Watched Perhaps Love and Gawd it was just to SPECIAL. Its those kinda movies I wanna watch alone when it's raining. What more can you ask from this movie? Ok, maybe a more pretty female-lead la but other than that, Jacky Cheongs voice was terrific, Takeshi, what can I say. This movie speaks more love than errrr, see I can't even find anything worth comparing to it. I'm sooo gonna buy the soundtrack. Waiting for Dad & Mom to come back. They left for Melbourne the day after the dinner at Eastin. Second Honeymoon they claim~ But this time they're gonna come back with my new Nike Cortez! Weee..

Ahhh.. Just had read Victor's Blog just now. It is so full with substance and meaning. But somehow I feel mine is so, Empty. Filled with empty words. Well, especially now in this holiday, somehow, I've not been producing as much as I do. I've been a slacker and been more hypocritical about issues and pure lazy. Life this holiday in a way has brought not much meaning. Created as a human I should produce (not sexually) results and at least accomplish something in this season but have I? Should I continue lying to myself about how much I've done for my life? Definately I have been lying to myself about many things and issues in my life. Denial is the word. Brothers and sisters, I'm afraid of facing my truth. But will you be there with me? I'd sometimes wonder how will things turn out if life wasn't with sin or lies. How perfect would life actually turn out? Yet again I have all the answers to life. I have all the solutions and methods. But something in me just refuses to act upon it. Am I weak? I beg to differ, or is it just my pride? Life isn't gonna get any easier from now. Its time I look to God and depend on Him. Its time to cut that crap and start living the life and live the destiny that is pathed for me. In Him, all is Beautiful. Thank You, Lord.

Comforted?
-jOhN LiM-

My new Tennis Bagggg

Pleeding Guilty

Forgive thee for thee hath not been successful in updating thy Bloggy. But I'm back again Oh Good and Faithful readers! Weeee!!!.. Life is great!.. Back in time now.

After getting the all beloved tennis bag as seen below, I had paraded it everytime i brought it to my tennis lessons. It is the Very Funnn lerrz. Ok anyway, forgive me if I go on with Tennis Talk but I just have to. After Vincent's Championship with Pringles I followed along to Kelana Jaya's courts for the Selangor Open (thats where I train!!). He finally got Runner Up which he isn't happy about I think.

Days have been just passing and Gosh it's already December. It just goes to show how faithful God is each day till this day. Definately I would have to say He has been faithful through out this year. This year I would have to say passed the Fastest. Things just seem to be going and growing. But even as we turn back and look at those days it does bring a sense of fulfillment. I can't imagine that Leo/ PBSM Install is over, I'm in the Prefect BOD, I've worship lead soo many times now, I've picked up tennis, met WONDERFUL people, retain my results, achieved a few year 2005 resolutions and so on. But it has been a good year I have to say.

Next up on list is Genting trip.. Weee... Totally gonna have a blast next Tuesday!.. Looking forward to it ya'll!

Hmmm.. I realise one thing. Don't force yourself to write a post if you're just fulfilling your duty. There ain't much I can bring up tonight. Weird?... I've learnt a lesson. Write only if You WANT to write. Hahaha.. Aiks... Lost.... Peace Out people.. Catch up soon k ;) missing each friend out there!

-jOhN LiMz-

When will I find thee...

It has been some interesting past few days. I have been going to Jalan Duta's National Tennis courts quite often to watch Vincent kick some asses. It has been really cool and fun. You'd get to see really good players smashing balls and playing with determination. Looking at them, I longed to be of one of those down there one day. Next year? I'd hope. Who knows?

On Wednesday I joined a small group of LEOs for a trip to University Hospital for a visit to the Geriatric & Pediatric Ward and the Dialysis Centre. The doctors and nurses there we're really friendly and nice. They had brought us around and explained to us different things about the wards and so on. I had the privilege to converse with an Old malay lady and a family of a patient. Surprisingly both ladies had 9 children and both had Kencing Manis and both husbands died because of Kencing Manis too. Hrmmmzz... But I'm glad at least I made her day. She teared after we left. It was a satisfying feeling to have helped and accompanied a senior citizen. The trip that morning had really inspired me to take up medical but yet there are a few setbacks but hey, I have another year to experience and plan. You could see loads of Botak Kids too at the Pediatric Ward. They were cute but somehow you'd know things ain't going too well with them. Let's pray along for them k? ;)

Yesterday morning had to wake up at 6:30 AM to prepare for tennis and soon was on my way for tennis lesson with Jean Yi and Melissa. Weeeeee! Had another awesome 2 hours of really good tennis. You can really see our improvement. Jean Yi is turning into Maria Jeanyipova. She has it man!.. Melissa has her signature Leg Up-Forehand and ballet stunts. Seriously cool... Hahaha.. I always enjoy my tennis lessons. The one decision in life that I'll never regret!.. Brought so much fun and laughter to my life. Thanx Vincent!!! Rigth after that rushed over to Jalan Duta again to watch Vincent in his finals. And yet again another Victory 6-2 6-4 if i was not wrong? His coach had said that at his level he should win his opponents 6-0, 6-1, or 6-2.

You know those nights when You feel all lonely and depressed. I'd felt that last night. Something deep in me just longed for someone to talk to. Have you ever felt lonely one night and just longed for someone on your phonebook that you'd be able to call and just laugh it out? For those of You who already has that kinda friend, I envy You. Its such a privilege to have such a friend. Somehow deep within me is still emptyness and a longing for a true friend. Sometimes I'd wonder when will that friend of mine like me as much as I like them. It kinda feels akward sometimes when you'd really like this person but somehow You know he/she isn't liking you as much as you do to him/her. Wherever You are out there Best Friend, I'd hope I find you soon.....

Maybe because this week ain't an easy one. Loads of hinderances putting the Worship Team together for this Sunday. I'd feel that there is more to it than just them pulling out but something spiritual. I'd to also pull together cell for tonight. Irwin and Daphnie ain't gonna be around so less help around. Praying all will go well tonight, Saturday's Practice and Sunday's Service. Please pray along....... sigh~~~

With this heavy thoughts in my mind I'd leave for Megamall today to get a Nike tennis bag. But somehow don't feel to good bout it. Arghh... Better get all this trouble off my shoulders soon. ITS GONNA BE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!! Believing it!

Pushing towards the goal,
-jOhN LiM-

Towards the Dreams of our Life

Good Evening faithful readers,

Just got back from Bangsar Seafood tonight with Uncle Yeoh and family. Not too say they serve extraordinary food la, but it wasn't too bad la. I'd like the fish though. Some Garupa I think. I shan't mention the price of the fish itself. Had a walk down Bangsar with Elaine, Sharine and my Sis. They really had great Itallian, Mediteranean, Thai, Japanese, Northern Indian Cuisines and Gourmet. It was all in that stretch. They had beautiful architecture and landscape, a rel great serene feeeling with water running, small streams of water that flowed. Back at the dinner table, Mom & Dad was giving Elaine a review on Counselling, Psychology, mind sicknesses, Child Psychology and so on. It was an insight. Elaine took CPU after her O-Levels at Garden International. She had all distinctions and got a scholarship at CPU. According to her it is easy. I believe so. Sis says CPU students have to most fun compared to the SAM or A-Level students. While my sis was doing SAM last time they used to admire the students doing CPU. They even had some "Egg-Care-Taking" event for a week where they had to "adopt" the egg for a week and make sure its well taken care of and no cracks form. I'm still evaluating. But there's a 0% chance I'm going for STPM. A big NO NO. Was thinking about S'pore with Junior College, or A-Levels in Melbourne or maybe just doing a foundation study at Sunway/Taylors. But will it all be worth it?............

But tonight got me thinking about my future. Was just conversing with Vincent and Jo Lin on Life and our Dreams and Goals. Everyone has a desire deep hidden in our heart. Whether it be building a house by the beach one day, meeting Britney Spears, building a Sex Academy, filming an award winning thrilogy of the Lord of the EarRings, winning the US Open, or just plain building a family of 3 and having sex with your wife every night. I guess most of us just wanna live a life of luxury and wealth at the end. But somehow thats not what I yearn. Somehow I seek a life of fulfillment and satisfaction. But that ain't easy to come by. Tell me when are you ever going to be satisfied with what you have. I guess true fulfillment only comes when one is thankful and grateful and I've not reach that state of contentment. Life is not going to get any easier from now onwards. With more knowledge pouring in, I guess more problems and complications will catch up too. SPM is around the corner, just a year away, cell is growing and the people aren't getting any easier, future is more blur than it seems and soon I'll be working.

Well, all I can do now is live to the fullest of life and appreciate the times I will have with my friends now. Its funny that everytime when our paths differ, friends tend to go missing too. I want to make a consious effort to keep my close friends close to my heart. Soon, Vincent will be leaving for Texas, Benedict for Melbourne, and the rest to different colleges. Again and again I keep saying, I really do treasure You all. Although we may grow to our different paths, may our roots aways remain the same my dear beloved Brothers and Sisters.

A little I've editted for my various friends, hope you enjoy it.

I hate the way you talk to me
And I hate the way you cut your hair;
I hate the way you hit my butt
I hate it when you stare;
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind;
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme;
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie;
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worst when you make me cry;
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact you didn't call;
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, Not even a little bit, Not even at all.

Ain't Perfect Boi,
-jOhN "aH Boi" LiM-

Family First

Its funny that actually that everything in our life is somehow affected by the outbringing of our childhood and family. For sometime I did question why was I born to my family, but soon time slowly revealed that it wasn't bad at all. As we all know, each family is built of different backgrounds and combination of characters and personalities. But all families do go through turbulance and disturbance once in awhile. But as they say "air dicincang tidak akan putus juga". I've grown to appreciate my family each day by the bits. You should too. Though you may feel unfair sometimes, but God has a plan when he landed you in that family of yours. Just feel like appreciating my family. No matter at times if i had been the spoiled young baby, I'm gonna love each and everyone of You till my last breath. Much love and support.

I just wanted to bring up my family because I started to realise that almost every blog I've read never touched on their family ever. Hmmm.. weird.. Will let you guys have some insight on my family members one day ;P. Alrighty, its been sometime again since I've wrote. Life has been great. Productive in my eyes?.. haha.. Parents came back from a 10 Day trip to Fiji and brought back a few Tennis gear for me (weee!). Mom didn't stop describing the details of every corner and event that happened in Fiji all the way from the time she entered the car in KLIA back to the dining table at home. She can really talk. Imagine how much she can nag?. HAHA.. Hey, but I'm not complaining. Love her soooo dearly. She's the coolest. The one thing I love her for is her Blurness. Its just so adorable yet I can't comprehand at times. Once, she was rushing for a dinner with dad. Dad was honking outside already. Soon she quickly grabbed a sparking pair of red shoes and ran outside. She was all frustrated and complaisent by this time. She had forgotten to take the keys along. So I went outside to pass them the keys. Dad had used his auto-controlled buttons to pull down Mom's side of window. Yet, Mom opened the door to get the keys from me. So i passed the key to her NOT from the window. SOMEHOW, she took the key and pulled the door at the same time. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!.. She had slammed the door on her finger. Fuh drama man that night. HAHAH.. :p Love you loads mom. (She's arranging some papers beside me now n yet doesnt know i'm writting bout her :P).

Ok, back to my week. So Fiji. Tennis. While they were at Fiji me & dear sis, Julie cooked almost every meal (yummy). I already capable of cooking a decent chinese meal. Its yummy. Trust me. Lolz :P. Caught up on my Final Fantasy X-2 during the past few days too. Yuna rocks :P. Irritated by LeBlanc's Boobs (for FFX2 players :P). Her outfit is like, uhhh disgusting. Anyway, had 2 hour tennis session with Jean yi and Melissa again. Totally In love with tennis. Alas I've understood the feeling of some FOOTBALL fanatics. Bro is included. Gosh, he is like naming every player on the field. It can get really pissing irritating at times when he watches his football matches and play his football games on the PS2. Urghh~ Hogger!.. Watched The Perfect Man just now in the afternoon with Mom, Sis n Bro. Cute Romance movie.

Well, I guess I don't really have much to say tonight. Sleep well people. Really appreciate you taking time to read my post. Now you know me a little better ;P. Love ya'll ppl. Redbox soon?

-jOhN LiM-

Appearance of Fullness and yet empty inside..

Some of you might be wondering of how such a title of my post tonight appears. I guess it needs no explaination. But allow me to bring you back to the past few days and of course my experiences and thoughts.

10th November!..
Weeeee!!! Partaaayyy timeee... Shiok shiok... Let me skip to the afternoon.. had a nap n woke up at aproxx 6++... I'm suppose to be at Kelly's party at 7++ before she comes back at 8++.. Rush rush rush... Actually dreamt bout tennis while was sleeping (muahaha)... Took a warm bath.. It was raining shit outside.. oh sorry i mean, raining rain.. lolz.. K k.. better get back to prooper english and vocabulary. Thus because of such chills that I felt by the rain I decided to take a warm bath under the shower. Of course I had one of those Toilet Concerts again~. I'm quite sure almost everyone of you do not know that one my passions in life is to have concerts in my toilet almost every evening. My family has gotten really pissed with me and voice from the day the "tour" started. But trust me in this, the concerts Really does help in building confidence and voice ability. Now I am confident of singing in the nude next time (oopss!.. jk jk). Back to the shower. Got out of it after finally realising that time was running out. Took some time to get the smile that I wanted in front of the mirror and took off for the Party. Reached Kelly's place and was greated by a plethora of shoesssss... Woah.. The first thing I thought was this is the not the way it should go. Kelly might just get an idea when she steps in. Immediately I got hold of her father and soon after we formed a line of workers passing out shoes to the boot of the Proton Waja.

It was a moment yet after BEGGGINNGGG Jo Lin to quickly get Kelly back before 9pm. We had ANOTHER HAPPENING party across the neighbourhood and I didn't want to be late to give a hug to Jinny before the night was over. Kelly came home and I was quite sure she teared? Or did her red eyes deceive me yet again? Anyhow, grabbed a few pizza's and was thrown with a few insults here and there by Jo Lin and Mechell. And I have to mention, Mel Win had STYLING CREAM done on his hair. Fuh~ When did Mel Win ever care about his looks? Wait, before you think this is an insult, Mel Win, You need not dress up like a girl, or have make-up on, or have STYLING CREAM, or touch me to feel loved and wanted. You will forever be a cute in Jessica's eyes (I hope). Had a few laughters and LAME LAME pictures taken and bid farewell to the gang and left for Jinny's. The night ain't over BABY!... HERE WE COME... ROAD TRIP!!...

Had my bro drop us at Jinny's. I know this is gonna be weird but he needs SOME appreciation sometimes. Thank You Kor.. ;).. Anyway, got hold of the bell and rang it well. Low and behold we were greeted by a banner that read "Happy Birthday Jinny" and a bald kid below it with his cute fitting red shirt which in Jo Lin's words, made him look gay. It was Jinny!!!... Welcomed us and I quickly got a seat with Jun Wei in the circle of horror. Chengz was just in the midst of sharing with us a "horrifying" Langkawi kid story which turned out to be more of a "let down hair-scare the shit outta ya Scream". Appreciate it Chengz. My inspiration to keep LONG hair next time, I MIGHT just be able to do so too. By this time, Miss Gan and Miss Lee refused to step in for god-knows-what reason. After the story just hang around laughin and catching up with a old friend in which I missssss SOOOOO MUCHHH. It just felt right when the conversation started. Missed those times girl ;) ahh.. and I will remember now!.. 16th January!!.. I couldn't believe my ears when she still could remember mine! How sweet of you. Felt appreciated after a very long time. People left one by one till the 5 of us were left playing Bullshit. Its really called Bullshit/Bluff.. :P. Left Jinny's house at 2am that night because of FORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES THAT COULD BE AVOIDED but SOME people is just plain stubborn. Hahahahahahahahaha...

Most definately I had a great night that day. For the next few days I sent Miew San and Jinny their burfday song copyright of John Lim's voice *shy-nya*. Product of Toilet Concerts again. Another thing I must mention of was my tennis lesson on Saturday morning with Jean Yi, Melissa and Ang Yee!.. Weeeee.. I love Tennis with all my heart! Played a great game that morning and had LOUD laughs. We ended up playing baseball and I even tried imporsinating Maria in her Ad. Remember the one that said "MARIA WAS HERE". We tried stamping "JOHN ROCKS" but failed. Although it rained half way we had a good time laughin with my tennis coach, Mr Pongkarpan. Did I mention he was Thai? A really nice and open minded guy. Another thing I must say is that I never realised that Misbun and Rashid Sidek also trained near by like some 30 steps away. Coach knew them and he had a chat with them. All 4 of us were too shy but Melissa was mesmorized by some Shirtless Ang Moh playing badminton.

Ahh.. Memories. I'm enjoying everyday of my life and yet sometimes I still feel unfulfilled. I just know that there IS something greater that God has instored for me but what is it Lord?

Dear Lord, May you path my ways to your likeness. That one day I may experience your Love so great, greater than no other. That one day I may feel fulfilled and sathisfied. Leave lessons for me each day to grow more and more in your likeness. Though I may fail almost everyday, I know you are there to guide me, pick me and forgive me even as I make mistakes. I want to be full in You. Amen.

Good night my faithful readers. My deepest appreciation and gratitute for visiting my page effortlessly. Much love and hugs. Kisses included at request.

Searching Endlessly,
-jOhN LiM-

Burfday Boiii...

Sweeeeett... ;P Missin ya loads...

Ahhhhh... EeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeMelia..

After "some" phone call... lame~

Before "some" phone call.. lolz..

Dear Chupsy & Mua

A Special Shout Out for Really Really Special People!

My first apple i cut!!... Ahh~

Ok let me first start by shouting out to Jinny, Xin Yi, n Kelly A BELOVED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Love u guys loads...!!... ;P
First to Jinny:
Thanx for bearing with me, for all the times and laughters we shared. For that close time in Form 2, i'd always remember although things came between us, I'm always gonna cherish the times we had. Appreciate ur cute laughters at my jokes even when it wasn't funny. Thanx for always standing near by and always availing urself even for others. You have been an awesome example of Gentlemanship. Girls out there, this is ONE guy that would most definately recommend marrying.. HAHAHA.. he'll cherish you with all his life, I know it so well. ;) So keep pressing on and don't let the preasure of the world press you down or tear u apart. I will always be here for ya bro. Gonna cherish this friendship till the day comes ;P Peace Out bro

To Drug-addict Xin Yi:
You are such a dear brother to me. Its gonna be 5 years now since i've met you. Kemboja, Jasmin, Jasmin n now Bunga Raya. Had horny times and sorrowful times with him. I'd still remember the time when -sensored- rejected him, he cried like a baby!!.. like literally.. HAHAHA.. he cried like no one's business.. He was all sobbing and depressed. Don't you appreciate me being there when you were sad?.. HAHAHA.. jk jk.. ish perasan liouz.. lolz.. Always envied the way he never did his homework and YET study the night before and scored higher in Form 3. But times have changed now sexy. It ain't Xin Yi's Deal anymore. I'm reigning now! MUAHAHA.. oops.. hahahha.. But I really love ya bro, ur another kid that will never cease to amaze me each day with his "talents". From screeeeaaamming super loud not to mention like a girl, to moaning like a hog, to licking like a, i shall not disclose that.. jk jk... Love ya loads dude. U still me owe me guitar lessons. Girls, THIS GUY CAN PLAY THE GUITAR.. *sexy nya*

To Gorgeous Kelly:
Let no man destroy what God has done for you. You are one gorgeous girl and you still can improve on it. Remember the Tips Miew San gave?.. HAHAHA.. now that was good. N sleeeppp girl sleeepp u need your rest. :P Tracing back to the years, i think I've known kelly for some 7 years now if i'm not wrong. Since I've came into 5 Murni is that right? She claims i brought "magazines" to school before. I strongly disagree with it but who cares about tha past now right girl?.. hahaha.. Kelly is one person you no mess mess with and I got her pissed the other day :( sorry dear. But we have memories together. Used to be crazy with her n Sweet Li over Japanese Series back in THOSE days.. hahaha.. But it was cute. Rock on Kelly! Everybody loves you!.. and that includes me ;P

Ah, it gives me great satisfaction to appreciate my friends. Something I'll never regret having, Friends. You guys are the reason I keep going on each day, without each and everyone of you, my life would have never been better. I'm sorry if i've ever in any way hurt any of you, or said something that has affected you. Please do confront me or tell me if I had done that. It brings great discomfort to know i have hurt someone but well, You cant please the whole world. OH and before i end, hehehe.. that was my first apple I've ever cut!.. LOLz.. its a Love apple for all you friends of John!.. Muaxxx... ;P

Emmanuel,
-jOhN "Friends4Eva" LiM-

Happy Birthday to You too Xin Yi!!! ;P muaxxx

Birthday Boy!

A special shout out to Jinny!!.. MUAXX.. happy birthday!!

Me & Guy.. ;P

;)

The Gang

Me & Miew San

Ups or just Downs?

John Lim is officially going to die!.. Arghh..!!.. first of all.. let me update you guys on my previous days and today. Well, the past few days have been rather... errr... UNproductive. Been waking up at 11am plus plus, lie on the couch and play my PS2 all day long.. Well, today was rather an interesting one. Woke up at 9am and left for old town for a ride to get some chips for movie night at cell, however the shop was closed due to the second day of raya as we all know. Dropped by Satellite at Jalan Gasing for a hot bowl of One Ton Mee and left for The Curve with Kelly and Jean Yi to look for a job. Met up at Vivo for their Italian lunch. Met rather "strange" characters and amusing boss. She was a nice pleasant lady with flower prints on her lovely blouse. She had this "accent" too but yet she was very polite and somewhat classy. Asked if there was a job vacancy and yeap she asked us to come back the next day for interview *aint gonna do that~haha*.. We also met this "weird" guy working there. He was actually from my school. Form 6. He is really weird and slow. Sorry if i'm a bit critical. But I couldn't help commenting on him till Kelly got pissed and trust me, it isn't easy to piss Kelly off, right? :P But anyway, left the store and went on a tour-de-curve for a job vacancy. Dropped by stores after stores. Can't name all, forgot.. lolz.. But it was a fair number. Dropped by La Marcet and met Chee Ho and a couple of Form 3 babies which was undenialbly rude to us. He has something againts cute guys.. ;) Dropped by O'Brien. The manager was super rude. Arghh.. a total turn off.. I have to get this clear~ I'm not desperate for the Job neither am I desperate for the money but I just want to make good use of my time to satisfy another's tummy and I have all the rights to CHOOSE and be picky and Gosh~ I SOO totally hate these rude managers. Anyway dropped by to visit Jordan too. The girls said he kept starring at me?.. Haha.. Well, Jordan, I love you too.. HAHAHA! Walked a bit to Ikano, was digusted by the stench at the Pet Store. But they had fasinating snakes and rather SMeLly tortoise. Dropped by the neighbouring music store. Was planning to get a good pair of drumsticks for Jinny Boy for his birthday next week. But sure i know nuts bout drumsticks. Didn't get one at last. Soon we took a cab over to 1U to continue tour-de-1U. But by this time, John turned into some sort of negative monster. All that was admitting from John's mouth was pure discouraging messages. It even got into Jean Yi. She scolded me too :(. They both we're like telling me they have never seen this side of John. They always thought of John as the Fighter and Daredevil that will go all the way. I'm so sorry to disappoint you girls. But gosh, I'm the WORST person you can ever bring if you're gonna find a job. For heaven's sake, please people, don't bring me along if you're gonna look for a job. For some reason, I was so totally discouraging and negative. I was GIVING UP, can u believe it!

Soon after we arive at 1U after choking in the smoke of the smoking cab driver. Thank God he got the hint of me coughing out loud. God, will I ever smoke?.. LOLZ.. Anyway, got down and immediately went job searching again~. Bare in mind, John at this point is a pure sucker. Drop by at Jack's Place for a peek at Jun Wei. She did look weird in her oversize white shirt but hey, I wouldn't mind dining at a restaurant with a hot waitress. Would you?.. Next stop, MPH. Met Su San and Liu Qing. They were both complaining to was super boring. Alas it was everyone else's break time. A few of them gathered and we had tea time at A&W with Jun Wei, Mechell, Tien Chuen, Jean Yi, Kelly, and of course Me joined by Liu Qing later on. Had a good time listening to their bizarre waitress stories. All the spillings and trips to Jun Wei's extraordinary Fat-man experience. She had trip at least 3 times and landed on in the arms of that REALLY REALLY FAT man as she describes. Soon it was time they had to drag themselves back and we continued out tour-de-1U. It was our last stop. John Lim at this point was at the verge of giving up. We took our last shot at Dave's Deli. They directed us to Okra upstairs because it was the same management it seemed. So we went up and met up with the manager. It was a rather weird clash of personalities. Here was the conversation:

John : Excuse me Sir, I was just curious if there was a job vacancy for the 3 of us. *charming smile*
Mr Phang : Oh Curiosity kills the cat you know.

*what the $%&#$* HAHAHA... thats the first.. there were more to come like really weird statements and out of topic questions like which church we attended and really weird statements. I had a feeling he was all out to SCARE us saying its gonna be realy tough and how thick skin are we and all asking how long does it take for a tear to tear down if someone scolds us and stuff. He even had some grading system that if we only "worth" RM3 he would only pay us RM3 and if we "worthed" RM6 then he will pay us RM6. *what the #$%#*. He used that term, WORTHED.. hhaha.. but somehow his statements and so to say "discouragements" seem to push us more. Somehow we all felt even more motivated to work harder. But I guess I'm determined to make the most of it la. Gonna prove to him, Jean Yi, and Kelly I'm no quitter and whimp. Left 1U today feeling accomplished at the last minute.

Ahh, next. Came back at bout 6 and got ready for cell. Cell tonight was gonna be at my place. It's movie night and we were all excited that we were gonna watch Deuce Bigolow:European Gigolo. Got the coach in place, got the drinks ready and cell members brought chips. Watched the first few minutes of the show and tragedy. I shall not mention what but we decided it was best we switched movie to Hot Chick. Had a few laughes. Hope they enjoyed it. ;P However I learnt something really important tonight.
1. Screen through movies before allow young kids view.
2. Roll up carpet before crowd comes
3. Never have chips+lights off. Conclusion, chips on floor.

Well, I guess I'll have to call it a night. This day had its ups and downs. Looking forward to the next few ones. Tennis lessons tomorrow!.. Woohoo!.. Anyone interested?.. Lolz.. But I've learnt alot today. But the one thing I want to improve on is that I think sometimes I'm too critical and maybe just a pure whimp. Guess Jean Yi and Kelly really got to see the complaisent John. But thats me. But it really hit me that they saw me a Fighter. I really do want to live up to that expectation. Sorry if I disappointed some of you guys, but hey, there's room for much much more improvements. Thanx Kelly and Jean Yi for hitting that into me. Appreciate me. Everyday a better day, everyday a better John!
Note to self: John You suck!..haha

Motivated,
-jOhN "suck" LiM-

A new step to a new phase of my walk..

I must start by saying the concert was SIMPLY AMAZING. There was more to it to the jumping, shouting, raisin' of hands and praising. It was the presence of God. Just simply powerful. Its like times like this that I really wanna be abandon to His praises, its like times like these that I wanna forever sing Your praises. Sorry if I'm being a lil' boring/spiritual for some of you but I can't help but express my love for my God. Allow me to go on.

You know the times when you're all down and lost,
He's there to pick you up and pay the cost,
You the times when you're all dismay and have prayed,
He's there to pick you up and there you will lay,
In His love,
He will guide You,
Lead You and therefore I will adore You Forever,
My Saviour, Forever
My Friend, Whenever
The One that will be with me All the days of My Life
I LOVE You Dearly with All my Heart.
(Copyright 2005, John Lim)

I just had to write that. Really planning to write a song one of these days, just singin praises to His name. I might just incoorperate those words into the song. Ahhh... feel so much relieve after expressing those words. Alrighty, back to the concert, FUH a whopping 3000++ people turned up. The music was perfect, vocals spotless, presentation awesome, and most importantly souls were saved.

You know, some of you now might be thinking I'm some Super Spiritual Addicted to God kid, but well, go ahead, but i assure You, I'm still human and I still do make mistakes, and I'm still the same John you know in which I guess I'm down to earth and pure flat with my remarks and just plain honest at times. But my point is, if you're gonna stop reading my blog because of this, go ahead.. HAHAH. LOLz sound like Jinny now on his suicidal post.. but all i'm trying to do is to express my love for the one i Love.. Now you tell me is that wrong?

Now, back to today, worship in church today was exceptionally powerful. I just have to mention the team from Paradise Community Church just had that sweet anointing and humility that touched me. If you've not notice I dun simply compliment for the sake of encouraging but when i say they are good, They ARE good. Wonderful team put together. Then went lunch with the team and not to mention Guy Sebastian too. The people at Kenny Rogers went all excited and started serving wrong stuff and were very disorientated but we were all just having our fun laughing and enjoying the blakc pepper gravy and MACARONNI AND CHEESE! They are all really friendly people.
The girl beside Guy is his girl friend. She's a blond and she's sizzling HOT. The Botak guy is Guy's brother, Ollie Sebastian and I'm lazy to introduce the rest of the people on the table but the Malaysian's there are from my church and not from Paradise. So then went back and took some rest before the big night. Went to the concert on time with Mel Win. Got in right on time and had a blast!.. After the concert went for dinner wif Jo Lin, Miew San, Jean Yi, Ken Tsen, Johann, Melissa, Tien Chuen, Liang Zhi, Kelly, Chee Ho and did I leave out anyone?.. Went to Wong Kok after that for drinks [like Mc'Ds have no drink~]. I took a cab with Jean Yi while Miew San, Kelly and Jo Lin got another. Reached second and had a honeydew errr ice mountain?.. lolz.. drank and had a lovely time of conversations and catching up. It's never a dull moment with Miew San. She just has loads to ask and tell!.. And I just love answering them and listening to them!.. Muaxx..

She brought up practically so many issues and we talked bout sooo many things.. from Jo Lin's dilemma to Miew San's personality, Kelly's fashion to-do list and my stucked throat.. lolz.. Really enjoyed it you guys.. Got back at 11pm and here I am!.. LOLZ.. must do it again!!!!..hhehehe...

I guess it has been a productive day and I'm pleased. It's comforting to know you've done something productive in a day to move you on forward in Life and Yes I've taken another baby step towards my destiny and relationship with the people around me and most importantly God. So many things to write but guess I'll bring it up another time. Really wanna bring up on some of the issues Miew San brought up. Its really interesting. Good night Ya'll!.. Sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite. Missing each and everyone of You people. Hope to spend the rest of eternity with all of You. Working on that.. :P

Deeply in Love,
-jOhN "Love" LiM-

Yeap, I'm Listening..

It was as if he was speaking to me alone and Me alone. If I was gonna wait for the Church to be perfect to be satisfied, it'll never happen because we are all humans and we ain't perfect in anyway, however we do strive for perfection till the day comes. I'm sure some of you might be lost here but here it goes. I was lying on my bed last night at 3:13 am with my eyes shut and mind running. Maybe it was because of the lack of sleep the night before too but somehow I might have had a mood swing and i started thinking really negative bout Life and things I was doin whether it be in church, school and so on. Personally, I have a very high expectation in everything I do and in everyone I look up to. But somehow, when one has HIGH n really HIGH expectations on things and how humans SHOULD behave, one is bound to be DISAPPOINTED. Trust me, Humans aren't to be trusted [I'm human too, thus don't trust me?.. lolz]. Hey, we ALL have to admit, we make mistakes and we all ain't perfect but its not about the IMPERFECTION of human life but how we tackle the problems and issues. I had attended a Worship Workshop this morning at church where Ps. Jason only actually spoke a key opening message. But it had substance in his word. There was such authority in his words. It was as if he was directing everything to Me alone amongst the 300 people at Parousia. Well, this "false expectations" apply to EVERY aspect in our live [this was not in his key note address.. my thoughts]. If you really think into it, marriages also break up because in this society now, sometimes people get involve TOO fast and there is always that "expectation" for the relationship to be of heavenly, loving 24/7, flawless, quarelless and so on. However when conflict arises and misunderstandings, people get frustrated and soon disappointment creaps in kills the relationship softly [killing me softly~~].

Well, I'm still in the slwo process of really learning what it is NOT to place "false expectations" but to take things as it comes. Its gonna be a hard process because by nature, I expect the SMART to BE smart, the Leaders to be Perfect and Encouraging, Pastors to all spiritual, Friends to be all polite and kind, Teachers to be all Smart and able to present well, Doctors to be healers, Firemans to save lives, Policeman to be righteous, Roddick to win the Masters, and Malaysia to be somehow nucleared by the Americans [just jokin, to all you Love-Malaysia Fanatics]. BUT not all smart people are smart in every area, leaders can't even lead sometimes, pastor's are human too, friends backstab, alot of teachers just cant teach and You know who i mean, Doctors can't heal for God's sake, even fireman themselves get blazed in the blaze, policeman are desperate for "duit kopi", Roddick LOST AGAIN~, and Malaysia seems to be in harmony [wat the?!!].

In conclusion, if I have convince to see the cup as half EMPTY, well, I'm gonna convince You that it IS HALF FULL. It all comes down to this again, WE AIN'T PERFECT. I like the saying that its not about whether you failed or not that you are called a failure in life but you are a failure if only you decide to stay there in your shit and give all hope up. Get up child!

The last thing I must mention that in the midst of all my disappointment I still did find fulfillment. In God. I've learn never to depend on man but only on God [sigh of relieve].

I could go on.. so many things to talk about la.. hahaha.. but i shant. Enough for one night to take. Dowan to turn ur mood upside down tonight.. hehehe.. Its gonna be another B E A Utiful day Tmr!.. WOOHOO!!... LUNCH WIF GAY! OOPS.. GUY!.. HAHHAHHA.. Gotta get back to my bed now.. lolz..

A special SHOUT OUT to Tan Ee Jin before I leave, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!.. well, I might as well post my message to you. WEll Ee Jin, You are ONE special girl. Till today I'm still amaze at such energy and enthusiasm you have. I hope it carries through out this 16th Year of Your life. Enjoy it while You can!.. Love you and I cherish our friendship!.. Hug

Deep in thoughts
-jOhN LiM-

More Than Words

Isn't it such a B E A Utiful song?.. You know what, I'm gonna sing it one of these days. Action speaks louder than words they say. Haha.. have you ever wonder how people behave the way they do. Humans. Cluster them all together and you get emotions like love, hate and conflict, actions like kisses, hugs and stabbing, appearance such of fat, cute or just plain Brad Pitt. But the human creation has never cease to amaze me. But I would have to admit that this creation of God can be described as More than Words ever can describe. Just purely magnificant and phenomenal. I'd like to share a short story here tonight. Well, some of you might be familiar with it, but to those who would be reading it for the first time, hope you enjoy it.

On a cloudy, misty spring dawn Clara decided she might as well get her feet wet at the perfectly shaded brown of sand. Clara felt the soft lush and beat of splashing waters beneath her feet as she stroll along the beach reflecting on the goodness and graciousness of God as He spared her life in a freak accident about a year and 5 months now. Clara had always remember that day as she woke up on the wrong side of the bed. But to cut the long story short, Clara somehow or another escaped a bugglary and narrowly missed a shot. Now back to the scene on the beach, Clara had always found her slwo walks on the beach as a relaxation and found tranquility in the soft splashes. She had took a walk on the beach the day after her wedding, a day after she found her best friend in bed with her knight in not-so-shining-armour-anymore, a day after when she found out she was pregnant, a day after her son's first birthday and so on. In summary, the beach had played an important role in the sane of her mind. But on good days when she had walked this beach she had always found 2 sets of footprints (recognise the story now?) as she walked by. However on tragical days, she had only found one set of footprints. Curious to find out this time, she questioned God.

"I know You are always here for me on good days, however why do You run away on bad days?! Why'd did I find myself all alone on this beach when Leonard left me? Why did granny had to suffer that cancer? Why did I had to go through all the Pain alone? God, I had enough! Where are you?!" excruciate Clara as she lay on the knees sobbing for pitty.

In a still, small voice as she heard, God answered, "My dear child, You were never alone. I was always here beside you. In fact, the only footprints you found was because I held you in My arms as i carried You along. I never meant for You to feel all alone."

Clara soon realised that Granny had never "suffered". She was now in a better place and so on for the other troubles. She had come to her senses that nowonder she never suffered any child birth pains or pay the morning papers because Uncle Sam from across the road had pitty on the condition of her financial state or when Uncle Jerry had sold her his Mustang 500 for only just a few hundred bucks or when Madam Forestier always volunteered to take care of baby Jerrard when mommy was off to wash the dishes for the Itallian Restaurant down to road all day long. But God was always there in the small things. He was also there for the Big things. And He will always be there for You too and Me! Therefore no matter what you are facing today, look up to heaven, for God is smiling down on You today. The End

Wee!!.. I'm done!.. lolz.. how was it?.. hehehe.. feedback?.. Pls correct my english in any way. Just felt like writing a story. Hehehe... Well, as I was saying, You must hear me singing More than Words by Frankie J one of these days. I love it. Its such a sweet song. To my baby out there, ITS FOR YOU!.. LOLZ.. but i have to mention that singing doesn't come without any hard work!.. I can testify to that. But I guess if u have to ask, I guess the toilet concerts are the ones that really help develop my voice ;P So to you guys out there, take pride you know a great singer like me. Oopss.. ahhaha.. I know somehow someday I'm gonna be out there singing on your Radio. Its a passion that will not go out ;) (i hope).. K la.. enough of bragging. HAHAHA.. Hope you enjoyed my blog thus far.

By the way, I'M GONNA HAVE LUNCH WITH GUY SEBASTIAN THIS SUNDAY.. MUAHAHAHA.. WATCH OUT FOR THE PICS!!!.. N THE TICKETS FOR THE 5PM CONCERTS ARE STILL WIF ME!.. COME GET ONE QUICK!!!...

Emmanuel
-jOhN LiM B*** O**-

Love, Undefined..

L O V E.. the magic of these 4 letters combined conforms a undenialbly wonderful feeling. But what is the defination of Love?.. Has it ever cross your mind?.. Well it certainly has crossed my mind a million times. Well, thanx to Jo Lin for going all high and excited, she just HAD to ask ME the meaning of love.. this was my reply - "A divine feeling that has everlasting effects that is true and beautiful on beings. A high that allows one to go berserk and senseless and thus causing us to do crazy things for love." Well, I'd still remember the book Mel Win had lend to me - Crazy Little Thing Called Love. It was an awesome book. However be warned that it might offend some readers. LOLz.. But it really brought up a perspective of the meaning of Love. It was crazy how the Bass player drank c** in the morning with orange juice. If you do not understand the asterix, don't ask. However I can picture some of you laughing your heads off. Now, back to where I came from, LOVE, raise your hand if you still remember Parent Trap in 1998? Who still remembers the song that goes "L is for the way you Look at me, O is for the Only one i see, V is Very very extraordinary, E is for Everthing that you'll adore..........." I really liked that song. Had the essence of Love there.

To move on, who else understands the way I feel after watching all those sappy love stories in the movies or just lying on your lazy couch with dimmed lights as you wished you were there to witness two love birds FINALLY reconcilling and ADMITTING that "DAMN IT, I LOVE YOU".. hehehe.. I always enter into this sheol evertime after I watch these kind of Romance Movies. Thanx for that experience Benedict ;) Hahaha.. Anyone up for a Romantic Movie Night Marathon?.. A Lot Like Love, Vanilla Sky, A Walk To Remember, Hitch, Titanic?.. I'm open for suggestions.

Well, but I do believe in true Love. I know somehow or another I will meet the ONE for me out there one day. I've already started praying for You! Hahaha.. But one thing I'd still remember a leader telling me once, "Don't pray for God to prepare your future girlfriend for You, instead Pray for God to prepare YOURSELF for your future girlfriend". Its cute yet true. But its weird that somehow although I don't think that I've really fallen in love but yet I've seeked for the meaning of love since. But, hey I have to admit that I do wanna fall in Love one of these days. Like I've said, its a magical feeling and I bet Mel Win, Jo Lin, Alicia Khi, Jordan, Jia Min, Vincent and a whole bunch of you out there can testify to the perfect power of Love.

But hey! On the bright side, You all out there that has not found THE ONE for yourself, take joy in your single status. Its a privilege. Hahaha.. Let's Press On together for World Peace!.. Now what am I crapping here?.. Aiks.. Alrighty, I PROMISE I'll bring this topic up once again.

Peace Out
-jOhN-

Kepala Sawit?

Its either you're dying to tell me that I've done a spelling error or you have no b*addy idea what I am crapping about. Hahaha.. went for a field trip yesterday to a Palm Oil Farm. Wasn't too amusing but it can get rather exciting when you stuff a bunch of Year 10 Kids together in a bus to ride. Nothing much to share bout this trip. But I have to mention bout our rather interesting trip to 1Utama on the 21st for Melly's Birthday. Jo Lin had the most "brilliant" idea to go to Chilli's for lunch~ For God's sake, we're only students~. but however food turned out fantastic. Enjoyed it loads. Had really lofty cake with chocolate and shared macaronni n cheese with my darling Yee En and Sexy Lik Xiang. Had a few carrot cigarrates too. LOLz. ;P take a look at the pics. Gonna have to take my rest now. Having BM Oral tmr!.. Gonna speak on eutroficasion or Eutrofikasi and the effects of contamination incluiding the green house effect and acid rain. Bare in mind. This will be done in Bahasa Melayu. Praying that all goes well!.. Woohoo!.. Love presentations.. Go jOhNnY! Enjoy the Pics ;)

The First Steps

Alas the pressure to blog has finally got into John Lim. Ahh, I'm already struggling to finish my second sentence!.. Hahaha... Well, but anyway I hope this blog would allow You people to get to know me better as I am. Now you get to hear the School side of John, the Church side of John, and the all casual John, the weird John, the hyper John, the philosophical John and the list goes on.

Tobegin my first post today, well, it really hit me when one of my brother's closest friends just had passed away bout 3 hours ago. It devastated my brother and took the life our of Him. Well, it really made me realize how fragile life can be and yet we still do take forgranted of it, Me included. For Eunice, you Will be forever remembered. She was such a pleasant girl. I'd still remember the first time she came over for a project. She had straighten hair with a pinch of make-up and a really joyous face. I didn't really take time to analyze her features as I was trying my best to grasp of what Oprah was saying on Pathological Liars amidst their discussion. I was rather polite with the group for as far as I could remember, I offered her a cup of cold water but unfortunately she decline. However she accepted my offer for a seat. Well, Eunice, although I will never have to opportunity to know you better in this lifetime, I know I'll see you at the Finishing Line.

Results are all out. Satisfactory. Although I would not try to believe that I did well, I know I could have done better. But what more could I ask? Thank You Jesus. Congrats Mel Win! So proud of you. Happy Birthday Mel Win (again)!! Arghh... I must tell you this, I accidentally thought that yesterday(19th) was the 20th. So I called Mel Win immediately when the clock strike twelve but there was no answer. I then took awhile to write a really sweet sms wishing him the happiest birthday. How humiliating. To have mistaken your best friend's birthday for the day before. How blur can I get? Blame it on my mom's genetic codes. Oh, I must tell you guys one day on the perfect blurness of my mother. Its just beyond comprehension. Its un-human-like anymore. But I love you so dearly for that Mommy. Muaxxx.

Well, I guess I've bore you enough now. Time to take off and get rest. And I welcome feedback people. Thats what keeps the world running. Feedback. Hahaha.. have an awesome day ahead. Love ya all People!!

-jOhN-