Happy New Year my friends.

Happy New Year!

Cheers to the best Year ahead! ;) To Love, Change and Progress!

Much Love,
Your John

It wasn't any bad after all.

Woke up to a rainy morning before me and beloved sis headed to church for their Christmas service. Always feels refreshing to go to church and hear Pastor Kong Hee. Was very much entertained by the play before we headed off to the airport for a sumptious lunch. Got back to rest before I headed out for dinner with lovely Shittal and her housemates and a whole lot of guests. All the meals were prepared by a steward that came by to cook pasta, mee soto, roasted chicken, and small finger foods. Very much a Malaysian "Air Crew" gathering kinda thing. Had good laughs before I left.

Leaving for an early flight tomorrow to Manila. Was suppose to join batchmates for Kareoke tonight but I called out because of an early flight out. Sigh. Was all excited to join them this time because I had all my Chinese Pin Yin copied and pasted onto Microsoft Word to be printed and sang in the room. Seriously. The only Chinese songs I ever sing in Kareoke is Lee Hom's Forever Love and Kiss Goodbye which I can 75% remember by heart. Now, I can sing a whole load more of Lee Hom's songs when I go K. 16 to be specific ;) Hahahaha! I always knew the tunes, but was just illeterate when it came to chinese. Sigh. What kind of Chinese am I?

I guess Christmas is about Love, and giving and sharing the Joy. Its always a different experience being away from home and celebrating it away from your home country. I believe students and working people overseas can testify to that. It is when friends really come together to be with each other and really appreciate the warmth and company. I have to conclude that this year's Christmas is definitely not the best, but the most unique and different (=

Till then, enjoy the last few days of the Year while I head off to Manila and then Dubai. Will try to post something up to sum the whole year before the New Years. And I still have NOT decided to come back for New Years or not. Sigh.

-jOhN "Feliz Navidad" LiM-

Sweet jingles play by the streets,

Sweet Lovers, with their palms intertwined, struting their way down Orchard,

Sweet decorations hang by the buildings and trees, with colourful lights and flashes,

Sweet cheesecakes fill the bakeries, with bright red cheeries on the top,

Sweet tunes fill the air, as the festive season blows with the wind.

It is the second Christmas now, away from Home. My first Christmas away was in Japan in Dec 2006. But that was very different. That Christmas was spent with "Family" too. This year, is a Family Dry Christmas. It is truly VERY different. Being away from family and friends, now I know how it truly feels to be alone on a festive season. Though I have my sister around with me, but its definitely different. Not being together together, you know, with every component of the family together.

Spend the eve in, but I'm sure to be out tomorrow. I'm gonna make the most of my Christmas. Got a Church Christmas Production tomorrow morning, then gonna hang out in the city in the afternoon and then dinner with Shitaljit, Ping, Charlene, Emily and her new found boyfriend and all their housemates as well. Its a Malaysian Steamboat dinner kinda thing. Sweet :)

Nobody wants to be lonely on Christmas or New Years, EVER! Hahaha. And I'm gonna make sure of that for myself for the coming year ahead. Till then, I've got Dubai for my last flight of the Year till I smell Auckland on the 2nd of January. Till then, adios my fellow readers! Its amazing how time flies. Before I know it, I'm leavin the airlines already.

-jOhN "Hoe Hoe Hoe" LiM-

How'd I wish....

Yup, wishes. Did you ever looked into the blue skies and wished? Wished that your dreams may come true, wished that you'd never felt the way you did, wished things were better, wished life gave you a second chance, wished you had it all.

Tonight, I sat in the car, and wished. Drove along the LDP and wished. Wished I'd knew you in different conditions, wished I met you earlier, wished things weren't the way as it is, wished my dreams would come true.

Meeting you was enlightening. Yes. I didn't regret a bit coming back this time, though it was such a last minute decision. I booked my ticket the night before I flew back to KL and it was one of the best decisions I made in my life. Hands down.

But I guess life has all its divine mysterious plans planned out for us. Things weren't just meant to be. Well at least deep down inside I know I met an Angel.

You gave me strength again. You gave me the spirit to live again. Not that I didn't have any spunk, but you lit that spark. You showed me light again, that there was Hope. I guess it all really boils down to choosing Happiness. Someone once said that, "Happiness belongs to those who choose it, to those that Choose Happiness" and I want to see that in You. In Me, In us if I can say, but I guess not. But I know we'd live great separate lives.

I'm back to square one again. Yup, here I am again, sinking in my head. But its a good thing. I'm taking things differently this time. I'm smiling through this, knowing I'll have you as my friend for the rest of my life. How privileged I am.

In a few more hours from now, I'll board my plane back to my little island and then off to Perth in another few more hours. Life begins again, but this time with Hope.

On another note, my lovely partner in crime also brought up a very good topic of discussion. Here's the question. Do I want COMPANIONSHIP or a RELATIONSHIP? Yes, ask yourself that, do you just need a companion, someone there for you, or do you really need a relationship?

It woke my restless mind up. She asked me, do I really need a relationship? Do I really need someone to Love? Do I really need to BE with someone? Or do I just NEED someone? I was dumbfound. I always thought it was human nature to WANT a partner, to WANT to be with someone, to WANT to find that special someone. She denied it totally. She assured me that she's ever had that longing, not even in high school. Yes, she had crushes and such but she never had the DESIRE or LONGING to BE with someone all the time. But I had. I always wanted someone, someone to express my Love to, someone to reach out to, someone to pour my "riches" materially and non-materially. I mean, if you have come to know me by now, I'm actually pretty generous to the people I love, seriously. I don't mind splurging to ones that are close me. I mean, if I have the means, why not? Sharing Love IS still Love isn't it? I'm not trying to BUY love or sort, but I'm just expressing my Love.

Anyway, back to companionship and relationship. You see, do I actually need a relationship or is all I want is just Companionship? That's why it got me thinking. Do I really need it all?

I really don't know how I am gonna handle all these for the next few months, but at least I know I've got a Friend in You.

On another note, I don't know why I don't feel the Christmas Spirit this year? Maybe because I'm working. Sigh :(

-jOhN "thankful" LiM-

Cape Town is absolutely stunning.

It is breathtaking and the most magnificent place ever! S

eriously. If you have the resources, Cape Town is the place to be. I've already began uploading pics onto Facebook. Gonna drop a few her

e. But I'm sure the ones here does no justice to the place. Have a look on my Facebook :) In the mean time, I'm gonna update pics here soon ok? Just wait for it ;P

I've got my roster for January already. I'm going to Auckland on the 2nd of January and to Moscow and to the States again and... *drumrolls* I'm gonna spend my 20th birthday in AHMEDABAD!!!!!.......... Have you even heard of the freakin place?!?!?!?! Hahhahahahhahahaha.... Aiya, can guess where la.... My first ever India nightstop, on my birthday. Oh well. I'm still thankful. How many Asian dudes get to celebrate their birthdays in India... Hahahahahaha!

In the mean time, Cape Town really woke me to appreciate the things and opportunities I have in my life. To be thankful and appreciative. How many can say they have the "luck" that I have. Taking each day at a time. Much loves, my loves :) I wan a GOOOOOD 20th Birthday Lord.. :)

-jOhN "vanakam" LiM-

Another 2 boring days of standby at home... Good rest for me though...

Darn sien le, see my housemate in love.. Hahahaha!! Apparently a season where Love is ALL around, but where's MY Love :( Boohoo... hahaha!!

I just had to blog about that. Everytime I see her smile at her phone, I jealous~ AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!!! Nvm John, Your's is on the way ;) Weeeeeee!!

Cheers to the season of Love ;)

-jOhN "jingle jingle" LiM-

Here comes Christmas!

Though I won't be flying on Christmas day, I am still very excited about this year's Christmas. It'll be the 2nd Christmas not spent in Malaysia apart from the last one in Japan.

Having a small gift exchange party here and I'll be popping by Penang for a night to celebrate my housemate's birthday. Still can't decide if I should spend New Years here in Singapore or KL. I'll be coming back from Dubai on the 30th, then I'll be free till the 2nd. Hmmm....

Oh well, gonna take off now. Just drop ya a few pics of Zurich City. My second time in Switzerland already. Coldddd.. Brrr.. Nights!

-jOhN "Merrryyy" LiM-

Just a quick update here before I take rest for my flight to Zurich tomorrow.

Had a blast in Paris again. Went for more sightseing and SHOPPING this time ;) Muahaha. REAL shopping, in PARIS.. hahaha..

Got back from KL and headed straight to Swissohotel in Raffles City to celebrate beloved Lynn's birthday. They surprised her in the Fantastic hotel room. Spent the night there playing Taboo and having a great time.

Had a small dinner at home tonight. Cooked with my housemate Emily ;) Guess which dish I cooked? Hehehe. Hint: I cooked 2 of them :D *bangga*.. =.="" HAHAHAHAH..

Watched Quarantine with the rest after dinner and I DID NOT have a good time because the movie sucked so bad. Gosh, Don't even bother catching it. Urgh. Hahahaha

Thank God I got called up for Zurich tomorrow or else I'll just die at home on my 11 day standby. At least I'll earn something. Its snowing now in Zurich. The last time I checked the weather, it was -1 degrees. Time to put on my "pom-pom-puffed-up" winter jacket again ;) Hope the newbies on the flight would have some plan to sight see, or I'll just end up shopping in Zurich. Swiss Francs to the Singapore dollar isn't much difference anymore. Even the Euro went down. I love the Singapore Dollar. Its even stronger than the Aussie Dollar. And I multiply money like how Jesus multiplied the fish and bread if I convert back to the Malaysian Ringgit. Wahaha. Shit. I better get back down to earth.

Alrighty. Enjoy the pics while I cuddle myself up in my warm blanky in Zurich. Toodles ;) Gonna try to pick up some German while I'm there :)

-jOhN "auf weidersehen" LiM-

Good evening beautiful people!

It has certainly been a quiet day without my housemates around. Like how I was previously saying, I was on a 7 day standby and guess what, I was only called up for one pathetic flight, Colombo. I guess I won't be activated for my standby tomorrow as well. After that I have a KL turn where I fly to KL and DON'T get down from the plane and to Paris the day after that. Checked the weather recently and if I was not mistaken, it did say it was snowing for a day. Its gonna be freezing in Paris this time. The last time I went, I had a sunburn from walking too much and now, its gonna be freezing. Its already my second time to Paris and I'm thankful. Gonna get birthday gifts there for a few people. I'm prepared. Haha.

I'm worried now cause, right after my Paris,I'll be on another standby. This time, I'll be on a 11 day standby! Gosh. Don't know how I'll survive. The problem with standbys are that, its not certain if I'll get a flight and worst still, I won't be even sure WHEN I'll be called. So therefore, when we're on standby, we stay at home like good dogs. But due to the economic downturn, the company has cut flights and therefore I believe there has been an influx of crew. I hope it picks up by March next year.

On another hand, there hasn't been much drama on ground and on air. I have been picking up on Gossip Girl at home because of my standby. My housemate had bought the whole series from Shanghai. I recently went to Shanghai to get some DVDs too for another batchmate of mine but I didn't get any for myself though. I think Gossip Girl has been overrated. Its not really nice. I guess it just sells on the "good-looks" of their cast. Other than that, the drama just doesnt sustain the whole series. Don't see it as a lasting series.

Finally our Bitch-fest gang got to meet again recently in the airport. It has been some time since we really met as a WHOLE group. But you can really see the change in our conversation. We are now more versed with our work and we are actually having loads of fun in the air. It really does make a difference, your attitude you bring on board.

I have been thinking, if I really do like this line, after serving my bond here with the Cabin Crew division, I'm gonna do as plan and get my degree in New York and then probably come back here to SIA to try out to be a Pilot. I mean, why not? It wouldn't hurt since I already got a glimpse of it all. I have only one worry. Whenever we fly, and we're overseas, at least the cabin crew have each other to go out with but the captains, I feel, are always really lonely. For long flights, they have two Captains and two First Officers, so at least there are 4 of them. But on mid-flights, there are only 2 of them. It can get really lonely at times. I'm determined. If I ever got to become a Pilot, I'm gonna tell the cabin crew everytime we're overseas, that I was a cabin crew before and that they MUST call me out if they were going out. Hahaha! My housemate has been dating this First officer recently, and I've been talkin to him and its interesting. But he do share my concern about the lonely part thing. Haha. He agrees with my opinion on that part. Poor him. I'm gonna call him out if I ever fly with him again. Yup, I flew with him before. On my first solo flight to Brisbane. He's a pretty nice guy. I just hope he's as nice as he looks la. My housemate is just too fragile to be cheated with. Poor her.

Alrighty. Gonna sink myself in some jazz now. Yup, I stil LOVE jazz and I constantly get albums from everywhere I fly to :) For the Love of Jazz. Good night and sleep tight my fellow friends. You deserve all the Love out there!
Take care and hope to hear from all of you soon.

-jOhN "standbying" LiM-

Finally some pics from Sydney.. :P

Yes, managed to meet Ian though I had only informed him the day before becaused I was called up for the flight.

I will be on standby the next one week. Gosh. Gonna rot at home if they don't call me for a GOOOD LLLOONGGG flight... oh well..

Here goes! Fingers crossed...

-jOhN "You have NO new Msges" LiM-

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John is beginning a chant to moan the death of his good rosters. John is SUPER thankful for his roster!

Sigh. My new Dec roster is the worst I've seen. Though I will be heading to Cape Town, Perth and Dubai, those 3 will be my only flights. YES! I'll be going to Cape Town! I didn't know how BEAUTIFUL, MAGNIFICENT, and SPECTACULAR it was until I took a look at Ping's pictures on her cam! I know where to bring my parents d for a holiday! Seriously! Its that nice!! Ok la... Looking on the bright side, I'll be heading to Cape Town.. Hmmm.. There can dive with the Sharks.. Hehehe.. Hopefully the waters ain't too chilly.

Other than that, I just got back from a night in Bali. Accidentally woke up an hour early before my call time, so I decided to head down to the beach and have a look. Holiday-ish mood kinda hotel la (DUH~). Oh well. No pics of me coz I looked damn shagged that morning. Haha.

Oh well, nevermind. John is cheering up cause he is gonna get a SUPER DUPER FANTASTIC GLORIOUS roster in January for his Birthday. Wooo!

-jOhN "moaningg...(not in the wrong way)" LiM-

PS: Thanx Sab :) hehehe

^.^ I'm back i KL for a REALLY short trip again. Leavin on Thurs already till i leave for a night in Bali on Friday. Moscow - Houston was FANTASTIC... Talk about cold, Moscow was some -3*C (Dunno how to do the dot..) Cold sial.. But was very entertained by the people there.. I'll let the pictures speak for themselves. I shopped... LOADS in Houston.. Hahaha. Bought Coach bags for my mummy and sis. Oh well, pamper them once in awhile can la :P

Got to see the Red Square in Moscow and went to NASA in Houston. Will upload pics on Facebook soon but Facebook isn't letting me do it now. So, I'll just post some up here now :) Much Loves.

PS: I'm going back to Paris end of this month again. Wee or Boo? :P

Lalalala
-jOhN "frozed" LiM-

Ola!

Just got back from Sydney. Was called up for this flight. Rushed to make arrangements to meet Ian up for a good city tour. Wasn't disappointed with Sydney cause I met really nice people on my flight. Though my flight on the 744 wasn't very comfy, I appreciated the fact I paxed up as a passenger and only worked my way down on the 777. Overall, Sydney was nice. Sleek city, with nice views. But I guess the company was of most importance. Cheers to good friendships. Will include pics when I get them from the girls.

Not much drama updates here other than the fact that you're STILL silent. But I guess its a sign that you aren't interested la hor? (= just pack my bags, and move on hor? :) I must stop giving excuses for you. I don't deserve such treatments. I know I'm more than all these shit. I don't want to move, but I guess you've forced me to move on.

Spoke to a lovely friend on the phone recently and I expressed my desire to find a love soon. And the asked me why? What for? And I answer, "To share my Happiness". Then she goes, "What Happiness?" Shit. Yes! WHAT HAPPINESS!? What bullshit story are you lying to yourself my dear John. What Happiness? Hahahaha..

But thing is, why am I being such a sceptic to my own life? Why did I choose to see darkness when I am actualy so blessed! So, conclusion, I HAVE happiness to share ok? Hahahahahaha!

Next up, Adelaide. Sien le Aussie stations. All identical wan. Oh well. Money is good...... :P Hahahaha.

Ok, time for another confusing part of my post.

Will You still Love me for who I am if you actually got to know me deep inside

Will You still Love me for who I am if you actually get to see ME

Will You still Love me for who I am if you acutally got to dig into my dirty laundry

Will You?

Eyes. You've caused me pain. Great pain.

-jOhN "haPpY" LiM-

Woo!

Konnichiwa! I'm back from Osaka! But it was the shortest trip EVER!

Flew after midnight, so i was awake the whole night! Reached early in the morning, checked in the hotel. Took half an hour to bath and get ready and left for Kobe. Thank God for Akiko who showed me the right train to take. Took a train ton Sannomiya in Kobe to meet my Jap and boy it was a joy to see them again!

Had good buffet lunch with them till we went for a lil shopping. By the time I got back to my hotel it was 10pm! I was awake for more than 24hours~~ I was a zombie in Osaka. Had to leave the next morning d. Hate this Osaka pattern. Damn short. Oh well, at least I got to go and meet them anyway. Heheheh..

I'm on standby for most of the week now. Hope they'll call me for a GOOOOOD flight. Hehehe... Next up to look forward to is MOSCOW - HOUSTAN.. WOooOoOoOo....

-jOhN "sayonara" LiM-

Does anyone have a cure for my achey-breaky heart?

Gosh, how long do I have to wait till I learn my lesson well?

Gonna let loose tomorrow night before I leave for Osaka on Saturday.
Yes~! Gonna meet my Jap family in Japan finally! Wooooo.. AT LEAST there is something to look forward to~ Gosh....

On another note, I am sumhow addicted to PussyCat Doll's When I Grow Up. Hahahha! Check it out ;)

Loves

-jOhN "sighness" LiM-

PS: Video of us in LA.... Crazy ride.... Thats us swinging... Gosh~

I'm finally back!
Of course not just back from LA, but back here to blog. Yes, it has been some time. After coming back from LA, I hurried down back to KL to breathe a lil for a quick 3 days. I guess this time back for a bit more fruitful than the last time I popped back. That was a rush.

Taipei-LA was terrific. Met wonderful people on board. Very nice set of crew. Had loads of fun. Won't go into details, but yes again, pics on Facebook. This time too lazy to put up any pics here, next time I hope.

Popping by Osaka this Sunday. Gonna meet my Japanese family there! Excited for that. Then end of the month, i'm going to Moscow-Houstan! Woo. Shiok.

Life theses days on board has been smooth sailing. i'm picking up on my work now. Now is learning to ways to sharpen and smoothen my work, thats all. Its been good seing how my batchmates and I have grown at the same pace. I always look forward to flying, though I do have that before-flight syndrome where I sigh for a bit. Haha.

I'm trying to keep myself occupied. My mind and all. Just the other day my batchmates and I went over to East Coast Park to rollerblade and cycle. Its been some time since I've done some outdoor activity. Can't wait for the next outing. Brought my tennis racquet over from KL as well to play over here in Spore. Hoping to find buddies to play with soon, or my racquet will just rot here.

I been feeling pretty lost again. Yeah, AGAIN (Here John goes~ *roll eyes*). I don't mean to say anything, but in the working world, if you know wat I mean, you have to "behave" a certain way to the people you work with. I was just tlakin to my batchmates the other day and realised I'm the only one behaving this way. But thing is, am I doing it sincerely? I mean, I'm the only one that can answer this question, but I believe the answer is Yes. But somehow, I still feel distrubed by it. I feel that I may appear fake. But then, my mind chooses to rationalise with everyone that I am merely doing it all out of goodwill. If you're lost here, don't bother. This posting is also for history purposes when I look back next time.

I really want to find my true self. What I really want in life. What I really want to be. I want to find my direction. Not that I am THAT lost, but at least know who I am. I want to discover my true nature and the angel that is hidden in me, or at least the devil that is lurking inside. I want to know Me, John. Just John.

You made me confused you know. You did. Yes.... And as each tear strem down my cheek, I understood what you have been doing. Manipulation of my fragile heart. I guess, Life points us in all the directions, but it is only by our choice that we choose. I chose wrong. I chose You. However, regardless, I still choose You. I want to believe that it will work. I want to believe that its not just a mere silence, but a testing, a trial in time where time sits still, amidst all the happening to calm my heart. Though it has caused a stir, I know, that somewhere, and literally, you are OUT there. But you will never hear my cry, will you?

Why do You keep silent when I need an answer?

The whispers of the wind is in my ear as I gaze up on the skies to see you there. I want to know that you are there. Tangible to my senses, soft to my touch. You stole a part of me that will never be returned. But I do. I really do.

On another note, I'm also starting to feel allienated. Yes, from Us. I somehow feel that you guys despise me. But I am only me with you. Sigh. Where else can I be me. Gosh, I am such a people pleaser. Die John, Die to yourself!

-jOhN "tears" LiM-