Is this the way its suppose to happen?

Tonight will be the night that i fall for you?

tuesday is always a long day. Shit

The past is back to haunt me.
Pls let me go.

It's completely crazy. Thursday was class outing. We cycled from east coast to changi beach and back. It's a good 27km. omg.

Friday was labour day. It's another day when i feel like its saturday. Felt so bad to have watch Wolverine with my classmates leaving wjh alone. Because of that, i'll watch terminator and transformer with him. hahah

Yet another Saturday.

There will be many occasions when you feel that you are not able to pull yourself together. Always remember that you live your life only once and there are no second chances. Get it right the first time and walk home head high. Remember what you always want and you will never go wrong.

On the days when i feel within me, i've lost faith in any forms of emotional attachmetns. I am scare.

Today has been a bad bad day. I was feeling damn upset after school. It makes me angry not being to able to understand the concept between concentric movement and eccentric movement. The rest of the class are able to grasps it.

Eccentric movement. Assisted by gravity. Lengthening of muscles.
Concentric movement. Against gravity. Shortening of muscle.

Sitting down, contract of hams extent of quads
Standing up, contract of quads extent of ham.

Somehow, i cant find anything to blog about.

3rd in school and i can feel the heat. All the rust. I am all ready tired. I feel like i need a break and the day seems longer than usual.

Look to your future for strength.

today's the second day of my course. It was tiring. Was in school from 8-6pm. Tiring yet fun and knowledgable. This is school days. Woot. I'm liking it. Tomorrow's club crawl and i intend to join nyaa. Sweet.

Gonna do some light reading before heading back to sleep.

20/04/09. I'm going back to school. Got a good set of timetable.

I've a good feeling i'll sleep well. The weather is very cooling. It is either going to rain tonight, later or tomorrow morning.
Had a conversation with my parents and through the course of the conversation, i can see how we are alike in a way or another. Not physical appearance but character and all that comes with it.

I'm getting better and better.

yesternight was another sleepless night. All the tossing and turning on bed. I wonder how i'm going to bed tonight.

I am filling my every breath with hope.

Today's weather gonna be hot.

Just look at my 19th april 2008 post. That was what i hoped for. I got a new goal. As what cyl said " i get what i want "

Weather is freaking killing me.

My stomach's feeling queazy, my heart's racing mad. At this rate, i wont survive school tomorrow. Seriously, i dont think i will be getting any sleep tonight. The excitement is killing.

yesterday's dinner was great. Crystal jade la mian xiao long bao with amos , ek mickey, gerard and jonathan. Amos and i whacked all the xiao long bao and beefs. haha. seriously.

I have to remember what i want. =D

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?

14th April 2009. Amos's brother (Andy) is enlisting today. Reminds me of the time i was preparing to enter NS on the 9th of april 2007. 2 years ago. I've really grown. No longer a boy but a man with wonderful future and career prospect waiting for him.

Now that i've had my 2 great wishes come true, its time to set a new one. Just to recap on my 2 greatest wishes.
1.) ORD
2.) Uni to start in april

I think it is time to plan and work on something solid.
I want to make it to the director's list for year 1 in my course.
Me in the past would say its possible and not put in effort.
Me, Now, would say its definitely possible and realises all talk but no action brings me no where. I am going to work my way. Somehow, i know i can.

It is coming to the week that i have been waiting. Orientation week. Woot. Sounds like uni stuff. hahaa. Mickey's going for his orientation tomorrow. I'll bet he will look like a 1992 student.

I want my hair to grow longer. Yay.

I've watched 2 shows for the last 2 days. Handsome suit and Knowing.
Handsome suit is a japanese comedy show. It's pretty hilarious. Casts are pleasant looking and the very cute bui bui suit.
In the theatre, there were a group of girls sitting in front of us. I wonder what is their problem but they sure did a good job of making themself look lke a fool. Just mins before the movie started, a girl asked her friends " what show are we watching huh?" and during the movie another girl asked " what does vacant means". Seriously.....

Knowing was an ok show. jh thinks it was crap. but yea. For all the sci-fi shows i've watched. This show has a pretty ok ending. The director does not leave you hanging in mid air after the show. Unlike other sci-fi shows i've watched, mainly speaking Day after tomorrow and will smith's flick, Knowing is still the good ending.

7 more days to school... Woot.

Yesterday seems like friday.

It's the second time of the week that i have been losing my sleep. I am tired , my eyes shutting but i cant get alpha wave patterns in my head. Reckon is all the excitement that i'm having about school. I have so many things i wanna do , so many things to ponder and so many things to decide.

Would i want to study overseas? Would i want to get a scholarship and be bonded? Should i start my own business? I want to travel around the world to practice. How?
What CCA should i take up in school? Should i even be in a CCA? would i be able to juggle school work with gym and CCA? or school work and gym would be good enough? So many questions. So confusing.

I wish i know the answers to my own questions.

Anyway, i've been lookiong back. It is on such a bad idea to stay home and do nothing till school starts. Staying at home gives me the extra time to think of my future and the time to learn values through shows like THE MENTALIST and KYLE XY.
I've learnt the whole idea of love.family.friendship.faith.mental awareness.patience and many other values.

Hmmm, let me dream of my future. I would like a mental image.

Oh, wjh, if you are reading this post, i would like to have a final outing before i head back to school on the 20th. ok?

12days to school

Went to watch race to witch mountain alone. Not bad. Dawyne Johnson was ok and the 2 kids.

Funny thing, on my way home from BKK i have realised what is that "thing" missing for the whole of my teen/pre-adult period. Sense of Adventure. I'm hitting 21 and there is nothing in my life that i am proud of. At my age, i should be mountain hiking, scuba diving and doing all the crazy stuff. At 20, your fitness would be at its prime. Probably i should give serious consideration to the cca i intend to participate in school.

10 days to school. Woot

Oh, i cleaned my car.

I cant wait to use my 2008 birthday present that wjh painstakingly imported from korea. He knows what i want. haha

Next upcoming event would probably be 15th april. Trip to sentosa with the guys. When school starts no more l4d, no more slack.

I do wish i dream of the future. I sleep.

A few shows worth watching.

Knight Rider
House
Supernatural
Grey's Anatomy
Kyle XY
The Mentalist
Cruel Love
Sad Love Story
Beautiful Day
My Sassy Girl
Stairway to heaven

Shows that i want to watch

Transformer
Fast n Furious
Race to witch mountain
Handsome suit
Departure
Suspect X
X-Men

Done with Shinjiku Incident. Went to watch it with Wang. A not too bad show. If anyone is expecting a kungfu buff. Spare it. It's more drama mama. It's still a good show. Lots of betrayal and twist to the story. The good part, there are no good guys or bad guys. To bio students, its neo darwin's theory "Natural Selection". To guys out at the streets, probably " survival of the fittest". Pretty interesting.

My mum has become a korean drama fan. For the whole night, she whacked stairway to heaven.


haha.

YEsternight was a pretty havoc and tiring night. Had to chaperone my sister to a club. Apparently, there was a lesbian night event. What the hell. Sent her all the way to maxwell, came home at 1.30 am and had to leave hse at 3.30am. KNS!
Soon, got an urgent call from Jiqing. Had to rush down to CGH. Seems that grandma had a serious asthma attack. Her lungs collapse and has to be placed on a ventilator. It's like dejavu. Somehow i've pictured this scene in my head. Also, it brings me back to the time my granddad passed away. All the intubations. Pretty disheartening.

Got home at 6 and went to sleep at 0630am just to be awaken by a call from my uncle to head down to CGH at 1130hr. No worries, i wanted to go down too.

Tonight will be the night. Dinner , Movie , L4d

you wouldnt believe what time i went to bed last night. 4am. Sucks to be me. What's worse. At 0930am i was awoken by the terrible orchestra of noises below my void deck. All the drilling and all the senseless talking. That's it! i'm awake. Surprisingly,i'm awake till now 1am.

Anyway, went to chomp with my sister and sab(apparently, she's staying over). Went to Frolick. Now i understand why they have such good business. Besides the yoghurt, girls are great too.

ANyway, i'm off to bed. L4d Tomorrow. it would be massive. hahaha

Seriously, i should break my own atm card. I bought a jacket and jeans from pull and bear. It came close to a 200. What the fuck rite. No more shopping for me. At least till i make some money.

Went for lan with mickey and clement. Chionged CS. Pretty fun. haha

Anyway, my eyes are hurting. 4hours of lan. Goodness.

Cant wait for school to start. As what clement said " it's good that school starts in april for me. I get to slack for just the right time and dont have to look for a job" hahha. Pretty True.

Just this night, i took a tired and lonely road home.

I always feel good after washing my caar. The idea of a clean car turns me on.
Sweet. Pleasant to the eye.
For the past few days, i've been home watching kyle xy , supernatural , cruel love and doing nothing. A slow and relax life before school starts in april. Cant wait for that to come.

17 days to school. Counting Down. Just like what i did till 06/02/09.

As always, i would like to emphasize how nice it would be to fall in love. hahaha.
Too good to be true huh.

I no longer owe a smile. I'm tired.

Today is EARTH HOUR! Just thinking what will i be doing from 2030hr to 2130hr.

If i were to be at home,
1.) No computer
2.) Main swtiches switched off
3.) No TV
4.) No heater
5.) NO LIGHTS!

Earth Hour is an international event organised by the WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature/World Wildlife Fund), and held on the last Saturday of March each year, which asks households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change.

Global warming is the increase in the average temperature of the Earth's near-surface air and the oceans since the mid-twentieth century and its projected continuation. Global surface temperature increased 0.74 ± 0.18 °C (1.33 ± 0.32 °F) during the 100 years ending in 2005.[1][A] The Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC) concludes that anthropogenic greenhouse gases are responsible for most of the observed temperature increase since the middle of the twentieth century,[1] and that natural phenomena such as solar variation and volcanoes probably had a small warming effect from pre-industrial times to 1950 and a small cooling effect afterward.[2][3] These basic conclusions have been endorsed by more than 40 scientific societies and academies of science,[B] including all of the national academies of science of the major industrialized countries.[4][5]



I think we should play a part. After all, we're all living in the same place.

Bon Jovi is legend. His vocals are awesome. Took a look at his concert and i was swept off the ground. Imagine i had his voice. Rocks! Bon Jovi a legend.

Had buffet lunch at seafood international with parents and grandmother. Food was okay. Nothing in particular worth recommending.

3 weeks to school. Woot! Go mickey go.

DMC. Detroit Metal City. It's a pretty funny jap show. Not as good as the anime according to SGT MICKEY!

With events coming up.

Tuesday's event : L4D Fetish
Wednesday's event : Manbo!

Somehow, life's back to normal. Not cool.

Just got back from Timbre Substation. It was a great event.
Finally, i've gotten to see wanky wayne, alexius , jonathan , wenlong , aloy , xinru.
It was great seeing them again. All the stupid things we did during BMT! haha.
Nice outing. Sat at timbre from 7 plus to 11 plus. Good food and nice music.

There will be more events. L4D fetish and Manbo.

Good to know everyone's good.

Everyday, i wish for a miracle.

Monday has been pretty good. Woke up at 10 instead of the usual 12noon. Doing the usual stuff. Nothing much.
last night, i dreamt of few events. Erm. me acting in kyle xy. Dreamt about amanda. Hmmm, dreamt about Cruel Love and a red car. haha

Goodness. going for lunch with dad soon. Wee! HANS!

3 weeks. =D

Barron has decided to change his sleeping pattern hoping to adapt to school life.
I'm gonna sleep at 12 and wake up at 8 the next morning. haha.
I'm in for a surprise. haha.

Pump it. Baby, pump it!

Saturday, 21/03/09

It has been a pretty great evening. All the catching up with my JC classmates. Seems like we've all grown. We know what we want to do in life. Pretty good. I'm sure Mr Sala would be proud of us. Rock on. I enjoyed my evening. Really! Hmmm, friends like jovita, gf, mw, mm, ave, cf, ax, ym, xs, dan i've not seen them since we graduated. Oh and Gill too. Oh and sl. she has been a big help.

Honestly, i cant wait for school to start. =D

Tonight, i wish to sleep in peace.

I want super powers.

Mr Vampire 1. Such an old show. In fact, older than i am. 24 years old. haha.
Anyway, went to statisfy my cravings with wjh. Korean BBQ chicken is a total waste of money but i'm statisfied i taasted fried chicken.
While waiting for Chun Li to air, jh and i decided to roam downtown east. We stumbled upon fish and co express. Fried Calamari going at $6.00 . Doing the math, that makes it $3 per person. We're deciding whether we should go in. We're tempted. Just beside us was KFC and their $3 snacker deal. We're still tempted.
After making our order at KFC. Our cashier asked us. Chilli or tomato sauce? instead he took out 3 small suace plates for us to get our sauce at the side. LOL! SO, whats the point of asking chilli or tomato sauce? Btw, name, Dicky.

That is how i ended my night with wjh with a movie and dinner. Oh, not forgetting our trip to gardens. Had egg tau huay and satay.

Home sweet home.

Hopefully, MJ tomorrow.

It's close to 2am in the morning and i've trouble going to sleep. There are many thoughs running through my head. I guess it would be best to blog it.

I just cant stop thinking abt my physio course. I'm very excited and getting hype over it. I was just thinking how would my lecturer look like and would i be the only guy? I'm just excited that orienatation is less than a mth. Having said that, i think i'll be choosing physio over nus. That means i won tbe able to experience uni life. Sucks! Sigh. Yet again, i guess physios what i wanna do.

My plans for the future. I would like to run my own physio business. Not only own a practice but to teach and spread physio. I want everyone to know what is physio. I want them to relate physio to household salt and sugar. I want to leave a legacy.

Having said that, the journey will be ever daunting. I was thinking about my love life. When will i be able to find the other one? How long must i wait? When will i feel right? Why cant things be as simple as those shown in korean dramas? Why is it whenever i think abt my past, it takes my breath away? Why does my heart feels alone?
Why? Is it wrong to not be loved? Sigh.

Another thing that bothers me from sleeping. How's ying doing? Was wondering how's her hearing after operation? Looks like it is hard to get her attention. I just hope she's ok. Great!

Another thing that i've to get off my chest. My dear sister. I have no idea whats going through your mind. Honestly, i was hoping you would mature. Your level of thinking is a complete mismatch to your age. Pls girl, get control over your life. You're going on 20, there are certain things in life you ought to be in control. For goodness sake, just stop arguing with mommy. YES! Drop the idea of you being old enough and mature. Seriously, from our point of view( me,dad,mum,boot,jh ) you are still not ready for the world. Comments were based on the serveral incidents that took place recently. It shows a lack of self control and lots of EGO!

Next on my mind! FOOD!. I'm hungry and i'm craving for all sorts of food.
I want bbq food. BBq chicken wings, nuggets, stingray, carrot cake, fried oyster, pearly tauhuay (COLD), carnivore, crystal jade buffet, japanese bbq food. Seriously, i think its because of my sleeping pattern, my meals are affected. Porbably at this time, it should be dinner. ARGH!

Good. i've probbaly ranted everything. After knight riders. i'll be off to bed. ITs 2.14am. Good night world.

Boot. Just to let you know that i'm happy for you. Still, heed my advice and protect yourself. =D

Today, i was out with boot to trim her brows and i bought a pair of shoes. See! The two events dont relate.

Ooh. We had an expensive korean dinner. Honestly, it doesnt taste like authentic korean food and it costs $60. I rather dine at Seoul Garden. Speaking of food, i miss bbq food!

Omg,food cravings.

I wish i knew what to buy for xs on her 21st!

You give me something that i really want but i wouldnt wanna try.

My bloody Valentine in 3D.

It was a great gore movie. Bloody scenes, Rippied off heads and more gore.
The plot was interesting. You wouldnt expect the killer till the end of the show.
Furthermore, it was screened in 3D. The special effects and all made the show even better and exciting. Nice show. Jensen Ackles. Hot Throb. Woot.

I think i can count down to my school's orientation a month later. WooTT!!

I miss those days.
I miss 180.

Gerard has said it correctly. The end of national service marks a beginning. A milestone.

Movie Review:

Changeling.
Starring Angelina Jolie.

A story about a mother's quest to find her missing son back in 1930s. Through polictical instability and corrupted city officals of Los Angeles, Christine Collins fought hard for her missing son and earned public sympathay.

From Christine's character, it evoked a ceratin emotions.
Saddness, Bravery, Courage, Stubborness and Hope.

Nice Show.

Nobody can live on a diet of HOPE.

Finally. It feels good to exercise. I can feel the energy.

Anyway, i'm gonna cut my hair at shunji matsou and movie with zhiwei,clement,jonathan and alex. That would probably sums up tomorrow's activity. Oh, Probably l4d. We'll see.

Couldnt life be more melodramatic, exciting and fun? If only i had the answers.
I hate routines. It makes a person dull and sad. You're nothing more than a machine or an android. What if i had superpowers? What if i could fly? What would i do with those abilities?

All i can do is to experience them vicariously. Through the birds or superman.

Time to think.

I love it when it rains. Temperature drop to a cozy 29. Seriously, it puts me to sleep.
Anyway, i've spent the whole day monitoring my online investment since 12 pm till NOW! 1.30am. Hardcore but definitely neccessary.
To top it off, i've watched 3 movies online.
1.)My little Bride
2.)Vicky Cristina Barcelona
3.) my Sassy daughter-in-law

and i'm planning to watch My Bloody Valentine 3D which btw ends screening this wed! One way or another, i'll find someone to watch with or go alone. haha.

Seriously, i've been staring at the computer for 5 days straight.

Ooh Boy, cant wait for school to start. +D

how do you enjoy a bowl of hot tau huay with pearls?
You DONT!
haha.
Recently, my 5days confinement turned into a quest for food. Cant stop feeling hungry.

On Monday, I'll go swim and exercise.

I;m dying to go out.

Nights out with WJH! Push is nice! Storyline's great. Actors and Actress looks good. Seat looks GOOD TOO! Next in line would be MY BLOODY VALENTINE 3D! Who wants to watch?

I'm still coughing bad.

All i want for christmas is yYyyoOo000uuUUUU...!!!!!

I wish christmas would come soon.

I'm feeling the aftermath of Ramly burger, cheese tofu, seaweed chicken wrap, cheese sausage and 1 sweet and spicy chicken. I was sure i wasnt going to eat those food till i watched Simpsons. Stupid Homer, sitting in front of the fridge staring at all the food.Homer makes me laugh! but he cant chase the fever away. haha

Today is the 2nd day i forced myself to stay home. Believe it or not, i was glued to the computer. oh god. Probably tomorrow, i'll step up for fresh air. Yes, my rubbish bin is still full of tissue paper(biohazard waste).

Give me my anti-pyretic drugs and love meds.

haha. I couldnt believe i've my rubbish bin filled with tissue papers and waste.
I'm gonna rest home today. Still dont feel too good. It's a social respoinsibilty to remain confined when one's sick. I guess its cruel love, tycoon and poker again.



Again, wjh. i feel you.

Barron went for l4d with melvin,valerie and gerarld and got back home with a fever.
Oh my god. So sick. It would be nice to have someone to come over and look after you. hahaha. Kua Zhang.

Feels exhausted and breathless. The only reason i can give to stay home and sleep.

Go do what you think is right, follow your heart. The next time you look back, you know that you've done everything you possibly could do. No regrets.

Went supper with eleanor,MelC and my sister at gardens!
If this ever continues, i will prob grow fat.haha.

YEsterday's weather was frigging cold. It would be nice to have warmth on my bed.

Run, keeping running away.
Love, is like a drug.
The warmth it brings, irreplacable.
I've felt the pain and i crave for more.
've become an addict. I'm addicted to love.

On a wet Monday, you make me wanna sleep.
I;'ve so much free time, i;ve no idea what to do. At least i've boot to look forward too. haha.

Be gone!

Today, wjh wanted to piak piak chicken. So we went down to geyland. Bought a chicken from cold storage for wjh to piak piak and went straight for durian. hahha KUAI ZHANG!. Geylang was madness. the traffice jam was horrible but i got to spend quality with wjh. Good luck wjh. you know i will always love you. Bromance.

Anyway, we head down to jln kayu for tau huay. Goodness, gula malacca beancurd with pearl SUCKS! its super sweet and horrible.
JH! remember to get the original favourite the next time.

"the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
I simply dont wish to see girls cry. it makes me weak.

I love to listen to the sound of rain. The "tit tattering" sound brings peace. It is like water pixies descending from heaven. Their escapade to earth. The sun shine that follows, brings joy and warmth. It gives me a feeling that everything(good or bad) will be fine. It comforts my soul. Mother Nature. Wonderful!

My mum has been complaining about A level result and it has affected me slightly with her constant nagging. My mum was telling me that i should study hard in uni and all the stuff she needs to rant. About studying hard, earning big money, have a goal in life, dont play around and be serious. Suddenly, she went on to my dad(sitting beside me, reading his saturday's papers). She told him that he shouldnt spend so much on his teeth and all the nonsense. There was a verbal confrontation. lol. Women. typical. Able to drag everyone into their world of nonsense.

Yesternight, i was on my bed thinking about stuff(as usual).It dawned upon me that the dates and day in feb matches the dates and day in march. How cool. It's like living the month of feburary again. Same date on the same day. Hmmm, in that case, this monday i would off to bkk again. hahaha

I feel that i've known you for long.

06/03/09. Exactly a month since i ORDed and there was so many many things that i've done.

Went for gracia and eleanor's first art exhibition at mohd sultan road. Just opposite double O. It was an interesting experience. My first time to an Art exhibit.
Anyway, the few of us left to PS for dinner. That probably sums up the day's activitty.
Oh, i forgot to mention that A level results are out. Got the same grade as last year. Boohoo.

Somehow, my heart feels heavy. I feel for WJH. No worries, i will be there for you my friend. In fact, i think we deserve someone my dear boy. I seek solace in korean dramas. Something close to my heart, something that everyone can relate too. It feels like my story.

Hard boy, be strong.

Just got back from gerald's house. MJ at ah hood road. haha

I'm sorry that i could make it for lan day with mickey and gang. Sorry.

OFf to bed. Tired.

If only i had your shoulders to lie on. If only it wasnt that complicated.

Now, "barron, what are you going do tomoorrow" has become a very sensitive question. Screw WJH! you know i've nothing to do and you still ask such question. Go and die. hahaha.

Stupid WJH! I Bought a korean drama for nothing.


Anyway,All the best.I'll be watching you this friday you bitch.=D

Pls let me go back to school soon.

Pls let things unfold.

" you say goodnight and i fall apart. If i could have you back tomorrow, if i could just lose the pain and sorrow. I'll do anything. I cry silently."

it's probably 95% accurate.

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

2nd of March!

Ben n jerry has not return my call. =(
I want a job.

i woke up with a bad tummyache and i think its my body's way of telling me i've a tummyache through my dreams by constantly playing back a cup of stale milk.

Probably i'll be meeting boot for dinner later.
I've so much to tell you my dear.



Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be in love.
You're all i want, you're my everything.

1st of march. WJH! 7 mths to ORD! WOOT!
Very fast. I'll help to count down. oRD LO!

Intend to go down to taka to support 180 with mickey fucker.

Bearon. says:
guess what i'm doing now.
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
pcc?
Bearon. says:
haahaha
Bearon. says:
better than that
Bearon. says:
got visual stimulation one
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
hmmm
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
don't know?
Bearon. says:
UPLOADING PICS!
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
wow!
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
am i dreaming
jayss - 我不配 我不配 我不配 我不配 - 我不配 says:
?

Got back from the airport after sending SHUK off.

Wjh, after pondering on what you said earlier on, it is true to say that i must learn to slow things down and to have the ball in my court.

Popeye's night.

Went for Nokia's 5800 event at Zouk and Deadmau5. haha Super tired.
Shukkykun is leaving tonight for melb. =_(
I dont think i'm really good at sending ppl off.

why do i have a feeling that i'm being read like a book.
If only i know what's on your mind girl then i wouldnt have to try so hard.

Yesterday's mambo was MASSIVE! 17 guests? Goodness.
The first few jugs of drinks totally knocked me out.
Anyway, tanghoon was super high and drunk and so was ele.
Because of the stupid graveyard.

last mambo till someone ask me along. hahaha

Anyway, kepo yvonne.

yvonne =) until then says:
oh ya
yvonne =) until then says:
u and fiona got chance?
yvonne =) until then says:
or u think ah gong and fiona got better chance?
yvonne =) until then says:
are u gg to go for her?


I feel weird. I dont feel hungry. So not me.
When i think of you, i wonder what i'll see next.

Cant you be more sensible?

my sister is an idiot. she bathes while listening to music. she places her laptop just outside the toilet door. IDIOT!

next time she would probably bring her whole system to the toilet door.

Today has been a very shopping day.
Tang hoon and i went to cityhall and i bought MAMBO JAMBO! Woot.
The downside is that its mambo jambo 2007. Still! MAMBO!

Oh, and i bought burberry london.

I thought i've spent quite a lot.

Anyway, WEDNESDAY! MASSIVE MAMBO and survey work tomorrow with TTT.

JOIN the TTT FAN CLUB.

It rained yesterday( 22.02.09 ) and today (23.02.09). I miss those grey clouds and strong wind.
I ,too, have realise that i will never get married.
This is how i concluded my fate.

Me: Mommy, are you trying to say that i have a STEADY and boot ask me out for dinner, i cant go out with boot alone?

Mommy: OF COURSE NOT! you would definitely want to spend time with your STEADY alone and wont your girlfriend be jealous?

Me: But she's boot, she's my good friend.

Mommy: Still, then you should bring your STEADY to meet boot.

Me: Let's just picture that we're together for quite a while and my STEADY know who are my good friends.

Mommy: Nope, you should bring your girlfriend along. Later she'll feel jealous.

Me: So that means wherever i go, my STEADY must follow me?

Mommy: Yes

Daddy: Son, this is not true love. If its love, you guys would want to spend the weekends with each other.

Me: I swear to god i've no idea what just happened. Nvm. hahaha

*Steady(parents time) = girlfriend(my time)
*girlfriend(my time) = girlfriend(my time) equates to girl the friend(parent's time)

OMG!

LOVE ME NOT!





Enjoy!

i have no idea how i came across this website but i just did.
Have you ever wondered how was the calender invented or why is that 365 days and not 266 days whatsoever.

Ultimately, all calendars began with people recording time by using natural cycles: days, lunar cycles (months), and solar cycles (years).

The year is 365 days 5 hours 48 minutes 46 seconds long or 365.242199 days.

The time between full moons is 29.53 days.

The Ancient Egyptians are credited with the first calendar of 12 months, each consisting of 30 days, comprising a year. They added 5 days at the end of the year to syncronize somewhat with the solar year.

This should be interesting. The naming of the 12 mths.

January - ME Januari(us), OE Januarius, named after JANUS, god of beginnings.
February - ME OE Februarius from Latin Februarius, named for Februa, the feast of purification.
March - ME March(e), from Latin Martius, (month of) Mars.
April - ME Averil, OF Avril, Latin Aprilis mensis (month). The name may derive from the Greek goddess of love, Aphrodite.
May - ME OE Maius, Latin Maius mensis (month), from the Greek Maia, goddess of spring (growth).
June - ME Jun(e), OE Iunius, from Latin mensis Junius, named after the goddess Juno, Queen of the gods.
July - ME Julie, OE Julius, from Latin Julius (Caesar) after whom it was named in 44 BC. The original name was quintilis, fifth month in the early Roman calendar.
August - ME OE Agustus from Latin Augustus (Caesar) 8 BC. The original name was sextilis, sixth month in the early Roman calendar.
September - ME Septembre from Latin September, seventh month in the early Roman calendar
October - ME OE from Latin October, eighth month in the early Roman calendar
November - ME OE from Latin November, ninth month of the early Roman calendar, from novem NINE
December - ME Decembre from OF and Latin December, tenth month of the early Roman calendar (decem TEN + membri from mens MONTH + ri suffix).

Off to the movies to wang.
The whole of next week, i'll be super busy with enrollment stuff and partying. hahaha. Freedom.

ASHW, dont worry. time will fly.

I'm bringing ABBA into my car.WOOT!

Something so so gay.

Today has been a very lan day. Lan with mickey before dinner. Lan with mickey and jeremy after dinner. haha.
Todays dinner at taste of thailand was superb. $120 for 8-10 large portion of dishes shared by 10 bucks. Pretty decent. GOod service. Would come back again. hahaha
Tonight's dinner signifies the end of a 2 year national service and the beginning of a new road. Goodbye friends.

Anyway, i came back home with a surprise.

I recieved my ENROLLMENT PACKAGE!

I'm so excited because i'm going to open it NOW!

hello. its me again. It has been close to 2 weeks since i've gotten my pink ic and i am getting the hang of my life. slow and steady till april.

What's my plan for this friday and next week?

Fri- dinner with team 7
Tued- job with TTT
Wed- Shuk's mambo
thur- TTT driving.

So hopeful, by march, i will get a job as a scooper. Woot. NO MORE APEX!

FREEDOM!

Funny thing, i realise that i hate the sight of a messy room. Especially my bedroom. I've a "neatness" in me. Yea. NeaT!
I like to be in control, i love to be neat. Maybe, i have this complusion to be perfect. I forgot the term used on ppl who are super neat and has this power control issue. hahaha

Eh. tang hoon. treat it like a game and play well.

Penny: I'm a Sagittarius which probably tells you way more than you need to know...
Sheldon: Yes... it tells us that you participate in the mass cultural delusion that the sun's apparent position relevant to arbitrarily defined constellations at the time of your birth somehow affects your personality.
Penny: Participate in the what?

Watch Big Bang theory.

I swear if i could make it to such level. I'm god.hahaha

I'm off to bed. Didnt catch an afternoon nap which is goo btw.

Day 1 of an experiment.
Didnt really hit the quota of 5 but i got 2! It's a biggie.

Went to watch Slumdog millonaire with the NSmen (Alex,Barron,Clement n Mickey) and i heard about the so called corruption in one eighty! Wth clement. Go give dog fuck.

Today's plan did not work out.
Ok,
Early morning, i was suppose to head down to AMK Hub to do my stuff
Early afternoon, meet for movie and l4d before heading home for dinner.( STEAK! )
In between movie and l4d, i was suppose to head down to ben and jerry for a job application (which i did).

Now let's see how THE PLAN deviated.

Early morning was gone. I woke up late morning/early afternoon.
Had to rush down to PS. RV was at 1pm.
Afternoon's programme went smoothly.
It's a waste that i didnt get to do my stuff. DARN!
Steak was ok. tasted blend.

Omg, i'm suffer from post bkk fever. i set my alarm clock to 4am.

Random!

Eejun is that it?

Happy Valentine's Day! WJH and I have not been on a Vday date!. Sad yet true. Sob
Anyway, got back from bkk on the 13th with a fever. Goodness! I've the post bkk sickness. Jh has the pre bkk illness.

It has been hell of a time in bkk with wjh,boot,fiona and peepond.
All the shopping and food made us crazuy.

I will upload pictures as soon as possible and blog about the 4 days in BKK!

I'm off to bed to rest.

The third day since i've ord has been relatively happening and happy. I have been killing zombies and waiting to go to thailand for a holiday! WOOT. It is exactly 12 hours before i leave for the airport. hahaha.

When i'm back, i'll get a job. =D

WJH! you are such an ass. You refuse to dl brokeback mountain for me and i have to resort to watching it on youku which so happens to take a long time to stream. Now, i'm watching brokeback mountain on a humping motion. ASS!

BKK LOH!

BKK lo!!!! I wasnt expcting the day to come so fast. Jh and I are stillll packing our bags. Procrastinators. It is nice to go on a trip with my good friends. Jh, seems like we're all big boys who can fly without their parents. I love you WANG!

OK, i've decided to go for THE GAME!

I will start on the 16th of feb. Step by step, i conquer.

Mambo mambo.

Woot! My IC looks so great! I can definitely take a moment to savour the once-in-a-lifetime moment. It is time to run along kids. Woot!

With ample time before school starts in april, i should start looking for a job. In the meanwhile, i'm going back to BKK this tuesday. Funny thing, it feels like its a week or two later trip. JUnhao agrees with me. Learning from previous lesson, I'm going prepared and out to kill. Massage till my foot rots and back aches like mad. Hardcore.

Matriculation in march! all the way bitch. hahaha

OK, its time for me to go back to camp for ops 3 and ORD the nxt day.

I'll end my service with a thank you and god bless.

I'm screaming ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORDORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD.

WJH, I FEEL LIKE TEARING!

if the hero never comes to you, if yo need someone feeling blue. if youwait for love youll lost. if you call your friends nobodys home. you can cry away but you cant hide, through a storm and a lonely night. then i show you that theres a destiny. the best thin ing life, they are free. But if you wanna cry , cry on my shoulder if you need someone who cares for you. if your're feeling sad, your heart gets colder. yes i show you waht real love can do. if the sky is grey or let me know thaeres a place in heaven that we;ll go. if a heaven is a million years ahraead. or just call me and i'll jsut make your day . when the nights are getting colder than this , if the days are getting hot for you. i'll promise you. i'll never hide.

I've got back froma very long long day.Range in the morning followed by ops 2.
Today was my last or second last day of work before i ORD. At this point in time, i am feeling pretty sad. I cant bring myself to say goodbye to all the friends i've made during my service. They say ARMY teaches a boy to be a men.

Gave a dinner treat to my team.

Vitamin C - Graduation
Probably it'll help to explain what i'm going through.


1 day to ORD!

Dreams invade my head.
remove the grits in my eyes.

Finally, i am able to put into words why i like music soooo much.
Goodness! It took me years to put it into words.
I like music because i can RELATE to it.

It feels like music is telling my story, spreading to the masses. I want my voice to be heard.

So now, pls listen to my story.

Shayne ward - I Cry


I want to watch brokeback moountain

Got back from swim. So disappointing.

50m freestyle - 4th
50x4m freestyle - 2nd
COC freestyle - 2nd
100m freestyle - 2nd.

No medals for 2nd placing in relays. Sigh.
Argh. Screw the swim.
It was the last event for 180 before i leave on Friday.
Haiz. The feeling of dissapointment sucks.

I wonder will all the talk lead to something?
Goodbye my almost lover.

I wish the stars would be my bed and the moon, my pillow. Sigh

4 days to ORD!. Woot.

Today was very rush. I made 2 stupid moves.

1st stupid move.. I forgot my appt timing and i came 1hour 30 mins earlier. Stupid.

2nd idiotic thing to do was to travel all the way to work just for a ORD signature. KNS!.

haha.

Tomorrow is my swimming finals. I want to get at least silver or gold.

I got my ORD present from my dad TODAY! WOot. HTC TOUCH PRO! 01/02/09
Oh man, next 5days is so gonna fly past.
I've a swimming competition on the 3rd, range on the 4th and collectiing PINK IC on the 6th. Omg, memories of my bmt,jrc and asset course starts flooding back. Really shows how time flies and how valuable it is.
09/04/07-06/02/09

Wjh, you can celebrate my ORD by treating me to lan and movie.(I'm a simple guy)
Boot, you can celebrate for me by buying me an itouch! I promise i will speak coherently. haha
Fiona Tan, you can celebrate my ord by buying me movie.
All the chubis, you can celebrate for me by bringing me to mambos for free.
Gracia, you can buy me dinner!

haha.

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try
Not to wonder why

I wish I could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl)
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

Do you know how it feels to have friends you've known for 2 years ORD with you? Happy and sad. How do you know when you are happy? Probably the thought of something brings about a smile that lights through rainy days.
How do you know when you are sad? When you experience a sourish feeling right in the heart. I clearly know that a heart is just a muscluar mass and emotions are controlled by the frontal brain, still, why does the heart hurts when there is saddness?

Honestly, after i'm gonna ord. I dont think i'll be seeing the rest of the gang for a long time. Dont start talking about " Oh, no worries we can meet up soon". Those are just comforting parting words. Probably i'll see them AGAIN in years? Are human relationships so fragile/breakable? It really upsets me to slowly lose the friends i've known for 2 years. Haiz.

Wjh. I know what i miss. I miss the warmth, the hug, the love and the connection.

I MISS YOU.

-Beauty is common. it is something that you have or pay off. What counts is what you make yourself off. what counts is a great outlook and a great personality.-

180 anniversary celebration was held at CATHAY @ handy road. Screened the punisher. Trust me, the show is full of raw and gore stuff.
Followed by yusheng @ the lounge. I was surprise that i'll be recieving an ORD plaque because i never thought that ppl would actually care abt ord. I mean its like serve and fuck off? Well, i'm still grateful. Thank you.

It was left 4 dead with ppl after the event. While playing, a thought strike my mind.
I feel like i've not been in love for a long time. The whole process of dating, asking girls out and sending them home is kinda long ago. I miss the thrill of being kept in suspense(most of the time feeling weird). For the pst 2 years, i've been in company of guys and all of the sudden being in company with girls really sucks the lifesoul out of me. Tiring but FUN(placing emphasis). I like to go out on dates again, i would love to have a gf. Yea, i think it should be time. I should be optimistic.

Wjh, if any of the things i said does not make sense, slap me hard ok?

i was on leave for the past 2days. My parents follow suit. Slackers!
I;'ve been doing nothing at home besides watching tv.
Anyway, tomorrow(30th) 180 anniversary celebration. I was disappointed that we're not having a Dinner and Dance. I personally felt DnD would be a better choice.Whatever.

Last night's Mambo was unforgettable.
Met rendall koh and made a few new friends.

Just to sidetrack, after yest's mambo. I could finally put into words why i feel weird.
I like to take control of things(E.g what to do,eat,go,play) but when i'm lost, i'm really lost. I dont like the feeling of "anticipation" because it leads to 2 different extremes.
I really hope this goes well.
Weird. Simply weird.

I woke up with a triple eyelid on my right eye. haahaaha.
Looks like i have start off the new year on the right note.
So far, So far, everything has been going quite smoothly.
Hope it remains where it should be.

8 more days to BKK
15 days to Vday

Uh huh, ppl wouldnt believe how fun to have uncle junhao as their friend. Where do you find friends to go zombie killing with you on the 2nd day of New Year? Uncle Junhao. Where to find friends who tries to upset your stomach after a heavy dinner? Uncle Junhao. Where to find friends who is gonna share an ORD present? Uncle Junhao. Where to find friends who will make you laugh uncontrollably? Uncle Junhao. haha

To junhao's idea of happiness.
1.) When a guy ORD
2.) When a guy finally marries
3.) When a guy has his first born.
4.) When a guy gets laid?????

To MY idea of happiness.
1.) When a guy ORD
2.) When a guy finally marries
3.) When a guy has his first born.
4.) When a guy gets his friend an Ipod touch 8gb =D

9 more days to BKK

The start of a new year has been great. So far.

I got my desired parking lot *sign 1*
Started the year working out at FF *sign 2, good health*
Missed morning's tradition( on purpose ) *sign 3, signifies a good change in 2009*
Red packets under pillows *sign 4, wealth baby!*
Great time with my cousins, uncles and aunties *sign 5, a great relationship*
whatever i'm doing now *sign 6, a better year ahead*

Happy new year everyone.

And amos seah. All the best yea

Wjh! I must so blog.

I CAME BACK HOME WITH A CAR WASHED!

haha.

Anyway, wjh, thanks for the scheduler you bought me for my birthday. I've marked all important dates.

09/04/07-06/02/09
10/02/09-13/02/09 ~BKK
13/04/09-13/04/12 ~Graduation
11/01/08-10/11/09 ~WJH ORD!
11/11/2009 ~21st birtday
18/11/2009 ~21st birthday WJH.

I want to be in control this 2009.

Happy CNY EVE.

1day to CNY
12days to BKK

Just had reunion Lunch at Sakura!

Ok, Before CNY draws any nearer, a few restrictions.

1.) NO BINGE on BAK KWA
2.) NO Chocolate stuffing
3.) NO Soft drink substuition. Drink the original plain water.

I cant believe i ate so much during lunch. Horrible. haha.

Omg, Cant believe CNY is round the corner.

Left 4 dead! I want to play that awesome game. Having reunion lunch on the eve eve of Chinese New Year. How weird/cool is it. haha.

2 days to CNY
13 days to BKK!

Goodness. I have a shoe problem. Combed every single pedro outlet and still nothing in mind. Mickey, ek and I have been wandering town for the past week shopping for CNY clothes which proves to be extremely tiring. Joint aches!

Somehow, i'm in a joyous mood to celebrate CNY. It is a beginning to many things. Matriculation , school , friends and so much more. Not forget Bangkok trip in feb. =D

16 days to BKK!

Damn! I've just wasted unnecessary money.
Sucks to buy things on impulse. =(

Off to work.
2 weeks to BKK!

Follow my DREAMS,
LOVE will come around.

Anyway, I'm selling OAKLEYS!

1.) CANTEEN Polished black with RUBY Lens. - $300
2.) MONSTER PUP Matt black with RUBY Lens with GOLD icon. - $360

They are definitely brand new.
Prices negotiable.
81335179

I'm stuck at home watching tv series , killing time.

Oh boy, time to ord.

"No heavy exercises for 6 days.
Should running be considered as a form of heavy exercise?
Something for me to think about before i sleep."

3 weeks to BKK. (Eh! Wjh, i said BKK not ORD. Not being spiteful =D )

Barron craves for food.

tau huay
bbq chic
fried chic
bbq hotdogs
nuggets
ice cream

He cant eat those stuff because he had his 2nd wisdom teeth surgery.
His blogging with his right hand and the other, holding an ice pack.
Sucks to be me.

COSCOM Swimming Heats 2009:

1. 1500m (30Laps)
2. 1x100m
3. 1x50m

Thought i could skip this year's swimming event. Damn

I have spent many sleepless nights thinking about ending a 22mths long chapter.
It is so hard to brace the fact that its going to be over.
I feel liberated, I feel happy, I feel excited yet I'm sad.
I wish, i wish i could feel myself.

I suck at rationalizing my emotions.
haha.

Woot. 4 more weeks to BANGKOK!.

It's a brand new year , a fresh start awaits. What brings joy to this new year would be the completion of National Service. I swear, it is a life changing experience. From 06/02/09 onwards, i will look back and be absolutly grateful for the friends i've made and the experience gained.

I'm glad things are in order.