Whoa! Should I even have a blog?

It has been WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too long. And sometimes I yearn to blog, but then I come up with ideas why not to. (No time, must play with baby. Must change diaper. I need a nap) I want to blog, but I feel like I no longer have it in me. Though I do occasionally write in my private journal, instagram and fbook, I know there's so many details not being documented or noticed. I have not kept up with technology, my blog is so 2008... I don't know any cool blog tricks... I have literally been hiding in a hole, with my baby and sometimes Tanner. Not really, but sometimes it really feels that way. My poor child. I honestly enjoy being home, and since we currently live in an apt complex, and I HATE socializing, we mostly stay inside. I need to be better.

Update on motherhood....
I love being a mom. It definitely hasn't been all about looking cute, baby being a great accessory, lots of snuggling... But I have learned to run on 3 hrs of sleep, change diapers in the dark, nurse while laying down(this one took forever to learn), nurse anywhere and everywhere, insert a suppository, lick baby food off of things, be ok with poop on the hands. I can probably go on and on.... These first 8 months have been very educational. It has been tiring, stinky, full of aches, and extremely rewarding. I live for that smile he gives when I walk into his room. He's such a sweet boy! He is full of whines but oh how I love him!

 

Life

 

 

Been feeling like this lately. Wish I looked this cute though!

Getting out of bed, or should I say rolling out, has been a little harder then usual.

Pregnancy is such a mystery! You never know what your body is going to look like next. My belly button has been threatening to become an outtie but has yet to show its face. Its been on the surface for over 5 weeks, any day now Tanner says.

I am so grateful for this experience (pregnancy) and for it happening now, at this time in life. Life hasn't been any easier but it has been beautiful and rewarding. Sometimes I stop and wonder if we should have waited longer but I quickly say no. Baby boy isn't even here and he has taught me so much. I am learning to sacrifice, I am definitely learning to be humble and already losing sleep!

I love my baby so much and I pray to be the best mama for him.



(napping piggy from our adventure at Austin Zoo)

my little baby bump

I figured I would blog my preggo photos on my blog, for those who are interested & not to bombard those on facebook who are simply tired of seeing bellies & baby photos attack their news feed.

It's been hard keeping up with doing belly pics. Mostly because I HATE how I look- fat angles, bad hair, blah, blah...  Im not photogenic & don't have someone to position me! Tanner just tells me how great & beautiful I always look. And well that is really sweet of him, but seriously, I can't ALWAYS look beautiful! haha and then I look at the photos he took & delete them all lol. Poor guy! but here are the photos I look semi decent in!

I am currently 28 weeks & such a cow! I am putting on them pounds like crazy!
Baby boy is soooo active & I am so in love! I simply cannot get over how much of a miracle it is to have a living being inside of me! I get so emotional! I wish I could see him already though I would like to keep him cooking for as long as possible.

At 15 weeks our doctor told us it looked like we were having a boy! We waited til 24 weeks to make sure it really looked like one, though we already had accepted in our minds that he was "he".  We are over joyed for another Fullmer boy in the family!!

My cute grandma gave me this little baby boy doll... She's so cute!

So Much

 (upside down sonogram of baby- 10 weeks)

 

(15 weeks)

 

this year has been full of adventures and there is so much to be grateful for.

First off, I must say I am extremely grateful for our precious little miracle. Everyday I am so amazed at what a miracle it is to have a little baby, my baby, living inside of me! Our Heavenly Father never ceases to amaze me. (amaze/ed/ing is obviously the word of the day...) I continuously just think of Baby growing inside of me and how not too long from now will be in my arms. And I will give Baby kisses, all day, everyday.
I am grateful for my beliefs- to know who I am and my purpose in life. I know I am not alone & the great strength that gives me!
I am grateful for my husband! He is such a hard worker and I always feel his great love for me, Baby and all things in life. How he gives me foot massages, organizes our room and never complains about my lazy days. Tanner is my best friend, my favorite person who never gives up on me. Him & I have created together and that just makes our love stronger than ever.
There is so much in life that Tanner & I have been blessed with, with goodly parents who raised us, love us and til this day continue to support us. I really love our parents and am grateful for their amazing example.

 

baby baby

I've been in a crazy crochet mood...
Maybe it's the fact that I don't do much/home all day? Or that I have adorable nieces & a nephew?
Today I finished 2 penguin hats for newborn twins, cute. I'll share tomorrow :)

J BooG

Baby's 1st concert
A couple of months ago I randomly decided to see if  J Boog was playing anywhere near us in Texas. And to my surprise they would be playing in San Antonio Nov 7! Tan has been a good sport going to concerts with me and my brother in law for random artists and I just wanted him to see one of his favs in concert. I am sooooo happy we did this! I was a little worried that it was going to be in a bar because smoking & what not but "no smoking"! And I wondered if me and my "handicap" body could handle it! To my surprise I only sat down for the last 20 mins of 3 1/2 hrs! We did lots of dancing & singing! We enjoyed all three bands that played but especially enjoyed Hot Rain & J Boog. We also were excited to be around polynesians! Haha!
 Waiting on the rain by J Boog